And now I'm falling, falling fast again. Why do I always take a fall when I fall in love..
Chapter 7: Falling
I slowly opened my eyes. I saw.. nothing! I blinked several times but still, nothing but complete darkness. I'm sure I was lying on a bed but this isn't my room. I sat up and my head suddenly ached. I felt so dizzy. I took a deep breath before standing, leaning a wall.
I slowly walked, the wall guiding me when I touched something soft.. Cloth? A curtain! I pulled it, revealing a blinding light.
I used my hand to shield my eyes from the light.
I looked around the room. It was really neat. Not a lot of things, though. Unlike my girly room.. There's a closet, a small table beside the single- sized bed and a full body mirror in front of it.
I looked at the digital clock on the side table.
4:20 pm.. I slept a lot!
I went outside the room. There was a staircase. I went down and peeked to the first room that I saw-- the living room.
I heared some girls laughing, having their girly conversation. They were Temari and Tsuchi Kin. You might be wondering how I knew them. Well, Temari is Gaara's sister and everyone in school knows that. And because of that, guys in school respect her so much. But really, she, too is afraid of her own brother.
Temari.. So maybe I'm in Gaara's house.
Uhm anyway, I heared from Ino that Tsuchi Kin, from the third year high school, was really crazy about that freaky Orochimaru-sensei. She's got a really weird taste! Eww..
"What are you doing down here?" Temari asked, looking at me.
"Uh.. I.. I.. I'm so-sorry b--"
"Hm.. You must be hungry. There's some food on the table in the kitchen." She said and resumed chatting with Kin.
I'm not really hungry. I'm going to ask her something but she's too busy chatting. So I walked to the kitchen's direction when..
"Who's that girl?" I heared Kin ask her blonde friend.
"I don't know. Gaara brought her here yesterday, unconscious." Temari answered.
Now I remember. I was really dizzy yesterday and maybe I collapsed while I was with him.
I just sat on a wooden chair, not even touching the food in front of me.
"Oh Gaara, you're home!" I heared Temari say.
"Where's Sakura?" Gaara asked.
"Th-The pink haired girl? Oh sh-she's in the kitchen right now.." She nervously answered.
"Leave us alone.." He said.
I heared his footsteps louder and louder. It means he's heading toward this direction. He reached the kitchen and sat down across me.
"I don't know where you're house is so I brought you here." He explained.
"Thank you." I replied.
"How are you?" He asked me.
"J-Just a little dizzy.." I gave him a weak smile. "Uhm.. Gaara.. T-Thanks for.. helping m-me.. Y-You're always here to help me w-when I feel so weak. How could I ever.. repay your.. kindness?"
He held my hand and squeezed it softly.
"I just want you to be.. happy." He softly answered then he sadly sighed.
I smiled at him.
"I also want you to be happy. You know, a heart that is hurt is a heart that loves. Gaara, don't lose hope. Continue to love and someday, you'll get the love you truly deserve."
"Same to you.." He said.
I was silent for quite a while. I remembered what I just said to him.
Continue to love and someday, you'll get the love you truly deserve.
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We decided to talk in his room to have some more privacy. Yup, that was the same room I slept in.
I sat on his bed, Gaara beside me.
"Everyday I'm falling deeper for her.." He said.
"Oh.. That girl is really a lucky one." I said. "Whoever she is.."
"I've never experienced that thing called love.. Until she came into my life." He said, looking at me.
"You know, I envy that girl.. Someone cares for her.. Someone loves her.. You told me he doesn't deserve her, right? All she needs to do is open her heart for another love to come. And she'll be happy.." I said. Again, tears started to form in my eyes. "But me? I do everything I could just so Sasuke could notice me.. I'll even change everything in me so that he'll like me even just a bit. Just so I could please him.. I can't stop loving him because if I do, I'll wake up one day and I'm all alone.. No one really cares for me.. No one will love me. I mean who will love a sensitive, helpless, fragile, weak Sakura?"
Crystal beads came running down my cheeks. I felt Gaara's thumb wipe away my tears and like what he always does, he hugged me and rubbed my back gently. That really soothed my sad soul..
"If he doesn't like you the way you are.. If he doesn't like the brave Sakura that I know.. Then he's just a fool looking for his reflection in you." He whispered.
Maybe Gaara was right but I just can't stop loving Sasuke even if he doesn't love me.. For I am afraid that when I open my heart, no love will come..
For I am afraid to be alone..
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After tiring days of practice for our play, it's finally Wednesday. Time to show the fruit of our hardwork.
