Hey all my precious' I am updated early! Are you proud of me? Lol (No Saturn just shut up and get on with the story) Yeah yeah I get it. I like this chapter and hate it, for one I hate it cause I am just never satisfied… and I like it because we see a turnaround… yes a turnaround

Hey whoever wanted to know if I would choose X over X-2 my answer would obviously be X thanks for your participation.


TRIVIA

Question: So now I want to know what you guys would choose… X or X-2?

My answer: If you were too lazy to read up its X


YUNA'S POV


Chapter Twenty Three: Going Under


I watched him run, run right out of my life, and I felt my strength as a human being slowly falter, but my strength as a woman who believed in my first love diminish completely. He promised he wouldn't leave me, no matter what, he promised me, and now he had left me here alone in the dark, without even letting me explain myself... without even… giving me a chance. I knew I was being selfish in accepting his love, but I had made it clear to him that I was not deserving, and still he promised me his loyalty. I was completely shattered;Ihad not meant to be happy after all. So this is why I had never gotten involved with men… now I remembered… Remembered when it was too late and had already gone and fallen dangerously in love with the man… in the end he was just like all the others.

I sobbed hopelessly into my hands unaware of my surroundings… my feelings… if I even had the will to live anymore… "Yuna, it's for the best, now you can get back on track and kill Jecht and avenge your mother." Gippal said stepping into the water and taking me in his arms.

I couldn't believe this had happened, a second ago… my first kiss… well it felt like my first kiss, I felt like a virgin, I felt like I was experiencing everything all over again, yet so much better than any other time I had, because it had completely sent me to another world, completely mesmerized me… all the mysteries and wonders that Tidus and I could had shared together… all the ways that our love could delight. Now I was all alone, and I deserved it, I knew that… I wasn't strong enough to tell him the truth and it came back to bite me in the arse… very painfully.

"Let me take your troubles away Yuna." Gippal said seductively in to my ear wiping the tendrils of my damp hair out of my face to get a better view of my weeping face. Too bad the smooth lines that used to win me over every time now sounded like something so horrible and un-co I wanted to look at him with bizarre questioning in my eyes. Did he that that was going to work when I heard nothing but passionate words of truth gently heal my soul come from Tidus' lips over the past few months?… did he really think he still had the game on me?

I stood there numbly as his hand explored my body. Tidus… Tidus… Tidus… Tidus… Tidus… Tidus… Tidus… it was all my mind could process as I let the man fondle my body… Tidus… Tidus… I stood there in my own dream land pretending I was with him, remembering all our experiences together, already high on the thought he was living on in my mind. His beautiful face, he was a disaster, clumsy, too fast to fall for me (That was for sure), tripping over his feet, doing anything a completely un-organized chaos could, but he was a beautiful disaster… beautiful… Tidus… I snapped back to reality as Gippal's hand grabbed my breast firmly, ripping my top slightly to come into contact with my bear flesh.

"WHAT IN SPIRA ARE YOU DOING?" I screamed slapping him across the face and moving back quickly covering my breasts with my hands. I felt exposed, violated, used, battered, Tidus had left me and I was quickly falling back into the only world I had known before him. I didn't want to go there again; I would kill myself before I gave myself willingly to anyone but Tidus ever again. Don't call me stupid or blind and tell me that there is always something to live for, because you haven't had the life I had. I was beginning to realise that once this world grabbed a hold of you it was never going to let go, and now I saw that the son ofa bitch standing in front of me wanted the same thing. He wasn't going to let me leave, he wanted me to stay here forever dying in my own misery, he wanted me to go back to the way I was before I felt his touch before he gave me his love. Lifeless, numb, emotionless, stoic... feeling nothing but when I killed my victims for I was able to take out part of my sadness on them, even if all the years of torture I had had to withstand was nothing compared to a quick death I always showed my victims. I stared at Gippal in disbelief which shocked him; and he held his hand to his chin and scratched it.

