Anymore
Written by: Sher of Sherkay
Pairing: J/C
Summary: Kathryn replies… but she gets interrupted…
Disclamer: Oh man, something Kay said really cracked me up. If Kathryn were real, boy would she be one really messed up individual, what with all the 'messing about' we've been doing with their heads. –says solemnly- Which is why, it is probably wise that we only borrow them from TPTB and put them back with their memories erased each time.. And we each loan them out each time we need them… erm, that's my way of saying I don't own them…. Sorry, I think I've had too much chocolate today.
A/N : As usually props to Kayln for another chapter well done!
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Chapter Four – Ancient Legend
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Kathryn's body jerked as the Padd tumbled out of her delicate fingers. She crossed her office to stare out the window, God, how she missed those Delta Quadrant stars streaming by. She shuddered again, this time because of the Goosebumps crawling up her neck.
She closed her eyes, savouring his words still floating in her head. She leaned back into emptiness. Devoid of the rock she was so used to having there, her eyes fluttered open. For a moment she caught his reflection in the glass, and everything was as it should have been. "Chakotay," she breathed silently.
Chakotay…
I don't know what to say – I don't know what exactly to do, but I can tell you that I can't seem to come up with anymore excuses that Tuvok couldn't disprove. So, I'll try your way instead…
There was once a little bird, a Goldenbird and she loved her family- she loved them all, but she exceptionally loved her father. She constantly sought for his attention and love and yet he hardly noticed her. The more he missed out on, the harder she tried. Then one day he died. He died and she could do nothing to save him. It broke her heart and she suffered greatly… she still suffers to this day, but as she watched him sink below the ice caps of the plane… the place, they were flying over, she vowed to herself that she would do everything she could to make her father proud and she thought that maybe in that way, she could… she could be at peace with herself…
Kathryn's voice cracked into a sob. How many more times would she relive this story, how many times did she had to go through the cold – the pain. But she needed to go on, she wanted Chakotay to know.
… so she like her father decided to fly all over the world to do what he would have liked to do, what he would have liked her to do. It was what she had learnt to enjoy and she met many people. So many people, but when she got lost – it was amongst strangers. There was one… eagle… an eagle to her Goldenbird. He was brave, strong, committed and like herself un…content, but when she laid eyes on him, she realised she had found her peace. And it was wrong. Peace was supposed to be where her father was… peace was making him happy, fulfilling his dreams, peace was at the end of the line when she could stand there and say that she was where her father wanted her to be. So, she turned him away…..
Eventually, she reached that place. Her father's place, but what she had once enjoyed had turned into… well, let's just say the eagle had taught her so much more… so much that he had a special place in her heart. She was afraid, afraid she had lost sight of her goals and afraid that he might take such a big place in her heart that her father might be forgotten, but the eagle told this Goldenbird that he would wait for her. Wait for her to be content with herself and the place he had in her heart because it had always been his to have…
And in that way, the Goldenbird learnt to tell the Eagle that it…
"Admiral?"
Kathryn turned to face the doorway, "Oh," she gasped, "Lunch with Captain Picard, I forgot. Um, give me a moment; tell him I'll be right there."
"Yes ma'am."
Kathryn swallowed as she watched her assistant leave the room. She glanced at the blinking light on the console, noting that the message hadn't been completed.
"Resume." She croaked. The moment was lost, but the message was not…
Enough going about this roundabout way, you're done waiting Chakotay….
Kath
