Innocence?
Mystical Knight Dragon: I know you guys are probably pretty anxious to see Yami spaz out at Ryou, but first thing's first... Erg, I can't tell you. Just read. ' Anyways, muchos gracias to my wonderful reviewers: Bakuras- Hell, Dark Magician Girl / Hikaru (You guessed who Hikaru is!!! I can't tell you who it is now, but you'll find out in this chapter! '), Carmen5- Nemrac, KokoroHikaru (Actually, I got the name "Hikaru" from the main character of "Hikaru no Go." I was reading it out of Shonen Jump, and since I was trying to think of a good name, I picked Hikaru... '), Dark-Autumn (Well, it's like him because he took over this person. His identity is shown in this chapter, so read on and find out who he is! Bum bum buuum! ' (Marikay-muse: coughlame!cough), and Fuzzle and R.O.M. (...What does "ave" mean...? huggles R.O.M., Chibi R.O.M., and Kuri-san Has Chibi R.O.M. gotten over his flu yet? (Muses: FUZZLE-SAMA!!!! huggle Fuzzle- sama) Er...I kinda like Malik, so I think he gets to live this chapter... Sorry R.O.M.... ')!!!!! Thank you so much!!!
Chapter 17: Out of Control
Ryou looked up at Sven, trying to figure out what to tell him. A few other people on the boat had gathered around him to hear the story of why the albino had jumped off the ship carrying the Seto Kaiba and why he was even out here. "I..." He didn't dare tell the truth; he had already decided against that. The only thing left was to lie, and he wasn't very good at that. "Well..." He looked around him at the anxious eyes staring at him.
Sven held up a hand. "I'm sorry Shizura Kaeru. I shouldn't have asked. All you need right now is sleep."
Out of all of that, all Ryou caught was Shizura, Kaeru, I, and sleep. He blinked. "Eh..." His head began to spin again, and he brought up his hands to try to stop the dizziness.
"You speak Japanese better, don't you?" Sven chuckled, reverting to Japanese.
Ryou shook his head happily but stopped immediately as nausea swept over him once more. He clasped his hands to his head and moaned, trying to fight the bile back down to his stomach.
"You need rest," Sven said plainly. He snapped his fingers and three sailors immediately came up to him. "Taijobou, Tetsuo, Ansono. Take Kaeru to my quarters and let him rest. Make sure that no one bothers him until he is ready to speak."
The three sailors nodded. Taijobou and Tetsuo linked their arms under Ryou's weak body and helped him stagger to the room while Ansono went ahead to open the door and make sure the room was decent before they laid Ryou down into the bed. The quarters were nice enough that Ryou began to guess that Sven was either the captain or the first mate.
The three sailors left the room, closing the door behind them, and sleep began to claim Ryou...
The following is Ryou's dream, so it's in Ryou's POV
I found myself back on the streets of Domino retracing the route that I had taken that morning. I hoped that I wouldn't meet up with Yugi like I had done in real life, but I knew that I had no control over this dream.
I saw Yugi's hair bobbing up and down in front of me. I hadn't been paying attention when this had happened earlier, and I noticed that Yugi hadn't been, either.
We bumped into each other.
I could have stopped it in my dream...
But I had no control.
I tried to scream, to get Yugi to leave, but I wouldn't. I vaguely heard him apologize and felt myself telling him that it was all right. No, it's not all right! I'm about to kill you! I can feel the blade of the knife in the palm of my hand as I reach into my pocket. Run, Yugi! Please! I don't want to go through this again! Once is enough! Please!
"Where are you going so early in the morning?" Yugi asked me.
I felt like crying, but I stayed cool and collected. I was reliving what had happened earlier without any say or control. I didn't mean to! I promise! Just let me leave this dream world!
"I was just taking a walk to clear my thoughts, and to get away from Bakura." I could feel myself smiling. Oh, why did I have to be so protective over that bastard? Why can't I just leave already?!
"Yeah. Bakura really is a fuck head."
Here we go.
That little comment that had pissed me off so much. I didn't understand why no one would ever give Bakura a chance! He was never really mean to me except when he would take over my body...but that didn't mean every one else had to hate him! They gave Malik and Marik a chance! Why not Bakura?
Here I go again.
The rage.
I was never known to have a temper because nothing really ever ticked me off before. I usually dismissed it with a smile, but I'm protective over my yami.
He is part of me, right...?
"You know, technically we're the same person..."
"So?"
I heard the snap in his voice. Then, I hadn't really thought about why he had been using that tone, but now I realized that he was probably just tired. He never was a morning person, and got really angry sometimes. One time I had spent the night, and he nearly ended up gutting me when I accidentally woke him up trying to find the bathroom.
