M-Chan: o.k. Here's the next chapter…

Astro: Yes, after she decided to get off her lazy ass and type it.

M-Chan: Shut up… although she is right

Astro: then why don't you get started?

M-Chan: I will just got to do the disclaimer. Ok I'm sick of doing this so this disclaimer shall count for the rest of my chapters.

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Disclaimer – I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho and I never will.

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If Things Were Real

Chapter 10 – Finally!

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The last couple of days have not only been awkward, but they've been just plain weird. I haven't talked to anyone since the phone call I made. I guess I've just been in shock. As I made a point before, I haven't dated that many people and I'm only sixteen; how the hell should I know if I'm in love? That's what marriage is based on. Marriage, mating, what the difference? As Amanda pointed out there isn't much difference at all.

Keiko tried to talk to me once but alas, nothing happened. She doesn't know. No one knows, and personally I'd rather keep it that way. Honestly what would everyone think if they found out?

Let's try to avoid that subject shall we? Nothing new has happened. Yusuke is trying to get on my case about training to get stronger. Yes, lets go train when all I'm supposed to do is purify a jewel. Wow, if that doesn't sound like Inuyasha than I don't know what does. Honestly though, the mission is coming up soon, which is kinda scary, but I'm more worried about is after the mission. I do feel something for Hiei. I don't know if I'll want to leave. Wow, I have become attached to his place. Oh, my god; that can't be a good thing… or maybe it could be…

I have to talk to him. I mean I know everything about him. Weather he realizes it or not. Of course that goes the same for everybody in this house. Curse my brain and my perfect anime memory. Well, almost perfect. Maybe if I can just find out where he is at the moment. Duh, I know where he is, sitting in "his" tree on the other side of his yard. There is no way in seven hells that I'm going to pass Yusuke, Kurama, and everyone else and get the million questions they have been dying to ask me. Most of them concerning, me locking myself in my room for the last two days. The window. Of course I'll pull a Hiei.

I quickly unlocked the window and jumped out. I landed softly on the ground below. I stood up steadily and started toward the tree. What would I say? What is there to talk about? I'm about to find out. I know that he knows that I'm coming. Ya know, him being a telepath and all. I knew I was right when he came out of the tree to greet me.

"The great Hiei actually moved to greet someone" Yeah I was kind of in a bit of a bad mood. "I suppose there is a first time for everything." He said nothing. Big surprise. "I'm I just going to talk to myself?" Again no answer. After a few minutes I just started to pretend that he wasn't there. Therefore resulting in me talking to my self. "What was I thinking? Mating? I knew that no one could even think about liking me that way. I mean who could like me? I'm the baka onna from down the street."

That hit him. I don't know why, I call myself a stupid bitch all the time. Although maybe it's the fact that his 'mate' just poked fun at herself, when if anyone else would say that about me he would probably start reaching for his sword. Then why am I having fun with his? Oh yeah I love torture. Now the question, should I keep going? If this was any other guy I would say yes, but this is Hiei. Although I'm in one of those moods where I could bite someone's head off in like, three seconds for no reason, usually resulting in me pissing someone off.

"Again, no talking. How I'm going to find out how I got faster" Yes that happened a few days ago, but I was still thinking about it. " Let's see, I could ask Kurama. He knows a lot. Or ya know maybe Yukina would know. I mean she is your sister" I think by know he noticed what I was up to. I wasn't exactly like I was talking to him nicely. On the contrary, I was lucky I hadn't spat every word at him. I felt bad though. It wasn't his fault I was so mad. Oh, god the guilt spread.

"I'm sorry" I started. Trying to gain some maturity back. I was acting like a child before."ImeanIdid'tknowaboutmatingthenamandatoldmeandIgotscared.IthinkI'mwaytoyoungbuthonestlyI'mnotsure." Dang I talk fast when I'm nervous. And judging by the look on his face he hasn't a clue what I said.

"I mean I didn't know about mating, then Amanda told me and I got scared. I think I'm way to young but honestly, I'm not sure," I repeated so he could actually understand me. I stared walking away, still knowing squat. As I started walking I felt a little hurt that he didn't stop me. How many words has he spoken to me? I felt my anger rising as I entered the house through the back door. On the way in I bumped into Kurama.

"Jessi, your out of your room and out side" he said looking over at Hiei. That was strange. Hiei was right Kurama did know something, because that made no sense otherwise.

"Kurama…" Now what to say that would really confuse him oh, yeah. "Just… go lose to a dead guy!" I stormed back upstairs, cursing at myself. I was half way upstairs when I realized; I didn't want to be here. At least not in this house.

I went back downstairs and grabbed some money off a near by ledge. I made a mental note to pay back who ever the money belonged to. I walked outside and looked at the near by city. I started running. As fast as I could. Away from everything: Hiei, training, the mission. Right now, none of that existed. I only concentrated on the city in front of me. It was one of those spontaneous actions. One of those you know you just have to do in order to feel better, or just to blow off steam. In my case? Both.

