THE FINAL DANCE
This is set after the episode "Retrial"
I don't own Jag or any of the characters, so please don't sue me.
What if Mac saw Alicia Montes kiss Harm after the end of the trial? The FF goes on after that.
'This is all my fault. He was ready this time and I wasn't. Now he found someone else in his life, and all I can do is act jealous and is not my place. I was so stupid to think that we could have a chance. This 'dance' is been going on for so long. I am so tired of this. I wish I could leave far away or just drink until I just don't care.
Would he come to my aid this time? I don't deserve it.
Maybe all I need is a hot bath and a good rest.
"Hey Bud, have you seen the colonel?" asked Harm as he was leaving.
"You just missed her sir"
"Thanks Bud, she seemed a little stressed out today from that case."
"Well Sir, I guess that my client repeating more than once that she had been hurt by a man didn't help much" replied Bud, then putting a thoughtful face he said, "After the trial ended, and he told her not to let any one make her cold, her eyes look so sad."
"Thanks Bud, say hi to Harriet and the kids for me and see you tomorrow." Said Harm running to the elevator.
'How can I be so stupid? She gave me enough clues. Hang on Marine. I just hope I'm not too late' said Harm leaving Jag.
'My father was right, I'm no good for anyone' thought Mac as she was getting the keys to open the car.
"Mac!" said Harm as he got close to Mac's car.
"Harm is something wrong?"
"I wanted to ask you if you're free for dinner"
"You're asking the wrong girl Harm. I'm sure Alicia would be more than happy to accompany you"
"I'm not asking Alicia, Mac, I'm asking you."
"Well, you should have asked Alicia, I'm sure she would say yes."
"Mac, what the hell is wrong with you lately?"
"Nothing is wrong Harm. I was just trying to stop you from making a mistake. If you want to have a relationship with Alicia, then you should give her the wrong idea."
"We're friends Mac, there's nothing wrong with us going to dinner."
"Are we friends Harm? Mic and René didn't think so" Finally I said it!
"Mac, I don't think this conversation should be had in the middle of Jag's parking lot."
"I don't know if I want to have this conversation Harm."
"You started it, so this time we finished it!"
"Didn't I want to have that conversation back on Paraguay, and you decided to put it on the table. So now I'm putting it on the table."
"Mac..." said Harm trying to stop her from getting inside her car. Feeling a twinge on his heart.
"Not now Harm. I am tired of this dance. I was ready when u weren't, and when u were I wasn't. Just face it Harm, we aren't meant to be. Maybe I should start over. Somewhere new. Hell, I should have done that the minute Mic left. Would have saved us both a lot of heartache."
"Mac stop talking bull! Marines don't run away. You are just sacred of what's between us, and want to find a way to get away from it." Said a Harm getting mad.
"Harm you said so yourself, we should have this conversation. I'm tired. I want to go home and rest. I'm tired of all of this." Said Mac opening the door and getting inside.
"Mac if you don't talk to me. If you don't tell me something, I don't know how long I can wait for you to make up your mind." Said Harm a finalizing tone.
Mac backed out the car from her spot and said to Harm as he was turning angrily to his car.
"You want me to tell you something Harm? I'm in love with you. I have been in love with you for so long that I don't remember what I was like not being in love with you. I never felt like this. I'm so scared of you rejecting me again; I don't think I could take it a second time. So there, you wanted me to tell you something? Yea, I'm in love with you. If you don't believe me ask Sturgis, I let it slip one time, years ago." With that she left.
Paralyzed by what she had just told him, Harm just watched her leave. All he could think about was that she love him. After everything that had happen over the years. She still loved him. He ran to his car, he would let her go this time. He had to tell her that he loved her too. He drove his car until he saw the back of her red corvette. He was still smiling goofily and imagining everything they would tell each other, when his heart almost stopped beating when he saw a car going way over the limit hit Mac.
Pain so much pain. 'I finally told him. I no longer have to carry it with me. I don't care what he does know; I just wish he stays happy. I can move on now. I Love you Harm, I love you, I love you...' that was her last thought as she felt darkness surround her. Far away she could hear a familiar voice, very much like Harm, but she was so tired.
