Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans! Really!
Author's Note: I haven't seen very many episodes. Just a few. If I have a few facts wrong, this is an Alternate Universe story, meaning that I may twist some things around. Any idea how old they are? I'm saying 15. In this fic, they are going to be 16. If you don't like that age, then that's just too damn bad. Starfire isn't as clueless as she usually is, but she still partially is..
Why is it that I don't know so much about Earth culture? Why do I have to be amazed by everything that is so simple to all the others? This planet is teeming with beautiful and wonderful things but no one even realizes it. I am totally different from the others, although we are all one and the same. As I gaze upon the moon, I notice all the many craters and ridges. The moon is so pretty. Back at home, we didn't have such a pretty moon. We didn't even have a moon at all. Gazing at the stars is so relaxing. I always lose myself and forget about everything, even sleep. I have done it before and will probably do it again tonight. The vast sea of white dots never ceases to amaze me. Earth is wonderful; you can actually see the stars.
At home you never could. I always tried, but never saw them much. When I did, I became excited and jubilant. My sister, Blackfire always made fun of me when that happened. It only happened only once every month or two, so it was nice to admire their beauty. Why she did I will never know. I have always wondered why people do not appreciate beautiful things like stars or the moon.
The movie my friends are watching is pointless. All that happens in it is violence. I mean, all of us experience it every day, but that is because we have to protect the Earth from wrongdoers. Although in the first place, I will never know why the people of this planet are evil. What is the point? Most of the time, at least I hope, you will get caught and put into jail or something like that. But if they do succeed in taking over, what are you going to do after you take over the rest of the world, or universe? After you have everything, what do you have left to live for? What do you have left to gain? You have nothing but to lose. Evil is complicated. Being good is the best thing you can be. You never stop giving justice to the innocent and defeating the bad guys. You also feel all bubbly and good inside.
I am glad I came to Earth. I have friends that I never thought I would have. They are so great to me. They can become a bit distracted sometimes, but they are nice to me nonetheless and are willing to be my friends. Cyborg is so nice. He is funny, thoughtful, and strong. Well, he would have to be strong since he's half robot. Beast Boy is strange, but he's still pretty cool. It's really neat to see what animals he can turn into. Raven is quite strange to me. She likes depressing things and is always hidden under that cloak of hers. She can be so much if she didn't have such a pessimistic view of everything. But I have to say, her powers come in handy at times.
And Robin. The best one on the team, no one can deny it. He's smart and resourceful. Even though he had made one big mistake and was extremely sorry, but everyone forgave him. He didn't mean to turn into Red X. He's also extremely handsome, although he has never taken his mask off. Shame, really, even though it gives him a mysterious look that's awfully attractive. I have always wondered what was behind that mask. Were there eyes as blue as the Earth sky or as green as an emerald, like Beast Boy's, or even as black as an onyx stone. I wonder how purple eyes would look on him. I've never seen purple eyes on an actual human before. I bet they would be interesting.
I am going crazy. I am thinking of different colors of eyes for him. They are already a color and I can not choose which one. But it does not hurt to "fantasize" as Earth girls do. I bet Raven fantasizes that everything is black. Or whatever. It is quite funny picturing Raven actually happy instead of her usual depressed state.
I leaned my head in my hands and tilted it sideways while closing my eyes. Ruby red strands of hair fell over my face. I sat there for a while, imagining different color eyes, not just for Robin, but for anyone in particular. I don't have a clue why, but I did. What I have always wondered is why my whole eye is green, instead of just my iris. My pupil is even a shade of green. Everyone else has a black pupil and their special color of iris and the whites of their eyes, well, white. The color does not extend throughout the whole eye and I have always wondered about that.
I have questioned Robin before, but he just told me that is how God made us. Who is God anyway, and why do people keep repeating his name? I opened my eyes and flicked the few strands of hair from my face. I sighed and looked back up to the beautiful night sky. Sitting up at the top of the tower has its advantages. The only problem is that I always get cold, and since I don't wear much to cover myself, I get cold easily. I started shivering from lack of covering, warm clothes. I noted from the position of the moon that it was late at night, so of course it was going to be cold. I didn't think about bringing a blanket or jacket of any kind. I can be dense sometimes.
At that moment, I felt something wrap around my shoulders and cover my shivering body. I immediately tensed up and for some reason thought it was some sort of bad person. I looked behind me hesitantly and saw a cape-less Robin. I smiled an ironically warm smile at him and received a sexy smile in return. I looked at the cape and vaguely remembered him mentioning it was made up of some type of steel or titanium. Strange, it doesn't feel heavy at all, it felt light but warm from being close to Robin's body. I sniffed the cape silently and I smelled a faint scent of apples. Robin always smelled good; like apples. (A/N Robin is gonna smell like apples! Apples smell good! Don't argue with me! I like apples.)
He walked over and sat down next to me. "Do you mind?"
"Not at all, Robin." That's all I say? Well I have to at least say something else besides 'not at all, Robin'! We sat together in silence, but it wasn't awkward, which I imagined any silence with Robin would be. I turned my gaze skyward one more and snuggled deeper into his cape. I felt much warmer now, but now I feel guilty if Robin is cold.
"Thank you for the cape, Robin. Are you sure you are not cold?"
"You are most certainly welcome Star. I'm fine. I don't really get cold much."
"Are you sure?"
"Absolutely positive." He had never stopped looking at the stars. I returned my gaze once again to the stars and the moon.
"The moon and stars are beautiful tonight, don't you think, Robin?"
"Yeah, but they are always beautiful, to me at least. It has always been a mystery to me how they came to be. Do you know, Starfire?"
"Unfortunately, I do not. But I wish to know. Why aren't you down with the others Robin?"
"Same question to you too."
"I do not know. I have never been interested in those types of movies. I have tried, but I do not make any sense of them."
"They are kind of pointless when you think about it. Where is your planet?"
"Excuse me?"
"Which star, or general area is your home planet?"
"Let me try to find it." I looked around but to no avail. There are too many stars. I looked towards Sirius, the Dog Star. Supposedly, my planet is supposed to be a million miles north of the star. I looked to about where it would be and found it. It was a red star, weak in power. "Right there." I pointed to where I believe it is.
"There?"
"Yes."
"What was it like on your planet?"
"It was beautiful, but dangerous nonetheless. We were attacked by many different planets and sometimes were enslaved by other races. Fortunately, there are many of my kind so we were able to overpower the attackers with our numbers. Although the planet was in constant turmoil and danger, it was also very pretty. The sky was the clearest blue and the grass was as green as it could get. Trees grew everywhere and there were numerous beautiful mountain ranges. The seas were a wonderful blue-green and the lakes the same color. The cities were also unique in each part of the planet. I was always honored to live in such a beautiful place, but at the same time I am honored to live on planet Earth, with all of you. I could never be happier." I said. Inside, I knew one part was a lie; the part about me never being any happier. There is one way I can be happier and that is being with Robin. I desperately want to be his, but I can not tell him. I am afraid he would not return my feelings and reject me. I would be heartbroken, and I wouldn't be able to take it.
He leaned closer and whispered, "Are you sure?" I could feel his warm breath passing ever so lightly over my ear. I shivered involuntarily and he gently grabbed both of my shoulders and turned me so I would look at him. I stared into the mask, desperately wanting to see what was behind it. I could not see what was passing through his eyes. I wondered if it was hatred, confusion, indifference, or hopefully, love. But if he hated me, why was he holding me so gently and looking at me? I was so lost in my own little world that I did not notice him leaning closer. The second I snapped back to reality was the second I felt lips press gently against mine.
