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YUNA'S POV: This chapter is pretty fluff filled in a sense that Yuna is coming to her senses, you see a lot of opening up done in this chapter Enjoy!


Chapter 10: Ready to Fall


I wanted to jump. I was so ready to just jump off that ship and fall to my death it wasn't funny, it just wasn't funny anymore. All of this wasn't a game anymore, and Tidus' feelings were not something I could just toy with anymore. I couldn't control them, I couldn't laugh at them, and I couldn't change them, his feelings were real, realer then I ever thought they could be to me... and I was starting to realise that my feelings were real too.

"Mama, I am sorry I just can't do this to him." Tears welled in my eyes as I let my arms outspread themselves ready for the flight. I had made my decision. No more did I care if I spent eternity without my mother, because hurting someone else that I cared for seemed much more painful, and I couldn't live anymore, torn between knowing that I had a duty towards my mother, and knowing that I was falling for Tidus, and finally felt loved because of him.

Did Gippal really expect me to do this? Did I really expect myself to do this? Hurting Tidus was something I just couldn't bring myself to do now, he was the best thing that had ever happened to me. The only person on this earth that cared for me! What? I was supposed to just turn around and lead him to his death? Pretend to be the perfect wife and let him take my hand in marriage all for the sake of killing Jecht? No I couldn't do it, and I would rather never see my mother again then hurt him, hurt someone who cared for me. It would make me just as bad as Tidus' father. I didn't want to be person who hurt people that didn't deserve it. I was so caught up with revenge I didn't even see that Gippal was blinding me to the truth, being that all I was becoming was a cold hearted killer. I leant forward, excepting this as a punishment for what I had become.

"YUNA!!" In an instant Tidus had encircled his arms around my waist halting the fall. I lay on top of him for a few seconds dazed at what had just happened. It all felt like a dream, like some big dream, Tidus had caught me at the speed of light and within a second I was safe in his arms. Everything was moving to fast, and I didn't even have time to think about what happened... before his saddened voice filled my ears with grief. "Yuna, I am so sorry... I am so sorry..." Tidus cried, tears of pain welling in his beautiful blue eyes. No longer could I stand it, I had to go, I had to leave him, because all I did was make everyone's life a piece of shit, and it would be best for everyone if I just died, why didn't I just die? I pushed him away from me forcefully making my point clear and straightened myself walking slowly towards the edge once again.

He stood up with haste and persisted, grabbing onto me tightly and not letting me go. Why wouldn't let me die? Why he wouldn't let me go? "Please don't do this!" He screamed with anguish buried within my neck, I could feel his hot tears slide down my back as he shook violently and kept a firm grasp on me. He was scared that I was going to do something like that again, he was hurt that I would even try, I know because it was just how I felt when I found out Braska had sacrificed himself.

"It's not you're fault." I said rasing my limp arms to grasp onto his shirt, I was aware that my fingernails were probably digging into his back with pain and torture over this moment, but he just gave a cry of relief and held onto me tighter.

I felt so torn between two different worlds, I felt like I was going to tear into two pieces. I belonged in a world where I could harm no-one, where no-one would trust me and a world where I would feel relieved, relieved that no-one loved me or cared for me relieved no one trusted me, because then I wouldn't have to feel guilty. Yet here I was in reality, with a man that thought I was Yevon's gift of woman, with a man that trusted, cherished and loved me, being with him was like an over exaggerated fantasy land that I didn't deserve to be in. When I was with him, I could forget who I really was, and what I had done. I was tempted by him, and constantly wondered why did he care for me so much? What did I do to deserve it? Kill his best friend?

How could I let myself be with him when it was selfish of me to give into this? Why should he love me when I had taken something so precious from him? It seemed like all I ever did was take, there were a thousand questions in my mind that needed to be answered. Yet here was with Tidus giving me more then I could have ever dreamed of. Friendship, trust... peace. Never in my life had I felt like this, was it finally my time to receive something? I couldn't fool myself any longer. I didn't want to fall off the airship into my unwanted place of loneliness. I didn't want to fall through the sky just for my death.... The only thing I wanted to fall into was Tidus' arms. The only thing I wanted to fall for... was Tidus, and I was ready to fall.

