Hey everyone! I'm updating on time, and all I can say is thank you for your reviews they were very very helpful, thank you to Mandy and Steel who pointed out some stupid errors, even though you told me about them, I'll probably make the same mistakes! Lol! I'll try my best, thank you to everyone who reviewed and keep your feedback coming, if I get alot of reviews I will update earlier, the more the quicker, because I wasn't lazy and I got the chapter written already, YAY for me lol.

About this chapter, all I can say is sorry it is short, but it's deep and meaningful and quite a lot happens, I hope you enjoy.


YUNA'S POV: There is a good reason... lol, next chapter is Tidus okay? Lol


Chapter Fourteen: Take me


The walk with Tidus out of Guadosalam was peaceful. The pathway was clear of fiends and the place seemed to be deserted due to the Al Bhed curfew. Al Bhed just randomly disappear a lot, even today, after the discrimination law was put into place, not many wonder at night, only those who dare to, it's sad really but this place had no people to gawk and stare, I didn't have to worry anybody would see and report us, and the quietness gave me all the more time to think.

My arm was linked with Tidus' comfortably and I rested my head on his shoulder as we walked, not receiving any complaint from him. We were both silent... the moon shone down on us and the wind whistled through the trees causing a sort of peaceful feeling to wash over me after the incident. All I could think about was if I loved Tidus or not, and how to tell him, and what was the most painful death possible that I could inflict on Gippal, for manipulating and changing the once free spirited and peaceful girl I used to be. My heart was still heavy with emotion, and sadness... being to much to deal with I had decided to block it all off, but I knew that in the end that it would end up hurting me more when it poured out of me in a heartbeat.

I sighed hoping nothing would disturb the peace, Tidus hadn't talked once... and I was grateful for that. I think he could sense that I seemed almost distant now... that I wanted time to think, that I needed time to think. He hadn't asked me once what I had been crying about before, but I know all he wanted to do was make me feel better. This whole thing had got me wondering who I really was. Who was I? The daughter of my parents? A girl who was tricked into believing killing and revenge was right? A girl who had followed orders without question? Someone weak... someone guilty and shameful... was I perhaps just a girl simply in love with the most wonderful man in Spira? Even though Tidus was the praetor, I was glad he was, he would make the best leader there ever was.

I looked up at Tidus with a serene smile on my face. He was my only truth in life; he was the only thing I knew I had a connection to, even if every time I basked in his touch the guilt couldn't be explained. But at least I knew where I was right now, who I was with right now, and who I wanted to be with for the rest of me life. I realised that I would be happy now as long as Tidus went with me, maybe we could find another world were just the two of us could live, forever with each other. My mind, my focus, had completely changed over the last couple of days... could it have something to do with my mother. Just what exactly would I be like if I had received the love and care I deserved my whole life... just what would I be like?

"Tidus..." I whispered faintly, stopping on the dirt track. "We shouldn't be walking in the open like this you know?" I looked around, trying to get my head off him and onto our safety. Sure there was only a minimal chance anyone would see us, and this place was mostly controlled by Al Bhed who were on our side... but assuming is ones worst enemy and I couldn't just assume that the only people lurking beyond the bushes were daring teenagers who wanted to test the danger.

He stuffed his hands into his pockets and shrugged. "No-ones around." He grinned his posture was unbelievably turning me on. I loved the way he stuffed his hands into his pockets and walked with a sort of slump, he looked so yevon damned sexy when he did that.

"I know but we should be a little more careful." I said softly starting my slow pace up the pathway again, seeing the exit to the moon flow bank close up ahead. I didn't bother linking arms with him again since I was to busy mentally slapping myself for not being able to control my fantasies of him and I together... alone... I sighed once again desperately longing for him to touch me in a way a lover would, wishing he would just hold me and kiss me, wanting him to want me, I couldn't wait for the day.

"Are we going to take the shoopuf?" Tidus asked in an excited manner as we reached our destination running up to the huge creature and staring at it with amazement. "Yuna I have only heard of these in stories I had started to believe they were make believe." He said turning around to face me, his eyes resembling a child's. I smiled at his ignorance only wanting to grab him, and squeeze him to death. I walked up to him and stared up the great beast nodding.

"Well they are not make-believe there here alright, and there the best way to cross the moon flow." I replied reaching my hand out to touch the great giants rubbery skin.

"AWESOME!" He practically shouted with excitement also placing his hand on the shoopuf to pat it.

"Just keep your voice down Tidus okay?" I had to warn him, what if the Yokattas were out somewhere waiting for us in a bush? We had to start acting serious about this if we wanted to keep our lives.

"Ride ze shoopuf?" The hypello asked me, tugging on my half skirt with urgency.

"Sure" I replied smiling as we were guided onto the shoopuf by the little blue creature.

