Author note: Hi it's me again, remember me? Oh come on, surely you have to. Gawd I'm so sorry I haven't updated for a while, I've had this kind of writer's block or something and then this small period of time where I doubted my loyalty towards the Raven BB coupling, but don't worry that's over! If you forget the last chapter here's a short scoop: Raven saved BB, they were both hurt, she recovered and Terra confessed what she had done and what she had become, it also had bits of Raven's past and also put a teen night at the club situation that will come in a later chapter. It is so much better if you read it though I swear. So feel free to look back at it. Now for the chit chat that I love so much, I loved the last TT how bout you? It was nice comic relief especially from Raven. I got #12 of The New Teen Titans comic, so confusing since it's the only one I've ever read, but it's beautiful, it's the end to a four part Raven thing. Raven is actually BALD and there's actually a bit of Raven BB romance at the end! EEE! Oh and from the comic I learned stuff like the jewel on her head is a Chakra and Beast Boy's real name is Garfield Logan AKA Gar. You gotta read it!
(no Terra in it btw) Ok now read the story!
The night was dark and lonely as Raven stared out from the window, searching through the stars but only stars were there. There was no moon on this night. Raven just stared out at the stars and wondered how long they'd been there shining, they seemed close together, like they just needed to move a couple inches to flirt with one another, but in reality they were so far apart, galaxies away from one another. Seemingly surrounded by so many just like them but they were so alone. 'Yet...they still have the light to shine...' Raven thought. Then she looked at the flashing lights, plains, man made objects pretending to be falling stars, surely no one could wish on creatures so dead and shamed, never alive, just cold metal.
"Raven, the pizza's here, why don't you join us for Dinner?" Robin asked Raven, interrupting her thoughts. An empty feeling of hunger rumbled in her stomach at the mention of food, but the thought of food now made her sick. She couldn't eat. Not when Beast boy was still hurt, he couldn't eat, why should she? It was all her fault anyway... 'no it was Terra's fault Raven, you can't blame yourself, you did all you could, you saved his life.' The voice in Raven's head corrected her.
"No I'm not that hungry..." Raven said sadly.
"Raven you haven't eaten all day! It's not healthy, you have to eat something!" Cyborg explained looking extremely worried.
"Yes, he is right Raven, come feast with us on this delightful cheese and sauce coated bread." Starfire chirped in. Raven just sighed and gave into her hunger, Beast Boy wouldn't want her to be so weak and frail from starving herself, what if he needed her? She just nodded her head and walked over to the table. She went through the whole dinner without talking. The weak hungry girl just eat her one slice of plain cheese pizza as fast as she could, and then excused herself from the table. It wasn't much to eat for her hungry soul, but it dropped down to the pit of her stomach and she was content with this, no longer feeling the burning hunger and threat of falling. Raven was about to fly to her room but she stopped for a second. She didn't feel like wallowing in her misery right now, not alone. So Raven took another slice of pizza and wrapped in a flower decorated napkin from the table. The warm slice of pizza seemed to sooth raven's cold bitter hands as she walked her way down the white walled hallways that led to the room. The room that held Beast Boy's body. It almost drove her insane listening to the constant pattern off tapping and tapping that her feet made, and the endless white hallway that led to her damaged angel. The hallway wasn't really that long, but it seemed to just go on and on, tile to tile, until finally she reached the door.
For a couple seconds she just stood there staring at the door, how could such a simple door with a simple frame and a simple color, white, hold behind it something so...simply just so complicated and beautiful. Raven opened the door with a slight creek, and then gently shut it behind her. She was welcomed by the sight of the green changeling sleeping silently in a hospital bed, breathing through a mask. Raven noticed that everything... everything was so white. It was enough to drive a completely sane person into a fit of hysteria. So Raven walked over to the window and opened it, letting in the light gleam of the stars in the sky. She spotted some flowers way below her on the island ground and picked them up with her mind. She brought the creamy lavender bouquet of wild flowers into her hands and put them in an empty vase on the little table beside Beast Boy's bed. A smile spread across her face as she looked at what she'd done, vibrant color blooming and glowing before her eyes.
