I can't hold on much longer. My hands were sore and they were about to slip. I could feel myself sweating all over. If I don't do it, there would be nothing left for me. If I don't talk, I would be dead.

It was either a choice of death or talk. My only hope was about to leave this place, and there would be nothing for me. My hands started to slip little by little.

I could feel my heartbeat and it was very fast. If I don't do something fast, my mother would be so disappointed in me. My mother...if I die right now, I could get to see her. There's nothing in store for me in this world.

"Come on James, let's go." I heard someone say.

I have to make my decision now. If I simply let go, I would be reunited with my mom again. It crossed my mind. I was about to let go, when I heard my mom's voice inside my head.

You can't hold on to the past forever...

I looked down. It was land. If I die right now, what would happen?

"That's impossible, she should be here..." I heard James say.

My friends would be sad and James will be disappointed. They took care of me so much. I heard my mom again.

Some people still care for you...

I had to choose now, or else risk having picked my wrong fate.

"Let's go guys, I guess the map really is wrong sometimes..." I heard James say and the door opened.

Tears fell. Now there was no way of being saved. Maybe this is what fate has for me. Goodbye Bella, Lisha...Goodbye, James...

I closed my eyes but still held on. I wanted to think there was still hope. I wanted to know that James' didn't give up yet.

Suddenly, I heard the door close, but I didn't hear footsteps go away. Actually, they were coming nearer. I opened my eyes and heard hope.

"Guys, have you seen Lily here?" I heard Lisha ask. Her angelic voice sifted through my ears and it calmed me down. Now I know I didn't want to die. I have to find a way to grab their attention, but how?

"I will kill your prat of as girlfriend, Sirius. She was the one who started this havoc, anyway!" I heard Arabella exclaim and I could hear someone fall.

I tried to look beyond the edge, but all I saw was a hand raised that looked as if it was ready to slap.

"Let go of me, mad woman!" I heard Sirius shout and I held on to the edge tighter. I knew they were getting nearer, I just knew it!

I could hear someone rolling on the ground, and rapid footsteps. There was also some struggling and a very loud slap.

"Arabella! You can't do that!" I heard Alice say. I heard someone pick Sirius up from the floor and let him sit on the edge. Actually, very near the edge where I was about to fall.

I tried to get Sirius attention by poking his back, but I couldn't reach it. I was desperate. I needed to do something cause my hands can't hold on any longer.

I saw Lisha stand up to look at Sirius's cheek. I could see it was burning red hot salsa.

I wanted to talk, but I can't. It was not in my nature to speak. I tried to look for something to throw, and all I saw was the watch that I always wore. Lucy gave it to me for my eleventh birthday.

I grabbed it with difficulty and threw it with all the strength I could muster. It hit Sirius's head and he groaned in pain. Lisha looked around and saw me and my tear stained face.

She was shocked but she wasted no time.

"It's Lily! James, do something!" she exclaimed and as fast as wind, James was holding my both hands, pulling my hands like there was no tomorrow. When I was safely back, I sighed in relief. Tears streamed down my face, and James hugged me.

I looked up and saw Sirius holding my watch. I cried and let go of James. I took the watch from Sirius and stared at it with teary eyes.

What the heck was I thinking? Lucy gave this to me. This was hers, and she gave it to me. She loved this watch very much, and I destroyed it just to save my life! I'm such a selfish brat!

I cried Lisha hugged me. I hate myself! Why did I throw the watch just to save my blasted life? I cried on Lisha's shoulder.

"Guys, it's better if you leave the three of us first. All of you out, that includes you, James." I heard Belle say. I heard footsteps and the door opened and closed. The marauders left.

Lisha was patting my back. I wanted to feel the comfort. I chose to live, but why do I feel like I just destroyed something in fate?

I stared at the watch again. Lucy told me that it was her grandmother's. She cherished the watch very much and gave it to me on my eleventh birthday. She told me that it would always keep me safe, but I destroyed it.

I cried and I heard Lisha soothing me.

"Don't worry Lilac, everything would be fine." She whispered and I cried silently.

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JAMES'S POV

I didn't want to leave Lily, but I knew her friends could do so much better than me. I knew one thing for sure; the one responsible for this mess was going to pay.

The marauders and I were walking towards the common room. Everyone was silent.

When we entered, Jessica was there, waiting for Sirius. Sirius walked casually towards her and then she pecked him on the cheek. I could see Peter resist the temptation to gag.

"Hey Siri-poo! What happened to Evans?" she asked as Sirius sat beside her. She began stroking his hair absently. Call me anything you want, but Sirius doesn't seem to be enjoying it.

I heard the portrait hole open, and Arabella came in. She looked very dangerous. Her eyes were flaming and you could see her glaring very much at none other than Jessica.

She slammed the door shut and walked angrily towards Jessica and Sirius. It was then that she was only a few centimeters away from Jessica when she noticed.

"Oh, hey Arabella-

Jessica was cut off when Arabella slapped Jessica with all her might. Jessica struggled out of the couch and then stared at Arabella.

"You-you pathetic excuse for a human! You had no right to do that to Lily!" exclaimed Arabella. Jessica regained her composure and then stood up. She gave Arabella a look.

"I can say anything I want. Besides, it's all the truth. Evans is nothing but a geek, a loser, and a goody-two shoes." She taunted. Sirius looked at Jessica threateningly. He knew what Arabella was like, being her enemy and all.

Arabella's ears started to emit smoke. Nobody knew how fast Arabella did it, but without even a blink of an eye, Jessica was starting to shrink.

All of them stared, but Arabella didn't care. She was ready to give anything for her friend, I knew that.

But before she could even take a step, someone was holding her hand, and I knew that hand too much.

Lily grabbed Arabella's wand and hugged her.

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LILY'S POV

When Alice and I entered the common room, I knew at one what happened. Belle had cursed Jessica, and it was all because of me. I stopped the tears and I held Belle's hand. When she stared at me, I hugged her.

I didn't want my friend to get in trouble just because of me. It was my entire fault. I cried on her shoulder and she hugged me back.

I heard Alice pick up a raging Jessica and then went out of the common room. Even though I told you I hated Jessica so much, she really didn't deserve to be cursed. I didn't know Arabella would be like that.

"I'm sorry Lily. I know I shouldn't have done that." She said. I smiled a little at her and let go.

I knew that she cared. But why do I still feel like I picked the wrong choice to live. I destroyed Lucy's watch, Arabella would be in big trouble and I would suffer again.

Did I mess with fate?