"Why do you keep loving me?"

Disclaimer: J.K Rowling wrote the books not me. I don't own anything. Except the characters I made up.

Chapter Eleven: Rumours

After the after math of their prank everything was great for them. All the teachers were confused. Even Dumbledore had a slightly confused gaze though he may know he usually knows everything. Times after that were always fun like that. Then there was this one night when they had snuck out the castle and they were messing around in the grounds.

They had finally got back to the castle and lily was in one of her 'lovey dovey moods' with James and she slept in his bed. No hanky panky mind but that's when the rumours started.

"Did you hear about Lily and James? Yeah I mean I always thought they would Lily was always a slag."

"God James told everyone that he was only going out with her for a joke."

"I heard that he just wanted her for sex."

"I heard she was pregnant and he was going to dump her and leave her with the baby."

"Oh poor Lily."

"No it was her fault James said it was her fault cause she didn't want to use … you know. "

"God what an idiot. Poor James."

Lily was in blissful ignorance to all this though as she had slept right through past midday. And when she finally got up she just strolled down to the common room happy as can be. She only realised something was up when she saw Tasha and Charlie. They were sitting in a corner whispering and looking upset. When they turned and saw her they looked as if they had seen a ghost.

"Hi girls. How's it going?"

"Um … okay. I guess." Tasha answered.

"I'm starving can we go get some lunch or something? I mean I missed breakfast." Lily asked. Her friends looked at each other in this way and Lily was suspicious.

"Um … no Lil's we just ate I don't think we should…" Charlie began.

"Oh come on I'll be quick." And then lily dragged them downstairs to eat.

As they walked lily got some pretty bad glares. She also noticed they were all from girls mostly. Then eventually one came up to her backed by another group of girls.

"God lily we heard what you did to James. I mean could you be any more of a loser?" She glared at Lily.

"What are you talking about? I haven't done anything to James." Lily was confused.

"Yeah whatever. We have heard everything you have done one of James told us everything. We think you're a top class bich and you should leave poor James alone whether your pregnant or not." Then she stomped off.

Lily was so shocked that she just ignored it and when she walked into the main hall she couldn't ignore it anymore. Everyone was staring at her some in anger some in pure hatred and some in just disgust. Lily felt like dirt even though it was all lies.

More people had come up telling her their version of what they thought was the truth and telling her what a terrible person she was. She began to get more stressed. Could James have really told them all of this. He wouldn't lie. He had said he loved her. But then she had said no to sex. Maybe this whole mess was because of that. She felt herself drop and she fell to the floor in a collapsed heap.

She didn't faint but she was near tears. Then she remembered something she was strong. She wouldn't let this get to her. She saw James walk in. She didn't want him to see her like this so she got up. He saw her stumble slightly and he rushed over to help her. She looked up at him.

"It's over." She whispered. He almost didn't hear her but he did. He stood back and she ran past him no one followed even her girl friends were too shocked. She ran from the from the castle she didn't want to be found. She ran to hide by the green houses.

She needed to be left alone for a while. She sat and thought and eventually began to grow cold it was quite late so she went up to hopefully sneak into her dorm' quietly. She walked through the castle and took through all the marauders secret passageways so not to bump into anyone who knew the rumours. When she entered the common room as quietly as possible all her friends were sitting there waiting for her. She was bombarded with questions and they were all asking at the same time and they all stood up and rushed over to her and she got the same feeling as before. She felt dizzy. Suddenly she blacked out.

When she woke up she was upset to find out that she was alone. No one had been to visit her. Then she remembered. She felt worse. She wanted to go. She hated hospital smells. It reminded her of when her granny had died. That smell had always stayed with her. A mixture of bacterial wash and a nasty kind of toilet smell. All in all not nice.

She let madam Pomfrey take her temperature and she said she felt okay and let her go. She traipsed up the stairs to the dorm' feeling lousy. She walked in and saw James sitting alone with a bunch of flowers in his hands watching the wall. He looked so sad but lily felt no pity for him. Not after … she didn't want to think about it. She walked straight past him up her stairs into her dorm and slammed the door. Her friends greeted her with a hug. They told her about how she hadn't been allowed visitors and that's why they weren't there. They were about to tell her something about James and she told them she didn't want to here it. They didn't mention it again although they really needed to talk to her about him.

But they didn't.