Author Note: Hey I'm back, yea it took a while but don't forget school's back and it's pretty hard to find any spare time. I wanted tot take my time on this chapter and not rush with it. By the way this is my first chapter in Raven's perspective, I hope you like it, I wanted to try something new. There is a bit of a song fick in here, just a bit near the end, it's Smoke by Natalie Imbruglia.(it's good if you listen to the song while reading that part) If you hate song ficks you don't have to read the song parts. Well that's it, enjoy!

I woke up to footsteps when the Sun was still sleeping behind the moon. I realized then where I was, I had been sleeping on the coach for hours and I was snug beneath a toasty warm blanket. My eyes darted around the shadow coated room until they rested on what was the darkest object. The silver moon beams hit her golden hair as she began to walk to the stairway to the roof. It took me a couple seconds to fully regain my awareness and consciousness and finally I realized who she was and what she was doing. Though all the tired muscles in my body willed against it, I lifted myself from the comforting coach and stepped onto the carpet, shivers running throughout my body in the sudden change of temperature. I took to my first intuition and followed her.

"Terra, Terra do you really have to do this? We can fight him before he...before he turns you into a monster." I spoke and Terra halted right before she could lift her foot for the first step. She quickly turned around and dug her stare into my eyes as if she could turn me into stone if she concentrated enough.

"You're the only monster Raven, you're so cold you can't feel, you're blood is so poisoness it was cursed by the Devil himself, and you are so evil your mother tried to kill you. But she failed and killed herself. It was because of you Raven, you killed your Mother. If you ask me you should be kept in a cage away from all the innocent people you hurt, like Beast Boy for instance." My entire body froze and my lungs locked up, shackled by the chains Terra had just thrust around my heart. I stared at her hard as my hands clenched into fists. I could feel my nails digging into my palms. Her sapphire eyes gleamed in pride, she knew she had hit me hard right in my weak spot. She knew I was vulnerable, but I was going to prove that I wasn't weak. I watched as a menacing grin spread across her face.

"You're the only one hurting him Terra. Your selfishness has got the best of you, would you really rather hurt him if you knew you'd get to have him to yourself for a little while longer? Is that really what you think love is?" I spat out at her. But the grin was still plastered on her face, unaffected.

"Love is a twisted thing..." She said as if she were knowble, not a hint of guilt in her voice. That was it I couldn't take it any more she wouldn't even admit to herself how dangerous she was becoming. She didn't care if she hurt Beast Boy, it wouldn't matter to her because she'd have some time with him to herself, plus the extra joy of seeing me in pain. "Now if you excuse me I have business to attend to." She said with an evil smirk and lifted a foot onto the step.

"The only thing twisted in here is your MIND!" I screamed through my teeth and behind me I had grabbed a sharp knife from the kitchen, I didn't have to recite my words because the object was so small. I'd practiced doing this silently for quite some time so it would be better to surprise my enemies, instead I chanted in my head. My dark energy thrust the knife into the air heading straight toward her but it almost missed her cutting only the edge of her shoulder. I had to practice this more. My muscles tensed with rage, I had finally caught her off guard and I MISSED. "Azarath! Metrion! Zinthos!" I shouted and with my dark energy I gathered more sharp objects from the draws, but Terra was aware now and only cringed at the pain of her shoulder. Perhaps the sucking of her soul made her stronger, more evil.

Terra quickly broke some of the tiles from the floor and used them to shield herself from the objects I threw at her, she had improved a lot and barely missed any of them. Then she got ready to shoot the sharp, blade like tiles at me but she had forgotten my energy shield, I put my dark energy shield over me and watched the tiles crash into it melting into crumbs of rock. Before either of us could destroy anything else we heard many footsteps thumping towards us. We had forgotten the others could hear us, how were we going to explain this? The group stared at us, Terra had a cut shoulder and we were both dusty and a little torn up from the fight. I felt so weak, so terribly weak, not only had I used a lot of power but I had done it with a lot of force, and emotion, it took a lot out of me.