By the time I had already decided that I would stay with him, he had cupped my face in the tenderest way imaginable, I wanted to shout for joy, and yet I wanted to scream at him and cry out with pain. I didn't deserve this look and touch of affection. "You don't want to do this." I said feeling selfish, those being the only words I could even manage to stutter when I was so close to him. Why couldn't I tell him everything he should know? Why? Because then he would leave me alone in this world again, fighting for something that wasn't even really there to begin with. Even though it tore me on the inside to know that one day, it would be the day when he would discover everything. But I didn't have the heart to tell him, and I felt like the worst person in Spira for it.

"Yes I do Yuna, and so do you, stop pushing me away." He pulled me closer to him in one swift movement, I knew he was trying to make a point, but I wasn't going to push him away not this time. I whimpered with fear of what was going to happen next. Passion was blazing in his eyes mixed with tears and confusion. He was desperate; I was desperate, for him to touch me, to feel something, to live again. He moved closer towards me ever so slowly it felt like I would have to wait a tireless eternity to taste him and I couldn't wait any longer.

I brought my hands to his face. I smiled peacefully and gazed upon his perfected features. "I am so weak..." I whispered quietly as our faces came so close I could feel the heat of his lips upon mine. I was weak, what type of idiot was I? That I almost fainted whenever the man touched me, what did that make me? The guilt was pouring into my head as he drew nearer, yet the want and desire was flooding the every corner of my body.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH." I screamed with surprise as I fell on top of Tidus with a thud. The airship took a sharp turn and knocked both of us off our feet. To Tidus the situation seemed like a lot of pain, but to me it was a lifesaver.

"Tidus are you okay?" I said gasping and I clasped my hands over my mouth in shock, he didn't look so good. I removed myself from him as quickly as I could hoping to make it easier on him. "Tidus are you okay?" I stroked his face.

"Well now I'm not!" He said pulling me down on top of him again.

"Ehhhh Tidus... what?" He pushed my head down to his chest gently and I couldn't help but smile. The fact that having me with him made him feel better, made my heart skip beats, even If he was just joking, I didn't care.

"Now I'm all better." He said running his hands through my hair. It was weird how he did that with me, he could just touch my face or play with my hair to gain comfort, it really made me feel cared and appreciated for.

"You two! I should have known you were up here making out!"

I raised my head to see a very disappointed Rikku shaking her head. She towered over us with her hands on her hips, and with Tidus lying down, there was no doubt he could see up her skirt, as he shielded his eyes claiming she was too bright.

"We w-ern't doing that..." I said instantly standing up and straightening up, even though if she had turned the airship a little later we could have very well been doing that. We must have looked like chaos, hair messed from constant ruffling, both our clothes in a crumpled state, and tears still visible on both of our cheeks. Rikku sensed something was going on and gave us both a questioning look but decided not to ask us for now.

"Well I just came up here to tell you... that we are almost there... so be ready within 20 minutes." She looked between us both again and opened her mouth to say something. Tidus and I both stood there hoping she wouldn't ask any questions but she shut her mouth soon after. I sighed as Rikku headed back to the bridge. Knowing that she may have bit her tongue now, but I would receive an earful about it sooner or later.

"We must look a mess." I laughed wiping the tears from my cheeks. He stood up and also straightened himself up before smirking at me.

"You Yuna, could never look a mess." He winked attempting to neaten his ruffled hair, but didn't he know? It was always a mess anyway, and that was what I liked about it.

"Don't, I like you're hair the way it is." I said grabbing his hand and guiding it away slowly. His hand brushed the top of my thigh ever so lightly as he took back control. It may have been light, but I could feel it, and felt the way it made me feel. I think Tidus also felt it, a shocked expression coming to his face as we both flinched slightly.

We both froze suddenly an awkward silence drifting above us. Our intimate exchange had triggered both our memories and caused me to blush furiously; I turned around facing him with my back hoping that would send him the message of how un-comfortable I was feeling right now. Tidus coughed uneasily and placed his hand on my back which reacted in me jumping forward slightly, I turned around and apologised, looking down to the ground, the situation just felt so awkward I had never felt like this with another man before. Tidus could sense I was on edge and guided me to the door, I just wished I could have walked alone since this vibe around me was so weird I couldn't explain it.

