Hey! I am updating early again yay! Lol you guys are probably sick of me, but yeah owell I hope you enjoy this chapter, and I am updating due to the fact you are all so kind! So thankyou again.

Writers would know this, that editing is the most tedious part of writing, I can sit there for an hour and edit, and still find a mistake when I read over it again. Is it just me? Because it's the only thing that keeps me updating I discovered, I like to procrastinate the editing! Lol


Yunie-o: I am so happy to hear that you are getting Sims 2 have fun! I know you will


Steel Balrog: Hey I am glad to hear you are liking the story, you're reviews are always much appreciated. Well maybe you have forgotten, but the Yokatta's is a name for two highly trained assassins that are being sent to kill Yuna and bring Tidus back to Jecht. They have known Tidus since he was little, so they aren't to fond of this, the people Yuna and Tidus hid from when they were under the water, were the Yokatta's, since they are wandering Spira in search for them. Hope that clears everything up!


YUNA'S POV: I know I know, so much Yuna sorry :( lol, but this one had to be Yuna's Pov you will see what you mean.


Chapter Twelve: Dear Diary


I woke up abruptly from the largest lightening strike I had ever heard. It wasn't like me to wake up so easily, but something was troubling me, I couldn't understand what it was, but there was definetly something.

I looked up at the window, and it was easy to tell that it was night, or dark, since there was no rays of sun poking through the clouds, and all I could see was endless darkness I looked over to the clock to see it was 12:00 am, we had to leave very soon.

Rubbing the sleep from my eyes I attempted to get out of bed, only to realise I was being trapped. I swung around to see Tidus in peaceful sleep, his arm protectively draped over my waist. "Tidus..." I whispered lightly for no particular reason, because I had discovered that I had liked the way his name rolled off my tongue, and made a promise to myself to say it more often. I bent down to kiss him lightly on the cheek, and placed a pillow where I used to be, knowing he would most likely wake up if his arm had nothing to trap.

I rubbed my forehead, and decided to walk to the toilet. That's when I saw it... I stopped at the door and slowly turned my head to catch a look at what I had just seen a glimpse of. There was Tidus' shirt discarded on the floor as usual, but this time something was different. I tiptoed over to his shirt picking up the small notebook I had seen him writing in earlier. "A diary?" I whispered looking over at Tidus curiously, trying to suppress my laugh. "Oh praetors do stuff like that don't they." I said slapping myself for thinking of Tidus in a stupid way. "Must have gotten used to it, or something." I said bringing the book closer to my face.

I walked quietly back to the bed and sat on the end with the notebook in my hand, fighting a battle in my head. I shouldn't read it, since it was his own personal thoughts, and I wouldn't want anyone to read mine ever. But it was right in front of me, I couldn't just put it back down, and I was dying with curioustity, he weill never know....YUNA YOU CAN'T he trusts me! He trusts me. He also, loves me, so does that give me authority to read it? No it doesn't Yuna, don't let it get to you're head. "OH JUST READ THE YEVON DAMNED THING!" I shouted. Tidus stirred and rolled over, and I sighed with relief. "Okay compromise, only read today's." I nodded, that was good enough for me "I wouldn't be totally invading would I?" I whispered cursing myself for talking out aloud, but I knew that was the only way to convince myself that what I was doing wasn't a crime, and disrespect to Tidus.

"Okay, October 15th here I go."


Dear Diary,

I am concerned, confused and upset. Yevon knows why. Today, I pried for information on Yuna, and the outcome only made me feel guilty. I found out that it was my father that did this to Yuna, killed her mother, for no reason! I should have known. If Yuna still had her mother, maybe she would have been happier. It's so hard for me to watch her suffer, especcially when I am the cause, I can't do anything about it. She has been talking about revenge, for something, I don't know, does that mean my father? No Yuna would never do something like that. Even though I really wouldn't care if she did. I know that sounds terrible but my father deserves to die after everything he has done. Yevon please help him to die.

The emotions inside of me are building up, I know Yuna doesn't want to get involved with me, the praetor, she doesn't even believe in Yevon, but I just can't seem to tell her that I would give up my beliefs any day for her, I would give anything up for her, anything. I don't know how to tell her everything I am feeling, but it's like when were close nothing else matters, I know even Yuna feels that way as well. But what am I supposed to do? Come out and tell her I love her, when I have known her for a few Yevon damned days? What in the farplane is she going to think of me? That I am some, I don't know, some idiot or something. But it's true in these few days, we have been together almost every second of the day, it's easy to get to know someone, when you feel like you have known them your whole life, I guess that's the feeling everyone was telling me about, if you feel like that, they are the one. I really think Yuna is the one, but how do I tell her?

I tried my best to control myself with her, she was tired from today, and I should have let her sleep, instead we ended up under the covers, of course, I had made her cry, when I see her cry, I want to die, and I told her, I finally told her. But now I have the hurt to deal with, I know it's not Yuna's fault I understand, but I keep thinking if she really was in love with me, she would know, even if she never has felt It before. Because the truth is I have never felt it before either, all the other girls, well, none were like Yuna.

