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Now enjoy your chocolate while you read this new chapter =)… I must tell you that I went through quite controversial moments and many conflicting thoughts to decide how to write this chapter or what to write in this chapter… so I'm really sorry if I messed up somehow! Anyway hope you like it cause I did my best just for you!!
To know, to trust and to believe
Kenshin's POV
I felt my eyes widen in shock and at the same time I forced myself not to let my mouth hang open. "Oro…" it was the only stupid thing I could articulate after such news… my heart believed it to be true but my mind didn't.
Her eyes were pleading for my silence and my readiness. There was more to come. I couldn't bring myself to disbelieve her and at the same time I couldn't bring myself to believe her. I composed myself as quick as I could. After all she did say it was going to be a strange and long story…
"I…" she stumbled "I know this sounds crazy… but believe me… after I'm finished it will sound much crazier or maybe… not…"
I nodded in acceptance and waited for her to continue.
"Remember when you first met me and I had this weird reaction to you? I said things that seemed incoherent and I was dressed in a weird way…" I nodded 'I could I forget the day I met you Kaoru-dono… that day changed my life.' I decided to keep the thought for myself.
"Well you see, if you look through my point of view, you'll realize it was not that incoherent and not that weird. In the future… no… in my present, your future, people dress those kinds of clothes. Remember when I told you about that jogging thing? Well people do jogging for sport or fun… jogging is… uh… lets say running, but running for pleasure most of the times or it can also be an exercise." She stopped to regain her breath 'Oro… I'm so confused!' "Anyway that day we met I had this discussion with my father because he engaged me with some prick. He didn't care that I didn't like Atsu… oh no! The only thing he seems to care is the money that wedding might bring to him…" she dropped her head in anger whipping her tears furiously away. It broke my heart seeing her like that but somehow her emotions showed that her story wasn't a lie, on the contrary for awkward it may be her emotions only proved her sanity. No person out of his mind could tell such a story and at the same time show the emotion she was showing so perfectly and her ki only proved her emotions to be true. 'Even though it's strange!' the battousai wasn't going to let me go for it so easily and I knew…
"Uhm… I decided to skip everything I had to do that day including my kendo class to go jogging down to the beach… it always makes me feel better… jogging that is! So I did went to the beach, precisely on those clothes you first saw me with." When I entered the room I noticed the clothes lying around somewhere "I swam during a little while… sea water can be so calming. After all the jogging and the swimming I got tired so I fell asleep in the sand…" she made a full stop. I noticed she wasn't sure of what to say next so I tried to encourage her with a meaningful look.
"You see…" she shook her head "I still don't understand… but I had a dream… about my mother… I don't remember all of it at least not the dialogue… just images… it was strange… somehow it seemed so true… something that happened long ago…" she took a deep breath and closed her eyes "When I woke up the sun was beginning to set… I had slept through lots of hours… I still don't know how… but anyway… the first thing I noticed was that I was burned from the sun… it was strange cause after so many ours in the sun… a strong sun too… not being burned, red or at least tanned by it, was very strange." She reopened her eyes. "I left the beach and at the beginning I didn't believe my eyes… people were dressing weird out of fashion clothes… there was a harbor in the beach with wooden ships… first I thought it was the scenery for some movie and that's why I thought you were an actor… cause you too were dressed in old fashioned clothes… but cutting to what matters. I run to where my house was supposed to be and when I got there instead of a house, was that forest or wood… I caught quite a shock… I think I got quite lost there and I ended up testing my sanity when I hit my head against a tree. I thought it was all a dream… so I didn't think I was going to actually feel anything. I hit the tree as hard I could that moment… so hard I actually hurt myself and fainted."
My jaw dropped… so she had actually made that wound to herself?! That was a self-inflicted wound? 'Kami… ororororoooo! I'm sooooo very much confused!!!'
