I'll be loving you forever. Deep inside my heart you leave me never. Even if you took my heart, and tore it apart I will love you still.. Forever..
Chapter 12: Forever
It's been two months after that 'I love you day' and yes, Gaara and I are officially together. I've been so happy with him. We go to the playground every week end, I bake him some cookies.. Oh, we had a lot fun together!
About that incident with Itachi.. I almost forgot about that! Maybe because I've been so happy with Gaara that I forgot about him. I've never seen him for quite a while. I wished that he'll just die and rot in hell. That bastard!
I glanced at my calendar as I stood in front of the mirror while brushing my hair. Ah.. Another fine morning! One more week and it will be Valentines day but still, I don't have the perfect gift for my Gaara. I sighed.
It was strangely dark outside. I shrugged. I picked my bag from the bed and headed straight to school.
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I was quite surprised when I saw that few people were in the school by that time. Usually around seven in the morning, a lot of students are already here, especially in our classroom. They were asking for Sasuke's autograph, shirt, handkerchief, his heart..
It was still quite dark. What time was it, anyway? I looked at the big clock and it read 5:56. That early?! But I left my apartment at around 6:45! Maybe my clock was broken or has ran out of batteries. No wonder it's dark..
I sighed. I went to my classroom, first year section one. I was about to open the door when I heard some people having their conversation. There were, I think, only two of them-- two boys.
I was quite curious so I gently opened the door. I peeked inside and saw Sasuke and Gaara. It's so early, why are they there now? I was about to bust in but then I saw so much seriousness in their face. I decided to listen to their talk.
"You're happy with her?" Sasuke asked him.
Were they talking about me?
"What do you think?"
Silence.
"You know very much that I love her from the start." Sasuke said. "I'm not insulting you but what's with the sudden change?"
"Everyone has the capacity to change, Sasuke. If you weren't so stupid and numb, she might have been yours."
Sasuke sighed.
"I know. But I thought she's just another social climber, another girl that once she have what she wants from you, she'll just dump you." He said.
"But she's different. She changed my damn life. Sasuke, you're a lucky person with lots of money, a big house, fame, girls.. But you lack something.." Gaara paused. "You lack that feeling called love. I don't know what happened to you before that made you so numb."
"I opened my heart but you took her away." Sasuke answered calmly although I knew that he was angry and.. hurt inside.
Again, silence prevailed between the two of them.
"How much do you love her?" Gaara finally spoke.
Sasuke's jet black orbs met Gaara 's jade pools. He looked straight at Gaara's eyes for quite a long while.
Sasuke's lips curved into a small smile.
"You can't measure something that cannot be measured." That was Sasuke's reply.
Such a deep answer. It took me quite a while to understand that..
You can't measure something that cannot be measured..
"I cannot measure how much I love Sakura.." My eyes widened on what I heard. That was the last thing I heard from Sasuke. Someone covered my mouth and pulled me outside the school building.
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"Itachi, what the fuck are you doing here?!" I snarled at the older Uchiha. He dragged me to the school field.
He smirked at me. Oh, that fucking smirk. I hate that. I hate him.
"How are you, my Sakura?" He asked.
"Stop calling me like that! And I don't ever want to see your face again!" I retorted.
He went closer to me. His slender fingers traced my jawline.
"But I want to see yours.. I want to lock you in my room and hear your beautiful screams and moans.." He slowly licked his lips.
There he was again with his perverted thoughts. I was about to slap him in his cheek but he caught my arm and held it tightly as if he wanted to crush my bones. That bastard!
"Itachi.. You fucking bastard!" I angrily said to him. With great force, I pulled my arm from his tight grasp.
There was his smirk again. His right hand reached for my belly but before it could make contact with my clothes, I slapped it really hard.
His left hand nursed his now burning right hand. Hah! Serves him right!
"That's okay, my Sakura.. Ready to be Mrs. Uchiha?" He said with that smirk. "I can make you happy. Give you all you want. You'll have lots of money, jewelries, clothes--"
"As if we could get married right now.. You're nineteen but I'm only fourteen and I'm underage, you stupid ass!" I smartly answered. "And besides you can never give me what I need. I need love and you lack that. No wonder people hates you.. No wonder your own brother hates you.. No wonder no one cares for you!"
He frowned.
"I like it when they hate me and I don't care about them. I like it when Sasuke hates me. Actually, I provoked him into being a numb, heartless person. I took everything that he likes." He went closer to me. "That's why I want you. And that silly little brother of mine is so weak, he doesn't deserve to be happy.. Or even to live." He continued, almost like a whisper.
He placed a kiss on my lips. I felt something on my hand. A box?
"It will help you.." He said before walking away.
When he was out of my sight, I looked at the box that he placed in my hand. My eyes widened.
Pregnancy test kit.. No, just can't be possible!
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I woke up the next morning with the sound of my alarm clock. I don't know but I felt strangely tired.. I slept early last night but I was still sleepy. I wasn't like that before.
My hand searched for the alarm clock. I can't find it anywhere. The noise started to irritate me. Where's that damn alarm clock?! Finally, I managed to find the clock and turned the alarm off. It was too late when I knew that I was on the end side of my bed-- and I fell on the floor.
