Winter Of A Heart
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Ramble: Okay, I slacked off a bit. I'm sorry. But I posted another chapter and two other stories so hopefully that makes up for me not writing. I will try to make it long, but we all know I'm not exactly the best at that. Oh well. Here goes. (Oh, and if you didn't know, I'm English, so my spelling might be different that yours)
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Jack woke up. It was still dark outside. His body was hurting again, but he wanted to get out of bed. He knew he really shouldn't be walking, but he didn't want to wake Sam. He walked quietly into the kitchen, got some water, and went in the living room to go sit. As he crept into the living room, he saw Sam, curled up in a ball, fast asleep on the sofa. He smiled, sighed, and went to go sit on the chair on the opposite side of the room. They sat in silence, before Sam started crying in her sleep. Jack went over to her.
"No… Mum… please, no… God, help me. Jack… no…" She was sobbing.
Jack had jumped at the sound of his name. She was dreaming about him?
"Better wake her up. Not fair to keep her in this state." He thought.
Jack gently pulled away the stray wisps of hair on Sam's face, and caressed her delicate face softly with his thumb.
"Shhh… it's okay, Carter. I'm here."
Her eyes snapped open.
"Ja- Sir. Wh-what are you doing up? Is it time to go? Why did you wake me up? Is something wrong?" Words just spilled out of Sam.
"Go? Go where?" Jack asked.
"Oh. I guess I didn't tell you…"
"Ya think." Jack said, smiling
"Sir, Dr. Frasier gave me a call last night and she said that I need to take you in. They think they've found the cause for all these blackouts and they've located where it is. They need to, well…" Sam trailed off.
"They need to operate." Jack said.
"Janet said that it was kinda like a chip thing. It's in the side of your right lung. She saw it on your x-ray when she was going over it again. I have to agree that it was strange that you were blacking out from just emotional troubles."
"You don't know the half of it." Said Jack, under his breath, remembering that she was the cause. He smiled as he looked at her. For now, she was his.
Sam nodded. "Sorry, Sir –"
"Carter, I told you, I'm Jack when we're not on base. And before you say it, I'll stop calling you Carter, too." He smiled, and swayed. His eyes fluttered.
"It's not good for you to be up so late. Why don't you camp out down here for now? We have to get up in a few hours anyway. You can have my "bed", I'll sleep on the floor with a couple pillows…"
Jack looked at her, sadly. He realized this was possibly his one chance, and he couldn't loose it.
"Why don't we watch a video or something? As you said, we only have a few hours, and why waste it on trying to go back to sleep?" Jack suggested.
"Sounds great."
Sam sat back down next to Jack after putting the movie into the player. There was a slight awkward moment, Jack breaking it by resting his arm loosely around Sam's shoulders. She looked up into his warm, dark eyes and smiled. She leaned into him, and eventually drifted off to sleep.
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Sam woke up at 6.00 in the morning. She found herself nestled against Jacks warm chest, his arms around her, and hers around his body. She smiled.
"I have got to do something. I can't live like this." But she pushed those thoughts away. For once, she didn't care that she was going to be late getting to the base, or the "what ifs" and what rules she would break. She was happier than she had been in a while, right here in his arms. She lifted her head slightly, and although she was a bit afraid he would wake up, she kissed him softly on his lips. She smiled, and snuggled back down. But she hadn't known he was awake.
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They both woke up (again) by the sound of the phone ringing. They had discovered the position they were in, and Sam started blushing. Jack just smiled. He remembered what she had done earlier on, and he took his chances. He leaned down, because they hadn't moved from each other's arms, and kissed her tenderly on the lips. He felt her respond, and push against his mouth. She was allowed to let her tongue explore his mouth, and in return, let hers be explored. The phone was forgotten. Jack, although reluctant, pulled away.
"I-I'm sorry Sam. I shouldn't have done that to you. Aw, dammit. I've screwed up." He sighed, and started to pace the room. He was getting that feeling again. "I know how you have Pete, and you're getting married soon, and that –" again, it was all too much for him to take. Jack, once again, blacked out. Sam ran to his side.
"Don't be sorry," she said, "You've helped me realize."
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"Well, bringing him here was a good idea, Sam. You did the right thing. " Janet said. She could tell that something had (finally) happened between the two, but she wasn't about to ask Sam now. Sam would be confused enough as it is.
"What the hell is she going to do about Pete?" Janet thought. She knew that, even though Sam did love Jack, she also had quite strong feelings for Pete. After all, she did say yes to his proposal.
Sam just nodded in response. She smiled weakly at Janet, before walking off to her office. It had been only two weeks since she had been here, but everything seemed different. She slumped down in her chair, and had a staring contest with the wall to bide time. It won. Knowing that she couldn't put it off forever, and knowing that even though she loved Pete, she couldn't go through with this wedding. She picked up the receiver, and dialed his number.
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"Jack… Jack, are you gonna wake up now?"
"This seems familiar." Jack thought.
He opened his eyes a crack. There was hardly any light, and in a matter of seconds, he could see who he was talking to.
"Daniel?"
"Yeah. Hi. How ya doing?" Daniel asked.
"How'd ya think?" Jack turned over on his side, and cursed when he felt the shooting pain up his right side.
"Oh God." Daniel thought, "Sam gets to babysit when he's actually in a good mood, but I get him when he's grumpy! He's going to be worse when I tell him about Sam…"
"Where am I? And where's Sa…Carter?" Jack grumbled. He didn't know why he was in such a bad mood.
"You're not making this easy Jack. Listen, you've just woken up. You've been asleep for about 3 days since your operation. I brought you home. Before we talk about Sam, you need to understand that your body is not used to functioning without that alien thing. You have to stay in bed for a while and built up your strength. Hammond made it an order, and if you misbehave I will have to call him." Daniel said, thinking he sounded like his mother. "As for Sam… well, no one's seen her since she brought you back to the SGC. But we did find that she called Pete and cancelled the wedding. She said she just couldn't do it."
Jack was silent. She was gone? He felt tears burning the backs of his eyes, but refused to let Daniel see. He turned over and stared at the wall.
"I'm going to be here for the next couple weeks with you. You're on medical leave for a couple weeks because of your operation, but I'm not. I'll be working on my laptop. Give me a call if you need anything, okay?" Daniel said. He was concerned about Jack. He knew that he loved Sam, and, according to Janet, Sam seemed to have realized her feelings. But she was "missing", and Daniel knew he wouldn't be able to get through to Jack, and that would only make him sicker.
Jack heard his bedroom door shut. Where was she? Why hadn't she come back to take care of him?
"God, please let her be okay. Please, please, please. I love her."
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Sam had shut herself in her bedroom. The phone had rang several hundred times, probably from the SGC to ask where the hell she was. Her answering machine went off again, but this time she listened to the message, having nothing better to do.
"Hello, Major Carter. It's General Hammond. I know you may be going through some… difficult moments, so I'm allowing you to stay off work for as long as you need to get back on track. Oh, and Jack has just woken up. I hope you feel better soon, Sam. He's going to need you around. Good-bye."
Sam smiled through her tears. She was so confused. She had just broken off her wedding, and she realized that she really was in love with her CO. She also realized that Jack's actions were because of the alien thing in his body. Janet had said it was like a drug. Sam knew that they could never really be together. She was also devastated about her and Pete. She had been so stupid. But it was too late now. He wouldn't want her back after she had just dumped him and thrown their future out the window. She curled up on her bed, and cried herself to sleep.
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A/N: Uh oh! Lol. Well, there was some Sam/Jack for you. Will be more, don't worry. I enjoy it as much as you guys. Please review!
