Author Note: I was so inspired by the end of Spellbound, it is now my favorite episode ever. It gets into Raven's emotions, I find that are which very similar to my own. Of course the hug she gave Beast boy at the end did something too, and his blushing, he understands her, the only person that really cared. Proof that they are certainly the best couple, and I'm planning on making another fic that takes place after that episode, plus a Jinx/Cy fic, but this is my main fanfiction. Tell me what you think of those Ideas though.
I find I must put this in Beast Boy's perspective, it's either that or Terra's, or just plain no real perspective. I like writing in perspective and this wouldn't be very good from Terra, so I'll do it in Beast Boy, it just might help uncover some of his feelings too. The ones you always wondered about.
The lights quickly brightened and cast an intense, superficial light into the room. Wait, a room? I didn't remember this place. For all I knew I could have just been thrown in there, or I could have lived there my entire life. My brain held a tremendous block in place, a border and I couldn't reach around it, I couldn't remember anything. I couldn't remember the day before, the years before, it was all blank. All I knew was how I felt. Do you really know who you are without your memories? I didn't know, all I felt was deep confusion, and a loss of something. But I had no idea what I had, so did it even make a difference? It probably did, I was left with a vast emptiness. It haunted me, I couldn't push it aside, I tried so hard to remember what it was I lost but all I could remember was that I lost it and that she, was it a she? She was very special to me, meant more than anything to me.
The only thing that I had left was deep sadness and confusion, so many questions floating around in my mind, and a painfully white, plain room. Psychotically white. I could barely take it anymore, it was like being trapped in a room with all the lights out, completely black no matter where you stepped with no idea where you were. It was like that except it was white, and it had cushioned walls. There was a small bed and a wooden desk with paper and pencils. In the corner of the room there was a stall, what I believed to be a toilet and a sink. I sat on the bed rubbing my temples and trying to find myself. Finally I noticed a door at the end of the room. Slowly I lifted myself onto my feet, feeling a bit dizzy like I'd slept for hours, or passed out. I walked over to the door and stared at it. Who knew what lay behind that door, a world of endless hallways, aliens, dead people. That was probably it, I was abducted by aliens! That was the only explanation, they captured me and stole my memories, then locked me up in this alien room so they could later experiment on me, I had to hurry quickly.
My hand slowly reached for the doorknob and then tugged on it, giggled it, but it wouldn't budge. I was locked in there, locked in alien territory. I began frantically looking around for any clue of escape, just then my eye grabbed something on the ceiling. A camera, they were watching me, my every move. Slowly I crept away from the camera and stumbled onto the cold white floor, breaths desperately escaping my lungs. I wasn't safe here and I knew it, I could taste it in the air.
The door knob jiggled, and slowly began to open. My heart raced against time as it slowly revealed a skinny blond haired girl, a smile on her face, and she closed the door. Was she human? She looked like one. She stared softly into my eyes. Flashes beamed into mind, memories of her, too short to comprehend. I saw her holding my hand, kissing my cheek, smiling, crying, dodging rocks. And a screaming, it wasn't her voice though, it was another girl's. 'Stay with me, for always.' I heard it echo in my mind until the flashes faded away. The blue eyed girl knelt in front of me, still carrying that smile on her face. Was she what I had lost, was she the girl I had missed, the reason I felt so empty? I couldn't tell then, everything was new to me again. I'd just have to see and find out, if she filled up the hole in my heart.
"Hey Beast Boy! How are you doing? You fell on the ground really hard, I take it you won't remember things for while. But I'll help you remember, and we can fill you up with new memories." She spoke excitedly. Beast Boy, that was my name, that much I knew. Why that was my name I had no idea, it seemed too weird to be a name. I stared at her intently, just how hard had I fallen? She seemed ok to trust, but maybe not yet. I tried to dig into the flashes of memories I had earlier, apparently she was very close to me, her name was, Terra.