I took Tidus' hand with a cheeky sort of smile, and guided him onto the lift which would take us up to the shoopuf who was almost five times our height. I let go of his hand once on board and sat myself in a corner, curling myself into a ball as I awaited the hypello to get the shoopuf up and running. Tidus was running from place to place looking over at the moonflow with absolute awe in his eyes. I touched the cushioning with my hands pressing down onto it. It was really comfortable, they had obviously made some improvements since last time I rode the shoopuf the seats were hard and uncomfortable.

"This is amazing!" Tidus said scooting closer to me, placing his hands over the sides as he gazed at the site of the moon flow alight with millions of pyreflies. I smiled at his amazement noticing how beautiful the scenery looked to me now that Tidus was with me, and I couldn't deny that the thought of running through the water with Tidus by my side was in my mind. We could laugh, play, splash, touch, kiss, and do other stuff... The thought brought inexplicable happiness to me, and I decided that tonight I would drag him into that water somehow.

"Yeah, I guess it is, maybe just a simple pleasure I have taken for granted." I told him looking away with shame. All I ever did was bitch about how bad my life was, and how useless I was, and how I should die and all that other crap, well maybe I should just stop feeling sorry for myself and just start living, and notice the beautiful things I did have, that others probably didn't even know about.

"I have never seen anything like this..." Tidus trailed off. Moving away from the edge and staring ahead with an empty sort of look in his eyes. For once I felt sorry for someone else... Tidus had shown me happiness, shown me that I was worth something... even if at this very moment I am betraying his trust... because I couldn't find the words to tell him the horrible thing I had done to him... but he had taught me so many things, and in return maybe I could show him some things.

As we started getting closer to the shore I had the most spontaneous thought that I actually never thought I would carry through with. But I found my legs gaining an imagination of their own as I slowly stood up on the seats trying desperately to keep my balance.

"Mish Pleash don't do shattt! Tishhh dangeroushhhhh misssh pleashhh gecht down!" The frantic hypello yelled as loudly as his little voice could.

"Yuna what are you doing?" Tidus said with a worried look. "Yuna, what are you doing?" He repeated, almost hysterical. "Please Yuna get down!" He shouted grabbing my leg which caused me to slightly loose my balance.

"I can Fly. Believe" I smiled jumping over the edge.

"YUNA!"

My body plunged down into the icy cold water, satisfying my needs to be numbed of sudden pain, and I let my body carry me to the surface, knowing what a miracle it was I wasn't hurt. I surfaced in an over dramatic way flicking my hair over hoping Tidus was staring down at me from the shoopuf. Just as I was about to smile and wave at him to assure him I was alright, I realised he was right in front of me. "Tidus? You jumped in after me?" I said swimming back a little. In a state of shock. I should have guessed he would follow me though, he always followed me.

"I was scared Yuna, you really scared me." He said shaking the droplets from his breath taking hair.

"I'm sorry." I said diving under the water once again, I sighed inwardly swimming in any direction except the one Tidus was in. Every time I thought of doing something for myself, all it did was hurt the people around me. His arms wrapped around my waist quite predictably, I knew he was a faster swimmer than me and it was only a matter of time before his ensnaring touch got the better of me.

"Didn't think I would let you have all the fun did you?" Tidus whispered into my ear. Pulling me closer with little effort. I floated in the water with him, his arms directly under my chest his hands clasped together. I could feel the warmth of him on my back and shivered with pleasure. Lately I had gotten out of control, anything he did to me was an invitation for bad thoughts to run through my mind, only knowing the man a little over a week, it was so strange how he could do this to me.

"No..." I replied softly leaning my head back to rest on his shoulder, our cheeks brushing, and our lips edging dangerously close, all I could see was the water glistening on his lips, I wanted to drink it, I want to taste him. "But did you think I would let you have any fun?" I replied struggling free and splashing him violently hoping the water would cause a diversion as I swam with all my strength to the bank.

"That wasn't very nice!" Tidus screamed pushing me down into the dirty sand close to the waters edge. "Let's see what can I do to pay you back?" Tidus said pinning my hands to the ground. For a moment time stood still for me as the dancing pyreflies illuminated his gold hair. Time stood still as I observed the cheeky smile on his face slowly turning into one of those haunting looks of heated passion. As the water fell from his saturated locks onto my slightly parted lips, I realised just how terrified I was, I was afraid at the thought of kissing him, scared to death. It would be one of the most meaningful things that had ever happened to me since my parents, and although I had kissed many men... When it came to Tidus... I was clueless. Tidus was the only one I had, the only thing I could hold onto, was I good enough for him? I think the terror must have flashed in my eyes and Tidus started to look panic stricken.

