Well before I start off I would like to state a few things…some people have said to me that Yuki is "out of character" well…….. (whispers) the thing is, it's my story and Yuki can be anyway I want him to be. He doesn't have to be a cold heartless bastard all the time. Ok? Glad we cleared that up…haha

Well enjoy!

Chapter 9

"Complicated "

Yuki stared at the four walls surrounding him in the closed space of silence with agony calling out to him as he closed his eyes and thought of the laughing, smiling, caring man who was now eternally out of his life which made his heart harden even more. His brow twitched a bit while his body lightly shivered from the spine down.

Why did this happen to him? Was God playing a sick joke on him? Was he never meant to love or be loved, only to have them painfully taken away against his will and might?

Yuki brought the cigarette to his lips which seemed to satisfy his taste for the time being. Letting the white smoke pass through his soft lips he put it out in the ash tray next to him and turned his head slightly on the bed to gaze out on to the balcony with the curtains drawn back slightly.

He heaved a big sigh and just wanted to leave this city, this country and get far away from this pain these people call love.

Slowly Yuki pulled himself up into a sitting position and leaned back against the solid wooden headboard and was now staring at the silver flip phone on the table across from him.

He waited…..and the phone never rang.

Somewhere he was wishing Shuichi would get his call and return it.

Unbeknownst to the blonde novelist, his little pink love was indeed thinking of him as well.

"Hey watch it!"

"Young man!"

"Ugh, how rude!"

"Sorry!" Shuichi called back to all those people he bumped into, but never mind that, he was just in a hurry to get over to Yuki's place. Thoughts of Yuki swam through his mind and the thought of his lover's warm lips on his was exhilarating.

But the events of Yuki crying and him hitting his lover played back and Shuichi frowned. He just hoped his lover would take him back.

"I'd do anything for him." Shuichi thought as he reached the door and turned the key.

He felt so nervous and excited at the moment, not knowing how to approach Yuki. He opened the door to find the place completely dark and extremely quiet.

"Yuki?" Shuichi whispered as he flicked on the lights and saw the entire room was empty.

"No" Shuichi thought, "Not again, he left, but why…" just then Shuichi knew, that phone call from Tohma, so this is what he was talking about!

Shuichi searched his pockets but to no avail. His phone wasn't there so he couldn't call Tohma and tell him the good news or find out the whereabouts of his Yuki.

Shuichi turned on his heel and jogged out of the building and down the dark sidewalk, heading in the direction of Hiro's place.

No matter what, he was going to find Yuki and tell him how much he loves him.

Once he reached the door, he ran inside and looked around frantically for his cell phone when Hiro walked into the room, holding a mug with his usual white shirt and blue jeans.

"What are you looking for Shuichi?" Hiro asked which startled Shuichi, "You're home from your date already?" he asked and Hiro just nodded.

"Anyway, I have good news but I need to find my cell phone and call Tohma." Shuichi said and began looking again.

"Well, if you want to call him, which is kinda weird, you can't use your phone." Hiro stated and sipped his hot chocolate.

"And why not?!" Shuichi shot back and sat on the floor, staring up at Hiro who was digging through his pants pocket and took out Shuichi's phone.

"Hey you bastard why do you have my phone?" Shuichi jumped up and grabbed it, and flipped it open to find the screen broken.

"How did this…" Shuichi faded and remembered when he dropped it, damn piece of crap that can't even survive a five foot fall onto the wooden floor.

"Damn it!" Shuichi glared and threw the phone on the couch, Hiro just stared, "Well what's this good news and why do you have to talk to Tohma at this hour?"

Shuichi turned around, his eyes sparkling which was creeping Hiro out.

"Uhh Shuichi-"

"I remember everything, I remember my love." Shuichi whispered happily, while Hiro choked on his hot chocolate.

"You remember Yuki? Why didn't you just go to his place?" Hiro asked

"He's not there, his belongings are gone, I don't know where he could be and earlier Tohma called me and yelled at me for Yuki leaving but I didn't know what he was talking about earlier." Shuichi sighed and looked distance for the moment.

"Well you moron if you actually use your brains, I have Tohma's number on my phone too, he's also my boss as well." Hiro sighed and handed the overly excited Shuichi his phone.

"OH THANK YOU HIRO! I could just kiss you!" Shuichi stopped it at that, because now Hiro was slowly stepping backwards and Shuichi laughed, "Like I would kiss that ugly mug of yours anyway!" Shuichi said as Hiro's phone did a speed dial.

"Why you little-" Shuichi held up his hand and Hiro stopped but he was cursing under his breath as Shuichi listened to the phone ringing till a cheerful voice spoke.

"Hello, this is Seguchi."

