My love will survive but i won't
disclaimer I don't own the characters
this is my first attempt at writing and my first time writing in English
Two ugly nights. One love confession. Will they have a little more time to right a wrong?
AU
Chapter 1
Olivia POV
I'm drowning. Although I have been in dangerous situations before, I could never have thought that this would be the last one. I feel a weight on my chest. I don't know if it's from the seat belt or from the last time I took a breath. I just know that I won't get out of this easily. My vision is getting blurry. In front of me I can see what's left of my car and my hair floating in the water around my face. I like to have long hair. I guess that's why I haven't had a haircut in a long time.
The water is cold, but that is to be expected because it is the middle of winter. My lungs are burning and I can't move.
I'm trapped in the car, in the water and in my head. I would like to feel freedom once more. That feeling when you are a small child and you can run carefree because someone who loves you is watching over you. That feeling of peace when you smell a flower, walk in the park, feel the wind on your face and the warmth of a loved one holding your hand. That feeling of freedom is only in my head. It's the only thing I have right now. The only thing I hope for.
I don't know what is happening in the world around me. But if I leave this world today, I know I will regret only one thing. I left you today. I didn't tell you how much you mean to me.
My feelings these days were: exhausted, scared, worried, hopeful, angry and lonely.
Exhausted... I haven't slept in the last two days. After three hours of sleep last night, I woke up so tired that I didn't want to get out of bed. My body was tired, but my brain was restless.
Scared... Maybe I'm not like some people who have a fear of heights or a fear of spiders. I'm not a person who runs away from problems, who runs away from the unknown. Today I was afraid of only one thing, and that is to tell you the truth about me.
Worried... I haven't seen or heard from you in four days. What to expect? How will you react?
Will you answer if I call you?
I took my cell phone.
I called you...
Hopeful... I had hoped that you would answer when I called you, that I would listen to your voice and that everything would be fine.
Anger... The cell phone rang. You didn't answer. I called again but, nothing. I tried one more time, because the last time we talked, you promised you'd answer me whenever I needed you.
I need you now.
Maybe at that moment I wasn't angry at you, but at myself for allowing myself to believe it.
Loneliness... That's my last feeling today. Maybe even forever.
It was dark outside before. It was even darker now.
Before I closed my eyes. Before the car filled with water and started to sink. Seconds before the accident, the phone lit up and I didn't see what was written on the screen.
I didn't have time.
I closed my eyes.
I'm sorry.
Goodbye my lo...