"Oh no Yuna, I didn't mean anything... like." His eyes widened and I knew exactly what he meant, I knew he had thought that I was terrified over the fact he would force himself onto me, and he instantly let go of my hands. "Yuna, I'm sorry... I"

I grabbed hold of his shirt quickly pulling his firm body down closer to me. "Tidus..." I whispered, gazing lovingly into his eyes, although I could not find the words yet, and although I was terrified, I knew I needed him, and I needed him now. "Take me..." I said shutting my eyes, to embarrassed to see the reaction that was about to be placed upon his handsome face. I wouldn't care if he forced himself onto me, why did I always have to make the first move? Why did I have to ask? Why couldn't he just drop his gentlemanly ways and touch me like I wanted him to, why? "Just Yevon damned take me, okay? That's what I want!" I said opening my eyes, trying not to cry, didn't he want me? Or was it he was just to scared?

"What here?" He bent down and whispered into my ear, suddenly caressing it with his lips, which sent ripples of pleasure through my tiny body. I couldn't find the words to reply as he moved further down with his heated kisses. I smiled as his lips continued to caress my hotspots, Tidus already knew where the places that sent me insane where, and I didn't even know before I met him, no man had ever bothered to make me feel good before, it was all just who could rip off my clothes the fastest and who could pound into me the hardest. But Tidus, he paid attention to every part of me.

"You want me." I moaned realising not yet had I kissed him. I was so happy this moment that he was obliging my want very willingly. "Come up here!" I giggled impatiently, as his lips tickled my neck.

"Alright that's enough!"

I opened my eyes wide with fear to see a gun was pointed at my head and a sword at my throat. I yelped with fear but remained as still as possible knowing any slight movement would be the end of me. Tidus' head was still dug into my neck, slightly calming me, but he had halted, he knew what was going on, he also didn't look in good shape, a sword was pointed at his back keeping him breathing heavily over me.

"Get up Tidus, Get up!" One of the men yelled. Tidus raised his arms and gave me what looked like an apologetic glance, standing up slowly and being directed away from me. Once Tidus was out of the way I was kicked to the side harshly, the gun and sword were removed from me, and the man turned his attention towards Tidus, thinking he had ridded me, big mistake.

"Now Tidus, what should we do with you? Our orders were to kill you... but, I am not so sure." One man pressed the sword a little deeper into Tidus' neck. I heard Tidus whimper a little trying his hardest to move himself back. I furrowed my eyebrows trying my best to force myself up, but it was no use the pain was so extreme it felt like something inside of me would break if I went through with it.

"What were you going to do with her Tidus, do her on the bank?" He snickered. "You ruined your life, for what? For her? You had everything Tidus everything."

"I love her." Tidus spluttered out, it was so easy to see the fear controlling him, but something was telling me he wasn't scared for himself. "Do what you want with me, but please don't hurt her." He closed his eyes and I saw the tiniest trail of blood trickle down his throat.

"Tidus, are you blind? She has totally manipulated you, she killed your best friend, and do you honestly think that girl has any feelings for you? Now all we have to do is kill her and take you home, you must beg Yevon for forgiveness, and that's it, its all done... no-one will know anything."

Tidus shook his head refusing to believe it, he was stubborn he wouldn't do it, and I honestly had thoughts about letting them kill me, but something inside of me told me, that this time... I wasn't going to take the easy way out. I pushed my self up as quietly as I could, wanting to scream out with anguish from the pain I felt, but I didn't, the assassins thought they could win but they wouldn't. I held my stomach protectively for a few seconds watching Tidus' nervous glance upon me as the two men tried to make him see their point of view.

I unsteadily attempted to keep my balance and grabbed my gun from under my pants. I aimed it at the one who had his sword pressed up against Tidus' throat. The rage inside of me uncontrollable, I did not want another to die by my baby, but I couldn't control my fingers which made their way to the trigger slowly, maybe Gippal was right, am I just a natural born killer? Was my purpose to kill? Was it all I was made for?

No it wasn't, my hands had another purpose other than to kill, and that was to interlock with Tidus' hands, to touch him, to one day wear my wedding ring. My lips had another purpose, other than to shout foul words like Gippal had taught me to, and that purpose was to whisper gentle words into Tidus' ears to comfort him, to kiss his perfect lips. My body, my mind, had another purpose other than to be used to show my hate and sadness, and that was to be used as an instrument of love, to make love to Tidus, to hold him, to appreciate him, to carry his child, to just... be with him. To be with him! I WANTED TO BE WITH HIM! AND THESE MEN WERE GETTING IN MY WAY!

I prepared my gun for fire, Tidus' eyes widening with fear, seeing hatred in my eyes he never thought he possibly could. "I WANT TO BE WITH HIM!" I screamed.


Saturn Stars