Chapter 6: Honor Her
Morning had come to Pine Valley, and what a beautiful morning it was. It was such a contrast to the darkness of heartache that clouded the Kane Family. However, you could always hear the birds chirping louder in the courtyard of Kendall's condo more than anywhere else. Bianca approached Kendall's condo door knowing that beyond that door, she would no longer see Kendall. She would never see her trying to make breakfast or offering her a cup of coffee. She knew that she needed to go into her place, not merely to get her an outfit for the service, but also for herself. This would be the ultimate reality check for her, a way for her to accept that this was not some unbearable dream, but her new reality. She opened the door to her sister's home finding the last thing she would guess to come across: a very drunk and passed out Ethan on the floor. She glared at the room and saw the hurt in every smashed item. She angrily went over to Ethan and tried to awaken him and forcefully tugged on his clothing.
"Get up Ethan" Bianca angrily yelled at him. "Get up!"
Startled, he quickly uttered the words that were in thoughts, "Kendall…" He looked up to only find Bianca, "Leave me alone, just leave me the bloody hell alone." Ethan had never been anything but nice to Bianca, but she know that things were different this morning, this of all mornings. Ethan got up from the floor only to dig up a bottle of alcohol out of the kitchen cabinet. He began to open the bottle to continue the drunken binge he was drowning himself in.
Bianca took the bottle, grabbed it and flung it across the room. The smashing of the bottle to the floor shocked Ethan. He had never seen Bianca like this before, but she had never faced the prospect of life without Kendall. "This, this is how you honor my sister, by drowning yourself in alcohol. She loved you Ethan, she wanted to share her life with you"
"That's just it, 'loved' past tense." Ethan raised his hands in defeat, "Bianca, she's gone, and it's over." Ethan went back over to the cabinet in search of anything alcoholic. Knowing that there was no more, he went over and got his keys to go out and get something to drink, anywhere he could.
Bianca blocked Ethan's path and shoved him back in his chest, "You think you have a monopoly on pain, you think you're the only one that lost her," Bianca yelled angrily with tears rolling down her cheeks.
"She was MY sister, she MY blood. You may not have had a lot of time with her, but neither did I. We all lost, nothing is ever going to be the same. Nothing is ever going to feel the same, but doing this to yourself" She shook her head. "I know that she wouldn't want this." Ethan looked at Bianca; tears welled up in his eyes. Bianca quickly turned around and walked out the door leaving Ethan with his thoughts.
Ethan looked around and began to pick up everything he had launched around the room in anger. As he continued to pick up fragments of glass, he also picked up the ring box from the floor. He opened it to reveal the ring he had bought for Kendall. He stared at the box for a while, pondering the lost possibilities. He then snapped it closed and clutched the box as he fell to his knees and slumped against island of the kitchen. He sobbed unlike he ever had before. In that one moment, the true impact of Kendall's death overwhelmed him.
