Hey guys! I would like to thank you all for the reviews Huggles and I decided that if I ever get over 20 reviews for one chapter, I will without fail update the next day, cause if you like it that much I can't keep you waiting, don't at all feel like you have to review though if you don't have a comment for me, updating early will just be a bonus if I get bonus reviews! I am not review greedy or anything lol
Lollipop01: Hey I have already answered this question but I will again because I think that this fic will be slightly longer than I had first anticipated. The length of this fic will be thirty chapters minimum okay so on with the story
TRIVIA!
I decided to play a fun little game, okay it's not really a game, but I would like to know more about my readers, so every chapter I am going to ask you a question or two, and if can be bothered can you please answer them :D I'll answer the questions as well.
1. Can you all tell me about pairings? What pairings from final fantasy you like, and what ones you can just accept?
My answer: Well, I think everyone knows I am a Yuna Tidus fan here, but I can't stand anything ABSOLOUTLEY ANYTHING! to do with Rikku and Tidus, that's the worst pairing in the world! considering she is two years younger than him, and she can be one of the most annoying people in the world! Reading them together makes me feel sick, so I stopped lol (Not meaning to offend anyone who likes that pairing, it is your own point of view, and I respect that, please respect mine.) Okay but getting off theRikku subject, I have never found my self reading anything that's not about Yuna and Tidus, but I am starting to really enjoy Yuna/Shuyin, okay I know that's not much of a difference being that Shuyin probably was the real version of Tidus... but I love seeing the evil side of Shuyin become soft, and I enjoy heated scenes between those too! Actually almost like it as much as Yuna and Tidus, but don't get me wrong anyone! TIDUS WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART!
I know that was long but I would also like you to know, how hard it is to avoid sex scenes in stories! I love writing them, but fan fiction has a bit of a problem, so I have to control myself, even the one I already wrote, I pulled back from big time because of the restrictions,I don't think your even aloud stories with graphic sex scenes, boo hoo lets have a teary, someone has sex like everyone else in the world, so we take down the story. I understand little children are on here, but if you put a BIG WARNING at the start then it's their fault lol... okay maybe there curious and I might ruin them lol doubt it but still it's so unfair!
Okay I am so sorry for that long babble on, but I hardly ever talk so much do I? Sorry... guys... you probably hate me now lol Enjoy the chapter, it's pretty boring actually nothing really happens, but it has to go there, it just does. If you really want me to update... lol I am so greedy asking for 20 reviews! I should be ashamed of myself but that's only cause it is hard to update the day after, oh look at me I am talking again... isn't that just great, I think it's cause I like type to fast so the words just come out almost as fast as they do out of my mouth. Owell, I can touch type Yay Obviously everyone says rolling their eyes, okay I stop talking now lol!
YUNA'S POV
Chapter Sixteen: Could Get Used To This
I lead Tidus slowly to the Djose temple, I wasn't particularly in a hurry to see Gippal, because I had made a promise to myself that I would do something about the whole mess he had made out of me, but every step I took towards that temple, the thought of actually confronting him with my demons became more and more daunting.
I couldn't believe how everything had turned out. I knew Tidus was trying to forget, and pretend like it never happened. But every time he smiled at me, I wanted to crawl up and disappear. But I also found myself pretending as if nothing happened as well, pretending like I had never killed another man who probably had a child and wife weeping for him right now, and pretending like Tidus had never hit me like some angry drunk, and as we both pretended, the distance between us grew; didn't Tidus know that running away from it was only going to hurt both of us more? I didn't know what was going on in Tidus' head, but something was different between us. I didn't dare crack a joke with him like I used to, and he didn't dare play a harmful trick on me, we were being extra nice to each other, extra fake, extra happy, it was starting to make me sick.
"Machina?" Tidus said stopping. I turned around and sighed placing my hands on my hips impatiently. "I have nothing against them or anything, but machina? In a temple? Isn't that going a bit far?" Tidus said raising his eyebrow curiously. He walked further up to close the distance between us and glanced up at the angry electricity buzzing around the temple.
"They're machines." I corrected noticing there had been a few more advancements in technology to the temple since I had last visited. Somehow the electricity around the temple... had always been bit far for me, but no-one else seemed to care, since it was their power source... yeh as long as everyone had what they wanted they didn't care what the teachings said, even though I wasn't a believer myself... most Al Bhed were. That's why their 'Blasphemy' never ceased to amaze me.