I felt my hand reach back into my pocket and fiddle with the knife. Bakura's knife... It reminded me of him, which reminded me of Yugi's comment, which made me angry.
This knife is the cause of the poor boy's death, in more ways than one.
Yugi tried to turn the conversation away from Bakura. "What's that?" he had asked. Yeah. Real far away.
I didn't say anything. I was pretty pissed off at that point. Once my blood begins to boil, there's no stopping me. There's only one thing to save anyone: turn around and run.
RUN, DAMN IT!
I pulled out the knife and showed it to him.
"Where did you get that?" Yugi asked. I could detect fear in his voice, and it made me smile. I don't know why, but it felt...wonderful to have someone finally be afraid of me. I was used to having people pick on me and beat me up, but to have someone be afraid! Oh, it was wonderful! It made me feel stronger than I had ever been, like I could finally stand up for myself.
"Bakura," I felt myself tell Yugi.
Here we go.
We're getting closer.
Run, little Yugi.
PLEASE!
I swear I didn't mean to do it!
I don't know what came over me!
Anubis, take my soul now so I don't have to relive this.
"That fuck head!" Yugi yelled. "Why would he let you have this.
'He didn't...'
A frown spread over my face and I heard myself say, "I still don't like you calling my yami a fuck head. He might be one, but that gives you no right to rub it in my face...especially since we're the same person..."
WHY WON'T YOU RUN?!
"Well then, what should I call him?! If he gives you knives to play with, then he shouldn't be here on this planet!"
Well, why shouldn't he be here?! He didn't ask to be conceived! He can't help how he turned out! Yami's nice because he didn't have to go through what Bakura did to survive! All he had to do was snap his fingers, and he would get whatever he wanted! Bakura had to work for what he needed! There wasn't even any room for want! WHY CAN'T YOU PEOPLE UNDERSTAND THAT HE HAS EVERY RIGHT THAT EVERY ONE ELSE HAS? WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT HIM INTO SOCIETY?!
Damn, I'm pissed in both time frames.
'Why does the pharaoh's light get to have everything?'
I had watched the movie "SE7EN" the other day. (A/N: Yes, they can do that. :P) In the movie, "John Doe" had killed people for the seven deadly sins: gluttony, greed, sloth, adultery, pride, envy, and rage. For envy, John Doe had killed Brad Pitt's wife since he had envied their wonderful family. Maybe I was being played along by these sins... I feel almost envious of how wonderful Yugi's yami is compared to mine...
I was pissed, rage coursing through me.
There we go, back to the deadly sins.
Maybe I am just a puppet being played along by some fitful child who has not quite mastered the movements of the strings yet.
This child has one sick sense of humor.
I brought the knife down into Yugi's throat. It seemed so right at the time, but now I felt myself screaming, screaming like the poor boy could no longer do. I felt myself telling him something, but I no longer listened. I was trying to claw my way out of this body that had somehow turned evil. Even though it was only a dream...
DOES THIS CHILD KNOW NO PITY?!
WHEN CAN I GAIN CONTROL, OR DO I HAVE TO CONTINUE BEING A PUPPET TO THIS CRAZED VENTRILOQUIST?!
Lord, have pity on my soul...
I felt myself picking up Yugi's body and dumping into a dumpster as if he was only trash, something that I had picked up off the streets like litter.
I wanted to go home.
I wish none of this had ever happened.
It had felt so right at the time.
Now I am disgusted with myself.
Fate is so cruel...
And what would Bakura think of me now?! I had done this for him, but...he would never want Yugi KILLED! Especially not now when he and the pharaoh were trying to get along better...
A song began to play through his head...
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
This tainted love you given,
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears, and that's not nearly---
Oh, tainted love
(A/N: "Tainted Love" doesn't belong to me. I don't know if I typed the lyrics right. I did them at the top of my head... ' By the way, does anyone know who that song is by...?)
The first two lines of the chorus seemed to get stuck and began to play over and over in his mind.
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
Now I run from
Now I run from
Once I ran
Now I run...
--
Hikaru stormed into the room, his navy blue cloak billowing behind him. He smashed Fushidara into a wall and practically exploded.
"HOW COULD YOU LET HIM ESCAPE, YOU MORON?! YOU TOLD ME YOURSELF THAT THEY WERE THE BEST MEN YOU HAD!!!"
"It's not my fault they screwed up!" Fushidara countered. "At least we still have the Kaiba brothers!"
