Author's Note: Hellooooo!!! I'm sorry, again…. for the long wait, But I've been working now, I've got a summer job and stuff, but now, I'm in two weeks vacation, so I'm trying my best! And I know that my chapter was hard to read because of the formatting, sorry to everyone, but my 'word' was having problems and everything fucked up, I couldn't fix it. I hope it's ok now!
Explanation: OK, things are kinda taking a weird turn from this chapter on. Events and such will go by faster in the story(a bit rushed I know, but I don't want this to end up over 30 chapters you know. So I'm condensing them a bit, without ruining them)
Disclaimer: Everything that J.K. Rowling invented is hers. Everything I have invented is mine. No touchy.
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Previous Chapter"I heard her scream Remus, and you're a werewolf aren't you? You are killing her Remus. She is hurting! STOP KILLING HER MOONY!!!"
Krista laughed. James screamed. And something clicked inside Remus' mind. The yell. It had been Lily! He smelled the air, searching for a scent that had no place among the forbidden forest. He turned, he cold feel her. She was far, and she was fading, her scent was diminishing greatly. James had gone mad but he knew that it wasn't his fault. But he also knew that he wouldn't be hurt. Suddenly, Remus couldn't sense Lily anymore… Her aura had disappeared.
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His heart started beating faster. Since when did a sickness become so dangerous? But he owed James so much, he could at least help him. And with Voldemort at their traces, life had become dangerous for anyone. And Lily… the only chance that James probably had to live longer, was going. And if Remus lost his friend, one of his best friends, he would literally die everyday. Every morning would pain him. Every morning he would hurt. Every morning he would wake up and relive everything over again. He saw her, she was laying on the floor, and if she was dead, she would cause other's deaths too. Living had become a tangled web, the spun ropes fine between life and death. He grabbed onto her, holding tightly, trying to feel her heart beat.
"LEAVE HER ALONE KRISTA!!!" Laughter. The only thing that he could hear, the only sound that answered his yell was laughter. And the little girl's laughter froze his blood. She was there, he could feel it. But he couldn't do anything about it. Not in his human form. For the first time in his life, his golden eyes changed. He had to be able to see her spirit. They changed from their deep rich colour to a crystal green, hints of the midnight blue sky, clear and reflecting the moon. The pain was there, but he was still human. The wolf was helping him! And he could see her, he growled.
"POTTER!" someone yelled. Remus turned around. It was Brian, he had come! Krista had also heard, and she was leaving.
"You won't get away with this Krista…" he whispered harshly, hovering over Lily, checking her breathing. His eyes were still shining. He still had the wolf's blood running freely through his veins. He willed it away, but it stayed there. He picked her up, bringing her slowly.
"Leave her, Lupin." The voice was rough, harsh and irritated. He lifted his head up. It had started raining. His hair was hanging loosely in front of his eyes.
"It's ok Potter, Remus is only helping her."
"Look at his eyes Brian." Remus gasped. James thought him responsible! Krista had actually achieved one of her goals! He held on tighter to Lily. He wanted to prove that he was helping, that he had done nothing wrong. He looked at Brian, his now blue eyes shining with all their might through the rain. He saw James take his wand out of his pocket.
"NO! I-" Choking, he fell back down. James had cursed him. He couldn't believe it. He had hurt him, deliberately, and his eyes had never showed so much hatred and anger towards him either. He fell down to his knees, clutching his stomach.
"James…" He croaked.
"I trusted you Lupin, I trusted you but you tried to kill Lily…" Brian hadn't looked back at the werewolf in the eyes, he couldn't, feeling betrayed himself. Picking Lily up, he left. And James followed, leaving Remus outside alone, in the rain. He saw his former best-friend fall to the ground, coughing blood, and he turned away. Brian looked at him one last time, just to see his eyes change back to their golden honey colour before closing in abandon.
Everything was silent… No… there was the sound of the rain pouring down, but he couldn't even feel the drops on his face. Remus stayed still as numerous images and thoughts carried across his mind. He had been helping, only helping. How could James do this to him, he did not understand at all! He couldn't believe that he had left him. Remus tried to get up but in vain. Not knowing what spell James had threw on him, he cursed. Brian could've taken it off at least! He was a doctor. But still, Remus couldn't move, he stayed lying there at a few meters from the entrance of the forest, hidden by the trees.
