Hey all, Look I updated early!! Yay, and I would have updated earlier, but I didn't cause of my internet, and I will be updating again on Friday my regular update date, anyway thanks for your reviews So Inspiring Enjoy

And I would just like to say, that I love Gippal, I think him as a character in x-2 is wonderful, he was just a random I chose to be the bad guy, because the Seymour thing is getting boring right? He fits it to hehe.

I am apologizing for errors, I will fix them later but I am busy and I promised a fast update, so try to deal with the badly written crappy unedited chapter, lol


TIDUS' POV: Yeah it's Tidus' I would just like to say now, that there will be some more Tidus points of view but later on in the story, it will all be Yuna, you will see the reason, so I will tell you when it is the last Tidus point of view okay? and please don't be upset like some are, Yuna is the main character in here, it shows her development, it shows her change, and it's her story, Tidus' points of view are just thrown in as a bonus to show how he is feeling in some situations, and it worked out quite well in this chapter, since it's his feelings towards her irrationality.


Chapter Fifteen: She Hates Me, She Hates Me


I was scared, yeah, I was really scared. I didn't want them to touch Yuna, I didn't want them to hurt Yuna, I would rather die than see that happen, I would rather die than live a life without her.

My eyes widened as I watched her in all her determination push herself up holding a gun in her petite hand, she was shaking uncontrollably. I flinched at the hatred in her eyes, there was something there, something evil, something I never knew existed in Yuna, was this what she was like when she was pushed to that extreme? And as she raised her gun she kept her steady gaze of hatred on his back aiming her hand gun skillfully at him. I was scared, she was shaking almost to the point her hand moved several centimetres, and could she aim properly? I didn't want to see her kill, even though I knew it was the only way... it seemed so wrong especially when these guys had looked after me since I was little. I didn't want to see the Yuna I cherished and loved so much to kill someone for me, I didn't want to scar her like that, I knew myself that killing someone for the first time could ruin you. Or was this the first time she had killed? I mean she was so skilled with that stupid gun of hers, and sometimes she had the sort of attitude that portrayed her as a goth, but I didn't want to label her like that, Yuna was Yuna, not a goth, not an apathetic person, not a killer, and as I got to know her better, I had realised what she was all about.

"I WANT TO BE WITH HIM!" Yuna screamed. I dropped my jaw with shock, her angered voice pulsated through my ears and her hair dripped with water from the river, she would be freezing, how did we always get ourselves into messes when we were soaking wet? But at this moment, I didn't know her, I didn't know this Yuna, she looked intimidating and her face filled with hatred would haunt me for the rest of my days. Before I could tell her to stop she had pulled the trigger and one of the assassins was left lifeless in front of me on the ground. I looked down with grief at his body, glancing at Yuna with shock, but she felt no sympathy in her eyes, instead the gun was aimed directly at the others head, and I hadn't even caught my breath yet.

"I don't want to do this!" Yuna stuttered. "But you made Tidus bleed, either join your friend's fate, or run off and tell Jecht what a naughty girl I've been." Yuna cried her hands still shaking and I noticed he had chosen life instead of death and ran off into the distance. "AND IF I EVER SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN I'LL KILL YOU DO YOU HEAR?" Yuna shouted after him. She turned around after placing her gun back in it's place. She stared at the ground softly and I started to here her cry. For a second I was disgusted at what she had just done, the blood from his body was practically surrounding me and I couldn't believe what she had just done! That she had done it without thinking, that she had chosen to take a mans life just like that, it wasn't something I would ever take lightly. That man had a wife, children, he had friends, never ending was the circle of sorrow Yuna had just created with one pull of her trigger.

She looked up at me, her eyes begging to me, but I could not control the feeling of absolute hurt and repulsion I felt and I knew it shone in my eyes as I stared back at her. I didn't want to feel this way, I didn't want to, but that mans body in front of my eyes wasn't making it any easier for me to drop this emotion and comfort Yuna.

She dropped to the ground slowly and sat on her knees. She looked more incredibly hurt than I had ever seen in my time with her. "Don't look at me like that, please." She said pounding on the ground. I felt like I was about to burst with anger. Not look at her like that? NOT LOOK AT HER LIKE THAT? What the in the farplane did she expect after I had just seen her kill a man. What? Did she expect, for us to pick up right where we left off on the beach a few centimetres from where I stood? Well I'm sorry Yuna it doesn't work that way.

"What did you do Yuna...?" I said turning my head to look at him again, the sight was terrible, the gun had left a large hole in his head, and the person who I had known for so long, I had to watch die in front of me. "Just what the in the farplane are we going to do now? HUH YUNA?" I shouted rubbing the sweat of my face with frustration. What were we going to do? The other had just run off to my father who would probably send an army after us now, and I had a mans dead body in front of me with no-where to put it. It just laid there haunting me. Things were getting worse and worse, and I highly doubted this adventure would hold out much longer.

