Chapter 10: Secrets & Lies

It was mid summer and it had been four months since Kendall's death. Erica arrived at the cemetery. This had become a bit of a ritual for her. She would go there once a week to lay flowers on Kendall's grave. Ironically, the daughter she never wanted in her life, was the daughter she couldn't let go. She liked to go there and talk to Kendall, share her thoughts with her. This was something that was difficult for her to do when Kendall's was alive. It was her way of still being a mother to her. As strange as it seemed, it made sense to her.

She approached Kendall's headstone and much to her surprise he was near there. She snidely asked him, "What brings you here?"

"Same as you, paying respects, I guess." He paused, and looked her over, "You come often do you?" He questioned her and Erica only stared at him. "You must have tremendous guilt, don't you? That's why you come every week."

"I really don't have to justify my reasons for being here, especially to you, but she's my daughter and I love her David." He could see the pain in her eyes, but he coldly glared at her for a few moments. Things were anything but cordial between them.

"You love her, huh? Are you the same woman who never even acknowledged Kendall's existence, barely referring publicly that she was your daughter."

Erica became angry that David would throw that part of her life in her face. "That was a different time. You have no right to judge me, none! Why the hell am I still standing here talking to you about this" She was enraged at David's remarks.

"Well, I get it, you're here; I guess you must love her." David closed the gap between them and was inches from her face, and quietly he told her, "It is painful isn't it? It hurts to have your life snatched out from under you. Your pain makes it easier for me to get up in the morning." His voice was cold and heartless toward her. "I just hope you wake up each day with the same heartache that I've had to wake up to."

She attempted to slap him, but David caught her hand before she could connect with his face. "You're a bastard, David. You think I care about YOUR PAIN. I didn't have a hand in your pain. Your pain was caused by your precious baby doll and her momma. Babe is where she should be, behind bars and that is where you belong and Krystal well…" Erica was furiously cut off by David

"What, Erica, she got what she deserved, isn't that what you were going to say. She didn't deserve to die Erica."

Erica seemed delighted that she had gotten to David. "She brought that onto herself. Everything that you all got was cosmic payback for what you did to Bianca, to Kendall, to all of us. If only Krystal would have turned herself in and not run like she did, that accident, well - it was all her fault." Erica coldly told David.

"And Kendall, what about her," David asked.

"Don't you even …you have no right to even mention her name." Erica got into his face.

"I think she'd get a kick at how you defender her. Funny, how she had to die for you to do it." He chuckled as he walked a few steps from her. "To bad you'll never get to know her child."

Erica turned around surprised at David's statement, "What did you say?"

David stood there quiet. Erica probed him again, "You said her child. What would posses you to say something like that?"

David quipped, "Well, she was pregnant, wasn't she?"

"How would you know?" She asked him.

David raised his eyes, "I guess the paper must of mentioned it," he quickly changed his focus on their conversation and looked over at Kendall headstone and callously smirked at her, "Her death Erica, that's YOUR comic payback," He then looked back at her, "Paybacks a bitch isn't it," He walked away content that he had gotten the last word.

Erica was taken aback at his statements, but particularly about Kendall's pregnancy. She was sure that the papers had not reported that detail. She thought it was strange that he would know about the baby. She reflected about it for a few moments, and then tried to shake off the uneasy feeling. She left the flowers and went to visit Bianca.

The pounding of the door resonated through the hallway, "I coming," the banging continued as Bianca moved toward the door, "Whoa, I said I'm coming." Bianca opened the door to a frantic looking Erica, "Mom?" She rushed into Bianca home.


"Bianca, do you have the newspaper?" Erica asked her frenzied for an answer.

"What newspaper, today's mom?" She asked her mother puzzled that she was so anxious about seeing the newspaper.

"No, I need to see the clippings… about Kendall … about the accident. I need to know something"

"What, what is it that you need to know" Bianca stood still for a moment and then saw the desperation on her mother's face, so she went to retrieve the clipping she had saved. Erica took them from Bianca and anxiously scanned them.

"What are you looking for?" Bianca asked.

"Did we tell anyone?" Erica asked as she continued to look through the clippings.

'Tell any one what, you're scaring me. What are you talking about?" Bianca asked confused.

"About the baby, Kendall's baby, it was only, me, you, Jack and Ethan that knew", Erica paused, "something is not right."

"What's not right?" Erica continued to look through the articles. Bianca placed her hand over the articles to stop her mother, "You're not going to find anything in there Mom. We had agreed that we would honor Kendall's privacy and not give the media everything. Kendall hated that type of intrusion." She tried to calm her mother down.

Erica placed the clippings down, "I'm sorry sweetheart for scaring you. I guess I just over-reacted."

