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You and me
Author: Sue
Summary: What happens after Luke and Lorelai break up (post wedding). What has to happen that they realize that they need each other?
Disclaimer: I do not own anything, or anyone so don't sue.
A/N: So, this is my first Gilmore Girls fic and I hope you'll like it. The stories will be told by different persons and their views of things. I'm not English so please excuse my bad grammar. I didn't see the fifth season yet because I live in Germany so my fic is based on the things I heard and read about Luke's and Lorelai's break-up. If you liked this please review, cause you know.. writing is like acting. The best thing is the applause after all. Sue
Lorelai:
That I was here, that I stood in front of him had took me a hell lot of will power. I tried desperately to look him in the eyes, to find a sign, anything to show me he still cared. But his gaze was fixed on the counter, his hands whipped it with a brutality that frightened me. I wanted to say something, anything to make him look at me but I just couldn't think of any words. But I needed to see, to hear from him that it would be okay. That we would make it work. So I cleared my throat for the sixth time and suddenly he lifted his head. And I shrieked back immediately feeling like stabbed through the chest by his icy and hard eyes.
I felt the tears welling up and looked down, not wanting him to see the pain he caused me. I was upset and I was confused but most of all I was scared. Scared because I've never seem Luke like this all the years I'd already known him. Usually he would scream or yell and he would show me that he was damn angry but this time everything was different.
"This is not going to work Lorelai. I mean you and me.. that's just too much too ask", he snapped and his voice was just like his eyes. Icy and hard. "I think we need some time apart". The pain that flooded through my body, almost caused my heart to explode.
Hearing this words form him was like my worst nightmare coming true. I've gone through a lot of shit, I' ve always been able to handle things, even my parents. I'd raised a child on my own without any support and with nothing in my hands. There was not much in the world that could bring me down, that could take away all of my hopes. But this man meant the world to me and losing him as a friend, as a boyfriend was much more than I could bear.
I looked right at him, it was almost unbearable but I had to. I felt the tears were about to fall and I stumbled back, never losing eye contact. I've never wanted us to be like this, I've never wanted to see him like this. God, I was so sorry. I wished that I could turn back the time, to change it all. But I couldn't and I knew that.
"I'm sorry", I whispered quietly and then I rushed out of the diner as fast as I could. Leaving Luke who stared after me shocked. Too sad I didn't see his eyes suddenly changing and how they were full pf pain, deep pain. I think he knew that he was being unfair, that I alt least deserved a chance to explain myself but he couldn't help himself. He felt like reliving the nightmare of being betrayed, being rejected once again and it made him so damn angry, it hurt him so much. But he guess he knew me just as well as I knew him and he realized that a Gilmore Girl, especially me didn't cry very often, and seeing that he had caused my eyes to water made him think that maybe he'd gone too far.
A few days later: Sookie
I was making breakfast in the kitchen of the Dragonfly when Lorelai stumbled in. I still remember how shocked I was to see her like this. With red and swollen eyes and a face as white as paper sheet.
"Coffee", she muttered. "I need coffee".
I looked at her in deep worry and turned around to reach for the huge cup that I had planned to drink myself. "Here you go Honey. I know it's not as good as Luke's but.. ",I began but stopped at once when I saw how she slightly flinched in pain by just hearing his name.
I sighed and then I sat down beside my best friend. I didn't really know what to say to her or what to do. "Hey...you're scaring me Hon. Are you okay? I know you had a rough week and I would love to help you through this but I don't know what to say… I mean I admit that this wedding things is a mess but I still don't understand why Luke stopped talking to you and …".I stopped, knowing that I didn't help her at all. I was just making it worse by speaking about it.
Lorelai looked up and formed her lips into a forced smile. "I'm okay. It's going to be okay, I'm just tired. And hungry. Do you have any food lying around?"
In fact she was more than just hungry. She was desperate, exhausted, gaunt… finished. I didn't need her to tell me this, I saw it by just looking in her eyes. Rory was back in Yale, she'd wanted to stay with her Mom but Lorelai had insisted that she would go back. I guess she needed time, time to recover, time to get back control. Rory wanted to help her with this but she was so stubborn sometimes and I hated the fact that she kept on refusing to accept help.
I sighed and then I remembered her question and jumped up. I couldn't help her through this mess it seemed but I at least could make her feel better by having a full stomach. "Of course! What do you want? Pancakes, Brownies?"
Lorelai just shrugged her shoulders which wasn't comforting me at all. I was really worried about her, her condition was even worse than I had thought. But the worst thing of all was the only person whop could ease her pain was Luke. I swear I tried to speak to Luke but he ran away as soon as I took the word 'Lorelai' in my mouth. It was terrible, this man that meant so much to Lorelai, this man that loved Lorelai since years, acted like she wouldn't exist. I did understand why Luke was hurt and angry about this whole wedding mess but I just couldn't think of a reason to treat my best friend like this. She didn't deserve that and it made me really angry, seeing what this treatment did to her.
I quickly made some pancake and set them front of her. I was lost at words so I just said what I thought. "You look terrible", I simply stated which caused her to raise her eyebrow.
"Oh.. thank you very much", Lorelai grunted and I shook my head quickly, a small smile appearing on my lips.
"You know what I mean.. When was the last time you really slept? A week ago? Go home and get some sleep. Me and Michel can take care of everything", I said and looked at her with eyes that begged her to believe me and she groaned.
"Alright! But I'll be back tomorrow", she said and stood up. I guess she realized that was right. That she needed some sleep, some rest.
She walked out of the kitchen without another word, leaving the coffee and the pancakes behind. As well as me.
"Bye Honey", I yelled. I got no response.
