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Domo (Hello) everyone how you all going? I see your all worried about Yuna… and you will just have to wait and see what I have up my sleeve, I might just kill her (Hey stories need more than just those happy endings all the time) But I may not because I can't see Yuna and Tidus apart, it hurts me CRYZ But that's part of the story isn't it, I hope you enjoy this chapter and as always thanks for your feedback and feel free to comment on anything else

Steel: I don't even notice when I write in second person lol! I know something sounds wrong but I don't wanna change it, anyway thanks for your comments Your'e so handy. I didn't send this chapter to you because I WAS supposed to updatelike ages ago (Sleepovers everyone),So lazy I know, But I don't want to keep everyone waiting thanks for your offer though and I shall send the next chapter to you. If you don't mind that is?

Mandy: This story should end around chapter 35 :P hope you enjoy this chapter


TRIVIA:

(This question was inspired by a friend) Do you have a final fantasy Hit List? People who get on your nerves so much you wanna kill them? Release your anger and tell me. Lol

My Answer: (No dis-respect intended to any of the following characters.) Okay my answer is pretty much the same as my friends so I will start. First of all CLASKO! I think those reasons are obvious he doesn't know anything and pisses the hell out of Yuna, and depends on you like a little child grrr… BARTELLO! His dumb brutness I want to kill him! I guess you could also say DONA! Stuck up woman who thinks she is the shit and needs some fashion sense. RIKKU, well there are many reasons for Rikku but the biggest one being she flirts with Tidus in X and that's a big no no, and yeah you could go on about how she is annoying and stuff. BROTHER! He talks much too suspiciously about Yuna. CALLIE! Just cause she sighs over brother, which I had totally forgot about untill my friend reminded me, then I remembered my sheer disgust in that scene. Okay there are plenty more but I think that's enough… Coughs Yaibal…


Chapter Twenty Four: Guilty
I hadn't felt ashamed to walk up to Tidus half naked, despite the fact all theYevonites in the room were staring barbarously at my body, all I could see was Tidus, he was all I could ever see.

I was so weak all I could do was fall to the floor and grovel at the Holy Praetor's feet, I guess this was what he was used to anyway, and in a way it made me ashamed to be just another one of those girls who had fallen desperately in love with him, I thought I was different… but in the end what was I?

I was so thirsty; I wanted a drink so bad. I wanted to feel the cool liquid that was water seep down my throat and mend the dryness. But I would have preferred to just feel Tidus touch me one more time before I was put to death. When I thought rationally I knew that wasn't going to happen but somewhere deep down inside I hoped for it, longed for it.

I was dragged out of the room by some Yevonites who looked quite sympathetic towards me and treated me with gentle care as they lead me to my cell. So I had gotten lucky this time, I had gotten some decent men who weren't going to try and rape me because they were stronger and I was currently in one of the weakest states I ever had been in. They were gentle with me just like Tidus had asked and made sure I was comfortable.

The familiar hallways of the dungeon greeted me but this time they seemed much darker, and much more foreboding. I sighed as the men took me deeper than I was taken last time and I wondered where exactly the place Tidus and I had escaped waited. But I had no intent of trying to escape this time, pathetic old me whinging in my cell, that's what I would be.

They lead me in and shut the door behind them with sad looks on their faces, and I thanked whoever it was that was looking after me that I could see through the cell. I sat down on the hard concrete bed and sobbed, I just wanted someone to talk to. Who wanted to be lonley when they were about to die? So begging one of the men to keep me company one of them kindly obliged letting the other guard stand by the door while he entered to talk to me and ease my loneliness.

"Lady Yuna, why did you give yourself up?" The young man said. I noticed he had a similar resemblance to Tidus only his features were much darker with dark hair and eyes. His face was gentle and sympathetic and I felt like I could trust him, he took off his helmet and shook his hair looking back at me with a curious expression in his eyes. I was grateful he was willing to stay with me, and I was grateful I had gotten someone so gentle. But he was probably only wanting to pump information out of me… I didn't really care though I was going to die in less then 24 hours, and all I had running through my mind was the thought of my last hour's being lonely ones, it was almost unbearable. He wrapped a blanket around me and moved back a little.

"I have no more reason to live." I sobbed pathetically. "Please you must pass this message onto Tidus." I said grabbing his arm, the man jerked back a little with a worried expression on his face and nodded for me to go on. "Tell him I will do anything if he spends my last few hours with me, I'll do anything he wants, play torture, play damsel in distress, do it in any position, I'll do anything, anything, please before I die my last wish as a woman damned to die, please, tell him he can take all his anger out on me, I'll do anything for him, I don't want to be alone… please tell him!" I begged not wanting to manipulate anyone, just saying what came from my heart. I knew I could easily seduce this man, but I didn't want to play like that anymore, I didn't want to convince Tidus that I was a manipulative bitch, I wanted to convince him I was just Yuna who was in love with him.