"Why? What was this all about?" Bianca was concerned for her mother and had been since that night Kendall died. She knew her mother was handling this well, but she was waiting for a breakdown or some relapse in her recovery.

"It was nothing… Nothing I can't handle. You're looking at me like I've cracked." She looked at Bianca and tried to reassure her, "I'm fine, I really am." Bianca tentatively nodded. "I have to run, I meeting Jackson for dinner, I love you sweetheart. Give Miranda a kiss for me."

She quickly hugged Bianca, "Sure, I love you too mom." Erica left Bianca's place, but that feeling still lingered for her.


Erica arrived at the penthouse where Jackson was awaiting her arrival. She walked in preoccupied. "Jackson, I need a favor"

"Anything, what is it that you need." Jack asked her concerned about the tone in her voice.

"First, I need to ask something. Did you ever tell anyone that Kendall was pregnant?"

Jack grasped her shoulders, "I wouldn't go against your wishes. You wanted for Kendall to have some semblance of privacy. After everything she had been through the last few years, she deserved at least that much. You, Bianca, and certainly Ethan didn't need anymore intrusion from the media in your lives. So no, I didn't tell anyone, not even Greenlee."

Erica heavily sighed, "Thank you. Now I need something else. I need for you to get me the full autopsy report on Kendall."

Jackson looked horrified at her request, "Why, why would you want something like that. I mean …"

"Don't look at me like that. I just need for you to verify something for me. We really never got the details about the baby. I need to know how far along Kendall was in her pregnancy?" Erica asked Jack.

"Why, Erica. Why would you want to know that now? Why torture yourself with such a detail." Jack shook his head in disbelief at her request.

"I just want to know, I need to know…please Jackson." She pleaded with him.

Jackson made some phone calls and within the hour they messengered the report over to Erica's Penthouse. Jackson took the report, but Erica was eager to know. Jack, however, took his time to look over the report. He knew that this was something he had to do for Erica. She watched him as he read the report. The look in his eyes gave away something that disturbed him and surprised him. Erica noticed the change in his disposition.

He looked at her with apprehension in his eyes, "Erica, there is definitely something here. Something that you need to know … uhh Kendall wasn't pregnant. According to this report she was never pregnant at all."

"That's impossible Jack" Erica shook her head and walked away from Jack. "No it can't be."

"That's what it says here, I'm sorry Erica."

"It is impossible Jackson. She told Bianca" Erica boldly stated to Jack.

Jackson pointed toward the report, "It's in here, Erica?"

"No, it can't be right, because Kendall had seen a doctor before she died." Jackson tried to interrupt her, "Wait, She had her pregnancy confirmed. I know this because Ethan mentioned something to Bianca a while back. He told her that a receptionist from a doctor's office had inadvertently called Kendall's condo to reminder her of an upcoming appointment. Jack, this was after the accident. So that report can't be right, it's not right." Erica just nodded in skepticism at the report.

"Erica, tell me why you are bring this up now? Okay, maybe this report is wrong, but why now, what brought this on?"

Erica looked at Jackson with a slight hesitation. She was unsure whether or not she should share her suspicions, "David knew. He knew about Kendall. Here me out on this, before you think I have gone off the deep end…okay"

"Okay, Erica. Go ahead." Jack assured Erica that he would listen.

"What if David had something to do with Kendall's accident. I mean he hates me enough that he would want to cause me this kind of pain."

"Erica, c'mon. How does David connect in all of this? It's ridiculous. It totally appears to be some horrible accident. They just haven't found the person who was responsible. Whoever it was fled the scene in a panic. You know they are still searching for that man in the composite sketch. Erica it looks nothing like David. He does have a grudge, but I seriously doubt that he would do something so horrible. David can be evil, but even he couldn't…" Jack attempted to rationalize his explanation.

She quietly chuckled, "You give David too much credit. There's just something there. I can't put my finger on it. He has that capacity to hurt people, just think about Jack. He didn't go after Bianca because he still has some feeling for her, but Kendall….there is no love lost between them. Kendall went after Babe with a fury after we found out about Miranda. She was behind Babe losing custody and convinced Bianca to let the DA go after her. He also knew that my relationship with Kendall had changed, he knew, he knew Jack - this would be the way to get back at me. I'm convinced. I think that he may have had something to do with what happened to Kendall. I'm sorry Jack that's just the way I feel." Erica wiped away some tears. Tears she was shedding at the mere thought of the possibility that she may have lost Kendall because of a vendetta against her. "This may have just been my fault."

"It wasn't. It was an accident, Erica." Jack took Erica in his arms and tried to comfort her, "that's all it was, a horrible, horrible accident. Just let it go, Erica. Honor her, but let it go."

She closed her eyes pressed her head near his chest and inaudible to Jackson, Erica whispered, "I can't."


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