Note: this chapter's weird, okay? It's somewhat involving inner demons and the perfect soldier taking over and yada yada yada.
Disclaimer: Any reference to any songs such as Evanescence previously or further in this story is not owned by me. If I unclude an originally written song I will say so.
Chapter 13: The Demon InsideHe remembered what had happened while he was in the hospital...
There was darkness. It was comforting. He was raised in darkness, living with nothing, not even fear. Fear of death. It was just something that was there. Was death any different from life? He didn't want to move. He wanted to stay like this forever. In the dark void that surrounded him. He didn't want to live or die, just stay like this, stay here for eternity, in a sanctuary where nothing could hurt him. Not the painful memories, not the wounds on his body, not everything that had happened, just nothing." He remembered.
"You pray your dreams will leave you here,
But you wake and know the truth,
No ones there."
He thought, but it came out as a whisper, not in the tune though. Relena walked into the room hearing this and almost dropped his computer.
"Heero?" Relena said, walking up to him, putting his laptop into his bag. He looked at her. "Are you all right?" She questioned.
He looked at her, startled he had let his guard down. He quickly put back his face of stone. "Yeah, I'm all right, why wouldn't I be?" He asked back, obviously not wanting to talk about what he was thinking about.
Relena looked at him. "No reason, what do you say we go and eat dinner, how about that?" Heero nodded, got up and walked down the hall, cursing himself out in his mind for letting his guard down. He was going soft he decided. 'I need to train harder.' He thought.
Relena looked at the CD player and remembered the disks. She didn't want to open his bag in fear of him coming back to look for her, so she closed it, but she let her fingers drift to something. It was a yellow pressed flower. Relena looked at it for a moment, then closed the bag and rushed down to the dining hall to not be late.
After dinner, the evening was quiet. Relena had moved Heero to a different spot in the estate, due to the pillow fight mess with all the feathers and such.
Heero fell onto the comforter of the mattress almost instantly falling asleep. After dinner he had gone back to his room to be alone he told the others, but he had really done more exercising. He fell asleep into a soundless dream. That didn't last long though, due to the strange happenings that haunted his hypnosis state:
Heero opened his eyes steadily, but slowly. He jerked his body up and noticed he was surrounded by darkness. A pair of piercing eyes stared at him. The blackness in them bore into his soul. It pierced him like ice daggers. He couldn't look away from them.
In reality, he moaned, clenching the comforter so hard that it tore through the cotton. Relena was walking down the hall, the others had stayed behind with her to discuss things, one of which was Heero. She was on her way to check on him, making sure he was all right. The others would come in too, if he was asleep they would try to get some of the disks Heero had.
Heero groaned again as Relena knocked on the door. His breathing turned heavy and he turned his head back and forth. He let go of the sheet to clutch his head. Relena heard a soft moan and quickly opened the door to see Heero with his eyes closed tightly, grasping his head and moaning in agony.
"Heero!" She cried, rushing over to his side, and touched his arm gently. He didn't react. She gripped his arm tighter. "Heero, can you hear me?" She shouted to him, panic in her voice.
Heero didn't respond. He acted like she wasn't even there.
Heero was able to glare back at the eyes that turned a deep purple color with a tint of blood red in them. "What do you want?" He said coldly, confronting the shadowy form.
"You." A chilling voice replied back calmly. The sound of it recognized Heero. It was his own. The shadow formed a mouth. "Do you wish to see me?" The shadow asked mockingly.
Heero clenched his fists and unclenched them, not responding. The darkness parted to reveal a mirror. A mirror surrounded in a dark void. Heero looked in the mirror. He saw who the shadowed figure was.
Him.
Heero let out a shouted, sending what little calmness Relena had left in her into oblivion. "Heero! Wake up Heero!" She shouted, shaking his body back and forth to take him from the dream slumber. He didn't even react. He seemed to be some where else, here in body, but not in spirit and she couldn't wake him.
Duo came to the door, hearing Relena scream at something, running and then looked inside to see a very distraught Heero with his eyes closed and Relena who was shaking him rapidly, calling his name and for him to wake up.
"What the hell is going on now!" Duo cried, rushing over to Heero's side and asking the question once more, looked at Relena.
Relena looked at him. "He- he won't wake up!" She shouted. "Something's wrong!" She said almost in hysteria. She had been trying to wake him for about six minutes.