"Yuna, you have never objected to my hands before, you know I'll make you feel good, don't you need to let go after that?" Gippal smirked moving slightly closer.

"Get away Gippal, you just tried to have Tidus kill me a second ago!" I yelled, even though I would have been happy if he had killed me, since I planed on killing myself or doing something horrible to myself later on, now that there really was nothing worth living for. Gippal wanted me to be miserable for the rest of my life, and truly... it is what I deserved.

"Ha amusing wasn't it? Yuna I knew he wouldn't shoot you, whether he likes it or not, you have him totally pussy whipped, he is still in love with you, that's why its only breaking his heart right now, can't even imagine what he is feeling… thought it would be funny to fuck with him, I was bored so you know, so where were we?" Gippal said taking a step closer.

"You just ruined my life and all you can say is that you were bored?" I whispered tears streaming down my face.

"Yuna, you'll get over it, just another one of your stupid crushes." Gippal said rolling his eyes and taking me in his arms again.

"Get off me! Leave me alone! I'LL SCREAM! ILL POKE YOU IN THE EYE!" I yelled bashing violently against his chest… he was going to rape me I knew it, he had done it many times before and he wasn't going to find in the kindness of his heart to stop now… I cried furiously and kicked as hard as I could… but I was useless without a weapon against his strength.

"Relax Yuna." Gippal said untying my bikini top even though he had almost torn it to shreds. "Pretend I'm Tidus." Gippal whispered into my ear caressing my back tenderly.

This sobered me a little and I sobbed against him as I tried my best to imagine that it was Tidus touching my body, knowing Gippal would force me to do this any way. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't, Tidus touched me differently, Tidus smelt different, Tidus was different, I was in love with Tidus not Gippal. I waited till Gippal's arms fell loose around me, getting ready to kiss my neck furiously; he was the same every time always predictable… feel me up a bit, kiss my neck just to act like he wants me to enjoy it, then almost break me in half… I waited till he was just unbuttoning his pants then I pushed him away running for my life out of the oasis.

"YOU WILL BE SORRY YUNA!" I heard him yell as I ran fast into the crowd. I suddenly stopped in my tracks sand flying up all around mewhileI skidded through it.I shook violently, whatI saw was the perfect massacre happen right in front of my eyes, causing them to widen greatly.I held my hands over my mouth gasping with shock, more tears escaping my eyes as I watched my fellow Al Bhed being torn to shreds by the merciless Yevonites. There was chaos everywhere fires, screams, rubbish, debris. Until I noticed something worth noticing… the Yevonites sneering near the airship. I gasped taking a step back; I was about to run far away and hide feeling selfish and greedy for my own life when something took over a realization… It was all over now, Tidus wasn't with me anymore, Tidus was probably halfway out of the dessert, he was gone, and I was dead on the inside without him, I didn't want this to go on anymore, and being hung seemed like a more honorable way to die rather by a bullet shot to the head. At least Tidus might be the one who sentenced my hanging… and dying at the hand of the man I loved… it just sent tingles up my spine… I was blessed to even be given that mercy by Tidus… to be given a quick death and I was going to take it. I walked up to the guards not caring that I was topless dripping wet, and a complete mess with a mixture of sand and mud all over my body. They all looked completely shocked until the leader gained his composure and stepped forward.

"You're giving yourself up so willingly?" I nodded bowing my head a little in complete shame… I didn't want to give myself up, but this would be less trouble for Tidus, and that's all I really wanted. "Hmmm wise choice, now we can stop this chaos and let your people live and where would Praetor Tidus be?" He asked raising his eyebrows. I bowed my head taking a step closer while letting some men take me into their custody. "Silence…" The guard said bashing me across the head. "Where is he?" He asked again, as I lifted myself up from his last hit my head throbbing with pain, and my mind spinning like crazy.

