AN: This is a Shonen-ai/Yaoi if you don't know what this is LEAVE NOW. For people who are here to read this adorable couple please enjoy your stay.
All usual disclaimers apply. If they were mine they'd have been together. This story takes place a while after the Kyoto incident in the anime.
Enjoy!
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Unsettled Emotions
It had been an uneventful two weeks. Nothing but paperwork had come through En Ma Cho. Needless to say everyone was burned out, even Tatsumi who usually just let these trivial things blow over him.
Tsuzuki stared out he window, basking in the sight of the pink blossoms of the Sakura tree.
'Beautiful,' he thought.
He new well what memories the innocent petals brought back for his young partner, Hisoka. Yet he couldn't bring himself to despise the Sakura trees. It wasn't their fault the psychopathic Muraki had sullied their beauty, tainting them with the despicable memory of his evilness.
He deeply sighed. Lost in his thoughts. This audible sigh brought him to Hisoka's attention.
"Bakayarou, why are you so sullen all of a sudden?" slightly annoyed, and yet slightly worried about the older Shinigami.
"Eh? Oh...nothing...nothing, Hisoka." Tsuzuki said waving it off.
'Liar,' thought Hisoka. 'I may not be psychic but I am an empath.' he could feel the sadness and confusion emanating from Tsuzuki. Something had to be wrong cause normally the shields protecting those innermost feelings were up. Something wasn't right and Hisoka knew it.
Hisoka decided to flat out tell him, "You're lying."
"No, no Hisoka I'm all right. I'm just tired like everyone else. This paper work just has me a little drained is all." Tsuzuki wasn't going to bother Hisoka with his useless thoughts. Especially when some of the problems included the younger Shingami himself. No he couldn't, wouldn't, put that on Hisoka.
Hisoka decided to drop the subject because he new his partner wasn't going to give an inch. Tsuzuki just seemed to get like this sometimes. Better to just leave it alone. He could never get Tsuzuki to fess up, when he was so deeply buried in his thoughts.
It just seemed that this had been happening more and more often since the Kyoto incident.
'I kept him here when he wanted to die,' Hisoka thought.
He could remember it so clearly. As if it happened just yesterday.
(AN: This is from the bootleg fan-subs sorry if it's not the same as the dubbed version.)
Flash Back
Hisoka: Tsuzuki!
What are you doing? Come over here quick!
Tsuzuki: Hisoka?!
Hisoka: Can't you move now? I'll be right over!
Outstretches his palm.
Tsuzuki, we're going now.
Tsuzuki: shakes head
Hisoka: Tuszuki?
Tsuzuki: That's enough Hisoka. I've lived this long...it's enough.
I've been very tired...
I'm not allowed to exist. So, just let me be...
Interrupts. Launching himself at Tsuzuki, hugging him tightly and crying.
Hisoka: Well you can exist just for me! I don't want to be alone anymore!
Give me a place to exist. The only place...is here.
Then, it's only... To be with you...
Tsuzuki: I...Can... Stay with you?
Sighs from relief, tightens grip on Hisoka.
End Flashback
"Does he regret living for me? Wait what was my motive for asking him to stay with me or letting me go with him?" Hisoka pondered this for a while. "What really were my intentions? Everything was in the heat of the moment I don't even know what my thoughts were at the time."
"The one thing I do know though is that I couldn't live without him. But what do I see Tsuzuki as? My partner, my friend, my family, or does he mean something more?" this thought bothered Hisoka more than anything else. "If that was true how much more?"
"Could I actually love him?" The sudden realization of this totally shocked and baffled Hisoka. He also hadn't realized that he'd whispered his private thoughts aloud.
"Ne, Hisoka? Did you say something?" Tsuzuki asked. Were his ears just playing tricks on him or did he hear what he thought he heard, right?
At his partner's addressing him he realized he had voiced his thoughts. Hisoka blushed furiously. He stammered, "N..n..no." Hisoka decided to turn back to his work trying to hide behind the pile of papers on his desk. Hoping that Tsuzuki wouldn't notice his bright red face that was flushed with embarrassment.
However Tsuzuki had noticed.
To be continued....?
(AN: So how was it? Do you want more? Then review! Please I live off the response of others! Ja ne!)
