Chapter 10
When I woke up, after I got over my dream, or whatever it was that Squall visited me in, I realized there was someone beside me, even though Dr. Kadowaki had strongly advised that no one should come in. I looked over and saw Seifer, sleeping sitting up in an uncomfortable infirmary chair, his head on his chest. I watched him breathe in and out peacefully, content to simply know he was there with me. What was he dreaming about? I really did wonder.
Was he dreaming about his past, like I did so often? Maybe his brother, or his parents? Or bloody battles that haunted nightmares that chased me so often? Was he dreaming about his friends, like when I dreamed Sarah transferred here and she and I and Selphie were all best friends again? Or was he dreaming about someone that meant a lot to him, like I dreamed of him sometimes? Was he dreaming about me? He seemed so happy, so peaceful. I sighed, hugging the pillow tighter and closing my eyes.
As I gazed at him, I remembered from the start thinking he was decently cute... But now, with his blonde bangs messilly falling over his closed eyes, for once not slicked back, and the thin scar stretching across his forehead... with his long white trench coat, and his gunblade at his side... He seemed like the most wonderful person I had ever met. Handsome, caring, kind, protective...
I smiled faintly. It had started off as one of those fuzzy feelings, like a schoolgirl's crush... but now, it seemed like that warm, fuzzy feeling he gaze me just kept growing and growing. I reached over and took Seifer's hand in mine. Seifer stirred slightly.
"What the hell... go bother Quistis, I'm on a date..." he mumbled, scowling in his sleep, and I couldn't supress a giggle, "I said go away... ignore him, Sierra..."
"Seifer," I shook my head.
"...Huh...?" he asked blearilly, awakened by my giggle, eyes openned only slightly. He ran a hand through his hair.
"Good morning," I said cheerfully.
"Sierra... you okay?" Seifer yawned.
I thought he looked really cute, all bleary-eyed and dazed, seeming like a sleepy little kid. But then again, he was always cute, and only I, with my twisted mind, could think of him 'cute, being all bleary eyed and dazed, like a sleepy little kid'. But whatever. Being a little twisted wasn't so bad, right?
"Yeah," I smiled brightly at him. He had the most beautiful eyes, even though I'd never tell him that.
"Good. Damn Landon, just you wait till I jump his case..."
I debated whether to tell him about my dream where Landon was a sorceress knight, but decided against it.
"Yeah," I muttered.
"Who shoved a stick up his ass?" grumbled Seifer, "He's never to lay a finger on you again."
I couldn't help but smile at his protectiveness over me. It kind of surprised me that Seifer could like a plain, drab old girl like me. I was the image of plain and simple, yet he seemed to dare I say itlove me. It was so rash, I realized suddenly, to assume he loved me after knowing me only a short period of time. I cursed myself for my stupidity.
"Something wrong, Sierra?"
"No," I murmured, suddenly feeling sick.
"Okay... tell me if there's anything you need."
I made sure to nod before closing my eyes. He squeezed my hand, making my pulse race, but not unpleasantly so. He made me all... fluttery. Dunno how, but he did. I sighed, remembering when, in a moment of idiocricy, I had told him I loved him. I searched my mind thoroughly, trying to remember what he had said in response. ...'I love you, too'. Was it my hopeful imagination, or did he really say it? Wishful thinking, I thought sadly to myself with a concious sigh. Cripes. I was obsessed with this guy... he was all I ever thought about anymore.
I had my eyes closed, but it was if I had suddenly openned them, because I saw... something. It was a blinding white light, then total darkness. It had started to rain crystaline drops, like shattered glass, shimmering and catching light like prisms, sending rainbows flashing everywhere. But no matter how pretty it looked, my common sense told me to get away. This was most definetly dangerous. Like, on the level 'get-outta-there-now-your-next-breath-depends-on-it'. I looked around for Seifer frantically.
Was that how I worked now? When in danger look for Seifer, because he'll help? Goddangit, I was becoming so dependent! I winced, then searched for Seifer. Gone. He was gone! I reached out, shivering. Where was he? I closed my eyes. It was beautiful, but I was scared, I dunno why, and I wanted out of there A.S.A.P. What was going on? Blackness, which surrounded me, seemed to tear into me, and I thrashed about, searching for a way out.
When I openned my eyes again, I was in Seifer's arms. His face was a couple inches from mine, etched with panic and worry. He held me on his lap, his arms in a firm circle around me, pinning my arms to my sides. I felt exhausted as I did when I got possessed. I sighed, weary to much for words, letting my head fall back onto his shoulder.
"What happened? Are you okay?"
"...Dunno... I'm fine... Why are you...?"