Raven then remembered the pizza. She unwrapped the napkin in her hands and threw it into a little a little garbage can. She stood there for a few seconds holding the pizza, wondering if he would be ok without his breathing mask on for a bit, and if he was awake enough to eat yet. Raven knelt beside Beast Boy's bed and touched the mask with her fingertips.
"BB?" Raven whispered in his ear. "Beast Boy....are you with me?" She asked him, looking for any sign that he could hear her.
===Beast Boy's Dream===
He was floating in that purple highlighted sky, his soul reaching out farther than his body, he could feel it ache. But the singing of his angel captured his ever being. How could she be so beautiful? They floated in the abyss and it felt so heavenly that he felt his heart would hopp out of his throat and fly away like butterfly. A butterfly that had been freed from the dark clasp of a child's hands, reaching towards the golden sky. The child would laugh with joy and wish he could fly too, to the stars in the sky so he could wish every night, every time one had fallen.
Suddenly Beast Boy heard voices, Tera's voice, screaming in pain, drowned in a flow of evil, screams of Raven, painfully trying to escape the pain that was slowly killing her, but she screamed not for herself, but for him...His body shuttered and shivered. Every scream sent a bolt of anguish crying through his body that stung his chest. A squeak escaped his lips.
Do not worry yourself my young lover. Be at peace with yourself, don't let the allusions get to you. He heard Raven's voice and looked to her beautifully cloaked figure, like an angel hovering beside him. He turned to her and clutched his side trying to center and concentrate the pain out of his weak body. He finally gathered enough energy to do so, and the pain was gone. But it left this tired hollow feeling in his muscles. She held him so he wouldn't fall, and sent warmth and energy into his body.
"Dance with me..." She spoke softly and he nodded his head. They gently wrapped their arms around one another and began a small waltz in the sky. Gliding in thin air, lost in a gaze between one another in coats of velvet, lavender light. She began to sing again, the same tune but softer, as if a whisper just for him. He felt like he was flying with his feet, singing silently with his soul, he could feel that butterfly spread its whimsical wings and soar in the rapture of a moment. There wasn't anything he could have wished for right then, a thousand stars could have fallen around him and the only thing he would have wished for would be that Raven could be his, forever, and that nothing would ever hurt her. He heard a gentle water fall in the background, thrusting everything into bliss. There was a soft drizzle, glowing amethyst rain drops caressed their bodies.
-------out of dream—"Beast Boy? Where are you?" Raven whispered as tears fell from her eyes onto his soft green skin.-----
Everything seemed perfect. He was a king, she was his Queen, he didn't need anything. Well he thought so...Her singing became lighter and lighter until there was a silence. All that was heard was the light rain tapping against their bodies. she leaned forward onto him, and their lips touched. Beast Boy's Butterfly flew far away towards Heaven, if there was such a place that wasn't this. He touched his warm hand to her cold cheek and then lowered the hood to her cape. He saw Raven's beautiful face and looked through half open eyes into her creamy violet eyes, the gate way to her soul, he thought. And then they both closed their eyes once again for a sweet kiss.
"Stay with me, for always." She said, their eyes still closed, but when he opened his eyes to gaze once more into hers...He saw; The face of Terra staring back at him. Her face took him by surprise, her piercing eyes staring him down like the face of a huntress. Determined. He saw no soul in her eyes, just a bottomless hole of emptiness. The clouds began to darken as he tried to break away from her hold, too startled for words. A feeling of regret weighed him down and he wondered how he'd been so blind to get himself caught in her trap.
"What's wrong BB I thought you loved me huh? Why are you backing away now? Is it her? Is it Raven you really love? She doesn't really love you, you know...you're just a friend to her! And even if she DID love you, someone else loves her. So she doesn't need you. But you need me, Beast Boy. And I need you. So why don't you stay a while huh?" Terra spoke harshly. But he didn't answer her, he couldn't, he didn't know how. "What now you can't speak to me any more?! Come on BB wake up! Wake up and smell the air!" But Beast Boy did smell the air...and it had the familiar stench of, blood. Fresh blood.
"It can't be true Terra, it just can't be..."
