Hey there! Look I'm updating a little early cause I figured I'm on holidays, but remember I do work to okay? Some people have asked me if this fanfic is finished… I wonder how it gave that impression because it isn't just thought I would clear that up. I also just wrote a Yuna and Tidus Lemon fic called That Night in Macalania… maybe if you want to take a look, I could use your feedback on whether or not I should continue, and I also have heaps of other story ideas as well… so I should get started on some of them soon to since I am on holidays :D
Thank you to all of you who reviewed! It made me so happy as usual! I hope this chapter isn't to boring… but I always say that don't I? I realise I am a really bad editor… so if anyone could maybe volunteer to beta read it for me? Just tell me and I'll add you on msn or email you, if you provide your email address… I can't do much to thankyou… but you will get to read it earlier than everyone else :P anyone who can take the time to do it, I would really appreciate it thanks! Let's get on with the chapter.
Trivia
1. Favourite Final fantasy game, and why?
My answer: Well I only ever started playing Final fantasy at X-2 I saw it at EB and was just like OMG and I looked up some information and was totally confused, caz it was saying something about X and all these pictures with a HOT guy kissing Yuna, and I was like WTF? cause that never happened in x-2 lol so I finally realised there were two games and went and bought X so I played X-2 before X and Yes I was hell confused lol
YUNA'S POV
Chapter Eighteen: A feeling like No Other
I watched with that pain in my eyes as Tidus looked up at his adversary shakily. His sword was held loosely at his side as he observed his opponent, and his hands… they were uncontrollably shaking from fear. How could he do this anyway? He didn't know anything about machina, that time he looked at them with Rikku she was poppin' the cherry he was that clueless! But here he was taking on one of the greatest Machina fighters I had ever seen Gippal and his 'society' come up with.
"What an idiot." Gippal whispered into my ear, wrapping his arm around my waist. I didn't have time to shove him away, I didn't had time to deal with him, I was to worried about Tidus, Tidus looked over his shoulder and cast me a nervous glance, a nervous glance that twisted with anger when he saw Gippal's arm wrapped comfortably around my waist. How could Gippal do this? Okay, well I knew how Gippal could do this, but how could Tidus do this? I stuck my fingers into my mouth biting the nails I had been trying to grow for so long, I knew I would regret it after, but worrying about Tidus seemed a worthy cause to bite them over.
Tidus raised his arm to get ready for combat, holding his sword a little more confidently, the machina was abiding by the rules carefully, humans always strike first… and it waited patiently for Tidus' first more. "YAH!" Tidus shouted jumping down onto the machina with force a look of pure anger and hatred in his eyes. The enemy only blocked Tidus' move defending it's self with mighty guard as a counter… which I knew couldn't be broken that easily. Too slow Tidus, too slow… I thought to myself, Tidus wasn't that great in the strength department, but he was amazingly fast… if he didn't pick up the pace to his usual standards he would have no chance.
"I hate you Gippal! How could you do this?" I said firmly as I watched Tidus look up at the great machina with fear. "You know he can't say no! If he challenged you would you say no? NO YOU WOULDN'T! BECAUSE YOU'RE TO MUCH OF A PIG HEADED ARROGANT IDIOT!" I whispered firmlyslapping his arm off me. "You will never touch me again Gippal, Tidus is the only one who can touch me, NOW FIX THIS!" I said stomping my foot on the ground, Tidus had started to engage in battle again, dispersing the machina's mighty guard with one of his abilities, yet still he didn't look like he was doing so well. Even with his strong arm swiping the steel down over the hunk of metal, it left nothing but a mere scratch.
"Sorry Yuna, he got himself into this, and he will die, it's the rules and we can't interfere, you accept a duel your on your own, you should know that better than anyone." Gippal smirked leaning back against the wall. I could see all the other men were uneasy about it, being that they now knew Tidus was the praetor. Oh yes I could see it in the headlines, on the sphere screen "Our innocent Praetor Tidus' life taken at the hands of Lady Yuna and her Albhed heathen idiots for friends." The men's teeth were chattering with trepidation, but as soon as Gippal shot them a look of warning, they all turned away trying not to illustrate their emotions. Gippal was the leader of the machine faction and at least I knew I wasn't the only one that Gippal intimidated… but never, no more. Gippal stood there with a smirk on his face and all I could do was cringe as I saw Tidus take blow after blow.
