Author Note:first I'd like to say sorry it took so long with fanfiction not working and all that, secondly, I'd like to say thank you to the people that reviewed, when I get reviews like daydreamer's, it just makes me glad I'm writing this. Ok this chapter will be full of surprises I can guarantee that, I apologize ahead of time for the change in perspectives I was just curious to see what different perspectives came out like, and this chapter may start out slow but that surely will change, so don't give up on me just yet. I'd love to chat some more but I hate taking up your time, so here we go.
All is in gray smokey fog, clouding all vision in a dry blurry mist.
"Beast Boy, where are you?"
"I'm right here Raven."
"No, where are you?"
"I don't know…but Raven please save me, I need you, I don't want to forget again. I only just found out who I am, I only just remembered you, and I can't forget you again, it's hurts too much. It hurts so much…Raven…"
"Calm down Beast Boy. Even if you loose your memory again you're not loosing who you are, you will always be you Beast Boy not even Terra can change that, just don't let her get to you. It's not hopeless, take a hold of your own mind. It'll be ok, you'll see."
"Even if it's true, that I'll always be me, I don't think I can take any more Raven, another crack and I'm broken, another crack and I-"
"You'll be alright, I'm with you in spirit."
"Raven, please, just promise me you'll try and find me, promise me that ok? I can't make it on my own, I can't fight my friends, I can't live like this. Maybe you're strong Raven, but I'm not."
"I'm…not as strong as you think….it's more complicated than that…"
The two share a long deep silence.
"Beast Boy, let me in, sometimes it's possible when I meditate to slightly posses a person's body, maybe I can figure out where you are." He shook off the cold shiver, the thought of someone possessing him, that his body was not only his own and he did not have full control over it. That thought was scary, but this person was Raven, and she was more than a person to him.
Slowly the fog began to clear and for the first time in what seemed like ages the two set eyes on one another, maybe only in spirit but it was real, and so for the first time in a while they both felt a sense of belonging. Maybe things could be alright. Raven leaned in toward Beast Boy until they shared embrace, and like water she dissolved into the depths of Beast Boy's soul and body. His eyes quickly flew open, but his eyes were different, Raven was looking through them. She peered around the cold white out walls and lifted herself, or rather herself inside Beast Boy's body, off the dusty cement floor. As if on cue the door thrust open causing Beast boy/Raven to collapse back onto the floor in shock.
Terra stared emotionlessly at Be/Ra and some how she didn't even realize the change in Beast Boy's eyes. Her cold emotionless expression melted as she knelt on the floor beside him. She almost looked sincerely sympathetic for a moment. But any one who had ever trusted Terra knew to never trust her again.
"BB I know what you're thinking but I really don't want to do this…I don't want to, but I have to…you don't know Slade like I do." Her eyes looked as if they would tear and Raven felt a strange ping of pity for Terra coming from Beast Boy. He thought he loved her once, she remembered, even if it wasn't true love he could never forget what he felt. Though all logical answers pointed to him hating Terra, she knew he couldn't, he could say he did, and he could wish things never happened, and he could dislike and feel no love for Terra. But He couldn't hate her, not completely.
Raven debated how she would handle this situation, to try and run to the door, to kill Terra, nothing seemed like a clear solution, if she would kill Terra she would do it herself, not in Beast Boy's body, how could she place the guilt in his heart when he did nothing but trust her? At a random moment Be/Ra jumped off of the floor and ran through the doorway but before she could get far she ran into Slade. Glaring menacingly at the perplexed Beast Boy in front of him he grabbed Beast Boy's ankle and threw him back into the room next to Terra. Be/Ra landed hard and slid across the floor burning and scratching Beast Boy's back, his head dropped to the cold hard ground and Raven felt the icy pain crawl up his spine.
"If I didn't have a use for your little pet, Terra, he'd be dog food by now I assure you. If I were you I'd train him to stay out of trouble." Slade spoke in harsh tone. "Since he seems to be so fond of escaping, and you let him go so easily, you are both locked in there until the brainwashing is complete. I'll be watching you." Slade slammed the door shut and Raven could hear a lock click closed. Before she could think of her next plan, which was probably to hurt Terra, Terra jumped onto Beast Boy and pegged his arms down to the floor with her hands. Her face determined and upset, she lifted a hand from his arm and pressed it tightly to his head. Smoke was interfering, blackness was enclosing Raven's mind, Beast Boy's eyes slid shut, and so did Raven's awareness.
--------------------------------------Beast Boy's Perspective----------------------------------------
"Raven?! Raven! Wake up Raven! Please…wake up!" I'm trapped in my own mind, and with me is Raven, but she's unconscious, barely breathing. I don't know what really happened. Raven possessed my body and then Terra came, she was there to brainwash me, but it wasn't me in my body it was Raven. So When Terra took her by surprise and attacked Raven with the same power that made me loose all my memories before, she blacked out, like I had probably done in the past. But Raven is still here, in MY mind, I would have thought she'd be back in her own body by now, even if she isn't awake yet. No matter what I do she won't wake up, and I have no idea how to bring her back home, I can't see how she can survive this way.