"I'M the only one that loves you! The only one that ever loved you, and ever cared about you, and ever wanted you! You need me! You love me! I know you do! And I love You BeastBoy! With all of my HEART and my SOUL and my BLOOD! What more can you ask for?! I'm only here for you. Because I'm alive for you, my miserable little world is built around YOU, because YOU are the only...person...that ever cared about me...No one else trusted me, or loved me...No one but you BB, don't take that away from me..." She screamed and added with a gasps of air. She started to cry, burning tears leaked from her eyes and she just let it all out.
"Terra?" Was all he said. He stared at her, watching her body collapse onto a cloud, weak and trembling. He was so shocked, he didn't know she felt that way, but at the same time a deep hurt sank into his heart. Raven didn't love him? Did he really like Raven much, maybe it wasn't anything, besides she had some one else. That's what Terra said. Why would Terra want to hurt him? She loved him didn't she? But then he remembered, she did hurt him, she nearly killed him, and the one to save him was-
Terra stared into his eyes, her own lighting up with a bright scorching light. She focused on him and he was caught in her stare. Just then he forgot all that, how she'd hurt him, how Raven saved him, everything he felt for Raven. It was now gone, if not gone sent straight to the very back of his mind. Like the memories just perished, to him they never happened. All that ever happened was Terra, his only love. She stood up and they walked into an embrace. A wicked smile plastered onto her face, she knew what she had done.
BeastBoy felt happy but he couldn't think at all, everything was blank accept for Terra. Just then he felt the air in his lungs empty out, and he began to choke violently. He gasped for air but it was to no use, he could feel himself peel away from that world, it was getting blurrier and blurrier.
"Beast Boy stop! Don't you leave me again! I'm tired of being alone BB! Stay with me! Gawd damn it stay WITH ME!!!" The plead of Terra faded away in echoes as his eyes slowly opened to a world so bright and real, with heavy air.
-------------------------------Reality-----------------------------------------
"Gar?! Are you---ok?! Beast Boy?!" Raven yelled and looked into his tired emerald eyes. They hadn't been open for, so long. He caught his breath and began to breathe normally once more. His gaze shifted around the room and then landed back on Raven.
"Gar? There's a name I haven't heard in a while, no one's called me my real name since....since...." He tried to look around the block in his mind but his memory was still chipped. He just let it fly away and turned his head to the flowers. "Their really pretty, thanks, I can't stand all this white." Raven smiled
"Neither could I." She replied. But she noticed something different in his eyes, something missing, a light that wasn't there. Beast Boy looked at her once more but whenever he saw her he felt this hole of nothingness in his heart and it hurt so much. He had no idea why, but it really hurt to look at her.
"Where's Terra?" He whispered to Raven but looked up at the ceiling.
"BB I know your hurt, and you probably want to know what was happening on the roo-"
"Where is my beloved Terra?" He asked again. This took Raven by surprise, she just stared blankly at him. "I don't understand the problem where is my Terra?!" He asked again now frustrated. Tears swelled up in Raven's eyes, why did he want to see her...had he really forgotten what she'd done to him, did he have a concussion?
"But Terra, she hurt you, so badly, do you-"
"Raven I don't care about whatever you say she did to me because I love her...I need her Raven, and she needs me...but you don't understand that do you? You never needed any one." Frustration grew in his mind. Raven placed the pizza on the table and ran out of that room, tears escaping her confused and lonely eyes. Had that really been BeastBoy in there? Her BeastBoy? It couldn't be could it, but who else could it be. Raven walked to Terra's room with a jealous painful look on her face, she didn't want Terra to be with Beast Boy but, that was what he really wanted, it would make him happy...and Raven was so tired of seeing him miserable. She opened the door slightly and peeked in at a sleeping Terra sprawled across her bed.
"Terra?" Raven said and waited for a reaction. "TERRA?" Raven said louder, she didn't want to be there long. Terra jumped up awake panting.
"Wha-what? Huh?" She jumped to her feet and then shifted her wide eyed gaze to Raven. When she saw Raven she seemed to calm down.
"B-east-Boy...wants to see you..." Was all raven could choke out. Her fists clenched and she bit on her bottom lip. Terra smiled happily teeth and all and ran out of the room to see him.
