Title: Obsidian Moonlight
Rating: R
Pairing: Faith/Buffy
Summary: Want, Take, Have was all it was supposed to be...just never accounted for feelings to get involved. AU.
Faith sat next to Buffy on the couch after she came back from Moscow and couldn't help but think of how beautiful the blonde was. The blonde had been called away for two weeks and although Faith was relieved to have Buffy gone that long she had seriously gone through Buffy withdrawal and had missed her sister slayer.
Before she had left, Faith had subtly started to push Buffy away and the more she pushed the more Faiths heart had hurt. She knew Buffy was clueless and thought that Tracy and her were getting serious but that was far from the truth. Sure Tracy was a fine piece of ass but Faith was merely using her as she did everyone else, there were no feelings between her and Tracy but lust.
Pointless but true, Faith was getting a little weary about sleeping next to Buffy at night. Those nights without doubt were the only times Faith had a peaceful nights sleep but the fact that she woke cuddled up next to the blonde tore at her heart and to do that every morning sorta put a damper on a person especially one that was hopelessly in love with the oblivious blonde.
Thus enter Tracy, the exotic, sexy girl Faith had met at a bar. Tracy was the bar owner's daughter and they had hit it off, she was sure that the girl didn't want anything more than a fuck but as the weeks drew on Faith was getting a little cautious around the sexy female. A fuck was all it was supposed to be, no attachments or other agenda's involved. It was great for both of them at least Faith thought so. Tracy had started sprouting the jealous girlfriend act and they had started to argue a lot more than usual.
Lucky for Faith her roomie had been called away and couldn't witness the tension rising between Faith and her pseudo girlfriend. Flinching slightly at the thought she tried to cover it up by coughing a little and waved away Buffy's concern when her green eyes looked at her.
Tracy and her had bonded and become somewhat friends, they had a very open relationship which Faith was grateful for and they kept personal chit chat to a minimal, but over the last two weeks Faith noticed Tracy becoming a little more possessive and jealous as to who Faith spent her nights with and as much as Faith had been trying her hardest not to revert back to her old self and kick the bitch to the curb, fact is Faith sorta liked the feisty brunette.
She was drop dead gorgeous, with deep cerulean eyes that stood out against her caramel skin and dark brown silky tresses. Those full pouty lips and straight white teeth not to mention her perfect nose. Faith could safely say that as far as girlfriends go she had struck it lucky. Her girl was model material she had all the right curves in all the right places and she couldn't get enough of her.
Problem was no matter what, Faith would always come back to Buffy. Something inside her kept screaming for the blonde and admittedly that had been the cause of many fights between Tracy and Faith, the fact is, that when it comes to the brunettes preference, Buffy wins in every category. Tracy had no chance.
But tonight she wasn't supposed to think about such things because her girl was back and she had missed her. They were gonna sit in and watch a movie like always.
Faith took a deep breath and released it loudly annoying the blonde who sat contently at the other end of the couch involved in the movie.
"Fai shut up...it's the good bit"
Rolling her eyes Faith just looked at Buffy with longing and forced herself to look away from the object of her desires. She heard Buffy giggle and a smile lit up her own face at the sound. They were watching 'Hitch', Buffy had brought home pirated movies from overseas and they were currently trying to watch all the ones she wanted to see in the one night.
She looked over and saw Buffy yawn and a tender smile slipped on her face "B if you're tired you can go to sleep ya know?"
Buffy shook her head "nah I wana spend time with you and the movie is good"
"The movie aint goin anywhere Blondie" I say and watch you sit up to face me.
"You trying to get rid of me Faith?" you asked with a playful glare.
I chuckled "now where would you get that idea from?" I retort mockingly while placing a pensive finger to my chin.
Your famous pout appears and my breath hitches. How can you make that so endearingly cute yet sexy at the same time.
"Aww come on put that away, I was only playin"
Your pout intensifies and an evil smirk dons my face "c'mon B quit it"
Your eyes start to tear up and I snort and turn away dismissing you.
"Faii..." you whine crawling over to me. "Stop being a bitch"
"now that's where your wrong cutie" Buffy had crawled over to her and was now straddling her lap much to Faith's amusement "I'm not the bitch in our relationship " flipping her over she had Buffy pinned under her. "You are" she said huskily before diving in and tickling her.
Buffy squealed "Noooo! Stop ...Faiii!" she gasped out between giggles "please stop"
"I'm a bitch huh?" I say teasingly with an arched brow.
"Nooo stop please...your not...i'm sor...sorryyy" you laugh out.
I laugh along with you just watching you wriggle beneath me begging me to stop.
"Alright, alright" I say stopping but not moving from my spot above you. Your breathing heavily and trying to glare at me but cant get it right coz your breathing in as much oxygen as you can get. Your face has gone red from our impromptu tickling fight and you look so sexy.
I smirk down at you before easing my self up teasingly brushing my body against yours and your face flushes a deeper red and I chuckle at your reaction.
"Get up B" I command and you give me this look that makes me laugh.
