I'm Back with a brand new chapter...betcha didn't think I'd update this fast huh? LoL thanks for the wonderful reviews--I wasn't sure if people were still interested in this so I'm very delighted at the feedback :) So here ya go with chapter 11, enjoy and review at the end!

Chapter 11:

Cristina sighed frustrated as she angrily stormed down the hall, she should have never let this happen. Then maybe she wouldn't be in a nervous wreck right now, it seemed like everyone who knew about her and John had abandoned her. First Jackie and now Charlie--some friends, Cristina mumbled to herself.

Just then Cristina looked up and saw John and Laura down the hall, they were laughing and holding hands--a major change from 20 minutes ago. Cristina stood off to the side of the hall as she saw how happy Laura looked, Cristina closed her eyes as she felt the overwhelming guilt come to surface. How could she let this happen? How did she end up messing around with her best friends boyfriend? Cristina knew she had to tell Laura--she had to fix this if she wanted any chance of salvaging their friendship.

Cristina took a deep breath and headed towards John and Laura--it was now or never. As she was walking, Laura turned and noticed her coming, she squealed happily and ran to Cristina. "Cristina oh my gosh look!" Laura yelled as she stopped in front of Cristina and held out her left hand. Cristina's eyes widened as she felt the air leave from her lungs, she took Laura's hand and stared at the nice sized diamond on the forth finger.

"Isn't it just the most beautiful ring you've ever seen?" Laura said happily.

Cristina swallowed hard and forced a smile, "That's wonderful Laura--I'm so happy for you!" She pulled Laura into a huge hug as she stared at John, who looked down in shame. Laura pulled back and said, "Thanks--you're going to be my maid of honor right?"

"Me? Why me? What about your sister?" Cristina asked.

"Because--if it wasn't for you I wouldn't be as happy as I am now" Laura smiled as she took Cristina's hand, "You're the greatest friend a girl could ask for."

Cristina felt her chest tighten at Laura's words, if only she knew what a horrible person I am, she thought. Cristina looked down at her feet as Laura jumped up when she saw Torrie Wilson down the hall. She gave one last quick hug to Cristina before running over to Torrie and telling her the news.

As Laura was busying down the hall, John slowly walked over to Cristina. She noticed his presence and looked up at him, she gave a small smile and whispered, "Congratulations--you two belong together." John frowned and said softly, "Don't be like that Cristy."

"You really think that proposing to her will make everything go away and seem right again? You're wrong John--if anything you've just made things a whole lot worst for her when she finds out," Cristina said.

"Who says she has to Cristina?" John said irritably.

"You know you may be able to live with this hanging over your head for the rest of your life but I sure as hell can't John--She's going to have to find out sooner or later," Cristina said angrily in hushed tones.

"Cristina I love her--I can't tell her whats happened she'll be hurt," John said.

"So you expect me to look her in the eye and lie to her about how great her future husband is? You know John--you've reached an all time low. I don't even know you anymore," Cristina said as she turned to leave. John quickly reached out and grabbed her arm, "Please don't do this--don't walk away," he pleaded.

"Leave me alone John," Cristina said sternly as she snatched her arm out of his grasp and walked away.


Later that day:

"Oh my gosh I still can't believe he proposed, I mean I figured that he wanted to wait a few more years but I'm really happy he did--I knew from the moment I met him he was the one for me!" Laura said happily as she plopped down on the sofa beside Cristina, who was busy reading a book.

"Cristina--stop reading that thing and talk to me!" Laura said as she snatched the book away from Cristina's hands and tossed it on the chair nearby. "I've never been so happy in my life Cristy," Laura finished.

Cristina smiled weakly as she stared down at her hands so she didn't have to look Laura in the eye. "You okay Cristy? You've been awfully quiet today," Laura asked concerned.

"I'm fine--don't worry about me," Cristina said as she forced a big smile.