I started to think about going in and rescuing him, but Gippal was right, the rules… it was the worst thing an Al Bhed could do, interfere with this rule that had been passed down for so long… to never interfere, and not only that, I had to take Tidus' feelings into consideration… Tidus wouldn't like being rescued by a woman in front of all these men, I could spare him some pride. But when Tidus was knocked to the ground with blood spurting out of his mouth from the machina's punch to his jaw, I just couldn't take it anymore.
I walked up to the machina with an angry look on my face, despite everyone's gasps. It stood there confused trying to figure out if I was a threat or not, I discovered the plug which kept the machina together as it analysed me and pulled it out with all my might and sighed as the machina fell down into a pile of junk metal in front of me. If I only could have told Tidus the secret to all machina before hand… if only. I walked over to Tidus with worry, hurt and betrayal on my face. I realised I had probably just broken the most important rule in the book, the only rule the Al Bhed actually abided by, interfering in a duel. But I didn't care what happened now, I couldn't just stand there and let Tidus be slowly killed, I couldn't stand there and watched my only hope fade away, it was a trick, any man would have died fighting it if they didn't know the machina's weak spots.
"YUNA!" Gippal shouted standing over me as I cradled Tidus in my arms holding my tears in, only wishing that my touch could heal the damage Gippal had caused, simple cure spells wouldn't work now, it was already too late. "Now we have to make the fucking MACHINA AGAIN! DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG THAT TOOK US?" Gippal said in a furious outrage, as the others whispered horrible things to each other looking at me with mock horror on their faces. From what I knew, no-one had ever done what I just had, but I didn't care I wasn't going to abide by Gippal's stupid rules anymore, they didn't mean anything to me anymore, they were all a lie as far as I knew, and all they did was lead me to desperation and sadness, only in Tidus had I seen that truth I had been longing for, for so long…
"Machine." I corrected calmly. Stroking Tidus face tenderly. Blood streamed down his head, and the sight of his half conscious eyes made my heart wrench with pain, even thought he was so weak, his eyes still tried their best to portray what he was feeling, and he looked back up at me with that look of deep love and infatuation with his eyes half closed.
"SAME THING!" Gippal screamed, in a state of fury, I was surprised he wasn't lashing out at me in anyway, trying to keep his resolve, probably because all his stupid mates were around.
I stood up leaning Tidus on my body, he was half awake and could support some of his body weight, even though he was loosing strength and quickly. His weight was almost un-bearable on my own figure. Must be all those muscles but with determination I managed to pull him along with some struggle.
"That's right Gippal; it is the same thing isn't it? Even though all these years you lied to me, telling me that you would never bring a machina into the temple! Am I supposed to be okay when my father died for this? And all your doing is probably bringing Sin back to Spira, well if sin does come back we will know who to blame wont we? And as for your stupid rules, you can go and get stuffed, I know everything now Gippal, you can't trap me with lies any more, why don't all of you go and shove something up your arse, you bunch of stuck up jerks." I said pointing the finger at all of them. "How could you all just stand there and watch Tidus die, knowing he had no chance, if you didn't know the slightest way a machina worked, like the PREATOR WHO HAS NEVER BEEN AROUND THEM! Do you think you would stand a chance?" I scolded watching as they all bowed their heads with shame. "I know why, your all Gippal's little followers, you do everything he tells you to, if he told you to go kill yourself you probably would, well that's nice that none of you have any brains, you can go and kill yourselves for all I care, but I do care about Tidus, and I'm not going to stand here and watch this happen to him when the path only leads to mindless death." I spat, regretting it after I had said it. These guys were all the higher ups in the Al Bhed community, and even though I hated them sometimes, I did feel I had a place with the Al Bhed, I felt like it was the only place I ever belonged.
"Tidus, you have to walk, please." I whispered as all of them watched me drag the praetor out of the room.
"Awww would you look at that." One man said in a sickly fake voice. I turned around and glared as all of them had plastic sympathetic expressions plastered on their ugly faces.