"Oh right." Tidus said nodding a little and paying closer attention to the devices. "Um what's the difference?" He asked cocking his head in a funny way.
I furrowed my eyebrows also wondering the same thing. I had always just accepted that Gippal had told me they were machines; since I myself was a little upset that machina were clustering the temples when I had first came here. My mother had always told me they were the reason sin was born, and naturally knowing the sacrifice my father had made I did not want sin to be reborn again... but after the years I guess I had just lost interest in thinking about these things, once I was told, that was it, I didn't question it, I just did or listened to whatever Gippal had told me. But Tidus questioned everything, he wouldn't be lied to, he wanted to know why, and he had suddenly just opened my eyes.
"Now that you mention it... I guess there isn't a difference." I laughed, how stupid had I become? I used to think I was smart, insane, enlightened, I had even called myself 'ahead of my time' so then why did stupid things like this fool me? Why had my whole life I lived a lie, and not questioned one thing? Did Gippal really have this effect on me? Well I was going to put a stop to it tonight.
"I guess it is run by the Al Bhed." Tidus muttered pulling me out of my thoughts. I nodded smiling a little and lead him through the door. He always knew how to make the both of us feel better, and somehow the fact that Al Bhed ran this temple made it alright, but it wasn't alright. What if sin was reborn again? I would probably be the last trained summoner in Spira. I knew what that meant...
"Now Yuna, you really don't need to be going this extensive in your training, Sin is dead, summoners are a thing of the past." Gippal told me as we stood before the temple.
"No, my mother had always told me to do this; I want to do this, who will perform the sending's if there are no summoners? Who? What will happen if another comes worse than Sin, what then?" I said looking up at him with my summoners staff held tightly in my hand. Back then I wore a long dark blue to purple skirt with a white top which faded down to lavender, I was sweet and conservative, thinking of what I wore now, I probably would have fainted.
"Well I don't have a problem with it, its extra training, so do as you got to do." Gippal said patting me on the back before leaving. "But what I have always wondered is, if your father really defeated Sin for the last time... then why are their still fayth? Don't you think they would be aloud to rest or something?" Gippal said scratching his chin.
"I don't know... maybe they aren't meant to rest." I replied pondering the matter.
"But I have also wondered, what did your father do different? I mean this time Sins dead for good isn't he? Well, the fayth haven't told anyone what he did that was different, I mean he still died and all..." Gippal said softly.
"The fayth..." I said ignoring his question. "Do you think they will ever rest?"
"They can't dream forever Yuna, nothing lasts forever."
"Yuna, Tidus, how wonderful to see you!" Gippal said snapping me out of my vivid memory, approaching the door and giving me a little wink before he went to shake Tidus' hand. I turned away disgusted at how plastic Gippal could be.
So as you see, that was why I could perform the sending, I am a trained summoner, but no-one could know that... because it's illegal now, it's a forgotten art, something parents only tell in stories. Something people think about as they pray to my father for sacrificing himself for Spira, if they even did pray. So I was a summoner, Tidusnow knew ... and back there at the moonflow he looked so surprised he mighthave fainted, but he hadn't questioned me once, and it was that that I admired about Tidus, he knew when I didn't want to talk on matters, and he knew when enough was enough. Yevon he knew everything about me, it would be so easy for him to take advantage of me, but he never did.
"Staying the night? I have a room ready." Gippal said looking at us, sensing there was some unseen tension between us.
"Yeah, till tomorrow night, when we will set out again." I said rudely looking away from him. "Come on Tidus, let's go." I grabbed his arm and pulled him away, the anger at Gippal was just to much to deal with for now, and I couldn't exactly just scream at him while Tidus was standing there. "Oh yeah Gippal I need to talk you later!" I shouted looking over my shoulder. He saluted me with one of those evil grins on his lips before attending to one of the machines, I mean wait... MACHINAS!
"Not to bad, I guess." Tidus sniffed entering the room and taking it in it's scent. That was something I had noticed about Tidus, he loved to smell things, he liked to be familiar with scents, and more than oncehad I caught him basking in my smell of soft flowers. The walls were painted red and there were many Yevon items scattered about the place, which didn't bother me as much as it used to. A moderately sized bed was placed in the corner which I guess me and Tidus would be sharing.
I glanced around the room, an awkward silence falling over both of us, like they had been for the past hour, and I knew exactly why, we both knew what we were thinking about... but we wouldn't dare talk about it. It made the communication a lot harder.