I nursed my back with my hand. I suddenly felt dizzy and like I'm gonna be sick. I immediately stood up and headed straight to the bathroom.
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I went back to my room. I passed my study table where I laid the pregnancy test kit. I looked at it for quite a while. I didn't dare use it. What for? It will just be a waste of time. It will turn out to be negative. Or was that what I believed the result would be?
I will lose nothing if I try it, right?
Oh, the wonders of Science and technology.. I wouldn't need to go to a specialist to have a check-up. I have that test kit which is a lot cheaper but accurate.
I read the instruction. So simple.. Just some of my urine and I'll know the result in no time. Orochimaru-sensei once told us about that device. It is based on the detection of human chorionic gonadotropin, a hormone produced in large quantities by the placenta early in pregnancy and excreted in the pregnant woman's urine. Am I just great or what?
My hands were slightly shaking as I held the device. I went back to the bathroom and used the pregnancy test..
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Three more days and it's Valentines day. By that time, I was ready. I already have the perfect give for Gaara. I was quite surprised on what I found out. That drove me to my slight depression..
I continued experiencing fatigue. I felt so useless.. It's as if I could do nothing because I was too tired and sleepy.
Gaara and I met in the playground at around six in the evening. He brought something quite big wrapped in an inexpensive light blue paper. It was rectangular in shape.. What could it be?
I sat on the same swing beside him. He seemed different that day.. There was so much seriousness in his face. I decided to be silent.
"It's strange, it didn't rain today.." He said.
"Yeah.." I replied. "But it's quite cold, right?"
He nodded slightly then again, there was silence.
"Is there something bothering you, Sakura?" He asked me, breaking the silence. "You look so tired.."
I shook my head. I heard him sigh.
"Are you by any chance--"
"Yes, I am.. " I cut him. I kept a tight grip on my skirt. "I.. I'm.. I'm.. pregnant.." Then I started to cry.
He placed his hand on mine. It felt so warm.
"You will be fine." He whispered. "I promise you.." He didn't seem too worried.
I looked straight at his jade orbs.
"W-What do you mean?" I asked him. I was quite surprised by what he had said.
He stood up and walked a little then stopped, his back facing me.
"Sakura, I will be gone for quite a while. I don't know when I'll be coming back. I.." He paused. "I have to do something important in a far place. I.. will be leaving tomorrow."
I lowered my head. I tried to stop the tears from falling down my cheeks but I failed. I slowly raised my head and looked at him.
"Are you not happy with me?" I asked him, almost like a whisper.
"You know very well that I am happy with you.." He answered. "That's why I want to.. give your freedom back." He faced me. "Because I will be gone for quite a while.."
I stood up and approached him. I cupped his cheeks with my cold hands.
"Gaara, I don't want my freedom.. I want to be with you always.. Y-You mean a lot to me.." I said to him. "Why are y-you.. doing this to me?"
He held my hands and placed it on his chest.
"You will always be in my heart. You're my you.. You're my Sakura and you'll always be." He whispered. "But you must understand that I'll have to do certain things on my own.."
I was speechless for quite a while.
"Is this all because of Sasuke?" I asked him.
He looked quite surprised on what I had asked him. Sasuke.. He must have been the reason. He let go of my hands and just looked at me.
"No.. I just have to--"
"Damn it! Don't lie to me!" I shouted at him.
"I already told you my reason. Sasuke is not involved in here.." His voice was really cold that it almost sent shivers to my spine.
More tears sprang from my eyes. I knew Gaara. He's firm on his decisions.. Even I can't do anything about it even if it hurts so much.. I knew that I must let him go.
"That's for you.." He said, refering to that rectangular thing.
I slowly walked towards him. I brought out a small, white box from my pocket. I placed it on his hand.
"Th-That is.. for you.." I whispered. "Happy Valentines day." I flashed him a small smile even if inside I was dying in pain.
He stared at it for a moment. He then looked at me.
"Thank you.." He paused. "I love you." He then slowly walked away.
"Gaara!" I called him and he stopped. "I don't know if I can really search for you.. But.. Gaara.. I'll.. I'll wait for you.. forever!" I shouted so that he could hear me. "Because.. I love you! You're my you.. You're my Gaara and you'll always be.."
He stood still for a while then left.
My legs felt weak that I collapsed on the ground.
"I.. Will.. Wait for you.. Forever.." I whispered. I looked at what it seemed his valentine gift for me. I took it and held it in my arms. I cried and cried.. It hurts a lot. It hurts damn lot..
And it was at that time that it rained. It poured instantly that in some minutes, I was soaked. It didn't matter to me.. I don't care..
I looked at the swings and I suddenly remembered the happy days that we had. They say that you will never know how much that person means to you unless he's gone. Maybe they're right.. I never had the chance to tell him how much he means to Haruno Sakura.
Gaara.. If you only knew how much you mean to me. You mean the whole damn world to me.. You mean everything to me.
That's why no matter what happens, no matter how hard it will be, no matter how long it will take.. I will wait for you.
Because I love you..
Forever..
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O.O;; Okay, Gaara is gone and now Sasuke has a chance but not to worry GaaSaku fans.. (Just to be fair to the others..)Just review okay.. Thanks!