I know I said nothing could be worse than getting brainwashed again, but I wish it was me, I wish it was me who was brainwashed, I wish it was me unconscious, at least this is my body. What if Raven never wakes up? I can't live with myself if that happens.
My eyes slowly open and I'm back in the room, the room was the first thing I saw when this nightmare began, all I want is to escape, to find the Titans, maybe they'll know how to free her. I just remembered…I will be seeing the Titans soon, but I'll be under Slades control, I'll have to be fighting them. What if, what if he puts one of those suits on me, the ones that control your every move? I don't think I can take that, and even if I wait for that moment I see my friends again, what if it's too late, too late to save Raven? My hands form into fists as I put my mind to the test, how can I escape, my strategy of simply scurrying out hasn't work at all in the past, I need a new plan. And Quick, I bet Raven would have known what to do.
I close my eyes once again, but to my surprise everything is the same as when they were open, except somehow everything is so blurry, and when I touch the door my hand reaches right through. I step quickly through the door and wonder if I can go through the door, why not the ground? Nothing really makes sense in this world, but I leave my mind behind somewhere and take to instinct. My legs carry me through the empty hallways and to my surprise they are not endless. Somehow I float above the ground and through the roof onto an abandoned, filthy street. The street starts to shake and I can see my body collapse, though I can not feel it. My eyes burst open and suddenly I am aware of the pain surging through me.
I'd have thought it to be morning, but the sky is dark and pinned up with shattered stars. A car speeds by, splashing mud onto the side walk and I am brought back to reality. Somehow, somehow I just escaped Slade's underground cellar, probably with the power of Raven, and now I stand alone in the middle of Jump City. I sense raven's heart beat lowering, I had planned on going to Titan Tower as soon as I escaped, but I know now that I must find her body and return her soul. How I know this, I have no idea, but that is my mission now, and I know it's the only way to save her.
--------------out of Beast Boy's Perspective----------------
The changeling morphed into a dog, sniffing for the scent of his beloved, broken angel. He searched for hours until his exhausted body broke down in an ally to let the tears fall from his tired eyes. How did it come to this he wondered, forbidding himself of giving up, if it were him he was trying to save maybe, but he wouldn't give up on Raven. The shadows blew across the walls with a sense of hopelessness.
"No…" He sobbed, "I won't give up, I'll just cry…let it all go, and then get back up on my feet…" Raven's heart beat was faint now. There wasn't enough time to heal. He stumbled back onto his feet and listened to the silent wisps of wind. A hushed noise broke the silence, Beast Boy could hear sobs and mumbling. Slowly he walked toward the noise.
"Raven wake up! Raven please…Raven…" Said a voice.
"Raven?! Who's there?!" Beast Boy Shouted, she was somewhere near, he began to run toward the voice but when he turned to look the sight burned his eyes. Raven lay lifeless in Cyborg's arms. Beast Boy ran to her his eyes blurry with tears, and he wasn't ashamed. What mattered if he was seen crying, Raven was dieing, that's all that mattered. Cyborg wouldn't look up at Beast Boy or even acknowledge his presence. He cradled her in his arms away from Beast Boy.
"Cy let me see her, I have to see her, Cy she's DIEING!"
"I can see that you idiot!" The half human screamed with frustration, but he surrendered the girl to her savior, though he wished with everything he could be the one to save her, it didn't matter now. Through his hurt he could tell, Beast boy was the one, the only one…
Beast Boy closed his eyes and was set in the same place but there was no one there besides him and Raven. He carefully held Raven's fragile soul in his arms. Slowly he lowered her soul in place with her body and let it sink back in. Before anything weird could happen his eyes opened again. The boy's hand pressed to her neck and felt a strong pulse, she was back, merely unconscious. He sighed with relief and held her body protectively. Cyborg stared at Beast Boy deathly.
"What did you do to her Beast Boy, it was your fault she had to come looking out here for you in the first place, but what did you with her soul?!" Cyborg thrust his fist into the ground trying to hold himself back from strangling the little green changeling. Silence, Beast Boy stared shocked at Cyborg, his best buddy, his pal, what had he done wrong to be hated in this way. "THIS IS YOUR FAULT YOU IDIOT!" Cyborg burst and tried to collect himself. "She almost died Beast Boy, she almost died because of you, people don't come back when they die…" His voice was shaky with the painful thought. 'And somehow I doubt she would have risked herself for me…' Cyborg didn't say this, but he felt it well up inside him. How could he not see it before, that she was so in love with his friend? The way she looked at him, the way he talked of her. Nothing would ever be the same again now that the blinds were lifted. How could he, how could he be the one for her, it made no sense, but he knew it was true. He was hopeless.
"ANSWER ME!" He burst again.
