Love Never Dies

Chapter 7

Author's note:

I was having a bit of a writer's block on this chapter lol but here it is and I hope you like it! Finals sucked and I've been having Winter Guard practice like 3 times a week and on the weekends it's like a 9 hour practice! So yeah, but when I get free time I sit here and update for you! Hope you enjoy the chapter!

"A Blur Memory"

A week has passed and slowly but surely Shuichi was out of bed and was only able to walk around for a short while, he still isn't able to run around like the way he wants to just yet.

"Hey Hiro have you seen my shoes-" Shuichi called out when he heard a small crack beneath his foot.

He took his foot off of it and looked down. It was a video tape.

Shuichi bent down and picked it up, examining it in the process. He noticed on the side there was a white label with purple writing; it read "Shuichi's home video!"

"When did I make this?" Shuichi thought and started walking over to the television set to watch it.

"Hey Shuichi lets get going! We're gonna be late for work!" Hiro called from the front door, putting his coat on.

"I'm coming!" Shuichi called back and set the video on top of the TV and walked to the door and left for his first day back at work.

Yuki's eyes flutter open, slowly he sat up in the dark room and peered over at his digital clock. It read 2:34 pm. The room was semi-dark because Yuki had pulled the shades shut a couple of days ago. He took a deep breath as sweat dripped down the back of his neck.

He stayed in bed for the past couple of days, only getting up to use the bathroom. His depression has slowly driven into the endless abyss of darkness and misery, all he could think about was Shuichi and bit by bit the angel of despair slowly, but painfully started killing him, devouring him into a pool of utter sorrow and regret.

His pillow cases were soaked in his rain drop tears as he laid there and cried softly so only the silence of the motionless room could hear.

This wasn't like him at all to act this way, but his soft spot was Shuichi, somehow he grew inside of his heart. Now that he was missing, there was a hole and it ached for his lover.

He was in love, he now entirely admits it, that he's in love with that bubble gum pink haired boy. He would confess it to the world, the universe, doing anything in his power and beyond to have that guy in his arms once again.

He knew tears alone could not bring him back.

I'm in love with him

He's not in love with me

I'm still holding on

To something I can't reach

I'm not the one he wants

Oh he's everything I need

I'm in love with him

He's not in love with me

Yuki sniffled and rolled his legs to the side of the bed and decided to walk around the room, since he hasn't been mobile in days. He walked up to the window with his hands in his pockets, slowly taking a hand out and pulled back the shade a little bit but winced at the light but continued to look out below.

It was a beautiful sunny day, people bustling around in the streets, cars honking. Yuki saw some people smiling, holding hands and laughing.

He smiled a bit, he missed those days, and those people should feel very special to have that sort of relationship with their significant other.

Time and time again

I think of him and then

Cupid's poison dart

Goes right through my heart

Yuki felt his heart fill with jealousy, anger, frustration, confusion and tremendous pain. Why couldn't he be with the one he loved? The last thing Shuichi said to him was that he loved him… he wanted to hear that again, he missed it dearly.

He missed hearing "I love you" a million times a day, only now does he realize how precious it was and he should have cherished those moments with Shuichi.

Shuichi loved him and would do anything for him; he even got himself beaten up just to protect Yuki…

(Yuki's POV)

And what do I do? I make fun of him, call him names, curse him, tell him his writing sucks, and so much more.

Why? I really wish I could answer that, well just because I had a horrible past doesn't mean he should suffer the memories with me. I should move on and spend time with my lover and cherish everything, love each minute I'm with him, never knowing it could be my last…

My last….

(end of POV)

The words echoed in his mind as he turned away from the window and walked into the bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror.

"You're a monster." He glared at his reflection.

Well I go down to my knees

A willing victim if you please

I'm in love with him

He's not in love with me…

Yuki broke down and fell to his knees, while his elbows rested on the sink with his head buried in his arms.

His body began to shake as he felt the storm rolling in over him and the heavy rain drops spilled from his eyes once again….

"Bye!" A cheerful Shuichi called back at the recording room as Sakano and Mr. K waved back at him, "See you tomorrow!" Sakano said.

"Wow Shuichi today was a great day for you, our music was awesome!" Hiro threw his arms behind his head smiling and looked out ahead of him.

"By now you would have been running out of the studio going home to see Yuki." Hiro thought….well at least he thought he did.

He stopped and looked at Shuichi who was blinking in confusion, "What did you say Hiro?" he asked and Hiro gulped.

"Um nothing, just mumbling to myself." Hiro said fast and shyly laughed a bit…

Shuichi smiled big, "Let's just go home!" he said brightly and walked out the door.

That night Shuichi sat by the window with the curtains drawn back, staring out into the night sky.

The moon reflected in his eyes as he thought about a few things. His life was finally back to the way it was but… something important was missing, he felt it.

"Shuichi?" Hiro whispered and Shuichi turned around to face him, "Oh… hey Hiro." He said blankly and turned his attention to the window once again.

"Something the matter?" Hiro questioned, "I feel like something's missing and its hurting me…mentally that is." Shuichi whispered.

Hiro knew but decided to let Shuichi figure it out, "Well, I have to get to sleep for tomorrow, you should do the same." Hiro said and turned around but immediately turned back, "Hey Shuichi, you get to bed, I need to make a quick errand ok?" Hiro said but didn't get a response from Shuichi. Hiro nodded his head and started for the door. As he made his way out, he heard a stifled cry come from Shuichi.

"What's wrong with me? Why can't I remember?" Shuichi cried but was soon over come with the slumber of the night.

Yuki was lying on his bed, a cigarette to his lips as he stared at the picture of him and Shuichi, living in past memories at the moment when there came a knock at his door.

Shuichi was the first person who popped in his mind as he rushed to the door but discovered it was just Hiro, Yuki sighed.

"I've come for Shuichi's belongings…. He's asleep at my place so I figured now was a good time to come by." Hiro bowed and Yuki let him in, not realizing what was going on.

"Wait, what?" Yuki spun around and looked at Hiro's back as he stopped and stood there, slowly turning around.

"Shuichi doesn't seem to remember you… you've tried, I've tried and I'm not going to force him to remember anymore…" Hiro faded out and headed into the bedroom and stuffed Shuichi things into a bag, all the things he knew Shuichi would need for right now.

Yuki watched him from the hallway as Hiro quickly gathered his things. Hiro took a look around the room to see if he was missing anything when he stopped and saw a picture of Yuki and Shuichi…. Both smiling… A smile formed on his lips.

"Hey, what's taking so long?" Yuki barked.

Hiro stopped staring at the picture and finished up what he was doing without another interruption.

Yuki entered the room and wondered why Hiro paused earlier and saw the picture.

"You two looked very happy together." Hiro pointed out as he flipped the bag over his shoulder.

Yuki had his back to him and pointed to the door, "Get out." He said without any emotion in his voice.

Hiro just quietly and quickly left the room and stopped, looking back, seeing Yuki sitting on his bed, "Yuki….I'm very sorry."

With that, Hiro left the house knowing from this point on, this would probably be the end of Yuki…and Shuichi.

Oooooooooh cliffy! (laughs evilly) So what's up with Shuichi? What's going to happen? What's on that tape? Will he ever watch? All this and more will be answered soon… till next time…

Ayaka Chan