QW: This is a new poem and it's for Eriol. This is called "Scared"OOC and AU
Scared
I'm alone again
That's what I said
Nothing's ever the same
When she was dead...
I heard some people talking about my father. How he killed her in a rage, rumors going around everywhere...They almost arrest him too but they have no hardevidence. I was scared, it was bad enough my motherleft but my father too? They're wrong, I know he wouldn't do that to her. No matter what...
She's dead that what I said
It's alright but I'm wrong
What I'm thinking in my head
I told you she's gone...
I locked my room even though there's no one home. I look in the mirror of my reflection. My hair's messy, shirt's torn up, and eyes are red. I took out a blade, sharp enough isn't it? She's dead...It's alright...Just do it and I'll be with her forever. The blade was close to his throat...Am I that crazy? She's gone...you gotta do it. Tears were threaten to fall and I threw the blade across the room. I choked in my tears. Why didn't I do it?Am I that scared! I wanted to scream but all I got were tears...
On a cloudy day, I remember
The cursed day
Thesixth of December...
It was only a couple of days ago...I was at my friend's house. When I got the call, I felt like crying at that time but I couldn't. All I did was run away, feh aren't I chicken? I slept in a cold alley, I didn't want to talk or see anyone. I was too scared...I remember I closed my eyes hoping everything would be alright but it wasn't...
I'm alive but I'm not glad
When I think of her I'm sad
But no matter what
She's not coming back
My dad's home. I can hear him slamming the front door again. He's like me, torn up inside but he's worse. He was accused of my mom's death, lost his job, called a maniac or a two timed cheater. Those assholes don't even know what they're thinking of. I open the door and went to my dad without a word
"Hm," that's all he had said. It wasn't really fair that we deserve this
"I'm sorry," He said a while later. I look at him, how pathetic...He didn't even do anything
"Shut up," I said looking into my father's eyes
"You didn't do anything, I was like you just a few minutes ago...We'll get past this father, just...shut up...," I said. We stood in silence but then he said
"I know...we will get past this,"
Don't worry I said again
She's gone I kept repeating in my head
It will never be the same
I know she's dead
But in my head
She's alive even though
I know she's dead
But I kept on going...
End
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