I'm quite surprised yet please…with the amount of reviews I've gotten. And…thanks guys…you've got the most incredible timing ;.; More info after the chappie.

Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket or any of its characters and I'm sorry for making them seem even more fucked up than some of them already are….o.0;

Chapter 4: Doctor's Visit

Yuki trudged along the side of the road towards the Sohma house. He absolutely did NOT want to be going to Hatori. He didn't want to be anywhere near Sohma house. That was where Akito was.

"Akito…"

Yuki stopped outside of the house entrance and stared blankly at the doors.

"Will it really help me …to talk to Hatori? Could he possibly make this pain go away?" he muttered to himself.

He continued to stare blankly at the doors as they opened slowly. Hatori was standing on the porch when Yuki finally decided to move from the front entrance.

"I've been waiting for you. Shigure told me what happened. Please come in. Let's talk." Hatori showed Yuki to the door. He wore the same solemn expression that he always wore. This didn't surprise Yuki but it made him wonder how Hatori could possibly help him. He rarely showed any feeling towards anyone much less himself. Yuki frowned at the "grumpy seahorse". He had been calling him that ever since he was a kid…though he never did so to his face.

Yuki stepped into the room, sitting down on a pillow. He braced himself…not really sure what to expect from the conversation that was soon to come upon him. He wasn't sure what he would say. He didn't want to pour out his heart to anyone, much less Hatori. The only person that he had really trusted with his inner feelings was Tohru…she always said the right thing…and she never told a soul. She would never hurt him…not on purpose and she always made him smile. It wouldn't happen again though. This was just one of those things that he could never let her find out about. She would blame herself and would never forgive herself. He panicked as a tear rolled down his cheek. Quickly brushing it away he looked up to see if Hatori had seen it. Fortunately he was too busy looking through his file cabinet in the corner of his room.

Hatori put a file back into his cabinet and then picked up the phone. Yuki's attention drifted to the picture of Kana on he shelf near the door. He wondered if Hatori still mourned over the loss. It must have been hard…'maybe…maybe that's why Shigure wanted me to come to Hatori…' He was startled by the click of the phone back onto the receiver.

Yuki looked down at his arm, embarrassed that he had lost his control so easily. He shouldn't have let himself get caught…then his thoughts shifted…

"Why… Why am I here?" Yuki asked softly.

"Why are you here? Well, because Shigure was wor…" Hatori was cut off by Yuki's now soft speech.

"No…Why…why am I here…on this earth? In the life? I thought I knew before. But now…I don't know. I feel so empty and lost. Tohru's love was the most important thikng to me. She showed me how to live. I grew so attached to her…that now…not I know that there is no hope left for me to truly be happy anymore. I had always held onto the hope that me and Tohru…that we could fall in love…but that cat…that STUPID CAT! HE ALWAYS GETS EVERYTHING THAT I WANT! WHY!" Yuki began crying, sobbing as he finished his last sentence.

"That was very touching, Yuki" came a sly voice from the doorway.

Yuki's tear streaked face shot up in fear as soon as he recognized the voice.

"Akito…"

"My, my Yuki. I had no idea that this girl meant so much to you. But then again…you never told me before. Why again, is it that you never visit me anymore? Oh wait…it's because you are so in love with Ms. Tohru…oh I'm sorry…she is a Sohma now…" He smirked maliciously at Yuki. Yuki was trembling with a mixture of fear and anger. His words were slicing through him. " I should think you should be happy for her instead of being selfish and only thinking of yourself Yuki…After all that she did for you…you can't even think of her happiness."

Yuki was startled…He realized that Akito was right. He had been so wrapped up in his own misery that he had not thought about Tohru's happiness. He was being selfish.

Akito's smirk never left his face. He knew it was only a matter of time till he was completely broken. Yuki looked up at Akito.

"You have treated me the same way so I know the hurt that it causes. You have run off…after everything that I have done for you. And you never come to see me anymore. It makes me so sad Yuki. I do miss you so much." Akito pouted dramatically and walked over to the trembling rat on the floor.

Yuki didn't move. He didn't care…he was beyond caring anymore. Akito knelt down in front of Yuki and caressed his cheek. Yuki only looked into his eyes. The fear seemed to be gone…only despair remained. He was ashamed of himself…he deserved whatever punishment that Akito was going to give him. He would accept his fate…

TO BE CONTINUED…

Ok sorry I have to end it here…I can't feel my fingers anymore cause they are so cold..ever get that? When you're on the computer for a long time and then your fingers get so cold that you can't move them very well? Anyways..that's how I am…Well I just wanted to say a few things down here…

Thank you so much…all of you who are worried about me. It made me feel a lot better actually and I appreciate it. I've got a wonderful story to tell you now.. 3 It is how my day was…

Well I had a wonderful morning…until I had to pick up my little brother from his friend's house and watch him for 2 hours while I was supposed to be going to Towson Mall with my best friend…we ended up playing video games and then falling asleep for a bit.

Then we decided to go out to eat at Emerald East…which was wonderful. Then we went shopping and read mangas in Waldenbooks…that was wonderful too!

Then I went to my usually Sunday youth group thingy…That was nice too…I had just bought a Momiji bunny plushie from Suncoast and was carrying it with me while Abby, a friend from school, was stealing him and running around..((I think she was sugar high…o.0;))

Well then shit started happening… It starts with last Wednesday…I lost my temper and broke my beloved cell phone…I got a new one Saturday…and now today..Sunday…I check my pocket for my cell to check the time…and its not there…I tell Abby's father to stop the car and we went back to the parking lot to look for it. Abby finds it in the lot and opens it…it looks fine except that the screen was… BROKEN! I was so horrified that I started crying…

I got home…I had been depressed the whole way home…then I walk in and my dad explains that he will no longer pay for my gas money and I won't get any more allowance…and that if I want money I have to get a job ((which might I add I have been doing all weekend…I have about 7 applications in my room that I need to get filled out ;.;)) I asked him why this came up and he explains that he went looking in my room for his lost sunglasses ((which made me mad on the spot..1) I don't like people in my room without permission 2) He always blames me for his lost stuff…saying that I've stolen it )) Then says that he had found a bottle of his imported Brandy in my room ((which I had taken from the upstairs closet in hopes of finding a way to either die in a drunken bliss or at least make myself so sick that I would be hospitalized and my parents would feel sorry for the shitty way they've been treating me lately … ((horrible ain't it?)) I explained less than calmly to my father the reasons that I had it and then went downstairs where I contemplated suicide…but habit brought me to the computer. I checked my mail…once again out of habit and saw a bunch of reviews…And this is what they said…

hey! great stories! keep going, and i'm deeply sorry about your bf! That would suck.

Cows! (you gotta love them cows...lol)

- by cows

hey, great story please write more it has superb potential! ... and i hope everything works out with your life please don't hurt yourself you'll find a great guy for u one day ; okay that sounded super cheesy but it's true!1

-by fairyfurby

hey, great story! i like cutting stories, theyre so angsty! but about your boyfriend and how you're feeling like Yuki, please dont hurt yourself!

-by tatango

wow, really good chapter, but way too short!
im really sorry about your bf, what a drama! at least you know that he didnt break up with you because of you... do heal quickly!

-by unheard screams

You guys helped me out a lot more than you could believe. The entire evening I've been wondering why was god doing this all to me and thinking that I just wanted to die. But then I read these reviews in my mail and I just realized…God doesn't want me to die yet…the timing was incredible…that I would see these reviews right when I was wanting to do what they said not to…You guys are my new heroes…thank you with all my heart. I hope you enjoy the fic. And keep on reviewing…you may not realize how much they really mean to someone…