"Can you just hurry up and get me to the hanging or fucking kill me now before I do it myself!" I screamed grabbing the nearest soldiers gun andaiming at my head, they were all slightly knocked off their feet at my incredible speed and looked somewhat intimidated. "I'm sure you wont get your big fat pay check if you don't bring me back alive will you? Well it means nothing to me… kill myself… or let you kill me… I really don't see the difference." I smirked pressing the gun closer to my head. Now I had a gun… I knew with my years of training I could take them all out within a heartbeat… so why didn't I? Well that would be something you would understand if you were in a situation such as mine.

"Now now Lady Yuna, you don't need to be doing that, we need to get you to the Maestor alive or it's all our heads." The important man said taking a step towards me. "Hand over the gun…" He said cautiously.

"No, you will take me to Bevelle like this, and I swear if any of you touch me, I will shoot myself, my body belongs to Tidus." I replied with anger covering my chest as they all gawked at my body. They all coughed and nodded at my comment about Tidus and my bodydeciding it was better not to say anything with the state I was in… Looks like I wasn't the only one capable of making wise choices.

"Lucky son of a bitch that Praetor." I heard one of them whisper as we turned to walk out of the desert, but I didn't have enough energy to say anything about it... I really didn't care.


TIDUS' POV


I ran as fast as I could out of there, the cursed night's warm air polluting my mind with heated thoughts of Yuna. They said running cleared your mind, they said it would free you, but all it did was bring back more memories of Yuna. I felt like I was about to die from heat exhaustion or depression when I reached the tunnel leading to Macalania. I crawled to the spring falling into the cool water, cherishing the way it made me feel, cherishing and damning the way it reminded me of Yuna, who was I kidding? Everything reminded me of Yuna. I was dying with heartbreak, confused, crying my eyes out, feeling more pain than any other problem had brought to me in my life put together. With The most important question pounding in my head constantly how could she?

She was always hesitant when she touched me, always making sure I was going to stay with her, always telling me that she didn't deserve it. Always running away, now I knew why… but… she lied to me, I had risked my life for her believing her story of innocence, given her my everything, loved her like I never had before, which hurt a lot… whenever I thought of being separated. So now I was the one who had caused the separation, or was it really all her fault? I realised I had broken my promise, but I didn't really care, she had been lying to me from day one, everything now seemed pointless… worthless… I was just so furious at her! That I could have Yevon damned kill her.

I sighed crawling out of the water and drinking to my hearts content. But I loved her so much that the pain in my heart was tearing me in two. "HOW COULD SHE!" How could I? I touched her with so much love and tenderness… I looked upon her with so much passion and want, I kissed her with so much gentleness and kindness… I gave her my everything which wasn't at all hard… since she was my everything. I Yevon damn wanted her so bloody much my body ached every time I was near her… she killed my best friend, and I couldn't even see it to worried about my own feelings for her "Forgive me Mark." I cried… I knew Yuna really wasn't a bad person, maybe she had changed… a lot. I remembered the first meeting with her and what a stoic personality she had seemed. But I knew she had changed, but that didn't change anything! She had killed two men that I now knew of, one of the men who was the most important person in my life and this was just the end.

I walked away from the spring with hurt. Because I knew no matter what I did. Yuna was the most important person in my life now, and that made me feel like the guiltiest man alive.

"Tidus?" The flabbergasted man said lowering his gun. "I mean Praetor." The man coughed staring at my face which was down with anger, bowing down to me.

"I have come to beg for Yevon's forgiveness." I said raising my head abruptly pushing past the two guards.

I was followed by some guards near the opening who were obviously there to accompany me to my father, I didn't really care. I received many approving glances from the women who were staring at me appreciatively realising that I was in my Al Bhed attire. I wanted to rip it all off, I wanted Yuna in my past, but I knew that was impossible. The woman all greeted me as I walked past on the Bevelle Bridge,fluttering their eyelashes almost desperately. I had used to enjoy this type of attention but now I felt like lashing out at all of them for even thinking that I would take a second glance at them after being with the most wonderful woman in the world. No Tidus, the most manipulative selfish stuck up bitch in the world! I stomped angrily through the doors, the palace feeling more like a prison than an old home, and suddenly I realised why I had been so eager to escape with Yuna.