Sirius was walking the corridors with Peter, coming back from the kitchens, as usual, when he heard footsteps behind him.
"Mr. Black… would you mind helping me?" The doctor asked. His eyes widening in surprise, he leapt from where he was standing and took Lily in his arms.
"Don't hurt her Bl-Sirius" menaced James. Raising an eyebrow at his friend, he swallowed the last piece of food that he had been eating and stared at him.
"James, why would I hurt your Lily-kins?" He then looked at Brian. He could see that James wasn't in his right state of mind. Peter stood beside his friend as Sirius and Brian were walking in front of them, towards the infirmary. Peter shrieked.
"There's a light coming out of James!" he yelled as the aforementioned boy fell to the ground. Brian walked calmly up to him. Sirius grew aggravated.
"It doesn't mean that even if he hasn't got any longer to live that you can take your precious little time to help him you know!"
Remus probably knows what the light was. Remus would know what to do if… if he would've been here… where is he anyways? Thought Sirius. Brian didn't answer.
"If Remus would've been here, you would have gotten a lecture… but nooooo Remus is never there when I'm not the one who does something wrong…" Sirius muttered under his breathe.
Brian looked at him.
"I highly doubt that Mr. Lupin would be in any condition at the moment to give anyone a lecture Mr. Black." He told him icily. Sirius narrowed his eyes once more. Something in Brian's voice indicated worry. And also irritation. The Doctor and Peter took James by the arms and brought him to the infirmary. Sirius looked at Lily. Her eyes were half way open.
"Watch… Krista…" her whisper was barely audible. Sirius ran towards the hospital wing. As soon as he entered it, he put her down gently on one of the beds, covering her up.
"I'll be back Lily… It won't be long" I hope…
And, gathering his breathe, he ran back out the hospital wing, passing by Brian, James and Peter.
"BLACK!"
He looked back towards the voice, not seeing anyone, and crashed into another student. Looking up, he started to apologise when he noticed who it was. It was Valerie.
"Have you seen Remus?" they both asked at the same time.
"Uhm…" Valerie started.
"Last time, I was with him at the library… and he just… he ran away, in the forest! And I haven't seen him since!"
Sirius thanked her and ran towards the forest. Taking out the marauder's map, which he had forgotten he had brought with him, he located Remus. The small dot indicating his friend was fading away and his name was slowly being erased. The map had never done that before!
He entered the woods and stood a few feet away from Remus.
"Moony…"
He was there, sitting down on his legs, knees apart, hair hiding his eyes. Tears were falling from his eyes. His hands were pressed to his chest.
"Moony… Remus… I'm here, let's get you inside ok?" He walked over to his friend hesitantly. Why was Remus outside here? Why hadn't he gotten in when it had rained. Why was he crying. Sirius had never Remus cry before, he had been too strong for that. Nothing could make him show any emotions if he didn't want them to.
Sirius bent over in front of his friend, trying to look at his face. Remus didn't seem to notice that he was there.
"Remus?"
He put a hand on his friend's shoulder. The gesture snapped Remus out of his reverie. He gasped, as if he had stopped breathing, his chest heaved up heavily. His head snapped up and he looked at Sirius, his face stained with dirt. And for the first time since Sirius was there, he noticed that Remus was actually holding something to his chest, pressing it there, hard, not letting go.
"Sirius…" he croaked, his voice was broken. Sirius realised what exactly was happening, and he pulled his friend's arm sharply from his chest. Remus was holding silver. Pure silver to himself. His hand was burned, the whole skin. It was black and had started to fall off. There was a hole in his shirt where the silver had been and the skin underneath it was black also, blood was leaking from both wounds.
"REMUS YOU IDIOT!" yelled Sirius, throwing the silver chunk away. Getting his wand out, he muttered a few spells under his breathe, bringing a calming relief to the pained werewolf. The burns were still there but the pain had subsided, his body left being numb.
"WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!" Taking his friend by the shoulders, he shook him hard, trying to make him speak. Remus opened his mouth, tears still staining his cheeks, but no sound came out.
"ANSWER ME REMUS!" The young werewolf lowered his head, and pointed to the castle. Sirius understood, as it was the same thing that his friend would do on full moons to tell them to bring him to the tower. He cast a spell on Remus and, putting James' invisibility cloak over him, brought him to Gryffindor tower. As soon as the two had entered the dorm, the doors were locked and Remus had started scratching something on a piece of paper.