"Yes, but Ryou could be going to the police RIGHT NOW and telling them EVERYTHING!" Hikaru brought back his fist and smashed it into the wall, leaving a rather large hole behind.
"Calm down, 'Hikaru,'" Bones taunted as he walked into the room. "Ryou is nothing. I saw what went on in the streets today. Little Yugi has been killed. Ryou is probably off somewhere grieving...or running from the shame his yami has caused him."
"This coming from someone who had his soul trapped by this murderer."
"And this coming from someone who had their mind taken over by the murderer's 'friend,' if you could call it that...Keith." Bones snarled out the name with such seeming hatred that Keith jumped a little.
"So, do we understand what's going on or not?" Keith asked, trying to keep his voice level. "We've caught the Kaiba brothers to take over Kaiba Corp., but we need a bit of, ah, 'motivation,' so to speak. Ryou was to be this motivation. He would have lured his friends there, and Kaiba would watch the only humans he's interacted with die...one by one..."
"But what about Yugi?" Fushidara asked, having finally been dropped by 'Hikaru.' "Now that he's dead, would Kaiba really have the same motivation?"
Keith shrugged. "Maybe. But is Yugi really dead...?"
Bones laughed humorlessly. "You must not have seen what I had. I saw the knife in his neck when his yami brought him out of the dumpster."
"Exactly!"
Everyone else looked confused.
Keith rubbed his temples. "While my mind was being taken over by Malik, I heard things. I'm guessing that Yami wouldn't even be there unless he had a host—Yugi. Hence, Yugi would need to be alive for Yami to still be there..."
Comprehension began to dawn on everyone's faces.
Keith whirled around to face Fushidara. "Do you have any other men to spare? We need to pay Yugi a little, ah, visit..."
So much hate!
So little time...
So much hate!
So little time...
(A/N: "So Much Hate" belongs to Slipknot, KoRn, System of a Down, and about 50 billion others that I don't remember off the top of my head right now... ')
Mystical Knight Dragon: Hmm... I actually think that I did pretty well on that chapter... I hope I didn't get too annoying with all of the songs, but I had quite a few of them stuck in my head... '
Marikay: She's still trying to get her picture to work... --' If you want to see it, tell her in a review, and she'll e-mail it to you. (Make sure to leave your e-mail address.)
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Mystical Knight Dragon: I know you guys are probably pretty anxious to see Yami spaz out at Ryou, but first thing's first... Erg, I can't tell you. Just read. ' Anyways, muchos gracias to my wonderful reviewers: Bakuras- Hell, Dark Magician Girl / Hikaru (You guessed who Hikaru is!!! I can't tell you who it is now, but you'll find out in this chapter! '), Carmen5- Nemrac, KokoroHikaru (Actually, I got the name "Hikaru" from the main character of "Hikaru no Go." I was reading it out of Shonen Jump, and since I was trying to think of a good name, I picked Hikaru... '), Dark-Autumn (Well, it's like him because he took over this person. His identity is shown in this chapter, so read on and find out who he is! Bum bum buuum! ' (Marikay-muse: coughlame!cough), and Fuzzle and R.O.M. (...What does "ave" mean...? huggles R.O.M., Chibi R.O.M., and Kuri-san Has Chibi R.O.M. gotten over his flu yet? (Muses: FUZZLE-SAMA!!!! huggle Fuzzle- sama) Er...I kinda like Malik, so I think he gets to live this chapter... Sorry R.O.M.... ')!!!!! Thank you so much!!!
Chapter 17: Out of Control
Ryou looked up at Sven, trying to figure out what to tell him. A few other people on the boat had gathered around him to hear the story of why the albino had jumped off the ship carrying the Seto Kaiba and why he was even out here. "I..." He didn't dare tell the truth; he had already decided against that. The only thing left was to lie, and he wasn't very good at that. "Well..." He looked around him at the anxious eyes staring at him.
Sven held up a hand. "I'm sorry Shizura Kaeru. I shouldn't have asked. All you need right now is sleep."
Out of all of that, all Ryou caught was Shizura, Kaeru, I, and sleep. He blinked. "Eh..." His head began to spin again, and he brought up his hands to try to stop the dizziness.
"You speak Japanese better, don't you?" Sven chuckled, reverting to Japanese.
Ryou shook his head happily but stopped immediately as nausea swept over him once more. He clasped his hands to his head and moaned, trying to fight the bile back down to his stomach.
"You need rest," Sven said plainly. He snapped his fingers and three sailors immediately came up to him. "Taijobou, Tetsuo, Ansono. Take Kaeru to my quarters and let him rest. Make sure that no one bothers him until he is ready to speak."
