Author Note: I apologize ahead of time for how out of character Beast Boy is being, but 1- He did loose all of his memories, remember that, and 2- This is how I write, I don't feel like putting Dude in a lot and stuff like that, trust me I could but It really wouldn't be that good. (besides I've learned Beast boy can be very dramatic when he chooses)Yes my name is from the Poem, I love poetry, it just so happens my favorite character is named Raven, and later I found out about her world called Nevermore, which is from the poem as well, pretty cool huh? So anyway, thank you all of you that reviewed, I'm writing this for you, and I tried double spacing but it didn't come out on FF for some reason.

BTW: To clear this all up for confused people. This is Beast Boy's perspective after he was brainwashed by terra, he lost all of his memories. This is starting off in a dream sequence.

The ground beneath me was solid rock, tumbling into dust with every weak and wary step I took. The world slowly twisted into oblivion and it tripped me, crashing me to the stone cold ground. Still I could see, faintly, into the blurry sapphire sky. My body shivered, trying to find any warmth left to carry me on to another day. My eyes captured the image of every perfect snowflake, as they floated in the air softly landing. I became numb to all feeling, lost beneath a blanket of those perfect little ice angels, despite their beauty, they choked me...threatening to steel my soul.

Suddenly, I felt warm fingers touch my cheek, melting there the icy feeling of hopelessness. I was brought back into existence, aware once again, that I was indeed, still alive. I looked up into her eyes, a snow angel? No...she was very familiar to me. Her water color eyes let go of liquid crystal tears as she smiled at me, ever so gently. I felt calm and bewildered by her otherworldly warmth. She took me in her arms and lifted me up. She now held me in the sky.

"Raven..." I spoke, feeling the life come back into my lips. She held me beneath her cloak, sheltering me from the icy bliss, the perfect ice angels catching in her hair. For minutes we floated speechless, gazing into the eyes of one another, listening to the fragile silence and gasps of wind.

She leaned toward me and we shared a soft kiss, and in that moment there was no numbing cold, or rocky surface, there was no before and no after.

"I knew you could never forget me, no matter what Terra did to you there are some things she just can't hide."

"Raven...Tell me what happened, tell me who I was, what she did to me." I spoke, finally, I would understand. Her lips parted to speak but then her face froze in agony. I felt a warm liquid leaking from her chest, I looked at my hand, it was crimson red. I choked on a gasp of air as we fell to the cold hard ground. Raven lay in the icy white snow. Blood streamed from her heart as she gasped for air.

"RAVEN!" I screamed as I crawled weakly over to her helpless dying body. I cradled her in my arms trying to give her any warmth I had left. She smiled at me sadly, tears releasing from her icy violet eyes.

"I love you..." she cried softly.

"You're going to be ok...Raven...you'll be ok...just hold on...a bit longer." And I held my broken angel. No matter what I wanted to believe, I knew that she wouldn't be ok, her heart had been stricken, but what had done it. My head shot up and I saw in the distance, a tall skinny figure. She smiled at me menacingly as the strands of golden hair blew into the wind. She walked through Snowy wind, destroying the perfect carpet of snowflakes. The snow beneath raven drowned in red. I clutched her wound with my hand trying to stop the bleeding. But it was no use; I stared deathly up at Terra who just smiled at us.

"I told you she was no good...she wants to take you from me, but if I can't have you, NO ONE can!" Terra screamed and raised her arms, around her hands were balls of yellow magic that lifted pieces of rock in mid air. I gasped clutching Raven closer to me. She raised the rocks and aimed them like spears toward Raven but I dodged them taking Raven with me.

"Stop it! Leave her alone!" I shouted but Terra just looked frustrated and raised her hands once again.

"You can fight her...save yourself..." Raven choked, but how could I fight Terra, she could control rocks, and I was only a simple human.

"You are more than human Beast Boy, you have a power of your own." Raven spoke, reading my mind.

"What is it?" but once again before Raven could speak Terra speared her with rocks. Raven...Raven was no more. I screamed at the top of my lungs until my throat bled. Terra just looked at me joyfully.