"Getting all Dom on me Fai?" you ask teasingly even as you sit up.
"Nah baby, just wana position you properly" I reply flippantly.
You laugh a bit and watch as I sit down and bring your head to rest on my lap.
Looking up at me you give me a small smile before turning your head to resume watching the movie. I casually run my fingers through your silky strands and sigh in content as do you.
I heat up slightly as I feel your rhythmic breathing hit me through my sweats, I don't know how long I sat there for but the next time I look down at you I see that you have dozed off.
Not wanting to disturb you I just sit and watch over you and soon follow you into the land of nod. My last thought was that my neck will hurt like a bitch when I wake up but I dismiss it and lose myself in my sleepy haze.
I'm dreaming of you again in the most private way and I know this can only be a dream because it's the only way I could ever have you. Your gentle hands are all over me bringing such sweet pleasure with your teasing touches while I had my head buried in the nape of your neck tasting your skin.
I hear you groan and a shot of pleasure strikes though me, your hands are torturing me by not moving them where I need them the most and I just know that you're playing with me just as you play with me in reality.
You always lead me on and make me beg, wanting to hear me plead for you. I bet it turns you on to know you have such power over me huh? Knowing that all you had to do was look at me a certain way to send my body ablaze.
I gasp as your soft hand finally comes into contact with my skin and crawls deliciously slow up my stomach. You draw patterns upon my skin and I bite down a little on your neck to stifle a groan as you finally work your way up to my aching breasts, you jerk on my lap at that and I smile wickedly knowing how much you're sensitive to such things.
I trail my lips up your neck and hear you moan out my name, I feel you play with my nipple and I groan slightly "B" I say breathlessly in your ear.
The hot air on your sensitive skin causes you to grind into me a bit more and before I rip away from you to lift off your shirt you halt all movements and stop touching me all together.
I'm lost to all the pleasure you've put me through and the slow grind you took up has stopped also, I look up at you and your eyes have gone dark with lust and a small smile plays at your lips as your hand slowly teases my nipples again.
All of a sudden I don't feel you anymore and I groan in disappointment.
"Fai" I hear your husky voice and realize that I had closed my eyes. I stare at you for a moment not understanding why you stopped and in my haze I didn't really feel up to your teasing ways tonight. I smile at you a little before just grabbing at you and turning you over, pinning you underneath me watching as your eyes widen in surprise.
"Not tonight B" I huskily whisper to you before claiming your sweet lips with my own. You stiffen up a little and gasp and I take the opportunity to deepen the kiss.
At first I didn't understand your lack of response but you eventually melt under me and return my kisses. I was surprised at how tender you were being tonight because usually you just delve into me like a bitch in heat but hey I wasn't complaining. Dream Buffy usually lead the show as she did in reality so I just went along with it.
I focused on my tongue brushing against yours and smile as I heard you groan again. Your hands have tentively wrapped themselves around me and a knowing feeling at the back of my mind starts.
Ignoring it I deepen the kiss and I shift a little to get more comfortable. You break the kiss to throw your head back and moan and I take the opportunity to start trailing kisses along your jaw and down your neck again.
Your hold on me tightens and you bring me up for another kiss. this seems a little too real I thought as I run my hands down your body skimming the bit of exposed flesh of your toned tummy.
I stiffen when I feel how warm you are and pause a bit before running my hands along your stomach as a test. My body fills with dread and I break the kiss and close my eyes tight as I focus on the jumping flesh beneath my fingers oh shit
I snap my eyes open and gaze at you in surprise as I see you raggedly taking in breaths and trying to pull me in for another kiss.
Your cheeks are flushed and your pupils dilated. Your lips bruised from my kisses and I feel the pain in my heart twist with the sight. I experienced my first combined panic, horny, scared, joyful, and guilt attack ever and it overwhelms me.
I inadvertently shift and I see you close your eyes and bite your lip as you struggle not to let loose the moan lodged in your throat. I look down and remember where my knee was and whimper and gasp as I quickly get off you.
You try holding on but I'm too quick for that. Stumbling a little but gain my balance and take a few steps away from you.
You out stretch your arm towards me beckoning me to come back confused to my abrupt retreat. "Fai?" you question your voice husky from arousal and curiously gaze at me with your heated eyes.
I shake my head at you and look around wildly.
Buffy sat up slowly trying not to startle the obviously freaking out Faith. She didn't know what happened; one minute she was trying to wake her ass up to go to bed then the next they were both involved in a really heavy make out session.
Buffy ran a shaky hand through her hair and gazed imploringly at Faith trying to figure out what she was thinking. She felt a stab of fear that maybe Faith was repulsed at the idea of touching her the way she had been just a few moments ago.
"Faith?" I asked again and she just kept gazing at the floor "Faith look at me" I say more sternly getting up and standing in front of her. I see her tense up a moment before her body sags and she lets out a small sigh.
When she slowly raises her head to face me I gasp slightly to see unshed tears in her brown eyes. I take another step towards her but she steps back and closes her eyes as if in pain. Her voice breaks the silence a moment later and I hear the devastation in her voice and it breaks my heart.