Sirius put the cloak on James' bed and ripped the paper from Remus' hands.
"Oh no you don't! You're not going to work on homework when you haven't answered me yet! You tried to kill yourself Moony!" Sirius' voice cracked.
"Why?" Remus simply pointed at the piece of parchment.
Why didn't you let me die?
Sirius looked at him, eyes wide. Remus grabbed the paper and wrote on it again, then, handing him the piece, he lay down on his bed.
I can't speak Sirius…"What happened?…" Remus pointed his wand at the paper and flicked it in a few ways, no words coming out of his mouth. Sirius looked at the paper and the words appeared on their own.
I tried to kill myself.
"I know that! Why?"
James hates me… he left me there to die, he knew what I would do Sirius and he didn't do anything. He thinks that I'm the one who hurt Lily… he brought Brian against me!
"You… You're the one who hurt Lily?"
NO! I was merely trying to help her! Krista…"Krista! What's with that person! Lily told me to watch her!"
She is James' younger sister, don't you remember her?"Yeah… yeah I do… what's with her? Why can't you speak?"
She is a spirit, she's still jealous Sirius, she still wants James to herself. I can't speak… I… I drank… remember that old textbook with werewolf tortures?
"You… you drank… that stuff with the silver ends? You burned your throat! Where did you get that silver Remus?!"
Krista… she… here's how it went…Laughter echoed throughout his mind.
"He left you Lupin… he knows that you're a monster! And he left you there to die! My dear old brother left you, you don't even deserve to live. You didn't even deserve to have him as a friend! No one does!"
Remus didn't speak, he couldn't he didn't have the force to.
"Can't speak Remus? Don't you just want to die, forget about James forever? Forget that you weren't loved at all? I brought you a gift Lupin."
He looked at her and found that a small stack of silver sand and a chunk of it lay at her feet.
"All you have to do is drink it, and then burn this to yourself, you won't have to remember anything anymore, and I will have finally gotten rid of you! Do it Lupin, It's easy! Just do it."
Remus hesitated, did he really want to die. He still had Sirius and Peter, but what if, they thought he had tried to kill Lily too, what if James had already brought them both against him and that he was left alone forever? He couldn't take a chance. He had to do it.
"Let me help you" she said, taking his hand and making him pick up the silver sand, making him drink it with the rain, making him press the solid to his chess. As soon as the object touched him, he stilled, not making any more movements, not being able to yell. Krista laughed.
"You're dyeing Lupin! Soon, you'll be out of my way!"How can she do this!" he yelled, outraged. Sirius looked at Remus, seeing that he had fallen asleep. He muttered a few more spells, to keep the pain from coming back, walked to the door. James would still speak to him. He hadn't done anything. Neither had Remus, but James thought so. Still not over the shock that one of his best-friends tried to kill himself, he stomped to the hospital wing in fury.
Entering, he walked directly to James' bed, pushing past Olivia and Kathy, two of the nurses. Sarah, the third nurse, was accompanying Brian in fixing James' meal. James looked at Sirius come in.
"Hey Padfoot!" he said cheerfully. He seemed normal. Lily was still in her bed, asleep.
I don't think he has any recognition of what happened earlier. Thought Sirius.
"James… You're still speaking to me right? Since I didn't do anything"
He approached his friend, but as soon as he was close enough, a bizarre aura enveloped James and his gaze on Sirius turned icy cold. His voice came out in the same manner, accusing and harsh.
"You helped him."
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Ok, very small chapter, but, I couldn'T put anything more in it. And I was in quite a rush to finish it , since it's 11:50 at night, and I'm pretty tired, so please! Tell me if you liked!
Review answers:
Ashley48506: Well, as an author, my job IS to clear things up hehe, Thanks for your review, really appreciate it. And don't worry, Lily is the one with the least problems.
Agloechen: Lol, I like your review. Of course I understand! Waa You seem so nice, you know, what? I think I'm going to e-mail you, yup, yup, and you'll probably receive the email BEFORE you read this review-answer. I'm gonna learn Spanish in college! But even if I never took a class, and I understand stuff. So it's cool! Your English isn't that bad! I really think that you write it well!!! Well, thx for your review! I really really thank you for it. Lol, I'm so happy that you reviewed lollll, I think that I would really be sad if you didn't, lol. Oh well, Gotta answer to others! bubye Thanks again!