"Friends Raven and Terra, why have you been fighting, are you alright?" Starfire asked, her eyes pleading with sorrow to see us both in this state of health and fury. It always made me feel bad to see Starfire upset about something, I think it makes every one sad. She's always so cheery and optimistic, ignorant some people call it, but those who know her know that she is the kindest most gentle person they would ever meet. She looked at both of us worried and Robin took her hand, he stared at both of us very seriously waiting for our response. But neither of us could say anything. We Just knodded our heads pointing out that we were alright. But maybe I wasn't alright. My legs finally gave into the weak dizzy feeling and collapsed me to the floor. They all gasped accept Terra who hid a grin inside her head I knew. "Raven?! What is wrong?!" Starfire gasped and she and robin quickly hurried over to me followed now by Cyborg. They all looked so blurry to me but then I realized something was missing.

"Raven, say something, let us know you're ok!" Cyborg pleaded in a shakey tone, people weren't used to me being hurt quite like this, I noticed his cold metal hand rest on my shoulder.

"If you can't talk Raven don't try you should just relax." Robin looked straight into my eyes, I wondered if he had any idea what had been going on. He always knew what was going on, but how could he guess this, how could he guess that my Father was sucking the life and soul of Terra? Everything still seemed so misplaced.

"Where....where is—Beast Boy?" I choked out drowsily and I watched their eyes fix in confusion.

"He's probably still sleeping, that boy could sleep through an atomic bomb." Cyborg explained but he still looked a little confused from my question. Robin took my pulse and agnowledged that I was going to be just fine. Their faces transformed from confusion to relaxation, I had such wonderful friends. But I wished Beast Boy was there, just his face could heal my scars. Just then he appeared in the room whipping the sleep from his eyes.

"What's all the commotion?" He asked But his eyes skipped right over me, why was it he couldn't look in my eyes any more. What had Terra told him? He gasped and ran over to Terra examining her cut. "Terra are you ok, what happened, are you ok?!" He screamed, his eyes filled with sorrow and fear. She just smiled at him and said.

"I'm fine BB, nothing a little time won't heal."

"How about a kiss, will that make it heal faster?"

"I'm sure of it." Terra grinned but I turned my head the other way before I could see them kiss. Then this great, terrible sickening sensation bubbled in my stomach and shot up my throat. I vomited on the ground. Every one backed away from me with looks of shock and disgust. I tasted the sour bitter taste in my mouth and let out a long weak groan.

"GOSH Raven! That's sick!" Terra yelled with pure repulsion and she ran out of the room shortly followed by Beast Boy. But I swear right before he walked out of the room he turned to me and gave me a look of sweet sympathy, he also managed to seem so confused.

I spent the rest of my day in bed staring at the ceiling and listening to Enya. Her music was so soothing and I needed that to keep control of my emotions, which were at that time running in several directions. The only way I obtained peace of mind was to numb all my senses, all my thoughts, and I dared not sleep. Dared not venture into a world in which I had no control, I never had nice dreams any more. Just nightmares, and messages, accept I couldn't read them. So I just lied there, not even aware of the music, I was simply there. I began to think about Beast Boy though. Why was he so different, why couldn't he look me in the eye? Where was the light that once shimmered there from the inside out. It was so sad, I longed to reach for him but our faits were parallel, never to touch, but so close in reach, right next to one another. That's how I felt when I was with him now. Every one visited me that day to see how I was accept Beast Boy and Terra. While I pondered this the door cracked open and revealed a sad worried face. Two emerald eyes fixed themselves on me. It was Starfire.

"Raven are you alright?" I knodded my head and motioned my hand telling her it was alright to come in. She took a couple small steps into my shadow coated room and looked a bit uncomfortable.