She is peacefully sleeping by my side right now, it's hard to believe that she has been through so much when she is asleep, she looks so peaceful. When I stroke her hair, she smiles, when I touch her lightly, she smiles, when I kiss her, she smiles, It makes me smile to see her so happy. But sometimes I can't look at her, she is to beautiful, the most beautiful thing I have ever seen with my eyes, the way her hair feels like silk when I touch it, her flawless skin, her lips (I won't even start on how kissable they are) and her eyes... I can't explain them... I just can't they would loose some of their magnificence if I tried to put them into words, and I don't want that. I love Yuna, inside and out, and every day I am falling more and more in love with her. Even if she doesn't love me, I want to protect her and keep her happy, and that is just what I will do, even if it means my life.

Tidus


The book dropped to the floor in slow motion, my hands trembled, and my cheeks were wet with tears. I looked over at Tidus, my mother why right... why hadn't I noticed the way he really felt? All this love was right before my eyes and I couldn't see it, I had complained my whole life that no-one loved me, but here right in front of me was the person sent to save me, and I had done nothing about it.

I placed the diary back into his pocket crying harder over the beauty of his words, how much he loved me, how much he cared. I sat near him to watch him sleep, I couldn't stop crying, and only he could soothe me. "TIDUS." I cried trying to pull him up to me for a hug, but failing he was much to heavy for the likes of me. I sat on my knees waiting for him to come to his senses; and he sat up rubbing his eyes.

"Yuna?" He said sleepily. I instantly leapt at him wrapping my arms around his neck tightly and placing a kiss on his hair. I felt my tears run down onto his back, and it wasn't long till he had placed his hands on my waist. "Yuna please don't cry." Tidus said a little shocked from the instant happening. "I don't know what's wrong, but please don't cry."

"But th-they a-re tears of ha-happiness." I sobbed, clutching to him tighter. He didn't say anything, and that was okay for now, because now it was time to tell him how I felt.

"Really?" He said tightening his grip.

"Ssshh." I removed my head from the crook of his neck, to place my finger to his lips, squashing my body against his, in an attempt to be closer. "Do you like to touch me?" I whispered spontaniously gazing into his eyes, he felt a little uncomfortable from my impulsiveness but he would feel comfortable soon enough. He nodded shyly, and I placed my hands behind my back, finding his hands, I guided them under my shirt, I wanted to feel his hands on my bare skin, it made me feel so good. "Well you know I like it as well." I said running my hands down his chest.

"What to touch me or to be touched?" Tidus joked. He hands starting to rub my back, he could never just leave it at that could he?" He always had to go to the furthest extent to make me feel like a queen. I sighed falling into him, resting my head on his chest.

"Both." I whispered, closing my eyes from the feeling. "I have never had a backrub before." I said with embarrassment.

"Well get used to having one every day then." Tidus said. Sometimes I wished his hands would wander, but they never did, he was too much of a gentlemen for that. But somehow I would make his hands wonder, one day I would have him touching me like a lover would, it was what i craved, what I wanted, and all I needed.

"No Tidus, it's okay." I laughed, placing a small kiss on his chest. I still couldn't tell him how I felt, and now I knew how hard it must have been for Tidus to tell me those words. But I was showing him something, some of the affection I had for him, and that would do for the while. Besides the unspoken words that were passing between us were so strong, I was caught up in every single little thing about him "But we have to leave, now." I looked up at him to see the disappointment in his eyes. "Were you expecting something more TIDUS?!" I said opening my eyes wide with shock, and slapping him playfully across the chest.

"No, just, we just got here." He said sitting on the bed lifelessly as I sprung off him.

"Getting changed." I said running to my clothes that hung over the table, waiting for him to turn while I changed into them. "Thank the spirits" I said once finally back into them.

"That's definitely more you!" Tidus said throwing on his shirt.

"You know that seems easier, maybe I shouldn't worry about Pyjamas and just sleep topless, and chuck it on in the morning." I said placing the inn keepers clothes on the bed neatly folded. I turned around to see the look on Tidus face and burst out laughing. "Don't worry Tidus, that won't be happening." I laughed. He looked relieved and followed me out the door.

"But can you tell me why we are leaving at 12 at night or the morning whatever?" Tidus whispered. As we stepped out into the rain. I hoped I wouldn't fall over in the mud again, and tried my best to step through the mud carefully.

"Because first thing tomorrow morning, the inn keeper is going to tell the Yokatta's that we are resting here." I said walking ahead quickly. Maybe she had already called them, I didn't know, but I was gift with good instincts, and I had learned along ago to trust them.

"But, I offered her way more!" Tidus whined.

"Yeah and you payed her, that was our mistake, now for an extra 10,000 she can tell them where we are, I have heard rumours about her in the al Bhed community. Don't worry we will head for Guadosalam, hopefully they have moved on now, hopefully." That was all it was hopefully, me and Tidus could only hope.

"Uh Yuna what the hell is that?" Tidus said stopping in his tracks, I turned my head to smile at him and discovered the enormous fiend in front of us.