"FATHER!" I yelled standing in the living room with my nostrils practically blowing out angry smoke and I looked up at the balconyto seefather was having a conversation on it. He glanced down at me with surprise.

"Tidus boy! Where is Yuna?" Jecht asked running down the stairs to meet me.

"I hope she is rotting somewhere!" I spat taking time to bow before him and beg for forgiveness. "Please father I beg Yevon for forgiveness, I beg everyone for forgiveness I was wrong, selfish, young, it was a mistake please forgive me." I cried into the carpet, knowing perfectly well what a mistake it was not, I couldn't regret anything I had done with Yuna even though I so wanted to.

"Can you assist us in the search son?" Jecht said patting my head which was a signal for me to stand and that I was that easily forgiven. I shook my head not wanting to reveal any information; I wasn't willing to kill Yuna, if she just ran away to Besaid and stayed out of my life… I wanted her to be happy… even if it meant my own pain.

"Very well, but you know we must kill Yuna when we find her." Jecht said searching my eyes for any kind of emotion, and sign of attachment to that woman, was there something he knew that I didn't? Was it that obvious the love that swelled inside for Yuna? I nodded grudgingly not wanting to show my disloyalty to Yevon on being forgiven so shortly ago (Even though I was seriously starting to doubt the teachings much myself) "Hmm very well, Auron, Braska and I always said you two would make a cute couple... So I guessed maybe..." Jecht laughed turning away.

I stood their dazed and confused. "What Auron? What does he have to do with all of this, better yet how do you know Braska?" I said my eyebrows furrowing.

"Sir!"

I turned around as did my father at the abrupt arrival of what seemed to be 10 guards. "We have Lady Yuna, she gave herself up." My father nodded sadly at the guards comment almost seeming to distraught to do this himself.

And my heart wrenched as I saw the beauty I loved so much walk through the door, a towel wrapped around her uncovered chest, a gun held to her head, which seemed to confuse both me and my father, who was looking at Yuna with nothing but sadness in his eyes.

The head guard walked over to me and my father lowering his voice. "She said that if we touched her she would shoot her head off claiming her body belonged to you… Sir Tidus." The guard nodded in my direction hesitantly and my father instantly gave me a surprised glance stepping back a little causing me to blush furiously. Yunathendropped her possessions and walked over to me. My father shielded his eyes as Yuna fell into my arms quite naked, staring lifelessly ahead, and I glared at the other men to make sure they also averted their eyes like gentlemen.

I wanted to scream so bad I had to tense my eyes shut, Yuna was the biggest tease I knew, her body was the ultimate weapon, but the deadliest thing that could happen to me would be her eyes locking with mine, then I knew I would have no chance at all.

She pulled away from me stumbling to the floor sensing I wasn't happy about holding her naked when I was so angry at her. "Hurry up and kill me please, when is my hanging? Please Gippal will come for me if you don't please hurry." Yuna said weakly staring up at my father. I flinched at her words, she had obviously been forced to walk through the dessert without a stop for water and this made me cast furious glances at all the men who smiled nervously lowering their weapons. My father couldn't seem to reply and turned away motioning most of the men out of the room. Yuna grabbed onto my leg holding it lovingly. "Please tell me." Yuna cried rubbing hear cheeks against my leg. I stood their in shock and disbelief as the beautiful woman clung to my leg. But I wasn't going to let her get to me again, I was now scarred for life, and I would never love anyone but her, but we could never be together again.

"Tomorrow Yuna, let go of my leg." I said sticking my nose up in the air andshaking her away gently. She looked up at me lifelessly and nodded. "Take her away, she disgusts me." I said turning my back towards her putting on an act for both the men and Yuna. I heard her sob quietly and regretted being such a pride filled idiot. "Gently…" I added my face softening a little... thank Yevon my back was to them. The men nodded and before I knew it she had disappeared, and so had all my will to go on.


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