It was as if that moment between us earlier had never happened, like our lips never came close to touching, like the heat never ran through our bodies, and like I never tried to commit suicide from jumping of the airship. But we both remembered it, and it was as if we were both thinking if he/she felt the same way as I did. Well I sure was thinking it right now as we stepped into the elevator, I was thinking, did Tidus feel the same way? Did he really want to kiss me? Or was it all some miss-understanding. Was that really a look of passion and tenderness in his eyes, or was it just sympathy and pity. I looked up at him observing his face. It was indeed as if nothing had happened, like it was never meant to happen. But I knew something happened back there that changed us, and Tidus knew it as well, and sooner or later we were going to have to give into it.

I sat in the cabin for a while thinking everything over. Tidus was now the one who couldn't bear to look me in the eye and sat quietly next to me on the bed. I had desperately wanted to know what he was thinking about, hell I wanted to sit in his arms right now, and I was now upset that I had let my emotions get the better of me and blurted out about his father, Tidus must feel like crap right now, but it wasn't his fault, it was his fathers. Not his, if anything Tidus had done so much for me, and without him I wouldn't have realised the big mistake I was making.

The flight took much longer than 20 minutes and I felt like Tidus and I were sitting there on that bed in silence for what felt like centuries. When finally the airship shook and I knew we had landed.

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I ran out the door and jumped down the stairs as fast as I could out into the thunder plains trying to avoid as much conversation with Tidus as I could. We waited at a safe distance as the airship took off and I waved even though I knew Rikku couldn't really see me, but I guess it was just a habit.

The thunder was already crashing up ahead and I could feel the cool sprinkle of light rain tickling my skin. The dark skies and light rain where always a turn on for me. I loved coming to the thunder plains since it was now quite safe. It hardly ever rained in Spira and I loved everything about the rain, the smell, the coolness and freshness it made you feel. The rain had always given me a burst of energy and just made me hyperactive. "This is the Thunder... plains...?" Tidus chattered, chills running through his body from the sudden gush of wind that passed us by. I was also shivering almost frozen to the bone, but that didn't mean I hated it. My body was lightly coated with water which made the wind all the more refreshing as it gushed by me.

"Yes but its quite safe." I replied noticing the way he jumped whenever the thunder struck. His platinum gold hair was flying about with the wind. His skin was wet with the rain that I loved to taste, and his warm clothing suddenly became very appealing to my tiny exposed figure for warmth. So I guess Tidus was looking pretty good to me right now was what I was trying to say.

"I'm not scared! Hey I'm supposed to be protecting you!" Tidus said cheekily.

"Oh really?" I said with a sudden burst of energy from the cold air. "Then let's see if you can catch me!" I ran from him quickly, making sure I was headed in the direction of the inn. But Tidus was much faster than me and I tried to keep my balance as I ran. The ground was so slippery I almost skidded and hoped to the farplane I wouldn't fall over in the mud.

"Gotcha Whoaa" Tidus grabbed onto me from behind, but the sudden pull sent both of us falling to the ground from loosing our balance. I skidded along with Tidus on top of me, knowing I had disgusting mud all over my back.

"TIDUS! This is disgusting!" I said trying without much progress to wipe the mud off my hands. I grinned evilly as I looked up at Tidus and cleaned my hands on his shirt. Before long my hands were mostly clean and Tidus looked anything but upset, even with mud all over his garments he was still the sexiest man alive, well that I had seen anyway.

"You done yet?" He asked with an amused look on his face. I nodded and sniggered at him. "Good!" He said slapping mud down the side of my face in one quick movement, I blinked a couple of times un-aware if he had just done that or not, did he really just do that!

"TIDUS!" I squealed trying to kick him off me. I was pissed off now, I had mud everywhere and Tidus was the only one gaining anything here, if I put mud on him he only looked amused and put mud right back on me. "Mud on my face?" I whined shutting my eyes and screwing up my face with grief. "Yuck!" How could he do this to me?

"Yeah mud all over my shirt?" He laughed running his muddy fingers through my hair.

I shut my eyes enjoying the feel of his hand running through my hair, even if he was putting mud all through it.