The three sailors nodded. Taijobou and Tetsuo linked their arms under Ryou's weak body and helped him stagger to the room while Ansono went ahead to open the door and make sure the room was decent before they laid Ryou down into the bed. The quarters were nice enough that Ryou began to guess that Sven was either the captain or the first mate.
The three sailors left the room, closing the door behind them, and sleep began to claim Ryou...
The following is Ryou's dream, so it's in Ryou's POV
I found myself back on the streets of Domino retracing the route that I had taken that morning. I hoped that I wouldn't meet up with Yugi like I had done in real life, but I knew that I had no control over this dream.
I saw Yugi's hair bobbing up and down in front of me. I hadn't been paying attention when this had happened earlier, and I noticed that Yugi hadn't been, either.
We bumped into each other.
I could have stopped it in my dream...
But I had no control.
I tried to scream, to get Yugi to leave, but I wouldn't. I vaguely heard him apologize and felt myself telling him that it was all right. No, it's not all right! I'm about to kill you! I can feel the blade of the knife in the palm of my hand as I reach into my pocket. Run, Yugi! Please! I don't want to go through this again! Once is enough! Please!
"Where are you going so early in the morning?" Yugi asked me.
I felt like crying, but I stayed cool and collected. I was reliving what had happened earlier without any say or control. I didn't mean to! I promise! Just let me leave this dream world!
"I was just taking a walk to clear my thoughts, and to get away from Bakura." I could feel myself smiling. Oh, why did I have to be so protective over that bastard? Why can't I just leave already?!
"Yeah. Bakura really is a fuck head."
Here we go.
That little comment that had pissed me off so much. I didn't understand why no one would ever give Bakura a chance! He was never really mean to me except when he would take over my body...but that didn't mean every one else had to hate him! They gave Malik and Marik a chance! Why not Bakura?
Here I go again.
The rage.
I was never known to have a temper because nothing really ever ticked me off before. I usually dismissed it with a smile, but I'm protective over my yami.
He is part of me, right...?
"You know, technically we're the same person..."
"So?"
I heard the snap in his voice. Then, I hadn't really thought about why he had been using that tone, but now I realized that he was probably just tired. He never was a morning person, and got really angry sometimes. One time I had spent the night, and he nearly ended up gutting me when I accidentally woke him up trying to find the bathroom.
I felt my hand reach back into my pocket and fiddle with the knife. Bakura's knife... It reminded me of him, which reminded me of Yugi's comment, which made me angry.
This knife is the cause of the poor boy's death, in more ways than one.
Yugi tried to turn the conversation away from Bakura. "What's that?" he had asked. Yeah. Real far away.
I didn't say anything. I was pretty pissed off at that point. Once my blood begins to boil, there's no stopping me. There's only one thing to save anyone: turn around and run.
RUN, DAMN IT!
I pulled out the knife and showed it to him.
"Where did you get that?" Yugi asked. I could detect fear in his voice, and it made me smile. I don't know why, but it felt...wonderful to have someone finally be afraid of me. I was used to having people pick on me and beat me up, but to have someone be afraid! Oh, it was wonderful! It made me feel stronger than I had ever been, like I could finally stand up for myself.
"Bakura," I felt myself tell Yugi.
Here we go.
We're getting closer.
Run, little Yugi.
PLEASE!
I swear I didn't mean to do it!
I don't know what came over me!
Anubis, take my soul now so I don't have to relive this.
"That fuck head!" Yugi yelled. "Why would he let you have this.
'He didn't...'
A frown spread over my face and I heard myself say, "I still don't like you calling my yami a fuck head. He might be one, but that gives you no right to rub it in my face...especially since we're the same person..."
WHY WON'T YOU RUN?!
"Well then, what should I call him?! If he gives you knives to play with, then he shouldn't be here on this planet!"
Well, why shouldn't he be here?! He didn't ask to be conceived! He can't help how he turned out! Yami's nice because he didn't have to go through what Bakura did to survive! All he had to do was snap his fingers, and he would get whatever he wanted! Bakura had to work for what he needed! There wasn't even any room for want! WHY CAN'T YOU PEOPLE UNDERSTAND THAT HE HAS EVERY RIGHT THAT EVERY ONE ELSE HAS? WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT HIM INTO SOCIETY?!
Damn, I'm pissed in both time frames.
'Why does the pharaoh's light get to have everything?'