"Yuna in love, never thought I'd see the day, can you see that guys YUNA IN LOVE! Hahahaha!" They all cracked up holding their stomachs with laughter, except of course Gippal who had nothing but an amused expression on his face as I tried my hardest to help Tidus up on his feet. "And with that stupid idiot as well! Yevon Yuna, what happened to you?"
"I bet it's just a phase, she will be over him soon enough, fuck him then dump him the stupid slut, she has probably slept with everyone in this room, she slept with me more than once thats for sure, broke my heart to, little beauty, did she break anyone else's heart in this room? Make empty promises just to get into your pants? Isn't it supposed to be the other way around?" They all nodded with laughter and Gippal looked around infuriated, obviously not aware that I was that bad…
I admitted to myself I had slept with many men, yes I told them I loved them, yes I told them they could marry me, yes I told them I wanted their child, yes I told them about every Yevon damned lie they wanted to hear just so I could get into bed with them, maybe so… But when one is as depressed as me, you tend to appreciate the wonderful things of life even more, and not take them for granted, such as sex, sometimes it was the greatest way for me to release, to let go of everything, to forget my fears… it's not that I wanted to sleep around, or be easy, I just wanted to feel that serenity and absolute peace I felt during having sex. I would give myself to them physically, but never mentally, nor emotionally, I had been hurt too many times before, I know I had broken their hearts one way or another, but if I didn't it would have ended up being my heart that did all the breaking. I shivered as the topic made me think of making love to Tidus. He was different, much different, and I knew it would probably feel a lot more meaningful, a lot more pleasurable with the man I truly did love.
I stood there with hurt on my face and they all fell silent. I was gazing down at Tidus, his face rested on my shoulder, while trying hard to hold himself up, I knew he had heard everything the men had just said and was to weak to say anything, but the anger on his face was unmistakable, whether it was discovering just how much I had got around, or the fact the men were disrespecting me, I didn't know. But the men watched the intrigued expression on my face as I glanced at Tidus and they all fell absolutely silent. I brushed some hair out of his face observing his beauty. What they said to me didn't matter anymore; all I cared about was being with Tidus.
"Yevon dayum, you really are in love aren't you?" Someone said softly. "Why him Yuna?" I turned around to look at the man I had got the closest to on my search for happiness, Kuzu… He looked upset and I knew that I had hurt him the most, I was his everything, his world, but the feeling was never mutual like that. I blushed at the gaze of all the men anticipating my reply. "Why him Yuna?" Kuzu asked again, hands stuffed into his pockets.
"I… I…." I looked down at him, my feelings so strong I couldn't explain them with words, they were only for me and Tidus to know, only for me and Tidus to discover, to explore. They were only for Tidus to taste, Tidus would be the only man on this planet that would probably ever taste my love, not saying that it was some impossible prize or anything but that he was the only man I had ever loved like this, and I had a feeling it was going to stay like that.
"You men stand here and judge him, yet you don't know one thing about him, I know… that's what I used to be like, but it's the biggest mistake I ever made, and let me tell you now that if any of you are even one thousandth of what Tidus is, you're a good man." I looked up at Gippal who just had a shocked expression on his face, maybe now he had realised just how deep my love did run for Tidus, just how much it did flow through my veins and make me feel alive, just how much my body thirsted for his.
"And Gippal definitely isn't, none of you are! So just leave us alone, YES I LOVE HIM!" I shouted my face burning a shade of red. "I love him more than anything in Spira, I would die for him, I would do anything for him, and… and… words can't describe it, so Tidus please help me get you to bed so I can heal you." I whispered kissing his face softly. I could feel the men's eyes burning a whole though my back as I guided Tidus down the stairs with difficulty, but was relived as he fell onto the bed with a groan once we entered the room. His eyes were slightly open watching me as I soaked a washer with warmed water.
"Thanks…" His barely audible voice said.
I turned around, the heat rising to my cheeks once again. "For what?" I asked hoping that he wasn't that conscious in my little heart pour out before.
"For ya know saving me, and for sticking up for me." Tidus said closing his eyes as I placed the washer to his head dabbing away the dry blood.