"Friend Raven, please listen to me. We are going to the Teen club tonight to celebrate Beast Boy's recovery. He is finally fully healed from the incident. We know you are not feeling well, and that something has happened with you and Terra. So we ask friend Raven, that you stay at home tonight until you-"

"I'm FINE Starfire really. I'm perfectly fine."

"But you have been in bed all day, and earlier today you threw dinner back at us. So we all ask that you stay home, we know how you can get when you're sick and in public Raven."

"I'M FINE!"

"Raven, you should listen to her. I KNOW how much you love dancing in clubs but you can come with us another time." It was Robin this time he was behind my door. He startled me but I tried to hide it beneath my emotionless expression. I just sighed and let my head fall against the soft pillow. Could I really argue with Robin? That wouldn't get me any where. After a couple minutes of silence Robin left and Starfire began to walk out of the door.

"Thank you for cooperating Raven, you can call if you need anything." Then a sad guilty expression came onto her face. "If...if you want I can, stay with you?" She offered though I could tell she really didn't want to.

"I wouldn't think of it, just one thing."

"What is it?"

"Dance with Robin." I smiled, yes I smiled I couldn't help it. Every one knew how much they adored each other. Her face flushed a light red but she had a small smile as well.

"Anything for you Raven." She whispered and left closing the door. My smile quickly faded as I closed my eyes. Beast Boy and Terra would be there together. That thought frightened me and pierced my heart. I would hate to see them dance together, but what if he needed me? I had to be there for him whether he knew it or not. I waited until I heard every one leave the tower and I got up. First of all I'd have to wear something different, I had to blend in a bit more or they'd see me. I walked to my closet and peaked inside. It had mostly just the same costume and cloaks. However there was one exception. A long, silky black dress hung at the end of my closet. It was cut up high on both sides of the hips but it wasn't too revealing. The neck was cut from the rest of the dress with an upside down V that held a moonstone and the neck was attached to the rest of the dress just to the front. It was sleeveless and beautiful. I bought this dress for one special occasion, it was a fancy dinner in honor of many heroes and Starfire practically forced me to get it. I sighed and tried it on, it somehow still fit pretty well but I felt coldness on my exposed skin so I put my jeweled up to the elbow armings on and my regular cloak and boots. I put a bit of dark eye-shadow on and black lipstick.

When I looked once more in the mirror, I couldn't find myself. I hadn't seen this girl before, this girl that somehow snook into my room and stared at me throught the glass of the mirror.. She couldn't be me, she was too beautiful, too fake looking. She smiled at me in the mirror, but the smile held nothing, it was sad and felt cold. It reminded me of a painting, the woman smiled out in her portrait but she wasn't really smiling, you could see the emptiness in her eyes longing for something so much more than to be painted. The soul is empty, when the body smiles, as the spirit cries. I quickly looked away from her. At least no one would know that inside this girl, this brilliant mask, was I, her shadow, her soul cloaked in layers of lies. But that was good. I didn't want any one to recognize me, it was just too bad I didn't recognize myself. I wore my chakra as a necklace, took some money, and left the building.

It was a cold flight there. There were no stars on this night, and the moon hid behind the clouds, I wasn't the only one with secrets. By the time I arrived there the rest of the titans had been there 30 minutes already. I scanned the room until I found Beast Boy and Terra. They were dancing, she looked so happy, and he was happy too. The sight froze my heart, he was safe, he didn't need me. I should have never gone there.

I looked around me and felt so overdressed. I walked to the side and took my cloak off laying it down on a table, I felt a bit cold but every one recognized my cloak, they'd see me for sure. I wanted to leave, but I was determined to do what I had come here for, make sure Terra didn't do anything. A few vampire posers stared at me, a pair of guys, when I saw them they started to walk my way. One of them was tall and thin, his skin was so pale I bet he powdered it white, and his grey eyes reminded me of dirty snow. The other one was just a bit shorter and also skinny, his eyes were like blazing fire and both of their hair resembled dusty charcoal. The taller one bowed and took my hand. His fingers were icy cold and then he pulled me against him to dance. He didn't even ask me. How rude. I pushed him away.