"I don't know..." She whispered turning her head to look at him. Her eyes looked empty as she gazed upon him, and her lack of emotion was telling me this was not the first time Yuna had killed. It just made me damn angry, to see her kill then be apathetic about it, who in Spira was this woman kneeling before me? Not the one I knew and loved, that's for sure.

"WELL MAYBE YOU SHOULD THINK OF THIS STUFF BEFORE YOU KILL SOMEONE YUNA!" I lashed out tensing my fists and trying to keep them from flying in her direction, everything she said, just made me angrier and angrier, and everything I shouted back made me crazier and crazier. "You can't just kill some-one and then tell me that you don't know what you're going to do! WHO THE HELL ARE YOU AND WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH YUNA!" I shouted slapping her across the face. She fell to the ground from my force and buried her head into the sand with fear, she clenched her fists and looked up at me with tears in her eyes. I could see the red mark on her face start to form and knew I had hit her hard enough to bruise, Yevon knows the hurt I had just caused her was ten times worse then anything she had ever felt, and I saw it in her eyes. I turned away, unable to look, I couldn't believe I had just done that, I did realize what I had just done, and I instantly began to regret it. "Yuna..." I took a step forward swallowing. I tried to reach her but she held her arms out and scurried back as quickly as she could. I choked on the words I wanted to tell her. Just tell her Tidus, tell her, why is this so hard?

Now that my anger had subsided and I could see just how fragile she was, did I know that it wasn't her fault. I should have been grateful, she killed him for me, she did... why did I never look at things from the other person's point of view? Sure Yuna and I were in deep water now, but I would never forgive myself for thinking of her that way, I always acted to irrational when I was angry, or didn't understand something. Now I just wanted to stab myself in the stomach to show her that I never meant to hit her, and I would if that was what it took, it was an accident, I felt ashamed and I wanted to cry, why were no tears coming out? Hurting someone weaker than me just because I thought I knew better, hurting her when there was no possible way she could have defended herself, while on the ground, hurting over what she had just done. Disrespecting Yuna... how could I have done that... man....! I slapped my forehead trying to hold in my tears.

I loved Yuna so yevon damned much it was killing me, this whole scene had almost killed me, and if Yuna cried one more tear, there was no doubt I would die from heart break.

"SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, YEVON I AM SO SORRY! WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO SHOW YOU THAT!" I suddenly said with an outburst. I wanted to run up to her and embrace her, but she was terrified of me at this point, I just wanted to kiss her all over and tell her how sorry I was, Yuna, can we just go back to the lovemaking… please??

"Don't apologize, I deserved it." She said coldly. "Hit me, slap me, punch me, hurt me, stab me, scratch me, shoot me, do whatever you want to me, FUCK ME UP TIDUS, BASH ME UP! Just like every other man does, I DESREVE IT, I DESERVE TO DIE, why don't you just take out your sword right now and get it over and done with, TIDUS!" She shouted with nothing but absolute hate pulsating through her veins, she hated me, she hated me, and I was the only want to blame. "They were going to kill you! What was I supposed to do, they were hurting you, someone had to die Tidus, someone had to, it would have been me, you or them, what you want me to stand there and watch them draw blood at your throat?" She yelled, standing up slowly, and I was starting to realise more and more what a stupid idiot I was.

She took off her boots and started to walk on water out onto the moonflow, the tiny glowing lights dancing around her. She started to dance, slowly, painfully, gracefully. My eyes opened with shock, she was performing a sending, Yuna was a summoner... Yuna was a summoner? WHAT THE? Her emotionless face was haunting as her arms twirled through the air. Eventually his body erupted in pyreflies, the only thing left of him being the outline of his body in the sand. Even though the dance was soothing, it was sort of horrifying, and I never wanted to see Yuna perform a sending again.

"Your right Yuna, I just can't handle death very well, I'm so stupid, what can I do, I didn't mean to hit you, it was an accident Yuna please." I reached out for her and saw her quickly take a step back. She hated me, she hated me, she hated me, and yevon it hurt. It hurt, ouch. I looked down to see a strange bug sucking on me and flicked it away with disgust, Yuna smiled slightly at the sight, and anyway as I was saying, it really hurts.

"It's funny how it works isn't it?" Yuna said looking up with a creepy sort of smile on her face.

"Huh what?" I said with confusion. She hated me, she hated me. I couldn't think of anything else but to be extra nice to her, to be extra loving, to pretend it didn't happen, she hated me, she hated me, I didn't know how to prevent any further damage, may as well die now, because I don't want to live without her.