I wanted to get closer to him somehow; suddenly realising the distance was growing. I felt my face, where he had struck me, the painfrom his blow never stopping, mostly a pain in my heart from the fact he had hit me. "Tidus, stop it." I said softly, he was testing the beds comfort and untying his shoes.
"Huh?" He said looking up with a confused look on his face.
"I forgive you for hitting me okay? You don't have to pretend nothing happened okay? Please! Every time you do this it only hurts me more, what happened we can't take it back, but it did happen, and you do have feelings about it, so let them out." I healed my cheek and sat at the opposite end of the room, thinking that he didn't exactly want to be close to me at this time, that's why I was only surprised to see him reach his arms out.
"Come here babe." Tidus smiled gently and called to me with his fingers. My face lit up quicker then I thought was possible and in a second I was running for my life into his arms. He wrapped his arms around me in a firm hold, and I sighed with relief. I had needed to feel his touch so much I began to cry. It felt real, it felt wonderful, it filled me with happiness and my tears spilled out onto his shirt, tears of happiness and relief and I knew he could sense it. He kissed my head a few times and squeezed me tighter.
"The only feelings I have, are feelings for you, and no matter what happens, nothing is going to change... nothing, I will love you forever."
I raised my head to look at him, happiness glinting in my eyes. "Thank you so much Tidus." I said placing millions of affectionate kisses on his cheek. I retired to his chest with another sigh.
"I love you..." I smiled closing my eyes. I squeezed him a little tighter, and felt his body tense. I was surprised that the words had come out so easily. I think that words are meaningless and actions mean everything, but all Tidus did was show me how much he loved me through actions, and the least I could give him were words, my actions would come later, starting with... something, anything, I was going to show him that I loved him, whether it be lovemaking, or just reaching out to him in a way only someone in love could, I would show him, through every little days actions, through everything I felt for him, but until I did I was going to make sure he heard those words loud and clear.
"What did you say?" Tidus whispered running his fingers down my back. I shivered and grinned against him. His touch always did that to me.
"That I love you." I said a little louder. Glowing with happiness. With no other could I be like this, feel completely distant from them one second, and the next so incredibly in tune with them that the sound of their heart beat was music to me.
"Look at me when you say it!" Tidus said with a shocked tone playfully pulling on my hair. I sighed, realising that was a bit rude of me.
I lifted my head slowly, and took a deep breath, just looking into his eyes was hard, I saw so much in them, an intensity I wasn't used to feeling. "I love you." I whispered keeping my eyes locked with his. His face lit up like mine had earlier with a smile forming on his lips.
"You really mean it?" He said in a giddy tone. "This is the best day of my life." Tidus exhaled closing his eyes with a dreamy look on his face. He pulled me in for another tight hug squeezing me harder than I thought was possible. "No Yuna really, don't humor me, you better mean that, I am going to hold it to you."
"Yeah, I really do Tidus, and I want to show you how much I love you." I said softly lifting his shirt over his head. I let his cloth fall to the floor bringing my hands to his tanned flesh. His skin felt so soft under my hands, so warm, so comforting. But I wasn't going to go any further. He was going to take control, or I wasn't going to do anything.
"Yuna... in a temple?" Tidus raised his eyebrow and placed his two hands on my shoulders, he always did that, could he find a different place for his hands?
I ran my finger up to my chin to show that I was thinking, although I hadn't believed in Yevon since my mother had died, and making love in the temple wouldn't trouble me one bit, I had just realised I had to go see Gippal, and this was a perfect excuse. This is how I looked at it, if Yevon did exist, and he made us... if he made it possible for humans to make love, why would he be so offended by it? In his temple? shouldn'the be happy? That two of his earthlings are in love? Stupid teachings sometimes I just didn't understand it.
"I guess your right." I replied jumping off the bed and heading to the door. "I'll be right back okay?" I said softly opening the door slightly. He had a shocked expression on his face as if he expected I would push further but nodded, despite my abrupt depart. I giggled and headed out the door, he made me laugh so much sometimes, even though he said he didn't want to, his eyes showed something different, and when I had agreed not to do something like that in a temple, the disappointment could be seen all to well on his face. But I didn't care I would make it up to him when I got back. As if Yevon was going to stop me.
"AHHH" I gasped, bumping into someone hard as I walked backwards from the door, just wondering what Tidus was doing in there now. I turned around and gave a sigh of relief. "Gippal, don't scare me like that!" I said firmly straightening myself up.
