The Final Dance
Chapter 5
Jag and everyone in it doesn't belong to me.
I don't know much about hospitals, so most of the stuff in here is coming from my head and all I've seen on TV. In this FF, Mattie is still living with Harm, but it's progressing with her relationship with her dad. This is set after the episode 'Retrial' The song 'Without you' belongs to Air Supply.
This was going to be two chapters....but I remembered the pitchforks...
I specially want to thank Theresa, without your help, I wouldn't have been able to write this chapter…so THANKS :) And thank you to everyone for reviewing. I hope you like this chapter.
Mac's ICU Room
2045 Zulu (8:45 P.M.)
Harm had moved the chair near Mac's bed. He was currently holding her hand with his.
"Hey Ninja-Girl. I need you to wake up. There are so many things that need to be said and we lost so much time already. I need you in my life Mac. I know you're scared, but so am I. I am willing to face my fears, to face anything with you at my side." He softly lifted her hand to his mouth and kissed it. No other sound was heard except of the machines that were connected to her. Suddenly noise filled the room. The nurses and the doctor came inside.
"Sir, you need to get out" said a nurse as she tried to push him aside.
"Her heart beat is dropping" said the other nurse.
"We're losing her" said the doctor
The nurse let go of Harm and went to help the doctor. Harm could only stand and watch as Mac's heartbeat was slowly moving weaker and weaker…until it stopped.
"Start CPR…" said the doctor
"1, 2, 3…" said the nurse
"Sir is not working!"
"Ok. Move to shock her" said the doctor
"Give her 100" said the doctor
"Clear" said the nurse. Mac's body moved, but her heart wasn't responding.
"Give her 150" said the doctor
"Clear" said the nurse. Mac's body moved, but her heart still wasn't responding. Harm could only watch as the doctor and nurses tried to revive the love of his life.
"No pulse. It's been9 minutes doctor. We should call it" Said the nurse.
"Ok. 8:55 P.M." said the doctor with a defeated tone. Turning to Harm "I'm so sorry Commander."
Harm couldn't speak. He went on went on his knees. And started crying. The nurses and the doctors could only watch as Harm grabbed Mac's hands and softly said…
"Mac please do not leave me. I need you. I love you…"said Harm
She was pushing the little boy in the swings. The day was sunny and it was a beautiful day to be outside. The child was laughing, enjoying the swing. He jumped out and was running around pretending heto bean airplane. He runs towards her and she catches him. Hugging him and kissing him. The little boy only giggled. She closed her eyes, she felt so happy. Suddenly the little boy was gone. She was back in her room, listening to her father scream at her mom. She closed her eyes again.
She was in a little cheap chapel saying her vows to a man that meant freedom from her house. He asked her if she would love him forever…she said yes…she lied. She closed her eyes when her new husband was going to kiss her.
Her eyes opened, she was in the car with her friend; they were both laughing until the other car hit them. When she opened her eyes again she was fighting the need to drink. She could hear the words from someone she loved, but the need for alcohol was so strong.
She opened her eyes and was back on the street where he lay shot. He was dying he asked her if she loved him…she said yes…she lied again.
She was in his motel room…her husband had come to her new life. She only wanted to forget those bad times. She only wanted him to leave. He wanted to kill her mentor, ex-lover;she tried to stop him, the gun went off, he laid dead on the floor. She cried because she didn't want him dead. In some small way…she had cared about him.
The man she was in love with had rejected her. This one offered her all she wanted. She said yes, she wasn't in love with him.
The man she was in love with had gone down out sea. She felt as if she herself was dying without him. The only thing she could do was cry, and try to find him somehow.
He had left her. No more wedding. She was turned away from the love of her life so he could comfort his girlfriend. She was all alone again. She needed to get away. He came after her, but things weren't so great.