"A few minutes ago, we could have been making love right there, then the next minute your hitting me, and I have just killed a man." She pointed to the position we were both tenderly embracing but a few minutes ago, and then to the bruise starting to form on her cheek.

"Yeah… if I had a choice I think I would of taken, me and you together like we should be." I replied swallowing my pride. But I was looking forward to taking her there, I was looking forward to making her feel good, and now, I was definitely anticipating it even more.

"Me too…" She said flinching a little as I placed a hand on her shoulder.

I swallowed she was right and if I could have had a choice in what option out of those two I could take it would be lovemaking on the beach thank you! "Yuna I just swung my arm, and you happened to be in the way, I would never hurt you, never, please." I said with fear, the thought of losing her was breaking my heart and the cold look in her eyes which had replaced her old one of warmth and passion was killing me. "I love you; I don't want this to happen Yuna, YEVON WHY DID THIS HAPPEN."

"Don't worry about it Tidus, I'm used to it anyway, can we just forget?" She walked ahead into the long grass which I presumed was for camouflage. She was used to it? Now I felt even worse. Yuna had this impression of men, then why was I the one to prove her right? She had told me once that they were all a bunch of drunks that wanted nothing but sex, and if a woman didn't give them what they wanted they would become abusive and lash out. Had I really proven that stupid theory right?

In a way she was right, I remember wanting nothing more than sex from all the others, but I definitely wouldn't hurt them if they didn't want to, I mean… everyone did anyway girls sorta just threw themselves at me because I was the praetor I guess, that's why I had never considered any of them as brides like my father wanted me to, they were all just for fun, and I think deep down the girls knew it. As if I care what they felt, they were all stupid girls who wanted nothing more than our fat bank account.

But Yuna… she was different, she despised Yevon, hated everything about it, but she still let go of that to be with me, and I wouldn't even care if she was after my bank account, somehow, I think I would love her no matter what she felt towards me, I would love her with pain in my heart every day… but I would love her so much, she could die with suffocation, I would try my hardest to gain her love and passion, I would do anything to be with Yuna, I was so dangerously in love with her, I would do anything…

"I wont forget what I did to you, and I am going to spend the rest of my life making it up to you." I replied following her silently my head was pounding with so many thoughts, everything had happened so fast. Yuna was right, one minute were together and happier than we ever could have been, the next minute were prisoners and then, before I know it a man is dead and I have become a hypocrite, a man who hated people who treated others with disrespect, but then I had hit Yuna across the face, made her feel used again, her walls would go up higher, and I could possibly lose the woman who has made my life worth living. "I'll marry you one day, if you like it or not, I'm going to marry you." I said drooping my head at the thought of her declining my offer, I could get her one of the biggest diamonds in Spira, but somehow I knew that would probably turn her off.

She turned around after my statement, my promise to make it up to her for the rest of her life, my promise to marry her. A confused sort of frown on her lips, I felt relived to see her gaze soften a little before once again her back was facing me. "We stay at Djose Temple tonight, Gippal practically runs the place, and we can lock ourselves up in a room till tomorrow night, because after what just happened, I really think it would be a bad idea if we traveled in broad daylight." She said moving close to the wall, she looked like a shadow just ahead of me, and I tried my hardest to keep up with her. "Keep close to the wall and don't make a noise, there a bandits on this path."

When Yuna said that I suddenly shivered, I felt so far away from her and I hurried to catch up, I couldn't help but think that any moment one of the deadly bandits would creep up in the night, I had heard so many scary stories about them it chilled my bones. Like the one about the boy that was chopped into little pieces, now okay I know, us people in the palace were so bored we tended to make things up, but that didn't make them any less scary, and I mean the stories about Yuna were true weren't they?

"Yuna, we used to tell stories about the bandits of the moonflow in the palace." I said catching up to her, suddenly laughing at how immature I would come across as sometimes.

"Really like what?" She asked.

"Well there are a few, but the worst was about a little boy being chopped up into little pieces." I replied with a shiver, if that story was true... sometimes I just wondered how people could do things like that.

"Hah? Are you serious?" Yuna laughed. "No way, these bandits are terrible fighters, they can barley steal a thing, and challenge them to a fight they run off, its just bad if they sneak up on you, most of them are just teenagers I reckon and probably never killed anyone in their life." She laughed again and I realised I must have sounded pretty stupid.

"Well that's a relief." I exhaled, making the whole situation seem a little less grim.

"Come on." She sighed her laughter dying off. "The temple is just ahead." And with that she took my hand, a warm feeling coming from it, and guided me to our destination.


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