"Thanx Rae!" She shouted behind her shoulder and continued down the hallway. Raven twitched and watched Terra's body fade down the hallway. Thinking about Terra and Beast Boy alone together was too much for Raven, it seemed too dangerous. So Raven silently floated down the hallway until she reached the medical room. She peeked in and saw Terra and BeastBoy in a tight embrace. "It's going to be ok BB I'm here for you..." Terra whispered in his ear.
"What happened to me?" He asked. Raven stared at his weak curious body, he really had forgotten.
"You just fell down the stairs is all...it'll be fine..." Terra said with a troubled face, obviously hiding the truth from him but he was too blind to notice it. Raven's jaw dropped and then she closed her mouth biting her lip like she wanted it to bleed. 'That awful...terrible...girl...' Raven thought in her head.
"Are you hungry Beast Boy?" Terra asked. "You haven't eaten for a long time.
"Now that you mention it...I'm starving." He replied and smiled up at her. She smiled back and placed her hand on the pizza slice on the table. Terra lifted the pizza slice to Beast Boy's mouth and he began to eat it.
"Chew it slowly..." She advised as if she was a nurse or his Mother. The pizza tasted like the best thing in the world to that hungry little green boy and he finished every bite of it. "Guess you really were hungry." She added and they both laughed. Raven felt sick to her stomach. That was the pizza SHE had brought.
"I don't know how to thank you Terra, you always know what I need." Beast Boy whispered.
"No need to thank me...my honey." She whispered back and then leaned to kiss him. That was too much for Raven she turned around and leaned on the white wall so she couldn't see them. She opened her eyes again and saw Cyborg standing right in front of her.
"So what did I miss? Should I have brought popcorn or something, this is obviously more entertaining than the movie every one's watching in the living room." Cyborg commented and smiled at her. She smiled back weakly.
"It's just that, when their alone...I'm scared that she'll...hurt him again." She whispered trying to hide the pain she really felt inside from seeing them together. Cyborg nodded his head.
"I know Rae... you're a really good friend." He whispered back placing a hand on her shoulder. She nodded and looked at his face, glad there was one friend who could understand her. Maybe one day she'd trust him enough to tell him her feelings for Beast Boy. He gently took her small elegant hand in his and leaded her away from the room.
"You can't protect every one, Raven. You need to heal too, to be happy. Let's watch the movie with the others." She felt a deep sense in her that didn't want to go, to never leave Beast Boy's side. But she knew Cyborg was rite, she needed to relax for a bit. So they walked to the living room with the large TV and joined the others in a sci-fi movie marathon. They all had fun, the scary movies and the funny movies and the movies they related to or knew better than. Raven finally relaxed. She was so relaxed that by the end of watching AI she had fallen asleep on the couch. She wasn't dreaming of anything, she was just happy, content, warm, and slumberous. Terra walked back to her room along with Robin and Starfire. Cyborg got off of the couch as well but he noticed Raven in her deep silent sleep. He was too scared to bring her to her room so he bent down and opened a hidden draw at the side of the couch. Inside the draw lay a large fluffy quilt of many water colors. He held it in his hands, it was his Mother's, he took it out every time he was alone and too sick to fight with the others. The cloth seemed to have warmth so strong it reached his cold metal interior surgery. The cloth unfolded as he wrapped it around the softly breathing gothic doll that was Raven. She looked so sweet and peaceful, kind of cute clutching the cozy fluffy blanket around her. Like a little bunny rabbit. Wait? Raven, being compared to a bunny? Cyborg decided he was more tired than he thought and slowly began the short journey to his slumber chamber.
The next day would be a long day. Many things lay ahead of the Titans, a dance club, a confession, and the first battle they'd seen for a while...Though none of them knew it, soon, all of their lives would change for the good. In ways never imagined, never wanted. Everything is so much more complicated than it seems, love is a tricky, delicate flower. And it's never ready for the storm.
Raven smiled in her sleep. She had no idea.
Author note: Did you like it? Hope so. I can't wait to write the next chapter! But please, PLEASE review! It means SO much me! SO MUCH! I don't know why but it really does, thanx to all of you all that do review, you really give me the strength to keep writing, but when I don't get reviews it makes me really sad and I wonder why no one likes my story. But I really appreciate the people that do, I can't tell you about the killing Terra thing cause that would spoil it but the climax will be quite exciting I think you'll like it.
Forever More, RavenNevermore 18
