Chapter 43: A mix of Grief and Jealousy.

Isis ran blindly down the street; running, always running, unable to stop for the blind desperation of getting away from everything. Her face was a mask of tears, her eyes red and puffy along with her cheeks; wretched with despair.

She stopped, her breathing, still jagged and irregular, still sharp and full of despair. She gasped and slowly sunk to her knees, using her hands to cover her face, fingers spread out as she sobbed, her whole body shuddering from the force of her grief.

How long she cried she didn't know. Only the fact that she poured everything out of her, her misery of the day's events, the anger of what her parents did to her, the pain of what had happened to her, the shock of having her world turned upside down.

Memories swamped her congested mind with mixed emotions. Her first attempt and using a blade, her first kiss, her mother, her father, the day Hiro left Grandpa's, the day she was sent to the headmaster's office for thumping the school bully, going to the abbey, the explosion, the face that caused it – too fuzzy make out, everything came, rushing into her, a rush of voices swarmed around her until she couldn't cope any longer.

"Leave me alone!" She screamed, almost hysterical, her voice pleading and unnatural to what it usually was. "Leave me!" She sobbed; she couldn't stop; everything threatening to take over her body, soul and mind.

More came: old friends; old bullies; new friends; the island; new enemies; a death; cold golden eyes; the emotionless voice of a mother who didn't care; the voice of step-mothers; the hatred of her family; the nightmares that flooded her; the pain of the slaps she would receive; the loneliness when living with her father; cold, impassive business men coming to see her father; slate eyes…

"Go away…" She was losing now, unable to breathe, unable to get above it, slowing drowning in the memories of emotions that never got out of her.

"He left us for a reason."

A voice; pulling her out of the void that was overwhelming her.

She felt something warm wrap over her shoulders and two large hands help her up, pulling her into an embrace; cradling her gently, rubbing soothing circles on her back.

"He's gone. It's never going to be okay." She whispered, causing another wave of sobs to erupt.

"Just let it out…"

"Why did you leave me? Leave Tyson? Grandpa? Why did you go away and why did Grandpa leave us? I don't want him to leave me! He's the only one who saved me from this stupid, stupid…"

"It's only insane with you around Ice." He told her, smiling slightly.

"It's not fair…" She murmured, starting to calm down now, her voice quiet, but tears still flooding down her face.

"Nothing ever is."

"No! No, no, no… no, no!" She shook her head violently; her eyes began to plead with him.

"Hey? What's wrong?" He asked her, his eyes now fully of concern as she began to.

"I've done something stupid today." She murmured, clutching the soft material of his t-shirt, "such a baka… I don't deserve him…"

"Deserve who?" His voice sharper suddenly; laced with worry for her.

"My boyfriend… Kai." Her voice shuddered with love for that name. "I don't deserve him, he's wonderful, amazing…" She trailed off again in thought.

"Hey, I'm sure he feels the same way about you." He told her.

"I slapped him. Sure he still likes me now" She said sarcastically.

He blinked with disbelief before smiling again.

"You've done worse whilst upset I suppose." He said frankly, she buried her face into the warm material of his shirt; the tears were coming back again.

"I'm so stupid… I didn't mean to…" She mumbled quietly, he only just caught it.

"Go and apologize, he'll understand if he really does love you Isis. Okay? It's not that hard, you'll feel better afterwards."

She pulled out of his embrace and looked into his eyes, she smiled, the first real one since her grandpa died.

"Thanks Hiro."


Slate eyes watched in disbelief at the sight before him. His own beautiful lilac eyed phoenix. Having finally calmed down and left the arms of the stranger.

What could he say? What could he think? Jealousy began ooze into him, a green gunk taking over his rational mind as his heart began to rip painfully like a huge slab of paper.

He fell to his knees, tears still refusing to come; and he was glad, still, what should he think?

He had seen that… boy do what he had failed to do; he'd failed to help her through the blow and disbelief of a death that had been shocking to everyone.

He couldn't stop watching, though deep inside it was tearing at him much worse than anything his own grandfather could have done.

She had wept in this person's arms, something she had refused to do in his. She had cried and cried and sent out all of her bottled up emotions.

What did she do to him he'd tried to help her?

She'd slapped him.

Even though they were out of ear-shot he had realised they were close, very close; Kai doubted that she even let Tyson hold her and help her fight her inner demons.

Was I just a joke? He thought, his own pit of despair beginning to engulf him.

They disappeared from view, back from where 'the boy' had originally come from.

He felt his jealously and anguish merge into an untameable anger. He began to shake with it until he felt an overwhelming urge to punch something.

He punched the wall, unable to control what was going on inside him.

He felt sick, nauseous at the whole thought of it. The ideas that came into his head.

Was she just playing with me? His eyes widened before narrowing into a scowl.

How dare she.


LunaRavenCroft: I'm back! With a new computer and the same documents and such like! I'm very proud of my dad, he managed to save this one little chapter for me! So yes, you can blame the revelations on him lol. Now then, on to my amazing-reviewers-who-without-I-would-have-given-up-a-long-time-ago:

Wreckless Spririt: You'll find out who Kali is inaround four chapters time if my format iscorrect, and I'm really sorry for taking so long to update!

BlackDranzerGurl: Hehe, don't worry about it!

DarkZero313: Eep! I know!

Kristy Himura: I know, he's so in love and vice-versa yet he should jump to conclusions... (sighs) nevermind...

Bloody Shadows: (thunder roars, lightening crashes, babies cry and dogs howl) I forgot Ray! Nah, just kidding, he'll be in soon, I promise!

Ms.SoUrPuSs: lol, it looks like the computer guy wanted to keep his family jewels! And, yes, your evil half is quite scary rofl,so I did update lol!

Diamond Core: Your back! (hugz Diamond Core) You'll find out who Kali is don't you worry about it! Yeah, I'm gonna have lots of 'relations' coming to the funeral. Don't worry I forgive you. And yeah, Isis was (and still is)pretty messed up.

EmI-cHaN and Her 3 Spirits lol, this stories almost finished, but I've still got plans for the sequel! Have no fear!

Beyblade-gal: lol, thank you! And yeah, the message was done on the family computer, our family is lucky enough to have three computers in the house.

Smoke-Angel: Wow, you must read really fast! And no, Hilary is not me! lol, don't worry about it, he's an annoying git in real life also, also he does have a soft spot for one of my brunette friends, lol, so I based those to on that, also do you not think that Hilary gets paired up with Tyson and co too much? Hmm... Strange... I like Nina also, although she can be a little bit of a bitch and times lol. Yeah, Isis is one of my fav OC's she keeps Kai from total git without her, lol, I like that phrase.

Je mata for now my strawberries!