"You wanted to see me?" He said with a curious tone.
"It's about the whole deal with Tidus and Jecht." I said nervously fidgeting withmy half skirt and staring at the ground, even though I had promised myself I would finally stand up to Gippal, I still was a nervous wreck.
"How is it coming?" He said leaning back on one leg.
"I'm not going through with it." I said strongly
"WHAT!" Gippal said in an outrage, but before he had a chance to say anything else I had placed my finger on his lips.
"NO GIPPAL! I love Tidus, and I am sick of this whole thing, I don't need to kill anyway for revenge, you just want to overthrow Jecht, I know everything, yes I went to the farplane Gippal, and let me tell you, your just lucky I am not taking out my baby right now and shooting you in the head for feeding me the crap you have my whole life! And Tidus is all I have, so you can just FRUIT OFF! I am not fruiting dealing with you anymore, from here on I say my goodbyes me and Tidus plan on marrying in Besaid, and I PLAN ON NEVER SEEING YOUR FRUITING FACE EVER AGAIN!" I took a deep breath and removed my hand from Gippal's mouth.
"Tidus has shown me Gippal, something so precious, a life I could have never dreamed of, he loves me, he cares for me, and I know I probably don't deserve him but I am doing my best to make up for my past mistakes, and you will not hurt him!" It had certainly taken a lot of courage to say it all... but I did and Gippal looked nothing short from... well apathetic. "DON'T FRUITING HURT HIM OR I SWEAR I WILL GET REVENGE, I WILL SPEND MY LAST BREATH SEARCHING FOR YOU!" I said hoping it would spark a reaction in him. But it didn't. He just stood there with a blank face, did everything I say mean that little to him? Or did he think that I would never go through with it. Maybe he was right me and Tidus didn't have much of a chance since maybe a whole army was after us, but if I died, I would like to know that I had spent as much time with him as I could have.
"Still on the fruit I see, well anyway, touching story." He ran his fingers through his hair and shook his head a little. "Well do as you got to do, I'm not stopping you, live to your hearts content." With that he turned around and walked out the room.
A cool breeze flew through the window blowing my wet hair and making me realise I smelt like swamp. I was all alone, and confused. Gippal hadn't argued me like I had expected him to and I was left with nothing else to do but take a shower.
The hot water trickled down my body and I started to feel scared, Gippal must have something planned, he must. The thought of him devising some evil plan made me shudder and I lathered my self with soap even faster. I knew he had a plan, he wouldn't but apathetic over the fact I had promised him Jecht's death from the start, and he would care that he had invested so much time into my training to see me now throw it all away, I knew he had something planned and I was freaking scared.
All I wanted was Tidus to enter this steam filled bathroom, to hop in the shower and wrap his firm arms around me, whisper gentle things into my ear and tell me it would all be okay. How I wanted that. The effect Tidus had on me could not go un-noticed, even I realised that when he swiped his hands through my short hair, I felt loved. That when he took me into his arms, I went off into another world and nothing else seemed to matter, and if he told me everything was going to be okay, and nibbled on my ear like he loved to do... then I would definitely believe everything would be okay.
I opened the bedroom door with nothing but a towel wrapped around my slim figure, and I held my clothes bunched up in one hand. A smile instantly appeared on my lips when I saw Tidus sleeping peacefully on the bed, he had a thoughtful look on his face, and I pouted as I looked at him.
I rummaged through the draws,I slept here a lot so there were plenty clothes for me,I found a long silken night gown, slightly see through but that didn't bother me. Yevon, I would sleep naked if I didn't think Tidus was going to wake up and have a heart attack. He was so proper like that, but then again... I new nothing of what he was like in bed, obviously the way he paid attention to every detail of me, and the way he could make me shiver, made it very obvious he had had a lot of experience. Or was the way he made me shiver all due to the fact he was the most charming man I had ever met.
I thought back to my first meeting of him. I wondered how I could have ever thought he was a stupid stuck up Yevon boy, I was amazed at how I didn't notice his great looks, or his smarts, he was cluey, and despite the fact he had spent a lot of time at home with his father, he still had his own mind, his own opinion, one of the best minds I had ever come to know. I guess in a way Gippal had a great mind as well... but he used his for different purposes.
His messy blonde hair flew in all directions and I smiled to myself, he was beautiful.
I crawled under the covers replacing the pillow he was clutching with my body. I draped his arm over my shoulder and sighed... yes I could get used to this.
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