"Things will be better now my love...now that weir alone..."

"NO Terra, you're wrong, because I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU and I will never LOVE SOMONE LIKE YOU!" I shouted, her face jumped into pure shock and hurt, surprising her so much that the rocks she held in the air released on top of her. They crushed her, steeling from her all life. That was it. Terra was gone too. Though at that moment I had hated her so much I wanted her to die, a part of me regretted it. Because now, I was trapped in this icy desert, weak and helpless and...all alone.

I'd never felt so alone. I wasn't used to being depressed, it just wasn't how I felt. Whenever anything bad happened I'd just start making jokes, hoping the bad feeling would just go away, and usually it did. But now, now nothing could save me. Nothing was funny any more, because there was no one here to laugh at me, with me, even criticize me.

"Well...this beats Starfire's New Years cow brain pudding..." Nothing...just silence...I giggled to myself but it wasn't because I found that funny, I felt insane. No one could hear me but the cold silent wind. And all that did was pound at my flesh. I held Raven's stone dead body in my arms, now releasing the tears that had welled up inside. Raven would want me to stay alive, to carry on, and not let what Terra did ruin my life. Because Raven loved me.

I wished right then I could be a bear, warm in layers of fat and heavy fur. It would be so nice to be a bear right then...I concentrated on how it would feel, to be a bear, just to make myself think I was warmer. And it worked! I felt warm, and fuzzy, and hungry for...meat. Wait? Wasn't I a vegetarian? I opened my eyes and looked down at my feet, but they were paws now, and I was on all fours. A strange sensation came over me and I realized, I had just transformed into a bear. This had to be a dream, it was a dream, that's all it could be, that's all it was.

My eyes flashed open and I found myself back in the psychotic white room. It was all a dream. But it felt so real. Still how could any one turn into an animal, and how could any one control rocks in mid air? I yawned but I let out a loud growl, slowly I peered at my hands and they were indeed...green bear paws. I jumped off the bed and hollered. I could turn into animals? That's what the girl Raven was talking about. Before I got scared any more I realized that with this power, I could escape. And that, was exactly what I needed to do.

So I fixed myself to the size of a worm and headed toward the door. As soon as I slipped under the door I turned into a rat and began scurrying down the empty dark hallways, it was relief after all that white but the shadows seemed to hide things, doors kept going on and on and on, who knew what waited behind them. Frantically I searched for a door leading to the outside of this miserable place but before I could do so I ran into a boot. It was very large, and cold, and scary. A huge frightening Man with a mask on his face picked me up by my tail, causing pain to run through my spine. My first reaction was to bite him. I bit him hard and he cursed me before dropping me to the hard floor. But before I could run away he dropped a cage over me.

"Terra!" He screamed and picked my cage up handing it to her.

"If you don't keep control over your little RAT, then I'm afraid we will be needing to call an exterminator, namely YOU." The large man talked in a low nasty voice. She looked frightened and nodded her head.

"He won't be any more trouble! I promise!" The man walked away and she opened a door leading into a red, black, and golden room. I could tell that this was her room, scattered with her clothes and belongings, some posters on the wall. This room also had cameras in it. She dropped my cage onto the bed and opened it up.

"What were you THINKING?! Slade will kill you!" She screamed and looked very upset. I guessed that the Man was Slade. She dumped me out of the cage and I transformed back into a human.

"Why didn't you tell me I could turn into animals?" I asked. I was quite upset that she was hiding this from me, I could only imagine what else she was hiding from me.

"You said I was normal, just human, nothing special, just a skin condition!"

"You're safer if you don't know about your power, don't you know? That's all the Teen Titans want you for. They'll do anything to get your power, that's the only reason they want you. Do you really want to be used like that? You're better here, with me, no powers, just a normal human." She explained in an exasperated voice. A minute of silence passed by before I could think of anything to say.