"B...Buffy I'm so sorry...I was asleep...and I thought you were a dream...I never meant...I was dreaming B..." you get out in a mumble desperately pleading with your eyes for me to understand. "I..." deep breath "I don't...I'm sorry I just...you're not gonna believe me...Shit!" you cry out frustrated running a hand through your hair "I was sleeping and I thought I was still dreaming...I didn't mean to do that...I...please" you break eye contact with me and whisper "don't hate me B...I'm sorry" your body sags in defeat and I stand there for a moment not comprehending why you were being so hard on yourself.
I see a lone tear slip from your eyes and that propels me into action. Stepping up to you I wrap you in a hug and refuse to let go when you struggle with me for a moment before a sob escapes and you bury your face in my neck crying and desperately holding onto me.
"Hey" I say gently "it's ok" I pause for a moment "unexpected, but ok" I run my hand soothingly down your back trying to calm your harsh sobs.
"Fai...c'mon baby...shhhh...I'm not mad or nothing...see still best friends...not even weirded out by it...c'mon it's alright" I hear you calm down and relax slightly into me and to my amusement nuzzle into my wet neck.
I laugh a little and feel you tense up and I quickly rush to explain "no, no I'm not laughing at you...just that...if you weren't such a blubbering mess" I feel you tense up again but I hold you tighter to me "you would of realized Fai...I wasn't exactly trying to fight you off...in fact I kind of thought it was...nice"
You gently push away from me looking at me with startled and disbelieving eyes.
"You liked the fact I forced myself on you?" you say harshly.
I flinch a little "well..." at a loss for words.
"See...Fuck!" you disentangle yourself from me completely backing away from me "I knew I'd fuck up somehow. Sooner or later I knew I would"
"Wait Fai no..." I try to break in but you're to into your self pity act that you ignore me and continue ranting about how much of a fuck up you are. I growl and step up to you quickly sweeping your feet from under you and straddle your legs so you couldn't get up.
You gaze back at me with surprise. "Now listen" I say in that voice I use that brooks no argument "you are not a fuck up! I don't want to repeat my self Faith so listen up. Look at me...does it look like I'm angry?" after a silent moment you raise a brow "well ok...before...did it seem like I was angry?" I pause and let you digest before moving on "I don't really know how your feeling but I'll tell you how I feel...So yes we kissed...yes we...because if you analyze it I did kiss back...I liked it Fai, I don't regret it, I don't want you too either. I don't want to waste our progress on our friendship over something like this...if it weirds you out we can forget it...no big...but don't ever...EVER say you're a fuck up in my presence again...your far from it...Got it!" I shove up from you and allow you to sit up on your own, contemplating my words. "You're my best friend Faith; I don't want you to revert back to blocking me out, I couldn't handle that...we've been through too much for that, so just...please stop beating yourself up about it...I'm ok...I'm not hurt" I pause and swallow dying inside at my next words "Tracy wont ever know" I whisper.
Faith swivels her head and looks at me. Her dark eyes pinning me to the spot "She's got nothing to do with this B...this is between me and you"
Not understanding Buffy just nods and hides the pain at hearing those words said to her she must really like Tracy "I understand"
Getting up from the floor Faith steps up to Buffy who had now focused her attention on the ground "no I don't think you do...B...I..."
just say it Faith bit her lip "Tracy and me... we aren't really going out...she's just my fuck buddy...I know I made it seem as if we were but there's nothing more than lust between us...so really there's nothing for me to feel guilty about. I didn't cheat on her coz...well...she's not in a position for me to be able to cheat on her" coward!
Buffy felt a surge of relief flood through her and looked up at Faith. "Oh"
Faith just smiled and took a tentative step towards the blonde "so uh...we cool?" she asked tentively.
Buffy smiled and embraced her sister slayer burying her face in Faiths neck "like ice"
She felt Faith relax and chuckle "dork" she mumbled back affectionately.
Buffy broke away "you calling me a whale's dick?" Buffy scrunched up her face.
Faith stood there a moment confused. what the fuck?
Buffy giggled "that's what a dork is...it's a whale's dick"
Faith just gave the blonde a look and shook her head. Wrapping her arms around the giggly blonde she smirked "B...you need a hobby"
Faith was glad that they were at ease about what had happened and they could still joke around, but something was still eating away at her and she desperately wanted to ignore it but found that the more she tried to deny it the more it came back to her.
As she followed Buffy into her bedroom she couldn't shake off the feeling of hope that had stirred with the little encounter and as much as Faith tried not to, the lingering feeling got stronger and stronger as Buffy knelt up next to her in bed and placed a gentle kiss to her forehead.
"Night Fai"
laying next to the slightly curled up blonde Faith desperately tried shoving the feeling aside because she didn't want to hope, knowing if she did she'd open herself up to what she knew would be the biggest and harshest disappointment of her life, but looking down at the curled up blonde now in her arms...that hope just wouldn't die.