BurningIce22: I KNOW that she's a creepy little bitch. Well, for what happened to James, lol, uhm, he was kind of possessed, but not really… euh… hoping that you understand. Sorry for not updating sooner, but still hope that you liked it! I tahnk you very much for your review!
Ruth23: Wow… that was a nice and long review… well, thanks anyways!
Chavela-Chica: uhm… you're a new reviewer! Hoped that this chapter was up to your euh… well, to what you were expecting… ExPECTATIONS!!! Found the word ' hehe… well, thx!
Erynwen: YAY! You reviewed again!!! lolll your hooked and you think my writing rocks! I LOVE YOU!!! Yeah, I had a friggen problem with my word program! And I hope it won't do it again with this chapter!!! Thanks for your review!!!
Gryffspopgurl: I know.,.. it's really short, but I do my best! Well, thanks for reviewin'
Laughing Dragoness: WOW! Youre the first one that says that she is very well done I know I know cries
word fucked up on me!!!!!! cries some more well thx for your review! Really appreciate it!
Louna: Pfff c'Est toi qui avait signer louns en premire roule des yeux ouais, krista est conne! Tu me donne 90% pour ma fic? Pis ouais, ok d'bord, tu vas me dire la note en % pour TSQ dans ton review. James est tellement quoi? Tu l'As meme pas ecrit!!! Je suis tellement poche, jupdate full lentement! Surtout l'été! Pis jsais pu koi ecrire! part a pleurer bon, moi fo jy aille, crois le ou nom, 2day cest vendredi matin à 7h27 pis jai contiuer un peu a ecrire(mon dernier jours de cours!! Youppie!…)
Boy-Crazy Bookworm : Nothin much happened to Lily, she got possessed and then almost killed and now unconscious… that's about it ' hehe thx for tha review!
Rc17: lmao love your story, but, you changed your name o) oh well, thx for your review well, have I got a story for you! Whats between blue.. and gasp yellow? (ok it's lame, but who cares )
Holly-evans: I can't update very fast, I work and don't have much free time since I work 11 hours a day, but I do try! It'll probably go faster when school starts again. And the story is reaching it's end ' thx for your review(I f I continue I'll finish by telling you the whole ending…)and you wouldn't want that
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Ma Madden: I really Really REALLY liked your review! And yeah Sirius and James rocks! But I like Remus too ;) It's the first time you review! You were good, reading up to here, love ya for it thx again!
Stepha-La: YAY again! another review fro you does happy dance he is a stooge, for now … thx for your review !!
DeoxyriboNucleic Acid: FIOU! What a pain to write your whole name loll nice moral there you put with my story loll but my story doesn't really have a moral… it's moral-less, and for shy and kinky, will have to wait, but there are some more! I promise! But first, I really have to eliminate…(uhm… wrote a bit too much there.. ill just stop hehe ok fiou! You're the only reading this(I hope) I meant uhm… I have to finish a few things up before getting to those parts thanks for your review though! I really appreciate it! It's really fun knowing that some people actually take the time to review so and so, it makes me happy(here I go getting all gushy mushy about reviews again) oh well, what can I say, I love them! It's like… I dunno, establishing a connection with the readers, Ibet that authors who write realy books would've liked if reviews could be send by their readers and not only by the people from newspapers and such! Wow, I think that you've got the longest Review answer in this chapter!!! So yeah that's about it, gotta brainstorm ow to write the next one out! THX AGAIN WUV YOU!
Soo, people, that's about it! And omg! I divulged my secret to someone! I actually told someone the ending! Of this fic! So now two people know it and you know what! They are readers! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, chabang powpow! Please tell me if you liked, does anyone have a feeling of whats hapenning in the next chapter? Which will, hopefull,y be longer and take less time to write! Really really tired!!! Gotta sleep
Amalia Lupin, thinks she can walk on water
which is false
euh…
result:
gllbbbllougggbb(a.k.a. bubble speaking)
Translation: I just tried to walk on water and fell in the pond and now I'm speaking bubble talk!
PELASE REVIEW!! cries