"Terra, are you hiding anything else from me? It seems like you've been keeping secrets. And this dream I had, you-"

"Do you seriously believe in all that dream junk? I suppose Raven was in there as well, perfect as an angel. She has the power to manipulate dreams, did you know that? BB, I would never lie to you. Just trust me; I'm the one that saved you from the Titans. I'm the only person you have in this cold miserable world."

I stared blankly at her. Had the girl called Raven really manipulated my dreams and emotions? That was a scary thought, 'maybe I should learn more about this Raven before trusting her.' I thought. 'But why is it, an entire part of me...Raven, she's all I want, she's the only one that can save me. No she has to be manipulating my emotions again, how could I feel that way about someone I can't even remember.' I stared at my hands hoping for memories to come back to me, but they didn't. It was all blank.

"BB stop thinking so much, it was never your strong point." She giggled and before I knew it I did too.

"Hey...I'm not that stupid." She just giggled some more and a small smile crept onto my face. Maybe I was thinking too much. And thinking depressed me.

Before I could object Terra leaned in and kissed me. It was very short, and sweet, but then she pulled away leaving me baffled.

"We used to do it all the time BB, don't you at least remember that? Our love? I miss you BB, you feel so far away..." She whispered sadly and I stared at her. I opened my mouth to tell her that I was right there, next her, but she rested a finger on my lips. "No Beast Boy, don't say a word, just...kiss me..." Her finger fell down to her side, us both sitting on the edge of the bed staring at one another. Her eyes were half closed, mine were wide open, confused, unsure, hesitant. She just kept looking in my eyes, waiting, expecting something, when I did nothing she decided to wait no longer.

Terra's lips pressed against mine, her arms locking me in her embrace. I blinked, but my eyes wouldn't open, flashes of memories flooded themselves into my head. Times I had kissed Terra, danced with her, but then other times, when I was with Raven, not kissing, but in the silence of one another's presence, a feeling, a longing so much stronger. I saw Terra, evil in her eyes, lifting a rock forcing it right on top of me, crushing me like a chicken bone.

Raven saved me, she sang to me, she loved me. My angel....but a block came into my head, Terra's voice, it told me not to think about Raven, that it was wrong to think about her, that to think of Raven while kissing Terra was...I thought about it, it hurt. Terra had hated Raven more than any one else as far as I knew, she told me to stay away from her...and I was thinking of Raven while kissing Terra. 'You're not kissing her, she kissed you, pull away.' My head told me. Terra's grip on me was tight, but I turned my head away from her pushing her gently apart from me.

"I can't do this Terra, not when I can't even figure out who you are." I whispered sadly, not wishing to hurt her. But she was hurt, she started to cry. "How do I know you're not lying to me? Everything just seems like one big lie, my memories don't match anything you say!" She threw me angrily against the wall pinning me between her fists. She glared at me straight in the eyes; her eyes were like cold black beads digging into my flesh with just a glance of rage.

---------------------Raven's Point of View-------------------------------------------

I had awaken earlier that morning, apparently I had blacked out. Every one was in pain, but they seemed to care more about Slade and Terra coming to kill us than the fact that she had Taken Beast Boy away. That was all I could think about. Every time I suggested finding him Robin told me we had to prepare for the arrival of Slade and Terra and worry about Beast Boy later. I tried to find him with my mind but my powers couldn't reach past the spell Terra had cast on him, I'd have to wait for it to grow weaker.

I stared off into the mid-day sky, it was painted with water colors, tranquil blue, autumn orange. Winter would be coming soon I realized. Things were always harder for us in the winter. I didn't mind the cold so much but snow storms and Holiday Shopping were favorite times of the year for villains.

I couldn't take it any more; I wasn't going to wait for Robin's ok or for the spell to wear off. Beast Boy had to be found, I had to see him again, I had to protect him. I walked back into the tower and was embraced by warm settling air. I packed some food, a couple sandwiches, tea, some canned goods, a couple books and magic utensils, and of course a coat for the brittle cold. I would travel lightly, alone, and as fast as possible. I would not rest until I found my love, I would not sleep until he was home in my arms. Once again I treaded outside, welcomed by the soft rush of wind and November sky.

