"Ok so I answered that question for you... tell me."
"How does a brief summary sound?"
"Good." Monica smiled and sipped her water.
"We yelled...broke up... The end." Chandler smiled.
Monica slapped Chandler's arm. "That doesn't help!" She giggled.
"I'm just kidding." He laughed. "Ok.. well I started working in Tulsa and you got a job at Javu so you stayed here. We saw less of each other.. and on Christmas I had to work. But I missed you so much I quit. And for a while everything was great even though we were struggling a little because we're big spenders. I got an internship at an advertising place... no pay. We borrowed a lot of money from Joey and tried to cut back.. but it just wasn't working. And my old job was begging for me back and was throwing out big numbers and.. I took it. Because I knew how much we needed it especially because we were starting a family. Well... after I started working again... things started to crumble."
Monica said as tears began to form in her eyes. "Wow.."
"You're not gonna cry again are you?"
"I can't help it.. I'm pregnant!" She put her hand on her face.
"Here's your check." The waiter said handing Chandler the check.
"That wasn't funny."
Monica was laughing so hard. "Oh yes it is.. you have not seen yourself yet." Monica stopped laughing for a minute looked at Chandler covered in marinara sauce and started laughing again.
"That little girl came out from nowhere!"
"Why don't you go take a shower and I'll just sit out here and watch TV" Monica smiled and sat on Chandler's bed. "I can't believe you've been staying at a hotel for the past 2 weeks."
"Yea well. I'm going back to Tulsa next week and I didn't want to bug any of the guys by staying over."
"You could've stayed with me."
"Pete. It's ok.. only a couple more days."
Monica yawned and rubbed her stomach. "I think I'm getting finally getting used to this whole pregnancy thing." Monica smiled.
Chandler smiled at her. "I'll be back." He walked into the bathroom.
Monica grabbed the remote and turned on the TV She lay down and started drifting off...
Monica yawned as she walked into her apartment. She had a long day at work. "Chandler?" Monica walked over to the couch and looked at him. "Sweetie what are you doing here? I thought you weren't gonna come home for a couple more days."
"I came to see you.. But you were at work."
"Sweetie I'm so sorry I didn't know.."
"Well that's the whole point in surprises... I thought you didn't work on Tuesday's."
"I told you I started working on Tuesdays a couple weeks ago."
"I don't remember you telling me that."
"Probably because you fell asleep on me when I told you." She looked down at the coffee table which had papers scattered everywhere. "There's a mess on the coffee table."
"Glad you noticed."
Monica sighed and shook her head. "I don't understand how you can work in this mess." Monica said kneeling down and organizing his papers.
"I look at the mess and continue to work." He continued punching numbers into a calculator. "Monica stop!"
"Why did you come home if you were just going to work?"
"Is there something wrong with coming home and seeing my wife?"
"Well you haven't looked at me since I've come home." She said standing up and putting her hands on her hips.
Chandler sighed and starting writing some numbers down.
"Whatever. You can sleep on the couch tonight because I don't want to be near you tonight." She rolled her eyes.
"We haven't been near each other in weeks. So I guess it wouldn't really matter."
"Is that my fault?" Monica turned around and glared at him. He still wasn't looking at her. He was punching numbers into the calculator with a pen. She shook her head and turned around and continued walking to their room.
"This isn't working." Chandler sighed and ran his hands through his hair.
"There's a calculator in one of those drawers."
"I'm talking about us." Chandler said throwing the calculator and pen onto the table making a few pieces of paper fly off the table.
Monica turned around and looked at him.
He looked up at her. His eyes were red and puffy. He didn't look up because he didn't want her to see he was crying.. but he couldn't take it. He had to look at her.
Monica walked closer to him. "What do you mean?"
"You know what I mean."
Monica's eyes began to sting. "No I don't.. "
"We... we have drifted apart..."
"No we haven't."
"Yes we have! You have your life here in New York... and I am stuck in Tulsa. I thought that if I came home today things would be fine.. but you weren't home.. you know how long it's been since we've seen each other? 3 weeks... 3. Last time we actually talked was like a week and a half ago."
"So what? That doesn't mean that we've drifted apart! We still love each other. We still want a family."
"We haven't even come close to starting a family. How do we start a family if we keep living like this Mon? We're too busy for a family.. We don't even see each other! How can we raise kids? We won't have time to see our kids. I want to have kids that I will actually see. Not once every week.. or two."