"It was true what I said you know?" I smiled washing away the dry blood sticking to his face. "I never loved anyone Tidus, I wasn't a very nice person before I met you, but you have brought out the real me, made me see the truth, brought out the little girl in me my mother would be proud of, shown me something more…" I lifted his shirt searching his torso for any other minor cuts that adorned his body dabbing all of them. "What I am trying to say is, Tidus please don't ever leave me, I mean it, no matter what happens, please don't leave me, or I don't think I would be able to live." I kissed his cheeks with tears running down my face, he was becoming weaker by the second, but I knew he could hear me. "Don't go risking your life anymore please, think about me first? Okay? You made me fall in love with you, I asked you first that if I did give myself to you that you would have to stay with me, you promised me Tidus, you promised me that you would marry me, you promised me that you would stay with me, please don't die before you fulfil that promise Tidus, don't break it, please!" I shouted seeing no reaction in him. I wanted him to sleep, and I knew as soon as I could heal him everything would be fine, for him…
"I can't heal you while you sleep, rest Tidus, rest." His chest rose and fell softly and I promised myself I would stay awake at his side, if Tidus could just live through this slumber, he would be okay… but would I? I curled myself into a ball on the chair in the corner, not wanting to sit near him in case I did anything to hurt him, and I sat, and sat, and I watched, and watched.
I was just about to doze off when I heard the tiniest sound from Tidus. I opened my eyes to see him sitting up glancing around the room with a dazed look on his face until his eyes fell onto me. "Yuna…" Tidus said his eyes widening. I ran to him as fast as I could, grabbing his hands. Holding a finger to his lips.
"I'm going to do a full body heal Tidus okay, if I don't you may die." I said holding his hands in mine, or was it the other way around?
"Yuna, that… is so hard, can you do that? Your energy what about your energy?" Tidus said through a parched voice.
"I may not die though." I said, his face twisted in confusion and I knew what he was thinking you might not die? But before he had anymore time to argue I concentrated all my energy on him, the feeling felt strange at first, like we were connecting, I felt him inside of me, something I had never felt before, was this what it felt like when you gave the one you loved your energy? Were my feelings for him contributing to the healing? I dived down into him letting my energy heal every little wrong in his body, every pain, every hurt. The light was blinding as I opened my eyes, the magic still settling in.
It took a few minutes for Tidus to come back down to earth and he instantly let go of my hands, the tingling feeling running through my body coming to a halt.
"That… that…" Tidus stuttered starring at me with a new light in his eyes, a new buzz, the Tidus I knew and loved, the Tidus who would make a joke out of anything, the fun loving cocky Tidus, he was back. "Did we just go to the farplane? Something happened didn't it, that… felt sooo… amazing." Tidus grinned noticing the usual light in my eyes was not on, that my energy was failing.
"I had heard of it." I said falling into him. He wrapped his arms around me with concern. "While the priest was training me to become a summoner, he told me that if I ever preformed that on someone I loved… it would be one of the most wonderful experience one could go through, actual the most, ten times better than anything the average human can feel, but not many people can preform what I just did, we connected Tidus, and it felt so right." I sighed closing my eyes.
"You, your tired now Yuna, your energy will come back right? Right?" Tidus said shaking my weak body a little.
"I, I don't know…" I said with a little quiver of fear in my voice.
"What do you mean you don't know Yuna?" Tidus said with a hint of anger.
"The… priest told me… that not much is known about that situation, but that it's one of the most wonderful things to feel before you die…" I said to weak to cry, to weak to kiss him, to weak to feel his touch, to weak to shiver from it.
"What… does that mean Yuna… what does that mean? YUNA!" Tidus said with panic in his voice.
"I mean, I don't know what's going to happen Tidus, but from what the priest said…" I trailed off closing my eyes in an oncoming slumber. "Thankyou for loving me."
"Yuna! You did that when you knew all along? YOU DID THIS FOR ME? YUNA HOW COULD YOU BE SO STUPID YUNA?" He shook me with panic. "YUNA? What's happening YUNA!" Tidus cried bringing me closer to him.
"Goodbye Tidus…"
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