"So where are we going to look first?" Said a low cheery voice. I practically jumped out of my skin hearing that. How had I not sensed him? Was my body that numb? Cyborg smiled at me, I remembered then that he liked me in that special way. But I could never return that, had he forgotten how I pulled away? When we were dancing, I wasn't even dancing with him, I was off somewhere else in my mind, dancing with Beast Boy. Cyborg took the bag from my hands and slung it over his shoulder.

"Thanks..." I said, I had nothing else to say. I myself had no idea where I was headed, but it looked like I'd be having company, which was kind of nice. People look for when Titans are alone, they know weir weaker by ourselves. I smiled fakely at him, I could sense his emotions now, they were burning hot with longing, disappointed that I seemed so unaware of him. I started to walk again and he walked beside me, I realized I was still weak from the black out and I had a long journey ahead of me. I looked to Cyborg. A Very long journey.

I couldn't get it out of my head, his soulless face, so confused, helpless. Terra had done that to him, and I swore as soon as I found him and made sure he was ok, I would listen to my inner voice. I would ENIOLATE Terra, killing her every last cell until there was nothing left but an empty corpse. Though a soulless corpse described her pretty well right now. She would never hurt any one again, especially Beast Boy.

I picked up Cyborg and we flew across the small ocean around our Tower. We settled back down onto solid Earth and Began a walk to the City. I couldn't wait to find her and slowly choke her skinny little neck.

--------------------------------Beast Boy's Point of View-------------------------------------------

"You Don't know what you're TALKING ABOUT! Why can't you just see? All you need to know is that I LOVE YOU! I'm the only one that can love you, save you, understand you!"

"Terra please just tell me what's going on! Where the hell are we?!"

"YOU DON'T NEED TO KNOW THAT! IT DOESN'T MATTER!" She shouted. "AHHHHHHH!" Terra's grip released me and she clutched her head with her hands, seeming to be in great pain. A large yellow aura surrounded her. Rocks began to fly down from the ceiling, collapsing. Some rocks were surrounded by the same yellow aura that swept them to the sides of the room, I had to dodge them to stay alive. Her breathing was heavy, and I knew why the rocks were falling. My dream held more answers than I had thought, Terra really could control rocks, I could turn into animals, and I could sense the possessive evil generating in her soul. Still, the ceiling was collapsing, and a part of me, maybe the part of me that perhaps loved her once, told me to save her.

I ran to her surrounding her with my arms and I tried to pick her up but she shoved me away.

"NO! WEIR STAYING RIGHT HERE! WE'LL DIE TOGETHER!" She looked very upset and crazy, die together? She wanted to die?

"If I'm going to die why not do it now, with you?" She whispered sadly, I didn't understand but time was running out and I couldn't take it any more. I grabbed her and carried her out of the room listening to the ceiling collapse behind us. We escaped just in time. Terra cried on my shoulder finally letting me carry her without resistance. I walked down the long intimidating hallway. It seemed so much smaller now, but some how I still felt so small scurrying though the shadows like a mouse. Part of me wondered why I had saved her, maybe she was all I had in this large unfamiliar building. I didn't want it to end like my dream, stranded alone and hopeless.

Finally my eyes rested on a door, light peeked through the edges. Maybe it was a way out? I was ready to take chances, they were the only option left for surviving. I slowly opened the door, but I only found a cold chamber of gears, computers, and shadows. Wherever this was we needed a rest, and I'd take it. I walked through the seemingly empty room and hid behind a set of technological equipment. I set Terra down and we leaned against something. I felt the dizzy blood flow through my veins, I felt so aloof. However I sensed something moving, I looked up to gaze upon a distant figure. The large masked man terra had called Slade. His back was facing us, obviously unaware of our presence, and I quieted my breathing so it would remain that way.

He stood in front of a very large Television screen that he switched on. Instantly it flickered on and revealed a house like setting, a large couch, a kitchen in the background, it seemed so familiar. A masked black haired boy appeared and he looked very angry.

