Chapter 3: The whereabouts of happiness
Suzuka looked at the clock it read 3:30 am she couldn't sleep again, it was odd she never had trouble sleeping before, she stared at the ceiling, counting the tiles, its something she had been doing these past few nights into the late hours, trying to sleep.
However even when she managed to let the feeling of sleep take over her, the dreams that plagued her mind were of image she did not understand, they ranged from images of death and destruction to images of an erotic nature about a certain red haired outlaw.
Then there were the dreams about her past, the things she didn't want to remember but she did remember non-the less. Yes it was late but she couldn't stop herself from thinking, playing things over in her mind, what people would say, reactions, she was even singing songs in her head any thing but sleep seemed to cross her mind.
She looked at the clock again it read 5:30 am two hours had passed it seemed to have passed so quickly had she been thinking that long, she turned over onto her side, closing her eyes trying to force herself to sleep.
She awoke to the sound of the alarm clock, picking it up and throwing It against the wall silenced it soon enough, she was usually so focused but now it seemed her emotions had got the best of her.
She smiled to herself knowing that only Gene could make her feel this way. She wondered why, why did she feel for him like this, he certainly wasn't her usual type but then for Suzuka a relationship wasn't something she would have even considered until recently, a quick screw now and then was all she could really afford.
She could never let herself get close to anyone really before now, the consequences could be so high you don't exactly say you're partner "oh hey honey I'm a interplanetary assassin, I kill people for money, do you still love me?"
However Gene knew about her past and accepted it and still wanted to be her friend, he knew how many people's lives she had taken away with a slash of her sword yet still. Allowed her to be close to him.
Did he know, had he figured out how she truly felt about him, that she really did love him with heart and soul and would do anything for him, if he did and that was a big if, did he feel the same way about her?
Why was she even thinking that, he had his doll anyway, even if he did feel something for her isn't it all just pointless anyway. She sighed, hearing the sound of gunfire and smashing plastic
Gene was up and he'd broken his alarm clock again, she smiled to herself, it was the little things that made her so attracted to him and he could always make her laugh, he could make her laugh like no other person ever could.
She made a mental note that today she would tell him how she felt, just like yesterday and the day before that, so why did she keep choking.
Gene and Jim popped their head around her door, "Good morning sleepy head?" Gene chimed; "how come your not up yet?"
"The answer to that is irrelevant, Gene", Suzuka fired back quickly but regretted it immediately.
"What's wrong Suzuka are you ok?" Gene asked concerned
"It is not your concern", Suzuka spoke, despite her cold tone of voice inside she was cracking and she just wanted to break down and cry her eyes out
Both Jim and Gene felt a slight chill go through them until Jim jumped in with "jeez, its like going up against Gendo Ikari"
Jim and Gene left sliding the door closed as they did so, Suzuka cracked and burst into tears sobbing into the pillow unable to hold back the torrent of emotion any longer and for the first time in nearly 3 years Suzuka cried, she cried like she never had before.
Authors notes:
Ok I know a pretty short Chapter but took a good look inside at Suzuka's feelings for Gene, I think anyway. Plus its as they say good things come in small packages, Don't know when the next chapter will be out, Uni. Commitments keeping me busy at the moment, plus working on a novel too so will update when I can.
Peace out, till the next chapter.
Suzuka looked at the clock it read 3:30 am she couldn't sleep again, it was odd she never had trouble sleeping before, she stared at the ceiling, counting the tiles, its something she had been doing these past few nights into the late hours, trying to sleep.
However even when she managed to let the feeling of sleep take over her, the dreams that plagued her mind were of image she did not understand, they ranged from images of death and destruction to images of an erotic nature about a certain red haired outlaw.
Then there were the dreams about her past, the things she didn't want to remember but she did remember non-the less. Yes it was late but she couldn't stop herself from thinking, playing things over in her mind, what people would say, reactions, she was even singing songs in her head any thing but sleep seemed to cross her mind.
She looked at the clock again it read 5:30 am two hours had passed it seemed to have passed so quickly had she been thinking that long, she turned over onto her side, closing her eyes trying to force herself to sleep.
She awoke to the sound of the alarm clock, picking it up and throwing It against the wall silenced it soon enough, she was usually so focused but now it seemed her emotions had got the best of her.
She smiled to herself knowing that only Gene could make her feel this way. She wondered why, why did she feel for him like this, he certainly wasn't her usual type but then for Suzuka a relationship wasn't something she would have even considered until recently, a quick screw now and then was all she could really afford.
She could never let herself get close to anyone really before now, the consequences could be so high you don't exactly say you're partner "oh hey honey I'm a interplanetary assassin, I kill people for money, do you still love me?"
However Gene knew about her past and accepted it and still wanted to be her friend, he knew how many people's lives she had taken away with a slash of her sword yet still. Allowed her to be close to him.
Did he know, had he figured out how she truly felt about him, that she really did love him with heart and soul and would do anything for him, if he did and that was a big if, did he feel the same way about her?
Why was she even thinking that, he had his doll anyway, even if he did feel something for her isn't it all just pointless anyway. She sighed, hearing the sound of gunfire and smashing plastic
Gene was up and he'd broken his alarm clock again, she smiled to herself, it was the little things that made her so attracted to him and he could always make her laugh, he could make her laugh like no other person ever could.
She made a mental note that today she would tell him how she felt, just like yesterday and the day before that, so why did she keep choking.
Gene and Jim popped their head around her door, "Good morning sleepy head?" Gene chimed; "how come your not up yet?"
"The answer to that is irrelevant, Gene", Suzuka fired back quickly but regretted it immediately.
"What's wrong Suzuka are you ok?" Gene asked concerned
"It is not your concern", Suzuka spoke, despite her cold tone of voice inside she was cracking and she just wanted to break down and cry her eyes out
Both Jim and Gene felt a slight chill go through them until Jim jumped in with "jeez, its like going up against Gendo Ikari"
Jim and Gene left sliding the door closed as they did so, Suzuka cracked and burst into tears sobbing into the pillow unable to hold back the torrent of emotion any longer and for the first time in nearly 3 years Suzuka cried, she cried like she never had before.
Authors notes:
Ok I know a pretty short Chapter but took a good look inside at Suzuka's feelings for Gene, I think anyway. Plus its as they say good things come in small packages, Don't know when the next chapter will be out, Uni. Commitments keeping me busy at the moment, plus working on a novel too so will update when I can.
Peace out, till the next chapter.