"No thankyou. I don't do dancing." I shot at him with a dry monotone voice. But they only laughed and the other one grabbed me and hissed at my neck. I think they actually believed they WERE vampires. I craved to grab him with my powers and twist his neck but I didn't want to cause too much commotion, I was trying to hide in the crowds. So I simply shoved him away and hissed back at him mockingly. Some people get me wrong. I might like to hang out with others like myself, tortured souls, poets, people that live and hide in shadow, or simply those that ask questions no others dare to ask or even try to comprehend. People labeled me as gothic, labels are pointless, human beings are just too complicated to be labeled. Sure I enjoyed a few vampire books now and then but I despised crazy people that pretended they were actually vampires, and it wasn't like I was depressed all the time. It just seemed that way back then.

They both stared at me long and hard as if they believed I would fall into a trance.

"GO AWAY!" I talked loudly but they didn't respond. Suddenly they looked frightened and started to walk backwards.

"She said go away." Came a deep, strong, irritated voice. They instantly scattered and I turned around. It was Cyborg. At first I was glad he'd moved the morons away before I lost control of my powers, but then I was startled in regret. He knew I was here, I couldn't watch Beast Boy and Terra without being noticed, now they'd probably all start yelling at me. I knew they couldn't make me leave, but I really didn't feel like having to explain myself. Then the other thought came to me, how embarrassing it was for him to see me dressed like this. My mouth opened to say something but I really couldn't think of anything to fill in the gap of silence between us. Finally my mind was in place again.

"Thank you." I said, but my voice was still shaky. He just smiled at me and put a hand on my shoulder.

"It's ok Rae I won't tell any one you're here." I sighed with relief. "Just do me one favor," I looked at him questionably. "dance with me Rae." He spoke smoothly with a lovely smile. My body froze. I couldn't dance with him, I hated dancing, I despised it, not this kind of dancing. Maybe at an old fashioned masquerade but not mindless jiggles at a club. I'd never dance not ever, well...maybe if Beast Boy had asked me. That would be an exception. But this wasn't Beast Boy, it was Cyborg, my friend. A close friend but still that, a friend. My face was blank and I could see the disappointment already melting onto his face. Did he really like me like that, how come I hadn't noticed this earlier, it had been so clear. But it was just then I realized it, Cyborg liked me, but I couldn't return that. Somehow though, when I saw his face gazing at me so intently waiting desperately for my reply, I couldn't shove him away. What kind of friend would do that.

"Sure." I said, and conjured up a smile. But it was like the painting, it was only there to be pretty, only a painting on the mask, I felt so guilty for it. For lying with my smile. But it worked, he smiled back at me warmly and took my small hands into his. His eyes were filled with oceans of joy that wouldn't let go of my eyes. I wondered how he couldn't see the emptiness inside. He could only see the outside, the lie. His hands moved to my shoulders as we waltzed to the music, it was a slow song. I could read his feelings like I could any other person, except myself that is. He felt like he was flying, with an angel. But I was no angel then.

'Do you really want this?' I thought. 'I could pretend to love you, be your everything, everything you ever wanted. You could finally be truly happy, and I'd seem happy too, and we could live that way forever. But it would all be a lie, I could be your everything while really be nothing. And you'd never see it, you'd never know. But if you did know, that isn't really how you want to live is it?' I thought to him, though I knew no one could hear me. I had to fill the emptiness inside, my body seemed to way so much more than my soul and the imbalance threatened to collapse me in the empty wait of my body. I pictured the only thought that could make me happy. Beast Boy.