I didn't stop running until I got to the city. When I did stop I felt somewhat better. I slowly walked along the busy streets. I really had no clue what city I was in. Tokyo, Kyoto, Osaka, who knows. All I know is the city is pretty big. And… I'm already bored. At least it's better then being stuck in that house. I wonder if they have an English bookstore. I need something to read in my spare time. People shuffled along side me as I continued down the street. Nothing caught my eye. I don't know why, but somehow this all seemed familiar, I couldn't put my finger on it though. Not just the few sites that I saw with Yusuke and Keiko, but everything. This just made no since, but recently, nothing has.

Shoes. Clothes. More places I don't want to stop in. I'm seriously considering if this is better than the house. All I'm hearing are a bunch of different words. Japanese words. Nothing I can understand, of course. I heard a bell tone near by and I turned to see teens, most older then me, filter out of a near by school. I should be grateful, with all the school I'm missing. Come to think of it I should be more grateful for a lot of things. I mean the mission I'm about to go on is amazing. Something I thought could never happen. And I have a mate, Hiei of all people. I shouldn't be made at anything. Overall I should be surprised. Surprised that someone like him chose me.

I found a park, and grabbed myself a swing. I sat down and just rocked a little. I started thinking. About nothing in particular just… stuff. I saw even more people pass as I sat there nearly motionless. No matter how much I tried to avoid him, I couldn't get my mind off him. Why, why do I have to think about him, almost all the time? God what is wrong with me?

"You love him" I heard I voice said. I looked around and saw no one. "I'm in your head," the voice continued.

'How do you know that I love him' I thought as I closed my eyes.

"It's all in your heart"

'Who are you?'

"The one who loved him"

'Jana?'

"Yes. And do not worry for him. He does love you. I have to admit he really rushed into things."

'Why are you telling me this'?

"Because you need to know something, you need advice. I let evil take my soul and I couldn't control myself.

'What are you talking about?'

"You knew that Hiei killed me, but you do not know why. You see Hiei and I have a history. We were together. And I thought I loved him. I might have. I will never know. Like I said I let evil take over me and I attacked him, and got killed in the process. I don't even know if he really meant to kill me. I was weak, I let the evil take over me then I let my self get killed. I just don't want you to be weak like I did.

'I'm sorry'

"For what?"

'I thought you yourself were evil. I now know better. So I give you my apologies'

" No need for apologies. Look out for yourself, Jessica. If you ever need help, I'll always be here"

'Before, you said he loved me, how do you know?'

"His eyes. Even for the short amount of time you knew him for, I'm sure he loves you. Stare into his eyes when you speak to him. Then, some how, you'll be able to see how he feels for you. And always remember look in your heart if you're ever unsure."

I opened my eyes and sighed. I stood back up. She wasn't so bad. In fact she's a lot like me. 'Thank you Jana' I thought as I started walking. My life. I had someone to count on know. Someone I can turn to… I hope. But, I still know nothing about what I'm supposed to do. I need to ask someone. I can't ask Hiei like I planned, no that would be way to embarrassing. No, I need to ask someone who will know a lot, someone I can ask who won't be surprised…

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"Kurama" I said kindly. As I saw him in the other room. He looked up.

"Yes?"

"I need to ask you something"

"What?

"Look" I started sitting next to him. "I know you know something going on between me and Hiei" he grinned and by the looks of it had to stop himself from laughing.

"Yes I did know something was going on, I just wasn't sure"

"You didn't tell anyone. Did you?" I asked nervously

"No"

"Good. Now please do me the favor and tell me what the hell you do after you mate with someone" he got a shocked look on his face.

"Your not thinking about mating with him, are you?"

"Just answer the question."

"There really is not much to it. The person you mate with, you stay with forever. It's a connection of love and trust."

"Interesting. Would the connection do anything else to the two people?"

"For some demons, the two may share common traits"

"Like height and speed"

"Possibly"

"Kurama, I trust you and I know that Hiei trusts you so I'm going to tell you this"

"O.k."

"We're already mated" Yup that surprised him. Major. The look on his face was so funny; this time I had to stop myself from laughing. He fell off the chair. Literally. After a few minutes of shock he sat back down.

"Oh…I see"

"I need your advice. I mean you lived as a normal human, you know what it's like. What do you propose I do? I mean I'm sixteen, and already mated. That's not gonna look good where I come from."

"Do you love him?" I have to decide now. Yes or No? I kissed him first, and I could have stopped him from marking me…

"Yes"

"Then nothing else should matter" I stared at him.

"Thanks Kurama. I can see how Hiei gets along with you"

"Most of the time" we both started laughing. Personally that reminded me of when the gang was at the dark tournament and Kurama would lay a few lines about Hiei and Yukina. At that point Yusuke walked in.

"We're leaving soon" He said. And now I think I'm ready.

"Finally!" I yell as I quickly stand up.

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M- Chan: Okay, there you go. It took me forever to type, I don't know why though…

Astro: Because you kept stopping and watching T.V.

M-Chan: Why are you always right? Especially because whenever we we type 'Blood Through the Ages' your always the hyper one.

Astro: Dunno …

M-Chan: Here's some stuff for the next chapter…

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The mission has finally started, but imagine, 4 guys and 1 girl. Jessi feels a little out of place. Not that the fact that she is a girl. More of the fact that the guys get along so well. They sort of have to given their history… On a more important note Hiei opens up to Jessi more and there love is tested to see if they should really be together.

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M-Chan: There you go. Look out for the next chapter.

R&R