Duo had thought as much. He could feel it in his gut as he looked at his buddy. "Go and get the other's." He said quickly to Relena. "I'll try to get him up!" He told her forcibly.
Relena rushed out of the room, running off the find the others and where they had gotten.
Meanwhile, back in the room occupied by Heero, Duo was shaking him like Relena,. Only harder and screaming his name louder. He didn't seem to notice anyone was there.
Duo gave up with this and then got an idea. "You have a mission!" He shouted in Heero's ear, desperate for anything to wake him up, but he didn't do anything but hold his head, now yelling nonsense.
Duo stood up and slapped Heero hard on the face but he didn't even flinch. "What the hell?" Duo shouted. "Heero! Wake up!" He shouted, now deciding to go back to shaking the Japanese pilot violently, hitting his head on the headboard a couple of times, drawing blood and putting a crimson streak or two on the white pillows.
Heero lifted his hand to the glass and touched it, feeling it slither underneath his touch.
"What- what is this?" He questioned.
He pulled his hand away quickly, feeling a jolt bolt through his body. He gripped his hand before him. He looked from it back to the mirror and was gazing at his reflection, which hadn't been there a minute ago.
He gazed into the face, noticing it seemed a bit different. He squinted at the mirror and noticed the reflection didn't squint back. "What the hell?" He said, stumbling. He looked at his body and touched his face. He didn't feel the same as he normally did.
"I am you. The real you. The person you are suppose to be, not who you act to be today." The reflection said. It's icy cold eyes looked Heero over. "You let people change you, and then let people change you back from who you are suppose to be." It said.
"What do you mean?" Heero asked, standing up and walking over to the mirror.
"I mean what I mean. I say what is the truth. I'm the lie living in you so you can't hide. You can't hide anymore. Not now." The mirror stated. "Touch my hand." It said. Heero reached to touch the reflection that reached to touch him also. Their hands met and the glass disappeared and their hands met, the shadow stepped out.
"I don't understand..." Heero said in a monotone voice.
"Don't worry." The other Heero said. "Soon you will." It said quietly.
The others came rushing down the hall. "What's going on?" Sally shouted, running next to Wufei who matched her pace. Trowa and Quatre ran in front of them with Relena running as if the devil was at her heels.
"It's Heero!" Relena shouted back to them, making a sharp turn to hear Heero screaming and Duo shouting at him to wake up and calling his name over and over again.
"God." Trowa mumbled. His ears were pounding over the racket. They entered the room quickly and closed the door so as not to disturb the others, who were already starting to stir, but luckily Relena had put them into their own wing far from the guest wing.
"What's wrong with him?" Sally said, rushing over to restrain Du from shaking Heero anymore than he already was.
"He won't wake up!" Duo and Relena shouted in unison. Sally looked at Heero, noticing he wasn't awake after all. His hand, which was gripping his head and temple, relaxed a bit, and then slowly fell to his side. The other's rushed up to him and tried to find a pulse, which they did. They let out the breath they were holding.
He turned his head, muttering something. Then shouted at nothing. Telling it to leave, though nothing was there. Sally gripped his hand, telling him to open his eyes, but he didn't even acknowledge her presence.
"Relena?" Heero said aloud, since he couldn't think anything in his mind here since it was like his mind or something like that.
"Heero!" The voice started to call him back to reality and he started to dissipate, but the shadow gripped him.
"You are imaging things. She's not here, is she? What does it matter if she is calling you anyway, she's always in the way. She's the one that caused you to get caught. She's the one that could have blown your cover.
"But she didn't." Heero pointed out. It felt quite strange arguing with himself.
"How would you know if she had interior motives." The shadow also pointed out.
Heero found himself almost agreeing with the shadow, but shook his head, causing the shadow's small grin to turn to a frown. He quickly changed the subject. He still could have sworn he heard Relena but brushed the idea off of him.
"Understand everything about what? Who are you?" Heero questioned.
The other Heero looked at him. "I already told you, I am you." He stated. "The understanding part shall become clear in due time.
"No, you aren't. Something is different about you." Heero said coldly.
"That's because I'm the perfect soldier you, the one without what they have done to you." It said coldly back to him.
"What do you mean they?"
"You're so called "friends"." The other Heero spat out. "You have never had friend's in fact, you have never had comrades. They are useless and get in the way." He said.
"You're wrong." Heero stated.
"No, I'm not. I'll make sure of that. I'll take care of your body. You have oppressed me far too long." The shadow grinned and was beginning to fade. "I'll have some fun before letting you back to the real world." It faded completely, and with the last remaining strength he had, he opened his eyes.
