5.Reflections.

I couldn't believe what had happened. It was more then I could ever hope would happen. And so soon too! It was so wonderful, and yet, I was scared. I'm not sure why I was afraid. It just seemed too good to be true I suppose. Nothing ever happens like that for me, there must be some catch, something horrible will happen. I could never let anything happen to him, I would never forgive myself. I tried to think that maybe something was going right for once. That I was just being paranoid, but I couldn't fight that nagging feeling in the back of my mind, that something horrible would happen. And what if he found out? Would he use Ron to lure me into some sort of trap? I would never for give myself.

Part of me said that I just being paranoid, that I should loosen up, and allow myself a taste of what I had wanted for so long. It said that I would forever regret it if I didn't. And yet another part of me argued that Tommy had let his guard down and look where that had got him. If something happened to Ron and I was to blame, I don't think I could bear it. And what if he wasn't interested in me, then I would just end up worse off then what I was now. I fought back tears as I resolved that it would be best for both of us if I stayed away from him.

I walked back to the castle, and went to the gryffindor common room. I then realized that I was still wearing his jacket, so I snuck up to the boy's dorm and put it on the trunk at the foot of his bed. Before I left, I stole one glance at his sleeping form, he looked so peaceful. "I would rather die then disturb that." I thought to myself. This thought further hardened my resolve that we could not be together. As I proceeded to get ready for my day, I realized that, were as yesterday my spirits soared, they would take quite a nosedive from here on out.

I went down to breakfast and returned to my spot at the end of the table. I was surprised when Ron sat down next to me.

"Hey, how did you sleep?"

"Surprisingly well considering I spent the night on stone. But I did have an excellent blanket." He said shooting me a goofy smile. I smiled back.

"That's good to hear."

"You were right though. The night sky really is one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen."

"Thank you, I'm glad you agree."

"Same time, same place tonight?"

"Alright then."

Then the bell rang, and after shooting me one more smile, he stood and said, "See you in potions."

"Alright then."

Staring after him I thought, "This is going to be a lot harder then I thought."