Anymore

Written by: Sher of SherKay (aka KayB)

Pairing: J/C …

Summery: Kathryn writes back.

Disclaimer: We're just going where TPTB have never been before – with a little more good old-fashioned romance than they're accustomed to.

A/N: I (KayB) don't know if this is very Kathryn Janeway-at-her-deepest, but I tried. Kay (aka Honney862002) managed to go a great job though, don't yall think? applause

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Chapter 2: Yours Alone.

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Kathryn Janeway sat back in her chair

"Oh Chakotay."

What happened to the 'some barriers we never crossed'? And when did we cross them? Was it when we first met the Borg, or was that too soon? Maybe you crossed it alone and I joined you later. Maybe… I don't know. But I hope this answers your question Chakotay, in more than one way… I do remember – I'll always remember and probably hate myself for not surrendering to New Earth.

But you must know… I can't… I just can't. Too many people have I loved. Too many people have I allowed to get close, only to lose them later, my father, Justin and then Kes. Maybe that's why Mark was best for me, but Chakotay, I don't want to lose you. I don't want to lose any of you, which is why I'm content enough to watch, to listen, and to love from afar.

I have always told you it was protocol. I lied. Maybe I'm destined to turn into The Admiral after all. It's what I've always wanted. Starfleet's what I've always wanted. So, why am I so unhappy?

But if you can find any happiness with Seven, any happiness at all - I implore you to stay with her. I love you Chakotay. I love you, and that's why I don't want to lose you. They say love hurts… and it's hurting me, most of all. A small part of me hopes you can say something to change my mind, but how can you promise me that you will never go away?

Your,

Kathryn.

"Computer, delet… no, wait… belay that."

Tbc….