A Chance or a Choice

Sora and I both jumped as Selphie stared at us bug eyed. Sora pulled his shirt back on and I walked to the other side of the room.

"G-guys. what were you doing?" Selphie's shaky voice asked.

"Close the door and sit down." I said staring at her.

Selphie did as she was told and sat in a near by chair. "So?"

Sora and I took a deep breath and stared at the ground.

"You guys have to explain this to me. If I'm mistaken, I believe Sora is getting married tomorrow to Kairi, not Riku."

"I know, I know, I know. It's just. we. I."

"It's okay, Sora." I said walking over to the door. "It was a mistake. You are drunk. you might have thought I was Kairi or something."

"I wish that was only it." Sora whispered.

Selphie and I looked at him shocked.

"I know you guys are confused, especially you, Riku. But I. it's just too late now. I did something I can't forget, and it's better if we talked this out." Sora said uneasily.

"You're still drunk. Everything is just fine. when you see Kairi you're sen- "

"I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER!" Sora screamed at Selphie.

"S-sora what are you talking about?" I asked.

"I." Sora lied back down on the bed, staring at the ceiling.

"Um. I'm going to go back in the hallway. Riku please try to talk some sense back into this boy." Selphie said as she left.

I looked up at Sora and felt my cheeks burn red. Everything I wanted was finally about to come true. but I felt miserable. I kept thinking about Kairi sitting all alone in her wedding dress while Sora and I made out somewhere in the bushes. Just to think about it. That doesn't sound like a bad idea. NO! No no no no no Riku. you are supposed to talk sense into him.

"Riku?" Sora asked from the bed.

I looked up at him expecting him to be staring at me, but he still had his eyes on the ceiling.

"I'm sorry if I confused you. I know this must be hard for you, and I'll understand if you never want to talk to me again."

"Sora, what are you talking about?" I asked sitting down on the bed beside him. "I still want to be your buddy even after tonight. You were drunk, and your hormones were probably going out of control."

"Riku. I almost had sex with you. The scary thing about that isn't the fact you're a guy, but the fact I would have enjoyed it. Who knows where we could have ended up if Selphie didn't stop us?"

I lied down next to Sora and stared up at the ceiling. Sora did have a point after all. it was a little scary thinking that we both would have enjoyed it. As much as I wanted it I couldn't just hurt Kairi like that.

"Well, you know what we have to do, then?" I asked.

Sora suddenly stood up and looked me in the eyes. "Riku if you tell me how you truly feel I'll listen."

"What?"

"Look, if you have feelings for me. I won't marry Kairi tomorrow. I do love her; I really do. But I think I may have some sort of fee-"

"Sora, you can't do this. I won't let you do this." I yelled.

Sora looked at me, "Just tell me your feelings, Riku. That's all I'm asking from you."

"SORA! I don't have any feelings for you. None. ZIP, ZERO, NOTHING! Like I said before, you were very drunk. I was even drunk myself. We both did something we shouldn't have done, and it's over now."

"We could have been at it still." Sora yelled back.

"Then what would have happened once the alcohol wore off? We would be freaked out and maybe afraid to be alone together."

"Riku, I know-"

"Sora you know nothing. You are still hammered and confused. Why don't you go home to your fiancée? I'm sure she is waiting for you," I said getting up off the bed.

"Riku?"

"Sora, just go, okay? We both have to get up early in the morning."

Sora became silent. Pushed past me he said, "I only want to know how you feel."

I was ready to argue again, but he had already left the room. I sat down on the bed, feeling my heart slowly break. I heard a sigh from the door and guessed it was Selphie.

"Did you talk some sense into him?" she asked.

I nodded my head, unable to say anything. She sat down beside me and brushed her hand through my hair. "You really like him, don't you?"

I remained silent, Selphie pushed me a bit, "its okay Riku. Whatever you said to him was for the best."

She then stood up and gave my head a little hug, "I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow okay?"

I nodded my head again and waited for her to leave. Once I was sure she was gone, I lied back down on the bed.

"Just tell me your feelings Riku. That's all I'm asking from you," kept repeating in my mind.

I took a deep breath and grabbed a pillow. "I'm deeply in love with you, Sora, except I can't be with you now. not like this." I whispered feeling the tears slide down my face.

I guess I'll have to spend the night at Tidus's house tonight.

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