"Terra?" I spoke hoarsely, it was the first thing I had said in a long time. "You're Terra aren't you, and I'm, I'm Beast Boy..." She nodded her head, the smile never leaving. "Where am I, why am I locked in this scary room?" I gazed upon her beauty, I had just realized, she was very pretty. Her smile just made me feel so much safer. But when she answered this she hesitated, and looked at the walls avoiding eye contact.
"You see there...are a lot of people that hate me. I try to do good, but somehow, I just never know what I'm doing. There's something about me, people just get scared off. And since, since we love each other, those people that hate me, for no reason, are trying to get you. They'll stop at nothing to take you from me so I have to protect you!" So much for the alien theory. "THEY CAN'T TAKE YOU FROM ME YOU'RE ALL I HAVE!" Her voice raised in a lot of pain, finally cracking as she lowered her head and let the strands of golden hair hide her face. I had no idea what she had been through but she didn't deserve that, for people to hate her without knowing her. I could tell that I had known her very well, I was her only friend, and also her lover. My hand rested on her shoulder, the least I could do was comfort her, she went through so much to protect me from those horrible people.
"I understand." I said and she lifted her face with a small smile. A single tear slid down her cheek.
"I knew you would..." She paused and looked at me very sternly. "Promise me, that if at any chance they find you, you will not give in, no matter what they say. Don't let them get you. They are called the teen Titans, and they will try to persuade you to help them with their evils. Watch out for the gothic freak, Raven, she hates me more than any one, there for more than any one she'll want to kill you." My eyes widened, why did it all have to be this complicated. Did these people really want to kill me? "Promise me!" She looked pale and afraid.
"I promise." She smiled again and embraced me. I felt warm in her arms, maybe it would be alright. I let my mind drift off. Just then it occurred to me. "Terra, why am I green? Humans aren't green, at least I don't think." How could I have forgotten so much? That must have been a very bad fall. She giggled lightly.
"Don't worry, you're human, nothing special about that. You just have this skin condition that makes you green, but that's all, you're normal just like me." Her smile beamed across her face.
"I know you have to keep the bad people away form me, but why is my door locked from the inside?" Her smile faded again and she stood up.
"I did not come here to be questioned! You're safer this way trust me. I love you, and you love me, and that is all you need to know!" She looked very upset and headed towards the door. I was struck by pure confusion. She slammed it behind her and I cursed myself for not running to catch it. If she didn't come back, I would never get out of that terrible place. I noticed the camera again and I wondered who was watching, and why. I went into my bed and hid beneath the covers. Someone watching me was not my idea of happiness, the idea frightened me. Who was this girl that claimed to love me, could I really trust her? Everything she said was just thrown at me and she seemed really tense when I asked her a simple question. How could I trust someone like that? But still, I had happy memories of her and I, the only memories I had. I had no one else to trust.
I took a piece of paper form the desk and a pencil and began sketching out a new memory. It was another girl, with plum hair and violet eyes, a sweet modest smile and dark clothing. This girl held me in her arms surrounded by a brilliant light and healed my scars. She looked too beautiful to explain, so I drew her. For some reason, just the sight of this girl, like an angel, touched my heart deeper than Terra did. There was a block in my mind forbidding me to think about this girl, and I couldn't think about her. But it couldn't block my heart, I felt something for her, and I missed it. I continued sketching her until I was fully satisfied, and at the top I wrote the name that first popped into my head, a poetic, mysterious, forbidden name.
"Raven" I sighed and slowly slipped away into sleep, clutching the drawing close to my heart. "My beautiful...broken..angel...."
Author Note: This is probably the shortest chapter I have written so far and I'm sorry for that, but I realize that many people grow impatient with me taking my time and it seemed better to end it at this point. I will update soon but ONLY if you review - hint-Review- I love all of you that do, it makes me feel so glad I'm writing this so I go off and write some more! Tell me what you think of Beast Boy's perspective because I'm planning on doing it again in the next chapter, since it's mostly about him any way and how he learns that...I should stop right there! So go on now, review!
