Title: Obsidian Moonlight

Rating: R

Pairing: Faith/Buffy

Summary: Want, Take, Have was all it was supposed to be...just never accounted for feelings to get involved. AU.

What the Fuck? opening her eyes Faith looked around confused for a moment at what had disturbed her restful sleep. Jerking up into a sitting position, sleep pushed aside she realized her phone was ringing.

shit, shit, where did I put you she scurried around the room silently picking off the floor discarded items until she finally found the small phone.

"Hello" she whispered and became distracted as she looked over at her bed and watched the beautiful blonde watch her with a small sultry smile, stretching provocatively. Feeling her heart speed up and the heat enter her cheeks Faith watched on as Buffy put on a show for her. Walking over to the bed in a daze Buffy had reached out for her hand and had slowly brought it up to her lips, placing a soft kiss to her palm not losing eye contact. The jolt of pleasure that shot through Faith almost made her drop the phone she was holding.

"Faith!" The unexpected voice in her ear made her jump and realize that she had answered the phone a few moments go.

"Hello?" She asked again trying to focus on whoever was on the other line instead of the woman in her bed; naked, sexy and gazing at her with heated eyes that Faith wanted to just-

"Where are you?" I hear the person on the other line ask cutting off her lustful thoughts.

"uhh..." Still having no clue as to who she was talking to.

"Faith!" And finally it hits me and I unconsciously step away from the blonde not seeing the hurt once again flash in her eyes.

Avoiding eye contact with the blonde Faith turned her back on her and started making her way outside the room to take the call.

"Shit T! I'm sorry...I lost track of time, do you still wana meet up?"

The echo of Faiths departing words bounced around the room and Buffy felt her heart clench and the stirring of hurt engulf her body immobilizing her for a moment as the reality of the situation hit her Oh my god. What have we done? Getting out of bed and walking stiffly into the bathroom, Buffy cringed with each step as her muscled ached in places that she would gladly of liked to forget why they hurt.

I'm such an ass, I should have stopped it...she didn't even look at me when she realized who it was she was talking to lowering her head Buffy steeled herself up not wanting to over react so soon and stepped under the warm spray of water letting the pressure of the flow sooth out her aching muscles.

Faith finished up the call and took a deep breath mentally preparing herself to face her sister slayer hmm I don't think that term of endearment is good anymore...not after...this is so not the point...gotta get this over with

Walking into the room confidently she was surprised that the blonde wasn't there then sighed a little in relief when she finally noticed the shower goin off. trying to watch me off probably

Walking over to Buffy's room Faith sat there facing the door to the bathroom and waited for the blonde to step out.

"Hey" she said tentively when Buffy walked through the steam filled door.

Buffy just glanced at the brunette surprised that she was in her room but playing it off, not sparing her another look and knowing full well that Faith was watching her every move Buffy walked over to her drawer and got out a set pair of undies and bra that Buffy had splurged on from Victoria Secret.

Back turned to Faith Buffy allowed a slightly evil smirk to grace her lips before voicing her question making sure her voice was neutral not giving away anything she was feeling.

"When are you meeting her" and straight after the question was out of her mouth Buffy dropped the robe to the ground and casually turned to face the gawking Faith not letting her face show any amusement as Faith dragged her eyes away from her body What you can't even look at me now? Couple hours ago you had your tongue so far up me I thought you were trying to crawl inside!" Buffy thought snidely but refused to let it show because she was unsure as to where they stood well actually your naked and Faith is on your bed...SHUT UP! she screamed internally then closed her eyes for a moment great I'm goin insane...Does sex with Faith do this to all the girls she sleeps with...coz I gotta say-

"B..."Faith didn't know what to say, she was still recovering from Buffy's bold move just a moment ago but she knew she had to say something otherwise...well like Buffy said their friendship won't last with this kind of strain on it. Resigning herself to first answer the blonde's question she kept her face down, partially because she couldn't look at Buffy right now and partially because she was tempted to do more than just talk.

"We planned to meet in a bit yeah..."

God could you be any more lame? Faith berated herself and went to open her mouth to say something else but realized that she didn't know what to say shit now what? How the fuck do I handle this...

Don't...don't ask!...she'll know you care then but before she could clamp down on her tongue Buffy asked in a meek soft voice "Are you..." clearing her throat and regaining some strength behind her voice "Are you leaving now?"