"From there you know what happened… you found me and you took care of me… and I'm grateful for that…" she opened my hand and deposited the strange object "That's called a digital watch. It gives the hours and some other things. See?" she pointed the numbers shining on the… watch?
"A digital watch?" I didn't remembered watches being like that!
"Hai… I know the watch you're used to see are not even close to this one but if you pay attention it's showing the correct hours…" she touched a button "And also today's date… this watch is one of the many strange things from where I come from…"
"Kaoru-dono… this is most… un…" I was cut off.
"Unbelieveble?! That's it, isn't it? That's what you were going to say, wasn't it?" she got up and gave me a desperate look "I knew it! I shouldn't have told you… you must think that I'm crazy by now…" tears started to fall down her cheeks, I got up and try to wipe them but she slapped my hand off letting me astonished.
"Kaoru-dono… please…" she cut me once again.
"Shut up… Shut up! I don't want to hear it Kenshin! You promised! You said you'd believe me…" I tried to approach her… she stepped back "But come to think of it… it isn't you're fault Kenshin… it truly isn't… I shouldn't have put you through this kind of situation… I was a fool… I…" more tears were spilled "Gomen… Gomen nasai Kenshin…"
She turned around and tried to exit the room… I was completely taken aback but I had to react and fast…
Kaoru's POV
I felt his hand grab my fist. First he grabbed it lightly but as I tried to free myself his grip became harder.
"Kaoru-dono… stop…"
I didn't care… I just wanted to disappear. I tried once more to free myself "Let me go…" he didn't let go… his grip grew harder and I started to whimper… his eyes had the amber color…
"Will you stop struggling?" he asked harshly.
"No… let me go Kenshin…" with my free hand I hit him on the shoulder…
In a matter of seconds he had me pinned against the nearest wall. One of his hands was grabbing both my wrists and his own body maintained me pinned against the wall.
"Will you listen to me?" his eyes begun to change color once again, back to their violet sweet one "Will you Kaoru-dono?"
Instead of an answer I cried even harder… how could I let him speak? He didn't believe me… I had been a fool and I was frustrated.
"I believe you…" his voice came in an unsure whisper. Although it was unsure he did have my attention.
I looked at him… I focused on his simple and sweet eyes…
"I do believe you, Kaoru-dono." This time his voice was trust filled and he was very sure of himself.
"Nani…?" I… couldn't believe it… this time I just couldn't trust my ears…
"Sessha promised… promised to believe… and sessha does believe…" he spoke gently and his grip on my wrists lightened a lot… I almost didn't feel it.
"Uhm… Kenshin… you don't need to say that just to make me feel better… I understand if you don't believe…" I still don't know what I was thinking when I tested him again… I mean… I was more then convinced that he believed me… but still…
His grip tightened once again, his eyes became desperately amberish… I felt so afraid… that moment I didn't saw Kenshin I would saw the battousai. I had defied his word and he hadn't liked it.
"What can I do for you to trust me?" he said in an almost inaudible grunt.
I chocked out some incomprehensible words, not even I understood myself. Tears once again came sulking down my already salty and puffy face.
One minute I closed my eyes to try to regain my composure, the other minute I felt his warm lips crushed against mine.
'Oh my… what is he doing?!' this was the first thought that came to me. Soon after I freed my hands and unconsciously they found their way around Kenshin's neck.
I was unable to think just to feel, feel the warmth of his body, feel his gentle lips and his arms around my waist.
"Autie Kao-chan!!!"
We broke apart, flushed and embarrassed.
"I…" we said at the same time.
"Autie Kao-chan!!!" she peeked inside my room "There you are…"
I made my way to her "What do you want squirt?"
"I want to go for a walk and nii-chan and grandpa are occupied… so I was thinking…"
"I'll go with you… Now you go ahead I have to tell Kenshin something…"
"Hai!" with that she took off.
I turned around to face Kenshin. "I…" I was cut off.