"Because you were just laying there, and then you kinda yelled my name and started shouting and trembling and kicking and... yeah... I was trying to keep you calm..." he almost let go of me, but I put my hands on his, not minding his arms encircling my waist. I saw his features change, his expression going from embarrassed to surprised to happy.
"...Thankyou."
"So what was going on, anyway?"
"I was... dreaming..." I struggled to find the words.
"What kind of dream could be that bad...?" he observed me worriedly.
"I was... alone. In pitch black. There was a flash of light, then it was a pretty shiny-like rain, multicolored and sparkly and stuff... and... I'm not making any sense..." I sighed, and he leaned forward, so his forehead rested against mine.
"You won't ever be alone if I can help it, Sierra."
I blinked up at him, surprised. He smiled. He was, what, an inch away? I soaked up his handsome expression. So I was a glutton for punishment. So I had been hurt before. Seifer was different. I knew it. I smiled at him, and my heart raced as he leaned forward, and I knew he was about to kiss me. Wow. I closed my eyes, heart thumping loudly and
"GUYS!" exclaimed Sefie, who had just ran in. Seifer jumped, in turn causing me to slide off of his lap and land uncerimoniously in the floor, sprawled out.
"Shit!"
Seifer muttered, offering me his hand.
"Oooooh, was I
interupting anything?" Selphie giggled, "I'll leave you two
alone now..."
"No, what did you want?" I took Seifer's hand and got to my feet. Between paramagic and Dr. Kadowaki's excellent work, I was feeling okay. Not totally, as Starla would say, 'spiffy', but I was okay.
"Oh," Sefie blinked, "Um, Headmaster Cid just wanted to speak to Seifer... that's all. But he says it can wait till you're done visiting Sierra. So take your time," she beamed all-knowingly. Sometimes I felt like hitting her... cripes... "I'll see you two later."
"No, no... I'll go see Cid now." Seifer nodded as if nothing had happened, which kind of bothered me. "Take care, Sierra."
He smiled at me, waving and walking off. He looked back over his shoulder once, and I, much to even my own surprise, grinned and blew him a kiss. Seifer just kind of gave me a secretive 'later' smile, like he would later, y'know, give me that kiss he'd attempted as SEFIE BURST IN. Crap... crapcrapcrap! I laughed a little, sinking back down on the infirmary bed. Dr. Kadowaki came in, her eyebrows raised, but she was to nice to ask exactly what had happened.
"How much longer will I have to stay here?"
"Until tomorrow, Sierra."
"Okay, okay..." I grumbled, then brightened, "Wanna play triple triad?"
We played, and I lost my Selphie card to her, which really cheesed me off. Really. So I kept pestering her to play again, and she always insisted on the random rule. Part of me believed, for a while, that she had taken the Selphie card totally out of her deck, because, y'know, she knew I wanted it back. BAD. Cause I promised Selphie I would never lose her card. I had been the Card Queen in Trabia. But Kadowaki caught me off guard once. And after about three straight hours of triple triading, I finally won it back. She sighed, rolling her eyes and insisting that I leave her alone and that she had better things to do than play triple triad with a random student. I openned my laptop, which Sefie had brought in for me.
SLoire: Yoo-hoo, anyone there?
SefieStar: Explain
SLoire: ...Cruds.
SefieStar: Hehehehe! Tell me! Tell me!
SLoire: Um...no.
SefieStar: Awww, puh-lease? puppy dog eyes
SLoire: I was just having a bad dream, and I freaked out and started yelling and fighting and Seifer was trying to calm me down.
SefieStar: Sure. Since, y'know, he was about to KISS you.
SLoire: shuddup.
SefieStar: c'mon, gimme the scoop!
SLoire:...you won't believe what happened.
SefieStar: waits impatiently for Sierra to continue...
SLoire: Squall visited me in a dream. Said he had to say goodbye and that it wasn't my fault and such. And he told me to tell you he loved you.
SefieStar: stop, Sierra. it's not funny. teasing me like that is really mean, okay?
SLoire: I'm serious!
SefieStar: I said stop it! That's really jerky, saying you've got a message from a dead person I liked.
SLoire: For really!
SefieStar: Just shut up.
SefieStar logged off.
&#!&...! I muttered angrilly.
Cripes that just sucked! Sucked sucked SUCKED! Sefie was mad at me, Seifer would probably never LOOK at me again, and I had a -hole- in my stomach. You've heard of 'yeh know yer a readneck when'? Well, 'yeh know yer life sucks when'... I sighed, leaning back, deciding since, y'know, it was 10:38 I should really get some sleep. I rolled over, shivering and pulling the blankets tighter around my shoulders, falling into a restless sleep.