I pictured him with me, dancing melodically, holding me in his arms and smiling sweetly. 'What if Beast Boy thinks of you that way, feels nothing. Would you want him to be your everything while being nothing?' A voice in my head asked. 'no' I replied, I could never hurt him. I'd just have to be lonely. And soon I was staring into his eyes, Beast Boy's, his eyes replaced Cyborg's and soon it was fully him I was dancing with. I knew my eyes were closed and it was just and allusion, but it felt so real and so wonderful. And then I smiled, and it was a completely different painting. It was a painting of a girl lost in her dreams, drowning in the ecstasy of love, and she had no wish to leave. The image was fake, but the feeling, the smile this time, it was real. We danced through several songs. I felt so light I could float above the grand with not my power of flight, but just the joy I felt. Beast Boy leaned toward me his lips nearly touching mine, seconds from a kiss. I felt so surprised but happy at the same time. But before the kiss I remembered. This wasn't really Beast Boy, It wasn't him at all! Soon the image of my beloved faded away like a passing memory and my eyes shot open just in time to dodge the kiss from Cyborg. It landed on my cheek and I stumbled backward.

He looked at me surprised and then hurt. But before anything more could happen a large crash echoed throughout the club followed by screams, gasps, and a short period or painful silence. Every one turned to see what had caused this loud noise, and to our surprise the wall had collapsed. I peered into the dusty smoke that hid a large figure and by the time I made out who it was it was too late. Slade jumped into the crowd followed by his robot minions. Before any one could react we heard the only thing we'd expect.

"Titans! Go!" Robin shouted and we all began destroying the robot minions. The robots were always so weak, Starfire could just blast them open and Cyborg used his lazar beams. I threw the large pieces of rubble that were left from the wall onto their sorry metal bodies. Slade however, was something much more. Robin of course was the one to step up to Slade. He dodged and jumped and kicked but it was no use, Slade knew Robin's attacks front and back. Slade's fist launched into Robin's Jaw and sent him flying. Of course this led to Starfire being very upset, and she attacked him as well. But we all knew if any one could defeat Slade, it was probably Robin. Robin jumped back up and attacked Slade once more. Every one accept Terra began to run at Slade. Terra sat on the floor shaking violently watching, then I remembered, because of Slade Terra had killed herself. But before we could lay a scratch on Slade, to our surprise, The robot minions were pieced back together in thin air.

They began to attack us again, followed by even more robots that entered the club. There was so much screaming it nearly made me insane. Tons of teenagers running from the robots trying to escape a place they thought they'd never want to leave. The music was still blasting and it took an attack from a robot for me to gain my concentration once again. The lyrics of the song echoed in my mind.

"Why?
Bleeding is breathing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room.
Try
Bleeding is believing
I used to."

The blast burned my skin and I winced in discomfort. We continued the battle against the machines but every time we destroyed them they just pieced back together, it seemed impossible. In the mean time Slade held a weak damaged Robin by the neck.

"Do you really think the world revolves around you, Robin? It is not you I want. It's HER!" Slade faced Terra.

"Wha- What do you wan't her for?!" Robin shouted "Leave her alone she never did anything to you!" Slade chuckled.

"My mouth is dry
Forgot how to cry
What's up with that?
You're hurting me."

All the titans by now were worn out, my head ached, my muscles were sore and my body bruised and burned. I felt the blackness come again to haunt me, it clouded my head and I slowly slipped away. My body crashed onto the hard floor covered with broken glass and stone. All the other Titans had fallen as well, lying helplessly, but to our surprise the Robots did not finish us off, instead they halted.

The teenagers that were not able to escape sobbed and tried to hide in the corners, surrounded by flames and smoke. Every one turned to Slade still holding a choking Robin by the neck. My eyes opened enough to see what was happening, I tried to move but every muscle in my body felt like cement, heavy and bound to the floor. Slade chuckled some more. All was silent.

"I'm runnin fast.
Can't hide the past.
What's up with that?
You're pushing me.

Why?
Bleeding is breathing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room."

