Disclaimer I have no rights to the song in this chapter. It belongs to Maroon Five but I just had to use it because I think it describes the way Nathan feels about Haley perfectly.
A.N I want to apologise ahead of time for the character name in this chapter I realise that it's probably wrong but in the UK we are still only up to the latter stages of the first series of the show so I haven't found out her actual name yet. If anyone does know it and would like to pass on that information I would really appreciate it.Theres not a lot of drama in this chapter but I think its a chapter that needed to be written to explain a bit of what the character's are feeling. Plus I needed it to pave the way for the next few chapters where the story is really going to heat up. But I will only update if I get reviews. So please let me know what you think. Love it or hate it I want to know, I've been thrilled by the reviews I've received so far and can hardly believe that I have almost sixty reviews for this story. Thank you so much to everyone who has been reviewing. Hope you enjoy this latest installment. Chapter Twelve is ready and waiting to be posted as soon as I get some reviews.
Giving In To Desires
Chapter Eleven
"What plan Brooke?" he repeated.
Trying to distract him from his questions for the moment she blurted out one of her own.
"Nathan what are you doing here?"
"Thought I should check and see if my girlfriend's ok since she disappeared without telling me last night." He said cynically.
"Yes well you were a bit too…" She stopped she could hardly tell him that he had been too involved in Haley. She was not ready for him to know that she knew about them and had for some time.
"A bit too what?" he asked menacingly wanting to know whether she had been sober enough to see what had been going on between him and Haley.
"A bit too drunk to drive. So I figured I may as well get a cab home."
"Fair enough so are you going to tell me about this plan you have for tomorrow?"
"Plan? Oh it's nothing really. Peyton and I just have some revenge to get on the cheer leaders that beat us at the Nationals the other week."
Nathan's obvious scepticism was written all over his face. She knew he didn't believe her explanation but at the same time could come up with no good reason not to believe her. Glancing around the room trying to find some reason for his discomfort his eyes locked onto her bedside table or more to the point on the contents of the table. Two ripped foil packages sat there in plain view. Brooke followed his gaze to the table and for a moment her face was filled with guilt. But the guilt was quickly replaced by fury.
"Do you have something to say Nathan?" she asked. "Go ahead and say it why don't you."
For a moment Nathan's own face was a mask of rage but then it disappeared to be replaced by the one thing no female ever wants to see on her partners face. Indifference.
"Whatever Brooke. I really don't care. If you feel the need to bring back some guy to FUCK senseless then all I can say is I hope you enjoyed it."
"And that Ladies and Gentlemen" Brooke broke in sarcastically "is the exact reason why I went and found another man to fuck senseless as you so eloquently described it." Turning back to Nathan she pointed an accusing finger at his chest "Because you don't care."
"Sorry it had to end like this Brooke," he said before turning on his heel and exiting her house.
Nathan walked home and went up to his bedroom flicking the radio on as he went. The sounds of Maroon Five filled his room and he found himself listening intently to the lyrics.
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Fuck he thought to himself they might as well have written this song to describe Haley and me. He knew he needed to talk to her.
Back at Haley's house she was still spending time with Lucas. While she told herself that she was relieved that he seemed completely oblivious to the events of the night before she couldn't shake the feeling that there was something wrong. She had tried several times to ask him if he needed to talk to her about anything but he kept telling her that everything was fine. Finally she gave up but she couldn't help but feel slightly happy to see him leave when he headed home a little while later. There was definitely something going on with him but it certainly didn't seem as if he wanted to share it with her.
Hearing her phone ring she got up to answer it her anxiety disappearing as she saw Nathan's name on the caller ID.
"Hey Sexy what's going on?"
"It's over with me and Brooke," he answered without preamble.
"Over, what do you mean?"
"What do you think I mean Hales? Brooke and I are finished. We've broken up."
"Oh Nathan I'm sorry. Are you ok?"
"Yeah I'm fine. I knew it was only a matter of time. We haven't been happy together for a long time. Besides it wasn't exactly fair on her to be with her when I'm only ever thinking about you."
Haley once again found herself at a loss for words as she heard Nathan's declaration of how he truly felt about her. This time was different though; this time she could actually feel words that would reciprocate his feelings on the tip of her tongue. The only question was whether she dared to actually say it. Could she really lay it all out to Nathan and admit her confusion. Lately it had become more difficult to convince herself that all that she and Nathan had was a physical attraction. She had also been having a hard time remembering why she was with Lucas at all. Sure she cared about him and he was a great guy but the truth was she was no longer sure if her feelings were those of a besotted girlfriend or more along the lines of a platonic friendship. Nathan had been right when he told her that Lucas could never arouse her with a kiss the way that he himself did but the kiss they had shared earlier had contained none of the passion of their previous kisses and yet had almost left her in a puddle at his feet.
Sighing heavily into the phone, as it appeared that once again Haley was not going to respond to his admission he mumbled a goodbye and hung up.
Brooke was laying on her bed trying to sort through all the conflicting emotions in her head when her door was thrown open.
"Would you like to tell me what the hell you have been up to this time?"
Brooke looked up at her mother and inwardly winced as she realised she was in for yet another lecture on what a disappointment she was.
"Well?" she asked tapping her foot impatiently as Brooke remained silent.
"What is it you'd like to know mom?"
"Don't play these games with me Brooke. I heard you getting home in the very early hours of the morning and I know you weren't alone. What I didn't know until just now is that it wasn't Nathan that you brought home with you."
"No mom it wasn't Nathan ok. But I'm guessing you found that out by listening outside my door a few minutes ago didn't you? So what why should you care who it was? You never liked Nathan anyway."
"You're right Brooke I didn't like him. But in some ways he was perfect for you. Just the sort of guy I would expect someone like you to be with."
"Gee mom thanks a lot. Your love and respect for me is just so overwhelming."
"Respect" she scoffed "how can you possibly expect me to respect you. If only you were more like…"
"Yes mom I'm well aware of who you wish I was more like. You don't need to tell me again."
"Fine Brooke if you want to act like this then go ahead." Her tone softened slightly as she looked at her daughter. "You know I only get on your case like this because I think you could be so much better."
Brooke stopped listening she had heard it all so many times before and she would be damned if she was going to listen to it now. For as long as she could remember she had been getting grief from her mother. When she was five years old she had come home from school one day really excited because she had earned her first gold star for handwriting. Her mother had barely even looked at the prized piece of paper before asking her why she had taken so long to get her star. She had then gone on to tell her that her friend Ruth's daughter had gotten one over a month ago. This had gone on for most of Brooke's childhood and then when they had become teenagers Brooke had finally found something that she could do that Ruth's daughter could not. Brooke had made the cheerleading squad. Thinking that she may have finally done something to warrant her mothers approval she had told her over dinner that night. Her reaction unfortunately had been anything but thrilled. Instead she had lectured her on how Ruth's daughter would never dream of doing something so sluttish and once again why couldn't she be more like her.
Coming out of her thoughts Brooke looked into her mother's face and could see she was nearing the end of her tirade.
"Yes mom" she said when her mother finally stopped to draw breath "but we can't all be as perfect as Haley."
A.N So there it is at the special request of cherrymfzb I have given a bit more of a background and reason for Brooke to despise Haley so much. Hope you all enjoyed this chapter and as always if you want more all you have to do is review.