Finally they were getting closer again, but he excluded her from what was going on with that nasty LT. She felt betrayed. She wanted to get away again, and the opportunity came. He couldn't come after her this time…
The screams were so horrible. She couldn't stop them. He was in so much pain, and it was all to save her. She felt miserable. He couldn't take it anymore, and they took her. Her life was going to end. He came after her once again. He saved her life and saved the day. He didn't understand what it felt like to listen to the screams and no being able to stop them.Her life was not taken because this other man had protected her with his life. She couldn't just leave him, and he loved her. She was so confused. The two men had saved her life, but the screams were still inside her head. She was so confused.
Her flyboy had left her again. He didn't answer any of her calls. He was gone.
The other man promised so many things. Just liked another one had promised. She left herself be loved by him. She had no one else. Her other half was gone, she was all alone. She wanted to be loved. The other man loved her, the one that matter didn't. She just wanted to be loved and not alone anymore. She grew fond of the other man; it could almost be called love.
Her flyboy was back…but he wasn't her flyboy anymore. They weren't great friends either, but working on it. Maybe that was all they were meant to be, Friends. Only friends.
The man of her nightmares came for her. He knew very well all her fears, all her weaknesses. It was because of him that the screams started. She killed him.
She wasn't going to have kids. Less than 5 meant no kids. She was going to be all alone. The man she was fond of had lied to her, pretended to be dead. Everything was a lie.
All the promises were lies.
Her flyboy said he was going to be there for her, but she had seen another woman kiss him. There was no hope for them. Only as Friends. The need to cry was so bad. She felt so much pain. It was all her fault. She pushed him away and now he was gone. She was alone again. Born alone; die alone.
The light felt so peaceful. No more pain. No more feelings. Only peace.
She opened her eyes. The little boy was gone. Eddie, Chris, Dalton and her dad where waiting for her. They were all calling her. She started walking towards them; she didn't want to feel anything anymore.
"Mac please do not leave me. I need you. I love you…"
She stopped. The words started coming. They were filled with so much pain, yet love…so much love was there. Sorrow was in there too, but so much love.
No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows, yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there, but then I let you go
And now it's only fair that I should let you know
What you should know…
I can't live, if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore
She started walking towards the voice. Her father, Chris, Dalton and Eddie were still calling her, but she turned towards the voice.
I can't live, if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore
Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows, yes it shows
Everything was gone. She couldn't open her eyes. The only thing she could hear, feel around her was the song and his voice.
I can't live, if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore
I can't live, if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore
If living is without you…
Mac's ICU Room
2059 Zulu (8:59 P.M.)
The doctors watched as the man cried and tenderly sang for the woman that had just passed away. Many times they had seen death and sorrow; it was so painful, yet so beautiful the way this man sang to her. As he was finishing the song the monitor started beeping. Slowly at first and then more strongly. The doctor and nurses rushed to Mac's side. They could only watch as she opened her eyes. She looked around and said…
"Where am I?"
I wrote down Mac's mind because I wanted you to know how she was feeling the moment she had the accident. I hope you guys like this chapter.All reviews are welcomed. Thank you to everyone who reviewed and all for reading :)
Martini1988: Glad you like the FF. Thanks for the review and I hope you liked this chapter :)
XBlueShadowX: Love to read your reviews. Thanks so much for reviewing. I hope you like this chapter :) Ps. Working on the fluffish stuff.
froggy0319: Thanks for reviewing, hope the nails are still ok. Harm should always stay on Mac's side. Hope you liked this chapter :)
GuitarVixen: Pitchforks….jejeje….always on my mind besides Harm, Lestat and Tom Cruise. I hope you liked this chapter and thanks so much for reviewing. BTW your new FF is going GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tina Frank: Hey remember that poor Sturgis made the promise to Mac…would you like to have an angry Mac chasing your six?…Harm would probably be in a daze after being told for about 7 minutes and it would be way too late for poor Sturgis to be saved…lol Although I too wish he would have said something. Thanks so much for reviewing and I hope you liked this chapter :)
chawkchic: Happy New Year 2 you 2. I too miss when Sturgis and Harm where nicer to each other. Thanks for reviewing and I hope you liked this chapter :)
aserene: Glad you like the FF. Thanks so much for reading and hope you liked this chapter :)
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