His eyes snapped open. Everyone looked at him startled, but relief filled their eyes.
"Heero!" Relena cried, rushing over to him. She clutched his hand, but he brushed her off, sitting up with a lot of trouble. The others tried to help him, but they decided to stand back, they knew he hated how they saw his weakness at times. He fell back into the bed.
'My strength is failing.' He thought rapidly. His eyes were turning a harder cold blue. Plus, his vision was getting blurry and he was loosing feeling of everything. The softness on the bed wasn't there anymore... 'Must...hurry...' He said sleepily, his vision wavered even !" He told her forcibly before he closed his eyes and turned his head, breathing heavily. His breath stopped suddenly and his pulse died. Sally cried out this and the other's rushed forward, but stopped.
The pulse came back at full force after a minute or two. His eyes snapped open and he yanked his hand away from they other's. They met his cold deadly gaze squarely and inched away from him. Relena looked at him.
Heero looked at them and grinned. "Too long have I waited in the shadow's, dreaming for this day. Waiting for his strength to gain and for him to try to exceed what he was meant for. What we were meant for."
"What?" Relena shouted. "What are you talking about?" She cried. Heero walked up to her, gazing at her.
"So you're her, huh?" He said. His eyes glared at her, cold, chilling her very soul to the bone.
"What are you?" She whispered. 'This isn't Heero!' She thought, 'He told me to run!'
Heero raised his hand and gripped her neck. "Obviously you don't know anything about demon's." He said coldly, grinning evilly as he slowly lifted her up by her neck, strangling her !" He told her forcibly, then closed his eyes and turned his head, breathing heavily.
His breath stopped.
His pulse died.
Sally cried out, "His pulse! It's gone!" She cried. She dug her finger's into his temple, trying to find a pulse there, but nothing. The others were rushing forward, but then...
The pulse came back at full force after a minute or two. "Oh!" Sally shouted.
Heero's eyes snapped open and he yanked his hand away from they other's. They met his cold deadly gaze squarely and inched away from him. Relena looked at him.
Heero looked at them and grinned. "Too long have I waited in the shadow's, dreaming for this day. Waiting for his strength to gain and for him to try to exceed what he was meant for. What we were meant for."
"What?" Relena shouted. "What are you talking about?" She cried. Heero walked up to her, gazing at her.
"So you're her, huh?" He said. His eyes glared at her, cold, chilling her very soul to the bone.
"What are you?" She whispered. 'This isn't Heero!' She thought, 'He told me to run!'
Heero raised his hand and gripped her neck. "Obviously you don't know anything about demon's." He said coldly, grinning evilly as he slowly lifted her up by her neck, strangling her slowly.
"What in the world are you doing?" Sally shouted. The other's rushed forward but Duo lunged for him first.
Duo rushed forward. Heero dropped Relena, leaving bruises on her neck, which faded quickly as if nothing ever happened. Duo was about to land a punch when something unexpected happened.
The limp form of Heero was in the dark place where he met himself. The other him that was, the inner demon he had lived with.
Heero saw faint images. Then he saw Relena's smudged face. "No!" He cried, opening his eyes and the dark place shifted unsteadily and flashed and rushed away from him, retreating from the awakened and renewed Heero Yuy.
"No..." He said angrily.
The other Heero gripped his head, shouted nonsense, until the sound of meaningful words came out of his mouth, not in his normal cold voice. "No..." He said angrily before falling forward, his eyes glazed over and then he closed them.
Heero lay there, limp and not moving. Relena was the first to move. Every one else was holding their breath, half expecting the demon or whatever just happened to spring forth again, which it didn't. Relena ran over to his side and drew him into a hug almost.
He didn't stir.
His chest was heaving up and down through struggled breaths, which showed his exhaustion.
"What the hell was that?" Duo asked blankly. He looked at the other Gundam pilot's for advice, but obviously got none.
They picked Heero up and placed him on the bed, keeping the covers off him since his body was hot. Relena ran to the bathroom to get a wash cloth to place on his head.
She placed it gently on his forehead and then left quietly, Sally closing the door, suggesting that since he looked so utterly exhausted, that the best cure for him was sleep.
TBC
Author's note: Yeah, that was completely weird and random after I read over it I found it didn't even fit the plot, somewhat like an iterlude you could say!
Love, Red Tail
