Anymore
Written by: Kay of Sherrkay
Pairing: J/C who else????
Summery: Chakotay tries to give Kathryn a promise to hold on to.
Disclamer: as in the first 2 chapters, we don't own them, we just like to mess with their minds and let them have the fun TPTB wouldn't let them have: 8)
A/N : ok let's give a round of applause to Sher for her awesome writing talents used on her chapter in our story!
Only Time Will Tell
Chakotay sat there in silence as he reread the letter. It was fear just as he expected. She was scared she would loose him just as she had lost everyone else.
She was right on one thing, he crossed those barriers along time ago, he was just waiting for her to follow him across. He knew in his heart that time was all they needed to make this relationship work, and he knew that only time would tell how ready she was to go through with it. He had waited this long for her, he could wait a little longer if she needed him to.
He sat down at his desk and got an old fashion pen and paper and began to write the words down that were spoken so long ago:
'The angry warrior swore to himself that he would stay by her side, doing whatever he could to make her burden lighter. From that point on her needs would come first, and in that way, the warrior began to know the true meaning of peace.'
Kathryn,
I spoke these words to you all those years ago, and you said you remembered them. Just as I meant them then, I mean them now even more. I cant promise you that I will be around forever, because one day I will fade away from this life, but one place I will never fade away from is in your heart. You say you're content to love from afar but in reality Kathryn, you are as lonely and miserable as I am.
You asked why you were so unhappy. Kathryn you are unhappy because you make yourself that way. Can't you see? We are supposed to be together. We are sole mates Kathryn. Pure and simple.
I could fool myself into acting like I am in love with Seven but I could never truly be when I have my heart promised to someone else. I'm in love with you Kathryn, not Seven. I can tell you this; I too know that love hurts. Do you think it didn't kill me to see you hurting after telling you about Seven and I? Or better yet, every time you found out about my little flings I had. Or when you locked yourself up when we were trapped inside that void? Kathryn it killed me. It killed me because I love you so much… My Kathryn… did you think I wouldn't notice that? Deep in your heart I know you want to be with me… just as much as I want to be with you.
There is nothing I can say to change your mind if it's already made up, but remember this, I too would be taking a chance… I too might loose the one thing in this universe that matters to me. But im willing to work around my fears if you would be willing to work around yours.
I've told you all along we would face it together and that you were not alone… that I would stand by your side and make your burdens lighter… please let me fulfill that promise.
I'm waiting on you.
Chakotay
Computer: transport the paper on my desk to Captain Janeway's readyroom.