The silence in the room was deafening, both slayers avoided looking at eachother before finally Faith looked up at the blonde, held her gaze and said "No...I was thinking maybe...uhh...we could talk or some shit..."

smooth Faith... But Faith ignored her inner musings and watched as the blonde shifted her weight from side to side. Sitting there Faith finally started to understand the actual reality that this situation would bring to her once almost perfect world. I had it great and I blew it...all for pussy! But fuck! what a puss- She slammed that thought to the side and waited with baited breath for Buffy to pass judgment on the situation.

As the silence roared on Faith was getting a little anxious "Please B...say somthin" she ignored the fact that her voice held a tinge of pleading and searched out the blondes eyes trying to silently communicate that she desperately wanted for things to be ok. Pfft...as okay as having your bestfriend molest you then the next day bring you to several screaming orgasms!

Clenching her fist in frustration at the un responsive blonde and her sick thoughts Faith was slowly going crazy.

All of a sudden Buffy finally broke the silence.

"What do you want me to say?" Faith cringed at the monotone voice and felt her apprehension grow.

"Well...I dunno...you could start with your thoughts?" she questioned even though it was supposed to be a statement yeah then you can share with me your feelings, then we can both have a fuckin cry, then maybe more sex...sounds like a plan. If Buffy could hear my thoughts now she thought wickedly Shit! Focus Faith...so not the time for insane Faith to make an appearance

Buffy had been staring at the floor wanting and desperate to get a hold on her feelings but found it extremely difficult Fuck you Fai...you did this! she stood there a moment then looked up and locked gazes with the wide eyed Faith aware that her eyes were moist with un shed tears.

"Was I just a fuck?" she got out in a small and insecure voice but with enough drive behind it to knock the air out of Faith who sat there with a stunned face at the so out of left field question.

What the Fuck?

"What the Fuck?" she repeated out loud dumbstruck and at a loss for words. did she really just ask that?

"Did you really just ask that" still trying to recover from the shock.

Buffy stood her ground of course and a single angry tear escaped her eyes as she got some of her pride back and glared at the still floundering brunette.

"You heard me. Now I want an answer" hands on her hips and her infamous glare on her face she stared Faith down.

Faith shot up from the bed and stepped towards the blonde "Jesus fucking Christ B! Of course your not just some fuck...shit how can you...I thought that...Fuck Buffy of course not, do you look like a whore?"

Buffy's face melted into one of rage but before she could scream back Faith had wrapped her up in her arms.

"Shit...sorry that came out wrong...what I meant to say is...I wouldn't use you that way B...I thought you'd know that...I was just shocked by the question...Stop struggling B and listen!" she said exasperated as Buffy kept trying to squirm out of her arms "I never actually thought about it...but I need to know that you know how important you are to me...funny timing for such a convo but bear with me yeah?" Sighing and stepping away from the blonde Faith started to fidget and pace.

"I...I'm not good with my emotions...I'm fucking scared of em B...showing them, letting them out whatever...and yet somehow..." stopping and looking up at her "you always bring out the best and worst in me...not that I mind of course" she rushes to explain "just that ya know...it's fact...your my other half...as corny as that fucking sounds but it's true...I am who I am and live how I live and do things the way I do because I have you there with me...Fuck!...I'm not making sense here huh" Faith scratches the back of her neck and glances at the unresponsive blonde, then in a more softer tender voice that surprised Faith she continued.

"It's always you and me B...and the thought that I've fucked things up tears at me something fierce...if you le...leave me...I'd be clueless without ya, so if what happened between us was a one off...or whatever...I need you to talk to me...coz that's how's it's always been...me reactin off what you think or say"

Buffy walked over to her bed and sat stiffly just throwing Faiths words around in her head.

"I need you B...I don't want to loose us...just tell me how you feel, show me that we can work through this or whatever...assure me that were still ice" Faith had kneeled in front of her and it wasn't lost on the blonde how that position as well as Faith's words basically screamed out at her that Faith was begging for her to co-operate.

"Well..." Buffy started "In all honesty Fai...I don't know how I feel"

Nodding her head and ignoring the tight clench in her gut she kept eye contact with Buffy as she began talking again.

"I mean it's not everyday I sleep with a girl not to mention said girl is my room mate and as close to me as sisters go...which sorta adds the 'eww' in this huh?" Buffy trying to crack a joke to ease the stifling tension but Faith seemed determined to keep it serious.

"I don't know Fai...I'm confused as to what happened...half of me is like yay...yummy sex with Faith while the other is like 'What have you done' sorta thing. It's tearing at me too...and on top of that is the pressure of realizing that I may of had stronger than platonic feelings for you...and that's scary because I...I just...I don't want things to change...but I kinda do...like...Shit Faith you make me so confused!" Buffy growled out in frustration at last ending her little babble session.