"What the hell do you want? So what we're going through a rough time right now. We'll figure it out. We always do. So stop being so scared..."
"What the hell am I scared of Monica?"
Monica thought for a while as the tears ran down her face.
"The only person who's scared is you."
"The only thing I'm scared of is losing you!"
"You think I'm crazy about losing you Mon? You know what you mean to me? You mean everything to me! And it hurts to not be able to see you and kiss you and wake up to you're beautiful face everyday. I hate it! I hate Tulsa but I have to be there. I have to be there so we can live!"
"No you don't! No one made you go back. It was you're decision. We were doing fine. We were happy. And then you decided to go back to your stupid job."
"We needed the money."
"So what? You LOVED advertising! I talked to Steve about it. And he said that you would've been amazing at it. He said he was going to hire you after the internship."
"You know when the internship is over Monica? It's still going on! We've finally paid off everything! Joey the bills... everything! If I was still at that internship we wouldn't even be close to paying them off"
"You're just gonna give everything up? Everything that we had because you feel like we're drifting apart?"
"It feels like we're not together.."
"How?"
"You know what today is Monica?"
"What?"
"Our anniversary."
Monica's heart stopped. "What?"
"I tried call you all morning.. all day... but I couldn't get a hold of you. I tried so hard to call you and tell you happy anniversary and that I loved you so much. You didn't even try to call me!"
"Oh my god sweetie.. I'm soo soooo sorry." Monica got down on her knees and put her hands on Chandler's thighs. "I love you sooo much.. I've been so busy. Chandler...I'll make it up to you I promise."
"You're always too busy... I always have time for you.. Whenever you call no matter what I'm doing I stop to talk to you... whenever I call you can't come to the phone because you're too busy."
"We have different jobs Chandler... You are in an office.. I'm in a kitchen. If I stopped to talk to you I could burn the whole kitchen. What do you want me to do Chandler? Quit?"
"No. I would never make you quit.. especially since I know how much you love it. I don't know what I want.." A tiny tear slid down his cheek and he quickly brushed it away. "I've been thinking about it all day.. And I still can't come up with anything.. I love you and I don't want to lose you but I can't stand not seeing you and if I quit... then.."
Monica looked into his eyes. "I don't wanna lose you."
"Me either.." Chandler whispered and kissed her hands. "I love you so much."
They sat silently for a while. "It hurts me too Chandler... " Monica sighed. resting her head on his knees.
Joey burst through the doors and when he saw Monica his eyes widened. "SORRY!" And ran out.
Monica looked up at the door then to Chandler's eyes. "What do we do?"
Chandler shrugged.
Monica got up and passionately kissed Chandler and crawled into his lap.
"Doesn't solve anything." Chandler whispered as he rested his forehead on hers.
"I know." She whispered back. Monica wrapped her arms around Chandler.
Chandler stroked her hair and kissed her head. "I love you."
"I'm gonna quit."
"What? No Mon."
"Chandler.. you are so much more important to me then my stupid job. I'll take you over my job any day."She smiled and pecked his cheek.
"Monica you know you don't have to?"
"You did it for me.. and maybe this will be better. Because you're making a lot of money right now and I don't need to work.. I'll be a stay at home mom...Promise me something..."
"What?"
"We'll always be friends and love each other.. no matter what."
"I promise." Chandler smiled and kissed Monica. "I love you so much."
"I love you." Monica giggled and kissed him. "Happy anniversary sweetie... I'll make it up to you I promise..." She kissed him. "Come on.. I'll make it up to you now."
"Ok!" Chandler smiled as he picked Monica up, swung her over his shoulder and ran to their room.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
Monica's head began to hurt. The pounding in her head seemed to get harder and harder. Images flashed through her head. Familiar images. There was one when she and Chandler were at a marriage councling session screaming at each other. Divorce papers being signed. Seeing Pete again. Her first date with Pete again. Chandler finding out about Pete at Ross and Rachel's wedding. Everything began to come together and make sense. Monica quickly opened her eyes. She looked around and was breathing really hard.
Thank you for the reviews! Did you like it? Hope so. I tried to update this sooner but on Monday.. I didn't do my pilates this morning so i shall be doing that now.. hoped you liked it and PLEASE REVIEW