"Nothing to worry about, it may be big, but don't let it's huge appearance fool you! It's called an iron giant." I rolled my eyes getting ready for combat. "Tidus you can't just stand there show me you're sword skills!" I winked at him grabbing my gun and using trigger happy, I blew the smoke away posing to Tidus, my attack had prolonged its next attack, giving Tidus a chance to get a move in, if he was quick.

"Nice work but can you beat this? FIREWORKS!" Tidus shouted, I watched as Tidus' sword lit up and shot a magic substance, knocking the giant to the ground. It seemed to be a slight waste since the fireworks headed in all directions but Tidus didn't seem to care.

"Ha!" Tidus said raising his eyebrows. "Beat Ya!" He yelled out cockily to me.

"TIDUS WATCH OUT!" I screamed, the giant raised its sword and struck down hard on Tidus who was to busy looking at me. He got knocked to the ground in what looked like a painful whack. "TIDUS!" I screamed, reaching my hand out almost instinctively, but I had no time to help him when the giant was still alive and its sights were set on me. "You should be so EASY!" I hit him with a trigger happy, causing the pyreflies to explode from it, and I instantly ran to Tidus. Of course they were easy, Tidus had just gotten unlucky. "Why Tidus! You can't look at me 24/7 you know!"

"Whoa, sorry Yuna." Tidus said attempting to get up. The place the fiend had hit was visible through a huge gash in his arm, and it seemed he had hit his head in the fall.

"No Tidus, let me heal you." I said pushing him back gently.

"NO YUNA." Tidus shouted abruptly. "Don't waste your energy." He whispered taking hold of my hand. I smiled keeping a firm grasp on his hand. He was so stupid sometimes; I concentrated on his wounds and healed them without much care through our touch. He looked at me and rolled his eyes.

"Now that's what you get when you try to show off!" I teased slapping him lightly and helping him up.

"Well thank Yevon you were around to protect me from that thing right?" Tidus said sticking his hand out as if he was inviting me to hold his hand. "Easy my arse!" Tidus chuckled

"Ummm... what does your hand want?" I asked trying to be funny, walking a little faster, hoping we wouldn't run into any more fiends, I mean the place had been quarantined wasn't that supposed to mean we would not run into one fiend? I had to teach Tidus more about combat if we wanted to survive, and the number one thing on the survival list would be. Don't stare at me while the monster is ready to attack. He made me laugh.

"To hold yours." He replied, holding it out further. Holding hands? I thought on it for a second and decided that whoever invented it had something stuck up there arse, it was the stupidest thing I had ever heard, and I had never held anyone's hand before, while walking through the thunder plains, but it couldn't hurt, especially not with Tidus.

"You want to hold my hand? What are you in grade two?" I said slipping my hand into his. The warmth of his hand made me smile and I gazed into his eyes for a few seconds, before continuing to walk swinging my arm and flashing Tidus a smile as I walked along.

"Well you sure seem happy." Tidus laughed squeezing my hand tighter. I giggled and watched out for any fiends, sure I was lovesick, but that didn't mean I had forgotten what was important in this moment, and that was protecting the both of us.

"Well I guess I am." I said shrugging. "Not happy much, don't get used to it." I said slowing my pace down a little. So I guess me and Tidus holding hands made it official that we were together, me and Tidus together... it still didn't seem official and I guess it was something else I had to bring up with him. But it daunted on me, I really was happy. I knew nothing like this could ever last, that nothing beautiful was ever meant to last, sure right now there was no Gippal around, but if he found out I wasn't keeping up to my part of the bargain... I didn't even want to think about it. I was indulging too much right now, forgetting too much, was it going to end up breaking my heart?

"This is the entrance to Guadosalam." I whispered letting go of Tidus hand and stepping to the side. It still looked the same as it always did, and still sent shivers down my spine like it always did. It used to be home to Seymour, a man who lusted for power, and wanted to become Sin, but now it was a fun loving place, home to the Leblanc Syndicate who were supposed sphere hunters. Sphere hunting had always interested me, and maybe if I didn't get caught up in this whole mess, I might be a sphere hunter.

"I know I have been here." Tidus sighed. "Remember when Seymour? Yeah well we had to visit him a lot." Tidus sighed as if he had some bad memories of the place.

"Seymour! Who could have known that he was behind the whole sin thing ay? Before my father took care of him, he asked me to marry him, said it would help the people of Spira." I laughed.

"And?" Tidus eyes grew wide with shock, and he looked eager to hear the rest of the story.

"I was 7 at the time, and he was 19, don't you find that a little grose?" I replied. "My mother found out about it and almost slapped Jyscal, at that time, my mother was crying every night... I never knew why... until." Tidus place a comforting hand on my shoulder.

"You don't have to say anymore Yuna." Tidus said gently.

"You're right, thank you Tidus." I placed my hand softly on his, and gave him a weak smile. "Besides, we better be going in now." I reminded Tidus, who nodded his head in union with me. The Farplane was situated here, and although Guadosalam bustled with life, death still lingered in this place and the strong presence of my parents always scared me, and I didn't know how to react.

We entered Guadosalam, and instantly I was pulled to the side by Tidus.

"They're still here!" Tidus whispered in a panic into my ear.

"Who's here?" I said inching across the wall with him.

"The Yokatta's!"


Saturn Stars.