"Hello, Mr. Seguchi this Shuichi." There was pause for the moment till Tohma spoke, "Well Mr. Shindo what do you have to say for yourself?" he asked

"Listen Seguchi, this may sound completely weird at the moment but I've fully recovered and I now remember Yuki and I went over to his place and he's not there, he's gone, where is he right now please tell me." Shuichi was starting to break down a bit but tried to hold his own but it was slipping fast as tears fell down upon his soft rosy cheeks.

"Oh my, Eiri will definitely like this news, the reason I think he's leaving is because he couldn't deal with your memory loss." Tohma started while Shuichi listened intently, it was sort of weird talking about personal issues with your boss but Yuki was Shuichi's lover and just happened to be good friends with Tohma.

"I'm not sure where he is tonight but he is in Tokyo somewhere but his plane leaves at one tomorrow for New York, what I suggest instead of checking all the hotels tonight, find him at the air port tomorrow." Tohma said and heard a sigh of relief from the other end.

"Thank you Seguchi, I really appreciate this beyond your knowing." Shuichi simply stated.

"Well Mr. Shindo I hope everything goes well and bring him home." Tohma smiled and so did Shuichi, "Will do, goodbye."

Shuichi hung up and stared out into the night sky, "Yuki, I'm coming for you." He thought when he felt a hand on his shoulder.

"Shuichi have you been running?" Hiro asked, his eyes glaring out the window.

Shuichi gulped, uh oh….

"You shouldn't be, you'll worsen you condition you moron…." Hiro saw his friend slump his head down in defeat and Hiro just sighed and closed his eyes, "But for now, just get some rest and I'll wake you up in plenty of time to get to the air port ok?" Hiro said as Shuichi nodded and made his way to his room.

"Go to bed, you look really weak at tired." Hiro said as he plopped down on the couch when there was a big crunch, and Shuichi turned around to see what happened.

Hiro's eyes widened, "I broke your phone even more." The two looked at each other for a moment's time until they just broke down into laughter. Shuichi's laughter soon turned into a coughing fit but didn't expect what was coming next. Shuichi gripped his mouth shut, trying to stop of coughing but small droplets of blood seeped past his hand and onto the carpet.

"Shuichi? Oh my god Shuichi are you ok?" Hiro panicked and got up to be by his friend's side.

Shuichi's coughing subsided for the time being and the blood stopped coming and Shuichi wiped his mouth with his hand and stared down, looking at the blood.

"Yes I'm fine, honestly I don't need to go to the hospital, its just stress." Shuichi said as he walked into the bathroom and washed out his mouth.

"Well if you throw up more I don't care if Yuki's leaving or not, you're going to the hospital." Hiro started firmly and Shuichi didn't protest.

"Look, the sooner I'm with Yuki the sooner I'll be better ok?" Shuichi threw his arms in defeat while Hiro got some cleaner to clean up the blood.

"Just change and go to bed Shuichi, right now." Hiro said and Shuichi obeyed and walked into the dark room, changed into his boxers and tank top and got under the warm blankets and heaved a big sigh and looked out his small window, up past the tree braches and the black sky, just gazing at the moon and stars.

Shuichi thought of Yuki, everything he did, the way he would laugh rarely at Shuichi's funny stunts or attempts to do something for Yuki, the way he looks deep into Shuichi's eyes, saying how much he loves him with just the way he looks, making Shuichi weak in the knees, the way Yuki makes him believe in true love just by being with him, no one else could make him feel this way.

Shuichi closed his eyes and smiled, he couldn't wait to be in Yuki's arms, holding him close, feeling his breath on his pink tuffs of hair as Yuki slept.

Soon, sleep over came the pink lover of the night.

"Shuichi………."

Shuichi turned over from the whisper.

"Shuichi………"

Shuichi threw the blankets over his head until he felt them removed and a cold gust of air shivered his body, causing him to curl into a ball, while slowly opening his eyes.

"Hey there, start getting up if you want to get your Yuki." Hiro said when Shuichi bolted up and regretted doing that as blood rushed to his head and he slowly leaned back on his elbows.

"What time is it?" Shuichi asked in a groggily voice while holding his forehead and his eyes sealed shut from the blinding sunlight seeping in from the blinds.

"Almost 11:30-"

Shuichi jumped out of the bed and quickly got dressed, "Why didn't you wake me up earlier?!" he yelled and Hiro yawned, "You weren't the only one who was sleeping you know."

Shuichi grabbed everything he needed and headed for the door, "Go get him lover boy!" Hiro called out from the room and laughed.

Shuichi opened the door and turned around, "I'll do more than just get him." Shuichi said in a seductive tone while dirty thoughts entered his mind as he closed the door.

Hiro just blinked until what Shuichi said registered in his mind, causing him to glare at the door, "You have a really sick mind!" he yelled out but Shuichi was long gone.

Lol I hope you people enjoyed this chapter and I hope Shuichi makes it to the airport on time! RUN SHU RUN!!

Ayaka Chan