"I didn't do anything wrong, She tried to possess me, and when Terra brainwashed me she actually hurt Raven instead, and then Raven's soul was stuck in my mind…"
"You let Terra hurt her?!"
"I'm sorry! I didn't want it to be that way, I'm so…sorry…." Beast Boy broke down and started to cry, Cyborg was about to tell him that sorry wouldn't heal Raven, but he saw the hurt in Beast Boy's eyes and knew he was hurt too.
"We should get Raven back to Titans' Tower, why don't you fly her over there, don't worry about me I'll find my way back. I'll only slow you down anyway…" Beast boy was about to protest but Cyborg put up his hand. "Just go." The truth was Cyborg wasn't in the mood to be near the changeling just then, especially when Raven was in his arms, when she'd wake up Beast Boy would be the one she'd smile at. Beast Boy morphed in a Peridactle and held Raven delicately in his beak, there was a strong gust of wind as he lifted from the ground and headed to Titans's Tower. Cyborg was left alone, but he'd felt alone for a long time anyway, and he gloomily walked in the direction he'd hoped would be home, if he could call it home anymore.
---------------------elsewhere, at the Tower------------
Robin and Starfire stood frozen in front of the tower.
"Robin what are we to do, they are so numerous, and we are the only ones here to fight…" Robin was still gaping at the sight of what seemed to be at least a thousand of Slade's robots marching towards the tower. The evil was so great it drained the air of all hope.
"We've beat impossible before, all we can to is fight…" Robin spoke, but Starfire knew him too well, the strong confident Robin, was very scared. Without a second to spare they started attacking the robots mercilessly. At first it seemed alright but then more and more started attacking at the same time.
'Where are our friends?' Starfire wondered as she tried to escape the tight choke of a robot swarm.
"Starfire!" Robin shouted. "Starfire, I just had to tell you this before we d-, I just! I just need you to know!" A robot tackled him to the ground as he made an effort to speak. "I love you Starfire!" Starfire smiled though tears burned her eyes and blood stained her lungs.
"I love you too Robin…" She whispered, but it was enough for him to hear.
------------------back to Raven and Beast Boy.--------------
It had been hours that they had searched for their way home, Beast Boy had lost track of Cyborg a long time ago. Out of no where a painful beam hit Beast Boy's wing, and he felt himself falling quickly toward the street, with a snap reflex he turned into a kangaroo, holding Raven in his pouch, and jumped as soon as his feat touched the ground. He took Raven out of his pouch and transformed back into a human. He wondered what had shot him, but only for a second, his eyes fell into the gaze of Cyborg.
"Cyborg, did you?"
"Yes."
"But…why?" Beast Boy was frightened by the look in Cyborg's eyes, a cold blooded stare.
"Because you ruined my life Beast Boy, now give me Raven before you hurt again. I'd never hurt her you know, because I love her." Cyborg spoke strongly and with such anger that it shocked the green boy. It wasn't until now that Beast Boy knew Cyborg had felt that way, but he felt that way too, and there was no way he'd give Raven's fragile body to madman.
"What happened to you? This isn't the Cyborg I know!" Beast Boy shouted as Cyborg slowly walked towards him, the fear in Beast Boy's face could not be hidden.
"I said give her to ME!" Cyborg said and his fist went hurling towards Beast Boy, he ducked but in the process fell right to the ground letting Raven rest on the ground beside him. He noticed that Cyborg right then, reminded him of…Terra…
"You…You're just like TERRA!" Beast Boy shouted, amazed at what had happened to his friend. "Cyborg, stop it, I'm you're fr-" This time Cyborg's fist didn't miss and it thrust into Beast Boy's chest. In fast reflex Beast Boy transformed into a bear and scratched the side of Cyborgs face. He didn't want to hurt his friend, his best friend, the friend he could count on, play games with, laugh with, the only one he'd ever thought of telling his secret to. This wasn't Cyborg, it couldn't be. Raven's body grew cold on the cement as the rain began to fall, mixing water droplets with blood sweat and tears. But no one seemed to notice that the one they had been fighting for, the thing that meant most to both of them was unconsciously shivering painfully. Cyborg's hand held Beast Boy above the ground, by the neck.
Why
Bleeding is breathing
You're hiding
Underneath the smoke in the room
Try
Bleeding is believing
I used to…
Used to…. –Natalie Imbruglia
Author Note: first of all, Review! I am terribly sorry it took so long to post this and I'm not about to give a list of excuses don't worry, who wants to read that? Anyway hopefully now that my sport is over and I don't have that sickness where I start fainting anymore and fanfiction is working again I'll be able to post these more frequently. I just saw that Finding Neverland movie the other day, and just as believing in fairies keeps them alive, reviewing does the same for the story, every time I get a review I just have to start writing more, so please review and thank you to those that do!
Forevermore, RavenNevermore18
p.s. do tell me which perspective you like the most, I like Raven's but obviously I couldn't do that in this chapter, so please give suggestions and opinions.
