"Heero!" She exclaimed happily, everything forgotten as tears of happiness streaked down her cheeks, washing away her fears. Gladness, like a wave, struck over her as she understood they escaped. He didn't look like he had any wounds but her lip was scabbed over, and bruises on her cheeks.
She stopped dead in her tracks when she saw that he didn't even turn to look at her, but kept his gaze fixed on the sheets. He hadn't moved at all. The look on her face made her walk backwards slightly, stumbling in her tracks as she tripped on a tile against her shoes. She let herself fall to the ground, which held as her despair...
Chapter 23: A Smile in the MidstHe had given up. Had he given up? Heero thought to himself. 'Was I really fighting to begin with?' He questioned his being. 'No.' an inner voice told him soothingly as to try and ease the pain the questions brought. Digging into his past and remembering things wasn't one of the more pleasant things he looked for. It never was and never had been. 'You never gave a fight and you've died ever since that girl and her dog did. You are already dead. An empty shell.'
Heero felt Relena's gaze on him but what did he care? He never cared what others thought, it was one less thing to worry about. Which, in this case was a good thing.
He looked out of the corner of his eye and saw her stumble back. 'I'm so pathetic.' He thought, beating himself for making her stumble away from him like he was a monster. 'Wait,' He remembered. 'I am a monster.' A killing monster with the blood of thousands of people on his hands.
Sally caught Relena, noticing he hadn't even budged to catch Relena. Maybe he was beyond their grasp but they couldn't give up so easily.
Heero drew his knees up and leaned his head against them, trying to block out the memories flooding back, the little girl speaking to him. She wouldn't stop it. She haunted him, telling him not to be so hard on himself. 'How can I not? I murdered you!' He argued with his inner angel.
The shadowed girl smiled softly. 'You'll end up loosing everyone that you love.' She whispered, looking at him intently with Mary hopping around at her feet, stopping and gazing at the teenager solemnly.
"Heero?" Relena asked, taking in his still form. He seemed to be fighting with himself, which showed that he was still trying to fight back, trying to not give up hope yet.
"I won't give up." He whispered, Relena heard this come from his mouth though he seemed not to know he said this aloud. Her heart leapt for joy and Sally's too and the prussain eyes they were so accustomed to flashed open.
He looked at the occupants of the room and looked down at his wrists, fighting the nausea of what had happened that made him feel sick to his stomach. He had sworn to protect her, an oath stronger than that of a blood one and it had been broken. He got up stiffly and straightened, grabbing a black tank top off of the bedside table that was replaced by his torn and bloodied green forest one.
He walked briskly over to the door despite his injuries, which he hadn't noticed of course. Then again, what more could one expect from a soldier who had been trained to withstand these things ever since the day he was born.
"Heero, where are you going?" Sally asked, stepping in front of the door to block his exit as she tapped her foot, waiting for an answer. "Well? You shouldn't even be up!" She looked over at his wrists, noticing how he didn't even grimace when he moved.
He ignored her, walking to he door in an almost slow manner. He opened the door as Sally rushed behind him, trying to drag him back into the room even though Relena had more serious injuries that him.
"I won't put you in anymore danger than I already have. It's me they want, and its me they will get." He said, closing the door and locking it to the ship bay inside the gigantic ship.
Sally pounded on the door, crying out his anme as Relena and the others rushed to see what was wrong, trying to get the door open when they heard what was going on.
Inside the compartment, Heero looked at the nearest small spaceship that was in front of him, being quite gigantic for a small ship. It would be enough to get him to their main base. If he made it there without being shot down by them. They probably figure that I'll come.
He felt a small smile tug on his lips when he realized the big favor that he was doing for the others right now. They would come and kill them all, that or make them wish they were dead.
Like Relena. Relena was in pain because of him, because he was trained to be the perfect soldier and they wanted him back. They were even planning on...He nearly wretched and felt like throwing up and the thought of them doing something to such the naïve girl. That was wrong: she may be naïve, but she had an odd sense of the world and was grown up though she was still a child. Her heart and spirit was mature and that showed with how she tried making the world realize her ideals.
As long as he was alive, there would be no hope for peace...
Making up his mind he headed for the ship and opened the door, his broken body and spirit being pulled for one final mission. Death.
If you are near to the dark, I will tell you of the sun. You are here, no escape from my visions of the world. You will cry all alone but it does not mean a thing to me. Angels sang in chorus to him as he used his last energy to bring the world to peace. This is what he was alive for, the world wouldn't cry for him after all...
TBC
Excerpt from Death bring me Peace
'God, if there is a god, let me be at peace and forever let my sorrows end now.' He thought, the detonation switch in his hand in front of him.
'The world won't cry for me anyway. I gave them a bloody war and now, this will end everything. War will never be found with my existence and now they can live in peace.' He thought. 'Goodbye.' He whispered out his last thought as he closed his eyes, pushing the red detonation button as fire and explosions went around all around him, setting off the building in flames like wildfire.
'For you, my Relena.' Was his last thought as pain swept over his body, sending him flying into the flames and debris.
A news reporter stood before the whole scene with many others taking account of the mess. "Currently, a military base with millions of weapons and mobile suits that was recently discovered has been destroyed by unknown explosives.
There are no survivors and no bodies are found due to explosives used on the base. They were determined to be normal, but set off a chain reaction of the other weapons which included biological, much like the atomic bomb, the bodes of the victims and people in this base were dead before they could even think probably.
The number of deaths isn't tallied and will stay unknown for all records on this base were destroyed along with everything else.
Currently, we hope this wasn't a terrorist attack and that there aren't any other bases such as this. Vice Foreign Minister and the other EUSN officials will hopefully make a statement on this sometime these next few weeks." The newscaster concluded. "The ESUN will mourn for the victims of this tragic incident, hoping nothing like this shall be repeated." She bowed her head in respect and the anchor changed ad the news was cast all over the world and colonies...