I had watched the movie "SE7EN" the other day. (A/N: Yes, they can do that. :P) In the movie, "John Doe" had killed people for the seven deadly sins: gluttony, greed, sloth, adultery, pride, envy, and rage. For envy, John Doe had killed Brad Pitt's wife since he had envied their wonderful family. Maybe I was being played along by these sins... I feel almost envious of how wonderful Yugi's yami is compared to mine...
I was pissed, rage coursing through me.
There we go, back to the deadly sins.
Maybe I am just a puppet being played along by some fitful child who has not quite mastered the movements of the strings yet.
This child has one sick sense of humor.
I brought the knife down into Yugi's throat. It seemed so right at the time, but now I felt myself screaming, screaming like the poor boy could no longer do. I felt myself telling him something, but I no longer listened. I was trying to claw my way out of this body that had somehow turned evil. Even though it was only a dream...
DOES THIS CHILD KNOW NO PITY?!
WHEN CAN I GAIN CONTROL, OR DO I HAVE TO CONTINUE BEING A PUPPET TO THIS CRAZED VENTRILOQUIST?!
Lord, have pity on my soul...
I felt myself picking up Yugi's body and dumping into a dumpster as if he was only trash, something that I had picked up off the streets like litter.
I wanted to go home.
I wish none of this had ever happened.
It had felt so right at the time.
Now I am disgusted with myself.
Fate is so cruel...
And what would Bakura think of me now?! I had done this for him, but...he would never want Yugi KILLED! Especially not now when he and the pharaoh were trying to get along better...
A song began to play through his head...
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
This tainted love you given,
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears, and that's not nearly---
Oh, tainted love
(A/N: "Tainted Love" doesn't belong to me. I don't know if I typed the lyrics right. I did them at the top of my head... ' By the way, does anyone know who that song is by...?)
The first two lines of the chorus seemed to get stuck and began to play over and over in his mind.
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I run from you
Now I run from
Now I run from
Once I ran
Now I run...
--
Hikaru stormed into the room, his navy blue cloak billowing behind him. He smashed Fushidara into a wall and practically exploded.
"HOW COULD YOU LET HIM ESCAPE, YOU MORON?! YOU TOLD ME YOURSELF THAT THEY WERE THE BEST MEN YOU HAD!!!"
"It's not my fault they screwed up!" Fushidara countered. "At least we still have the Kaiba brothers!"
"Yes, but Ryou could be going to the police RIGHT NOW and telling them EVERYTHING!" Hikaru brought back his fist and smashed it into the wall, leaving a rather large hole behind.
"Calm down, 'Hikaru,'" Bones taunted as he walked into the room. "Ryou is nothing. I saw what went on in the streets today. Little Yugi has been killed. Ryou is probably off somewhere grieving...or running from the shame his yami has caused him."
"This coming from someone who had his soul trapped by this murderer."
"And this coming from someone who had their mind taken over by the murderer's 'friend,' if you could call it that...Keith." Bones snarled out the name with such seeming hatred that Keith jumped a little.
"So, do we understand what's going on or not?" Keith asked, trying to keep his voice level. "We've caught the Kaiba brothers to take over Kaiba Corp., but we need a bit of, ah, 'motivation,' so to speak. Ryou was to be this motivation. He would have lured his friends there, and Kaiba would watch the only humans he's interacted with die...one by one..."
"But what about Yugi?" Fushidara asked, having finally been dropped by 'Hikaru.' "Now that he's dead, would Kaiba really have the same motivation?"
Keith shrugged. "Maybe. But is Yugi really dead...?"
Bones laughed humorlessly. "You must not have seen what I had. I saw the knife in his neck when his yami brought him out of the dumpster."
"Exactly!"
Everyone else looked confused.
Keith rubbed his temples. "While my mind was being taken over by Malik, I heard things. I'm guessing that Yami wouldn't even be there unless he had a host—Yugi. Hence, Yugi would need to be alive for Yami to still be there..."
Comprehension began to dawn on everyone's faces.
Keith whirled around to face Fushidara. "Do you have any other men to spare? We need to pay Yugi a little, ah, visit..."
So much hate!
So little time...
So much hate!
So little time...
(A/N: "So Much Hate" belongs to Slipknot, KoRn, System of a Down, and about 50 billion others that I don't remember off the top of my head right now... ')
Mystical Knight Dragon: Hmm... I actually think that I did pretty well on that chapter... I hope I didn't get too annoying with all of the songs, but I had quite a few of them stuck in my head... '
Marikay: She's still trying to get her picture to work... --' If you want to see it, tell her in a review, and she'll e-mail it to you. (Make sure to leave your e-mail address.)
Chibi Bakura: Pwease review!