"Are you sure you're okay? I mean I know I haven't been much of a friend lately but if you need som--"

"You've been a wonderful friend to me Laura," Cristina quietly interrupted. She sighed and rubbed her temples, she had to tell her now while she still had the nerve. Cristina turned to Laura and said, "I need to tell you something important."

Laura saw the serious look on her friends face and said, "About what?"

Cristina took a deep breath as she said, " It's about John and--"

"Hey baby," John interrupted as he walked into the lounge. Cristina sighed frustrated and leaned back into the sofa, why did he always have to come in at the most inconvenient times? 'Is this some kind of sign?' Cristina asked herself.

"Hey sweetie," Laura said as she got off the couch and jumped into John's arms and placed a kiss on his lips. Cristina rolled her eyes as she stood up and headed for the door, Laura pulled away from John and grabbed Cristina's arm. "What were going to say Cristy?" Laura asked.

Cristina glared over at John as she said, "Nevermind--I'll tell you later." She turned sharply and left the room.

As soon as she left, Cristina let out a small scream to let out her anger, why does everything have to be so hard? Why can't it be simple and easy? Then again, Cristina had no one to blame but herself. Afterall, she's the one that has let this whole situation go as far as it has and she has yet to do anything about it. Cristina never realized how much of a soap opera her life really is--all she knew was that if she didn't do something soon, all hell was gonna break loose.

"Cristy!" A voice yelled from behind her. Cristina turned and saw John headed towards her, 'God what the hell do I have to do for him to leave me alone?' she asked herself. She shook her head and kept on walking, maybe if she ignored him he would get the hint she didn't want to talk to him.

Unfortunately for her, John sped up his pace and easily caught up with Cristina. He grabbed her arm and swirled her around to face him, he stared at her angrily before speaking. "What the hell is wrong with you?"

Cristina looked at him disbelievingly, "What do you think is wrong John?! First you fucking tell me you're in love with me, then you seduce me and put me in the most horrible situation a person could be in, and to top it all off you make everything worse by proposing I mean do you even know how much shit you have put us both in?"

John sighed and pulled Cristina over to an isolated part of the hall, "Don't you dare stand there and put all the blame on me! No one forced you to keep coming back to me you decided on your own!" he said angrily in hushed tones so no one could hear him.

"Because you wouldn't leave me alone John! You think I like stabbing my best friend in the back?" Cristina said frustrated.

"Are you saying I like lying to my girlfriend? I don't like it Cristina--I hate having to lie to her everytime I see her, I hate pretending that I'm the perfect boyfriend, and I hate having all these feelings! Don't think you're the only person who's life has been turned upside down by all this!" John pointed out.

"If you hate lying to her then why do you keep doing it?" Cristina asked angrily.

"Why do you?" John countered.

"I've tried telling her but everytime I get the nerve to I get interrupted by you!" Cristina exclaimed.

"If you really wanted to tell her you would've already done it Cristina!"

"It's not that easy John!" Cristina said a little loudly. She sighed and ran a hand through her curly locks, "Look I don't know what the hell you're trying to do but I'm telling her today--I can't do this anymore."

"What about us? You're just gonna turn your back on everything we have?" John asked.

"There is no us! We don't have anything John--all we have is something between the sheets, that's all!" Cristina said.

"So I guess you were lying when you told me you loved me then huh?" John asked angrily as he started to raise his voice.

Cristina glared at him as she tried to pull him into a more private area before someone heard them, John refused to move though as he suddenly pulled Cristina into a passionate kiss, which she immediately responded to him.

"Tell me you don't like it when I kiss you--tell me you don't get shivers down your spine when I touch you--tell me you don't love me like I love you," John whispered harshly after the kiss was broken.

Cristina looked at him for a few moments trying to recompose herself after such an intense kiss, she backed away from John and said bitterly, "Love is nothing but an illusion." She turned and quickly walked off leaving John standing in the hallway alone......

Or so he thought.


What does that mean? Was there someone else in the hallway? Did they hear everything? Did they see the kiss? Who knows? I do.....well....not really but I'll figure it out soon. So until then please review and I'll try to get the answers you want!