Wow, I didn't know Naruto was a good actor! A comedian, I mean. Anyway his groupmates were Hyuuga Hinata and Nara Shikamaru. Well, the story's great. Only Hinata was trembling so much. She kept on speaking like 'I.. I.. I.. d- don't k-know.. Uhm.. Na-Na-Na-Naruto..'
I'm feeling very nervous! What if I forget my lines? What if I tremble too much while I'm acting? What if..
"The next group will be.. Group 8." said Kakashi-sensei.
Oh no! That's our group..
I stood up and tried to be calm. Breathe in.. Breathe out.. Breathe in..
"Calm down, Sakura." Sasuke whispered to me.
Breathe out..
I blushed a little.
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"I love you with all my heart.." That was my last line.
"Thank you." And that was Gaara's last line then he hugged me.
(A/N: Sounds familiar? Hehe..)
As I have expected, all our classmates cheered for us, err.. I mean for Sasuke..
"Good work." Kakashi-sensei remarked. "The script was well-written. The story was nice and you acted very well."
"Sakura you're a great actress!" Naruto said. "How about a date later?"
"Date with you?! Never!" I said.
Naruto pouted.
I remembered the day I asked Sasuke for a date and he rejected me. I felt so sad and I thought my heart would shatter into pieces. Maybe that's how Naruto felt.
I sat down on my chair as I watched the other groups perform.
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I was sitting on a bench, reading my notes later that afternoon.
"A plate in the form of an isosceles triangle of base 6 feet and altitude 4 feet is submerged vertically in water. Find the force on one side of the plate if the base is parallel to and 3 feet below the surface." I read out loud for the third time but I still can't get the right answer.
I wasn't like this before. I mean I know I'm smart and I can answer these kinds of question but now I'm finding it really hard. Maybe I'm too much distracted by the happenings..
Then I spotted Gaara. Maybe he could help me out.
"Hey Gaara!" I called him.
He walked towards me and sat on the bench.
"Oh.. Uhm.. By the way, me and my friends are going to have a camping trip this coming Saturday.. Uh, wanna join?" I asked him.
"Are you sure you're asking the right Gaara?"
I chuckled. "Of course I am! And besides you're the only Gaara that I know.. So?"
"W-Would it be okay.. to your friends?" He asked.
"Of course! I'm sure it will be fun, especially with you in there. Please?" I pleaded him.
He sighed. "Oh, alright.."
Silence.
"Uhm.. I.. I was just thinking if y-you could.. help me out in this problem." I said. I gave him my notebook and a pencil.
After some minutes of analizing, he used my pencil to draw a triangle and began explaining to me the equation.
I was distracted by.. him. By his burning red hair, chilly jade eyes, his sexy lips.. Oh damn it! What am I thinking?!
I still can't believe that the person beside me, the one I used to fear, the one with scary jade orbs, quiet but dangerous type, the reason why a boy dropped out from his school is Gaara. I never thought that he'd be this.. kind. He gave me good advices that helped me a lot. Maybe, just maybe, he li-- oh as if that will ever happen. He's in love with someone else, remember?! And I hate him, I hate him damn lot! I hate him for being so.. kind.. understanding.. sweet.. I hate him because he made me fa--
"So that's why you got that answer." He said, pointing the pencil to the boxed answer.
I found myself blushing when I snapped back to reality and knew that I was staring at his face. "H-Huh? I.. I'm so-sorry.."
He sighed. "It's okay I'm going to explain it to you again."
"N-No.. Thanks anyway.. I just--" I nervously said. I hope he won't speak up again because if he does..
"I said it's okay and besides I do--"
I went closer to him.. So close that I could feel his hot breath against my skin.. So close until our lips met.
There was silence in the air.
"Sakura.." He said, almost like a whisper.
Oh no! I was too carried away that I kissed him! And now it's too late to apologize.. And because of what I've done, he'll hate me for sure! I was so speechless..
And oh yeah.. Thanks to his inviting lips and my damn teenage hormones. He should've not been so persistent! Oh, I hate him!
"A-Are you alright?" He asked me.
Now I'm trembling. I lowered my head to avoid his eyes.
"Sakura?" He called me again.
I looked at him with teary eyes and something I saw surprised me. Something behind him, about twenty paces away from us.. My eyes widened with the sight of Sasuke.
Now I'm getting more confused about my feelings for them!
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GaaraXSakura moment! Oh uhm.. sorry to all SasuXSaku fans out there. I'll try my best to write a chapter with a SasuXSaku moment.
Let me see.. Uhm Sasuke will tell Sakura something about their kissing scene in the next chapter so watch out for it!
Maya Amano's birthday is also May 23? Belated happy birthday, girl!
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