"Slade!" He spit out like the name were a pie full of dirt and worms. He glared intently at Slade. "I can guarantee you wont be winning this time, we're ready for you, and Terra, and we want Beast Boy Back." The Boy looked determined and strong. But why did they want to fight Terra, and what did he mean get me back? I noticed then that he was a member of the Teen Titans Terra had told me about. Did they really just want my powers? Then I remembered. Raven had to be there. I wanted desperately to see the Raven of my Dreams.

"We'll see about that Robin..." Slade spoke confidently.

"Titans! Come here there's a transmission from Slade!" Robin spoke and a Tall flying girl flew to his side, she looked worried and kind.

"Robin! Raven and Cyborg have ran away without letting us know! They are on a search to find our friend Beast Boy!" Robin jumped in alarm to the news, his facial express now leaning into a deeper rage and frustration.

"I told her we'd find him later! Now what are we supposed to do Starfire?! There's only two of us!" He screamed. They really did care about me, Raven and Cyborg had even disobeyed Robin to find me. Flashbacks rushed into my head with a glitch of pain.

It was at a carnival, Cyborg, Raven and I were very close friends. Cyborg and I won Raven a Giant chicken and she didn't look too enthusiastic, but we knew she was just hiding behind her sarcasm. We loved hanging around together, though we were quite the opposites. I remembered a time when Raven healed a bone of mine with her powers, and we shared the most intimate silence.

Other memories flooded my head, Cyborg and I had ventured into Raven's mind, and we found deep understanding for her, that's when our close friendship had started. I remembered Starfire and Robin as well, they were in love, every one knew it, accept maybe them. I had loved Raven, but no one knew. Together, we had been the Teen Titans, defending our city, and bonding as a team, that's how life had been. Until we met Terra.

I glanced at Terra. I remembered everything now, I remembered my entire life. Terra had lied to me, brainwashed me, hurt me, and still I had saved her. Why had I saved her when I knew something was wrong? Titans do that I guess, listen to their heart, what they think is right, sometimes caring more for others than themselves.

"Your chances of winning don't look very high now Robin." Slade spoke happily. "I have Terra and the shape shifter on my side now. Do you think you can handle hurting your old friends?" What? Me on his side? I could never fight my friends, could never hurt them. But I knew Slade would make me, unless I resisted. I now knew what he had been hiding from me. "Goodbye Robin, I'll see you soon, ready or not." The transmission ended and Slade quickly turned around.

"Now I think it's bedtime for the little ease droppers." He spoke sternly. I gasped; he had known we were there the entire time. "Terra, take Beast Boy to his room, tomorrow, you will rid him the memory of all he has witnessed." She nodded her head and took me by the wrist. She dragged me down the hallway, and threw me into my room like it was dungeon. Once again I was surrounded by insanely white walls and cameras. Before I could weakly protest she slammed the door and left me there alone again. I would see her again tomorrow, before she tried to take away my memory, my identity, again. She was slowly killing me she was. I lay on the floor promising myself I would not sleep.

"But I....I want to remember...I don't want to forget again....I want to remember..." I mumbled to myself, and before I could hold back, my heavy eyelids gave into to my cold, tired, body. And all was black. "I want......to remember....."

Author Note: I tried to spread paragraphs out more to make it easier to read. I've found in this season, if you're one of the people like me, who actually look for hints of BBR in episodes, we are quite happy this season. I thought it couldn't get better after seeing spellbound, but then there was an episode where BB saved her! Ok enough of my joy. Tell me what ya think of it. The next chapter will also be in BB's perspective but it will include some of Raven's as well, the plans I have for it are pretty exciting so if I were you I wouldn't miss it.

Forever More, RavenNevermore18

P.S. please check out the other story I am writing now called Bewitched, Severed Hearts –it's mostly about Jinx and the Jinx/Cy couple, so check it out if you want. I'm sorry it takes so long to post but I try to post on the weekends so that it's easier to find.