Sighing and taking in calm breaths Buffy stared into Faiths dark eyes and felt her heart constrict "You make me happy Fai...Happier with anyone than I've ever been...and that's scary for me because me being happy always ends up with a big ripping out my heart type thing...and I know I need you...I can even say with confidence that I want you...but can you accept that maybe I don't want to risk loving you?"

wow...way to rip my heart out B! Faith thought as her body froze up with despair.

Buffy sat up a bit and grabbed at Faith's hands willing her to look back at her, flinching slightly at the empty void she saw in the usually vibrant eyes. "wait let me finish...your always droning on about how courageous I am...and maybe I should live up to it...but I need you to be patient with me...I don't know how you feel and I'm only talking about the way I feel so just bare with me...the way I feel about you...there are no words for it...I know I get lonely when your gone, I know I feel like the luckiest person alive everytime you smile at me, I know that when you buy me gifts it's because you want to share a piece of your experience with me, I know that when ever we argue I get hurt a lot more than I should, I know that its not totally platonic to want to shove you on the ground and have my wicked way with you, I know it's not right to steal glances at you when your not looking and heat up at the sight, I know it's not right that I dream of you and deny it the next morning...But above all that I know it's not right to sit here with you after what happened earlier and say I don't love you when I do..."

Buffy gasped at her admission and Faith's head shot up and watched the blondes eyes widened at her words.

oh shit...did I just say that?

did she just say that?

"Oh god Fai I...I-"

"Do you mean that" Faith cut off Buffy's panic attack with a harsh commanding voice standing up in front of the blonde and towering over her.

yeah Faith scare the answer out of her she thought sarcastically and dropped down to her knees again hugging the blonde around the waist and burying her head in Buffy's shoulder.

please mean it, please mean it, please mean it Faith silently begged as her hold on Buffy tightened as if holding onto her tight enough would provoke the answer she wanted.

Feeling wetness on her cheek Faith looked up and saw the scared yet happy look on Buffy's face and a slow spread of happiness began to fill her body.

"You meant it?" she queried again and almost whopped in joy as Buffy stared her in the eyes not holding anything back and slowly moved in and placed a gentle kiss on her lips murmuring "I meant it"

Buffy watched as the light that had disappeared momentarily came back full force in her slayers eyes and felt a smile curl her lips.

"So...sex now?" Faith asked after a moment breaking the beautiful spell they had goin.

Scrunching up her face at Faith tact "Ungh! Faith...way to ruin the mood!"

Faith let her smirk cross her face not at all disturbed and happy that she could once again resume her bad ass self.

"tsk, tsk slayer...you should know better than that" nipping at Buffy's soft flesh Faith hid her smile from the blonde.

Buffy sat there confused as to what Faith said huh? Know better than what?

"Huh?"

"The mood baby...I can always get you into it" wriggling her eye brows Faith leaned in and captured the amused blondes lips and reveling in the fact that she could now kiss the blonde anytime-

Ripping away from the blonde Faith gave her an enquiring look "what does this mean for us B?"

shit you just had to ruin it Faith...Fuck aren't you tired of the heart to heart bullshit...you were about to get some!

Faith once again ignored the evil voice in her head and watched Buffy closely.

"Well for starters...Tracy...has to go, I'm a one woman kinda girl Fai...and if you want anything with me...it's strictly me and no one else" pausing Buffy blushed "that is if you want anything with me"

"Are you fucking insane!" Faith basically screamed at her, which made Buffy jump slightly "Of course I want to be with you...It's all I've ever wanted from you...of course not that your friendship was bad...but" looking at Buffy's body Faith quirked a brow "have you seen your body...I want that all to my self...for me to touch, have, take anywhere I want it anytime I want it" her voice grew deep by the end and Buffy felt her body heat up in reaction to Faiths possessive words.

"On a serious note though..." Faith took Buffy's hand in hers and looked Buffy in the face and placed her hand on her heart "feel that?" she asked and Buffy just nodded "I'm not gonna sprout poetry but know that...as long as it's beating B...there's no other person helping it along but you, never has been...you own it, as you've owned me for quite some time now" Faith sat there her heart pounding "I...I can't tell you in words how I feel right now...but know that I feel the same way you do about me and there's nothing more in this world that I want than to be able to call you mine"

Buffy sat there, clueless on how to react...she knew she wanted to jump up and scream with joy...but that would freak Faith out...she knew she wanted to repeat what she said earlier but knew that would freak Faith out...so she settled on what came naturally to them; sarcastic banter.