"Did she not tell you? We have quite an actress here." Slade dropped Robin and he hit the floor with a gasp. Every one looked at Terra, Sobbing and shivering like someone in a mental institution. Slade laughed coldly. "Terra betrayed you, she betrayed both of us. All that time when she came back, she was spying for ME. Terra was my apprentice, and she vowed that she would do what I said, which included, destroying all of you." Slade paused as every one gasped and stared at terra.

"STOP" She screamed. "PLEASE!" But he just kept talking.

"Try
Bleeding is believing
I used to
I used to.

Why?
Bleeding is breathing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room.
Try
Bleeding is believing
I saw you calling on the phone"

"However she couldn't take the pressure any more, she wasn't strong enough, and she ran away. But I've found you Terra, you can't run away any more, because I know what you care about. And I can tare it away from you any second." She began crying. Every one was speechless, scared, they just stared at her. But I knew this all along, and I just stared at her in Hatred. Did they see it now, how dangerous she was? Or were they just sympathetic with no idea of how it really ended. How she sold her soul.

Slade walked over to her and Grabbed a startled Beast Boy by the arm. He looked so confused, like he couldn't comprehend anything like that ever happening. Like Terra was too perfect to do that. My hands clenched into fists, look how she hurt him. Her selfishness brought good to no one, not even herself. "Stop it, don't hurt him!" Terra screamed, her voice cracking. Her hand reached out towards him in plead. "He's the only reason...I'm still here and I'll, I'll do anything to save him..." She looked at the ground. Through all of all the deep hatred I felt towards that girl there was the slightest ping of empathy. I looked toward Beast boy, I lived for him too. I could tell that Slade smiled under that hideous mask.

"Why?
Bleeding is believing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room.
Try
Bleeding is believing
I saw you calling to the dark"

"If you come back to me Terra, I will spare him. Destroy the Teen Titans and you can keep your pet." She clenched her teeth as if not to scream out, and she nodded her head. The empathy was gone, she was going to help him destroy us, and take away Beast Boy, forever. I tried to stay calm, tried not to scream because that wouldn't do any good to any one, and I tried to control my emotions. If they let loose now the building would collapse, killing all of us. Maybe if I let them go, we'd have a chance at saving him, and ourselves. But Terra, he could keep her. He could keep her and kill her and I really wouldn't care. At once I might have cared even though jealous of her, but now, a hatred even larger than before rose up in me. She betrayed us again. I always knew we couldn't trust her. But no one ever listened to the crazy psychic goth girl, no one.

"Beast Boy, I'm sorry, I promised myself I'd never do this again but...I have to." She said sadly and pressed her hand against his head. I could see his facial expression drop and he would have fallen if she didn't catch him. I didn't need any other proof to know what she had done. She brainwashed him, destroyed his memory, and brainwashed his mind. That's why he could never look me in the eye, and why he'd clung to her so much without any idea what was going on. All along I couldn't even tell, she'd brainwashed him. And she did it again.

"I want you to fight the Titans when their strong and ready, and then you will destroy them. But I've seen that you've gotten rusty, so we have much to prepare for." Slade talked in a deep nasty tone. She just looked so sad and fragile and followed him out still carrying Beast Boy. I tried to lift myself up to save him, but the blackness returned, it swallowed me whole. My head hit the floor as all went blank to me, I was left in a deep black empty hole of nothing. And I didn't even have the will to escape.

"Why?
Bleeding is believing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room.
Try
Bleeding is believing
I saw you falling to the floor."

Author Note: Ooooo suspence. 1- I'm sorry I'm bad at fight scenes but I promise the big one at the end will be really good 2- I didn't fit the story to the song, I fit the song to the story, I listened to a bunch to decide which one I wanted to fit in there, after I wrote it. PLEASE REPLY! Tell me if you like it from Raven's point of View or not, I need to know! I'll try to update as soon as possible!

-Forever More, RavenNevermore18