The rain had suddenly started to become a little heavier. Recently the Thunder plains had been quarantined and I must say whoever did it, did a great job, since we had not ran into one fiend yet, but fiends also did not like heavy rain.

Tidus blocked the heavy droplets for me and caught them himself, he was like my shelter, and he towered over me taking all the damage I received, even though I liked the rain. I started to laugh, happiness taking over my snobby attitude, the mud didn't seem so bad anymore, who cares if I was covered in mud? I could take a shower later... with Tidus. We were both a mess lying down in the mud together, Tidus on top of me (of course), how did we get into these messes? "How do I look?" I giggled wiping some mud down his nose in a straight line. "Do I look like the mud monster from the Thunder plains?" I laughed dotting his face with mud. He was adorable!

"Well I don't know about me, but you look beautiful." He said grabbing my hand that was painting his face. He looked at me as if asking permission for something and began kissing it intently.

When he had finished, I dropped my hand from his face. Looking into his eyes which were no longer filled with innocent playfulness. I tried to giggle and laugh, or even just slap mud onto him again, but I couldn't my eyes were glued to his in a passionate trance. He leaned closer in and my body tingled with excitement, a sensation never felt before was running through me.

"S-some-one m-might see us." I made up and excuse as usual to try and prolong the contact, if I could resist him just long enough maybe something else un-predictable would break us apart. I still felt guilty about everything even if I had forgotten for a while.

"So let them see." Tidus grinned pinning my hands to the ground either side of me. He was right though, let them see, as if I cared! I couldn't believe I even made that up for an excuse.

"Yes... let them see... mmmm." I smiled awaiting the meeting of our lips.

"Where are they I wonder they couldn't of got much further than Guadosalam I reckon, what do you think our plan should be next?"

The sound of men's voices from around the corner filled my ears and Tidus and I tensed with fear. "The Yokatta's." Tidus whispered, when he said that I knew who they were instantly and started to panic even more.

"I don't want to find him! I don't want to kill Praetor Tidus, I known him since he was a youngin'" Came the reply.

"Sugar!" I whispered to Tidus, he also seemed like he was about to break into a panic.

"The water, quick." Tidus said getting off me and pulling me into the nearby lake of water.

I was almost hesitant to enter the water which looked dark and foreboding but I didn't have much time to think. So quietly I slipped under the water with Tidus. Clinging to him with dear life, I felt so afraid of these waters that were so dark I couldn't even see Tidus. I looked up to the surface which I could see clearly. Two men were talking directly above us and I thanked the spirits that this water was dark. I tried my hardest not to breathe or make bubbles... then again the waters always bubbled because of fiends. Tidus firmly held onto me I could also sense fear in his grip, I was afraid, so afraid. I was afraid that if I let go of him he would sink to the abyss and I would never see him again. I was afraid of some monster coming and snatching him away from me. Now when I realised just how terrified I felt without Tidus, I couldn't take him for granted any longer.

I held my breath as best as I could but I had never been underwater like this before and I started to question just how long could I hold my breath. Just as I felt I was about to faint the two men walked away. Tidus waited for a few seconds before he nodded at me. I knew it was safe to go, but I could barley move from weakness and un-willingly closed my eyes, my legs wouldn't move and I was slipping away.

I could feel myself being pulled to the surface where I gasped for air.

"Yuna." Tidus said squeezing me tightly when I came back to reality. I coughed into his neck and shivered from the ice water, I wrapped my frail arms around his back and rested on his shoulder, coughing some more water out of my mouth, I was shivering against him and he seemed upset. "Where is this inn, we have to get you there now!" Tidus said carrying me out of the water, I pointed in the direction of it, still feeling weak and Tidus bolted in the direction, holding onto my wet body with care.

I observed his expression as we drew nearer to the inn, he looked like he was about to cry, he was frantic, what over me? I felt so peaceful in his arms, so safe and I hoped I wasn't too heavy for him, but he didn't seem to be struggling at all, he just seemed desperate to get to the inn. "I need to get you warm Yuna." When he said that I realised just how cold I was and wrapped my arms around him in an attempt to get warmer. I buried my face into his chest and heard him kick a door open.

"Praetor Tidus... Lady Yuna?"

I lifted my head from his chest and I turned it lethargically to see a woman aiming a gun right at us.

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