"Wow Fai...I think you missed your true calling, that was pretty deep" Buffy giggled at the mock outrage that flashed across Faith's face.

"I'll give you deep" she growled out huskily and pounced on the unsuspecting blonde instantly ripping the sexy lingerie from her body.

Buffy had stopped giggling and had threaded her hands through the raven locks as Faith locked her mouth on her nipple making her moan out.

Faith smirked "better than our tickling wars" she stated smugly.

"Faii..." she gasped out as Faith had suddenly entered her making her thrust up in immediate response.

Faith just gave her a knowing look before sliding down her body placing kisses here and there as she worked her way down in between the blonde's thighs.

"Admit it" she said drawing out her words so the exhaled breath hit the blonde's clit sensually.

Buffy was to far gone to process what Faith was talking about "unhg! Fai ad...admit wha...what?" she asked as best she could.

"that this is better than our tickling fights" Faith had two fingers buried deep into Buffy and was currently swirling her fingers around and watching as Buffy's flesh flushed and her breathing increased.

"mmm hmmmm" Buffy moaned out distractedly hoping that would placate whatever the brunette was talking about.

Faith just chuckled and dove in wanting to relieve the blonde who had started to desperately seek out her touch.

All of a sudden Faith found her self dragged up from her position and pinned under the panting slayer.

Her green eyes dark from lust Faith was amused and turned on by the sight watching Buffy trail her eyes hungrily over Faith's form.

"See something you like B?" she drawled out casually liking her position very much and deliberately licking her still moist lips as Buffy looked back at her.

Seeing her eyes darken Faiths smirk grew.

"Off" Buffy commanded at once tugging at Faiths tank top "need touch" Buffy grunted grinding against Faiths thigh.

guess cave Buffy comes out to play when she's horny too Faith thought amused while sitting up and taking off her top.

Faith sat like that a moment longer as she felt Buffy lean down and capture a nipple skipping foreplay and just going for it.

"Jessuusss" Faith hissed out tossing the top aside and making a grab for the golden locks.

Buffy assumed she should have felt a little embarrassed by how she was acting but sensibility had flown out the window as soon as Faith had exposed her beautiful tits to her.

tits...God how dirty...how sexy... the thought flitted across Buffy's hyperactive mind a moment before she focused solely on her impending orgasm. Grinding a little harder and faster against Faith, moaning against the nipple in her mouth Buffy went cross eyed and grabbed at Faiths waits grinder a little harder and faster as she rode out her orgasm.

"Ungh...Fuck...fuck...mmmm...almost...so close...Fai...Fai...oh...ohhh...ohhhh...Yessss!" Buffy moaned out as she came on top of Faith.

Faith had just watched in awe and surprise as the blonde fucked herself on her leg.

Spent, Buffy collapsed on top of the brunette and snuggled before rolling them over so Faith was on top.

Faith was confused she had expected that the blonde had wanted some cuddle time.

Buffy tugged at the younger slayers shorts "Off. Now!" she commanded in a breathless voice and at Faiths infamous arched brow look she adapted her sultry innocent look.

Holy shit! Since when did she ever have that look Faith thought with the last amount of blood that was still in her head.

Licking her lips slowly and gazing at Faith watching her eyes further dilate she made her voice deep, seductive and commanding "I want you to take your shorts off, climb on my face so I can fuck you Fai..."

Faith slammed her eyes shut and quickly scooted to take her shorts off before self consciously positioning herself so she was straddling the blondes face.

She bit her lip and looked down at the green eyes staring up at her mischievously.

Licking her lips once more she brought her hands up and held onto Faiths waist.

"Let's test that saying out shall we?" Buffy murmured before persuading Faith to lower herself down so Buffy could get her first taste of her.

huh? Saying? what is she...OHH SHIIIT!

"FUCK!" she squealed out to her astonishment at the first light stroke of Buffy's tongue and got on all fours above the blondes working tongue.

Buffy stopped when she felt Faith position herself and remembered last night. Motioning for Faith to stay up right she waited for Faith to comply before diving back it and listening to Faiths moans and groans this time.

"Play with your tits Faith!" she commanded between licks.

Both were a little surprised at the command but Faith followed it none the less and groaned as she gave her breasts the attention they craved.

"B...Jesus...mmmm...right there...oh Fuck...soo good baby...right there...faster B...more...fuck, fuck, fuck! Don't stop...don't stop...God B...mmmm, ohhh, oh, oh, uh,oh, ungh! Fuck! Right there...don't stop...please...oh please, pleasepleasemorefaster, faster, fuck, fuck fuckfuckfuckfuckFUUUCCCKKK!"

