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Chapter 5: Somewhere I Belong
Kenshin was sitting in his room on the futon, the moonlight shining through the thin shoji screen. 'There's something about Arianna-dono. She isn't telling us everything.' He stood up and walked to the shoji. He slid it open and walked out into the hallway. He padded down the hall and turned into the kitchen.
"Konbanwa." Kenshin jumped.
"Orororororororoororo." Kenshin face faulted.
"It's only you Aoshi." Aoshi gazed intently at Kenshin.
"Can't sleep?" Kenshin sighed.
"No, actually something's bothering me."
"Aa." Aoshi nodded his head.
"Arianna, ne?" Kenshin looked up at Aoshi and laughed nervously, while rubbing his head.
"Hai, how'd you know?" Aoshi looked at Kenshin.
"I have the same thing on my mind."
"She's hiding something." They both said in unison. Kenshin nodded his head solemnly and left the room.
Morning: 8:30am
Arianna woke up in a cold sweat.
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
"A dream..." She looked at her hands, and held her shoulders to keep from shaking. She got dressed in a blue gi and white hakama instead of her original clothes. Arianna pulled the tie from her hair and shook her head. She folded up her bedding and noticed blood on the floor. 'Looks like I'll have to clean this up and then take a bath.' Arianna grabbed a cloth from the closet and spit into it lightly. She wiped the floor clean, the blood staining the cloth a metallic red. When she was done, she walked out of the room and headed towards the kitchen.
"Ohayou." She spoke softly, glancing around at the spectacle of people.
"OHAYOU!" everyone replied. Arianna smiled.
"Genki desu ka minna-san?"
"I'm good." Replied Misao.
"You?" Arianna nodded
"Hai, I'm fine, arigatou gozaimasu for asking."
"Dou itashimashite." Misao smiled, and stuffed her face with rice.
"Please Arianna-dono, sit down and eat. Arianna smiled.
"Arigatou gozaimasu Kenshin-san." He smiled and pointed to a tatami mat next to Misao. Arianna sat down, Kenshin put a bowl of rice and chopsticks in front of her.
"Arigatou gozaimasu."
"Dou itashimashite. Enjoy."
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
Arianna inwardly sighed.
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I),
'Okaasan, ootosan. I miss you so much. I wonder how you're doing. I know that I cannot rest until I have exacted my revenge and put aside the past. I cannot let his death be in vain, nor mine. Please forgive me for my foolishness.'
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel?
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
Flashback
Arianna touched the wound in her stomach. She slowly fell to the ground, and she could hear the voices of her loved ones in the background.
I wanna heal; I wanna feel
what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
'Wakarimasen. I sacrificed everything. I bloodied my hands in the war when I was 14. Is this... how it ends?'
I wanna heal; I wanna feel
like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
'Iie. It can't be.' Arianna felt her back hit the floor.
"Hannya-chan, odaiji ni."
"Arianna!" A man ran to Arianna.
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
"Ootosan, ookasan, aishiteru."
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
'Please, Kami-sama, forgive me for taking so many lives during the war. Please watch over my family. I love them very much.'
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away,
I'll find myself today
'I know that Kenji can watch over them. But he's in China and I beg you Kami-sama, give them protection until he returns. I'm so tired, I'm tired of living with out him, tired of fighting a battle that never seems to end. I'm sorry for everything. Ootosan, I know I promised not to fight any more, and you did too. But I have to give up. A hitokiri like me cannot atone for her mistakes. I will give my life for everyone I have killed.'
I wanna heal; I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal; I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong Somewhere I belong
End Flashback
Arianna shook her head. 'Do I belong anywhere? I don't understand, aren't I… dead?'
A/n: Stay tuned!