He bowed "Gomen nasai… I shouldn't have done that…"
"Kenshin… it wasn't just you…"
"Kaoru-dono, sessha is really sorry… and sessha just wanted to say that it won't happen again… It shouldn't have happened in the first place…" at his last sentence I felt my heart shatter but I didn't pay any attention to that… some other time perhaps.
"I know…" he had used the sessha thing on purpose… I had fully understood… "But if you apologized to me then I'll apologize to you too… Gomen nasai Kenshin."
I walked for the shoji "Oh… Arigato gozaimasu…" he looked at me confused "For believing me, for keeping your promise." I exited the room and went to meet the hyper excited Myu-chan but I couldn't help myself but to feel that it had been so right, that kiss… 'Gosh… he's a good kisser…' I started to giggle although I felt pretty messed up with all that had happened 'A stroll will be good to clear my mind up.'
Kenshin's POV
I stood there in her room looking spacing out. My hand on my lips… I couldn't help but to feel them burning. 'Kami she's sweet…' I sighed and got out to continue what I had left pendent 'Wait! What in the world am I thinking?! She's not meant for me… I'm unworthy of her and that's final! Besides if she manages to get back to… her time…' it still felt weird to think something like that… but the truth was that I truly believed it… even though I didn't want to finish the thought… 'If… oh Kami… I won't ever see her again…' my heart was aching but I knew what I had to do… I had to help her get back… back to where she belonged. I continued mourning over that while I did the laundry. 'Oh stop mourning you baka!' the battousai made his appearance 'I mean… you just kissed her!', 'Yeah and I shouldn't have done that! Sessha doesn't deserve Kaoru-dono…' I sighed once again… how I found difficult to say that… 'Oh shut up! Your not gonna tell me that you didn't like it! I mean you can't… cause I liked it… so you liked it too and don't go and give me that unworthy crap thing!' with that he actually manage to make him stop mourning and somehow managed to break a little, but only a little my unworthy ideal.
Kaoru's POV
We were going for a stroll by the little lake near the village. A minute ago I was holding her hand somehow she got free and was now running ahead of me picking flowers. I stopped and looked at her… 'Kawai… she makes me remember myself with her age…' I giggled 'I'm going to miss her… if I get to go back… maybe when I marry and have kids I'll call the first girl I'll have Myuki…' but when I realized my thought… 'Like… I'm not marrying anyone except…' I blushed 'Kenshin… at least for love I won't!' my eyes saddened 'But… oh this is so confusing! First he did say that the kiss shouldn't have happened… probably he thinks I'm crazy or something like that! I mean… he only said that because he doesn't like me… not like I like him… and then there's the fact that even if he did I'm still from another time and sooner or later I'll go back… and then…' I stopped dead in my tracks 'I'll never see him again… OH THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING!'
"Auntie Kao-chan?" Myu-chan was pulling my kimono, trying to get my attention.
"Uh?" I looked down at her.
"Daijobu?"
"I okay sweet heart. Why do you ask?"
"Cause you spaced out!" she started to smile wickedly. I shivered.
"What are you smiling at, squirt?"
"You!"
"Why?"
"Cause I bet you were thinking about Uncle Kenny!"
I blushed "Is that so? Why do you say that?" I started to tickle her.
"Cause you were blushing!" she said between laughs then she started to run away from me and I went after her happily and feeling more relaxed.
'Arigato Kami… I really needed to relax…'
Me: Well!!! I have an announcement to make! This Friday I'm going to Mozambique and I won't be able to write for two whole weeks… --prays in hope the readers won't kill me--anyway…. I'll try (attention on the TRY, T-R-Y) to write another chapter before Friday… so if I don't write again until then I hope you manage to live throughout the two weeks without reading my story! And PLEASE don't kill me! Blame it on my dad! He was the one that marked these two week holidays to this date! I'll leave you with these two questions: Will Kaoru ever get back? What is going to happen between Kaoru and Kenshin now that they have kissed? - the answers will surely be on the next near chapters… I just want to leave you guys dying to know the answers =P
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