Faith started thrashing above the blonde and bit down on her lip and groaned deeply as she finally came on top of Buffy grinding her face down onto the blonde's eager mouth.

Slipping off the blondes face in sated exhaustion, Faith laid there and moved slightly to accommodate the now snuggly blonde.

A few minutes went by as both slayers caught their breath before Buffy broke the silence "so...was the saying right?" she asked with a hint of mischief in her voice and again Faith has struck dumb as to what the hell the blonde was referring to.

Leaning down and placing a gentle kiss on the blondes head she asked gently "what saying B?"

Buffy smirked and trailed her finger around Faith's areoles "oh you know...I'm a good lover because I practice on my self..."

Faith chocked at the bold statement and peered down as Buffy's sparkling eyes looked back at her.

A grin broke out across her face "why you little minx...who the fuck are you? and what have you done to my slayer?"

Buffy just giggled and snuggled deeper into Faith.

"I love you Fai...it's like I've always felt like this...I don't expect you to understand why I'm saying it so soon...but I know I feel it and I aint gonna hide it from you" she whispered into the skin and tightened her hold on the brunette.

"Ditto" Faith murmured and was about to fully relax when the shrill of her phone could be heard from her room.

"Whoever that is has the worst timing ever!" Buffy growled out as she let go of Faith and watched her pad out of her room through the bathroom and disappeared into her own room. Buffy was staring up at the ceiling happily and waited for her lover to come back.

10 minutes later though Buffy was getting impatient and went to go find the brunette, but as she got up Faith shuffled in with a very reserved look adorning her face.

Buffy arched her brow at Faith when she saw she was dressed to go out.

"Where ya goin?" she asked chirpily still on her high.

"Tracy's.."

bye, bye to my happy high Buffy thought sulkily.

"Oh" came her reply not really knowing how to respond.

"Remember I had plans with her today..." Faith continued lamely.

Buffy just nodded and watched as Faith shuffled her feet.

"So...uhh...guess you better leave then" she mumbled dejectedly and turning her back on the brunette.

Faith shut her eyes and walked over to the sulking blonde lying beside her and wrapping an arm around her "hey..." she whispered by her ear "this doesn't change anything B...your still my girl...but I owe it to Tracy to be straight up with her ya know...plus...I made a commitment remember"

Buffy moodily nodded her head still refusing to look at Faith jealousy rearing it ugly head great one moment I'm on top of the fucking world, coming down from yummy sex then the next I get to watch my lover prance off with another gorgeous female...what joy it is to be me

Knowing Faith had to remedy the situation she shoved her pride to the side and started talking "Buffy listen...remember before when I said I couldn't tell you how I felt?" she waited a moment licking at her dry lips and scrunching up her eyes "The reason why I can't do that is because...Love isn't enough...It's got nothing on what I feel for you...the word that is...so uhh...so..." trying to come up with something Faith paused for a moment "so I'm gonna try and maybe come up with something more symbolic to say to you" Looking around the room she saw a small spoon by Buffy's bed side table and reached over for it.

"see this...this can be what I use to say to you...this small object can be the symbol for what I feel for you...all my emotions, thoughts and shit...so uh...B as goofy and as corny as this is sounding and believe me it's fucking corny...baby I spoon you" Faith paused "a lot" she added as an after thought.

Buffy couldn't help but laugh a little before turning over and placing a soft kiss on the blushing brunette grateful for the way Faith seemed to flawlessly always set her insecurities at ease...and make her laugh while she's doing it.

"I spoon you too Fai" might aswell go with it...God I love this girl the blonde thought happily as she snuggled into her lover.

Oh my god somebody kill me now! What have I become?...I'm a fucking nancy! Oh but hey...would ya look at that...she likes it...trust me to fall for the biggest most complicated girly girl! Faith said as she relished in the tender kisses Buffy was showering her with.

"Now look who's the dork" Buffy mumbled in between kisses.

"Oh but I work ya better than any whale could B" Faith retorted tiring of the delicate kisses and capturing Buffy's lips in an intense kiss.

After awhile Faith regretfully separated from the blonde and got up to leave. Placing a chaste kiss on her cheek Faith walked over to the door.

"I'll give ya a call later k?"

"K" Buffy responded smiling.

Faith returned the smile but didn't return home that night.

AN: hope ya'll like it...review and holla at me...sorry gone all gangsta there...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE review.