The guard sat there frozen and gulped while nodding, he went to the guard standing outside and told him to pass on the message to The Praetor. The man outside gave me one last longing glance before dashing around the corner to give Tidus my message. I knew men wanted a girl who would become whatever they wanted… they were so easy to please, but all Tidus claimed he wanted was me, but was me, less appealing I wondered? Could I really please him by just being myself? The man nodded towards me and smiled. "Thankyou so much, I would repay you, but I can't I'm sorry..." I said lowering my head.

"Uh… it's o-okay miss." He stammered. "What happened between you and the Praetor?" He asked curiously.

"Nothing, at all…" I replied. "We didn't even make love once despite the fact we were so in love, and I long for nothing else but to be close to him, I fruited up really bad you know? Now I don't deserve to live." I cried scared of my death yet anticipating it. What if there was hope yet for me and Tidus in the future? And I was giving up so easily now, that's what scared me, the thought of perhaps throwing away a future with Tidus, but I couldn't live any more in this pain, clinging to the hope that someday Tidus would forgive me. I slapped my head realising that I had used fruit again, it had sort of had just become a habit , and I was just about to explain when the guard asked me himself.

"Fruited?" The guard asked wiping my tears away.

"Oh um sorry." I said hitting my forehead. "Tidus didn't like me swearing you know so I replaced the bad word with that." I giggled while crying at the same time.

"What happened Yuna, if you were so in love, why didn't you two run away together…? You shouldn't die like this, not when your father saved Spira." The man said looking terribly sad. "And if I was Tidus, I would never ever let you go."

"No, he found out I really did kill his friend, and it all went down hill, I love him so much you know… I have a message for him tomorrow before I die, I just hope he comes… so that I will at least be forgiven before I go to the farplane, I wouldn't be able to rest if he didn't forgive me, I know that, Yevon I love him so much…" I looked to see guard's reaction over my constant babbling, but instead my eyes trailed up to see Tidus standing behind the bars. I gasped when I saw him, he was even more beautiful than I remembered him. Every time I saw him he had this type of aura about him, which drew me in.

"That will be enough Yevonite, you shouldn't be in there with her, she manipulates every living thing." Tidus growled letting the man out hastily and stepping inside. "I only came to give you this." Tidus said handing me water. I looked up happily a glimmer in my eyes and Tidus just flinched.

"Why couldn't you get the guards to do it?" I said taking the water from him greedily and gulping it down. He was silent and took a step back glancing over his shoulder angrily at the two guards spying on us. "Tidus…" I whispered finding no words within my soul to explain how I felt, I had run over what I would say to him for a long time, but now he was standing in front of me I had forgotten everything I just wanted to run up to him and hold him.

"You will be joining my friend soon in the farplane Yuna." Tidus said looking away while tensing his fists. "Why did you have to Yevon damned turn yourself in Yuna?" Tidus whispered angrily. "Trying to make me feel guilty are you? Willing to kill yourself Yuna? You're being stupid! I don't want to do this, now I have no choice! If I am to be forgiven by Yevon I have to be willing to kill the enemy." Tidus said leaning against the cell bars and bashing them violently.

"You think I manipulate? Well Tidus I was manipulated! Gippal forced me into it, I didn't even think about it…. killing that man, it was just an order, those Yevonites would understand wouldn't you? If you're asked to kill you just do it without question don't you?" I looked over at the two guards who nodded shamefully. "TIDUS I AM SO SORRY!" I said bowing my head.

"I don't want to hear it Yuna because at the end of the day you did it, that's all there is to it and you have to take the blame, you can't blame it on that Bastard." Tidus said kicking the cup I had placed on the floor and smashing it against the wall, despite his angry state I couldn't help but feel completely dazed and hot over his frustrated anger and I wished that somehow he would take it out on me instead. The two guards looked intrigued as they watched the scene and moved closer to the bars sticking their noses through. "I hate you!" He said infuriated. "Goodbye I can't deal with this!" Tidus said heading for the door.

"Tidus wait!" I yelled, getting up and running to him as fast as I could. He turned around with a sad look on his face and I abruptly wrapped my arms around him taking his lips with mine violently, he hadn't expected and I had caught him off guard being allowed to taste his lips again.

Time stood still for those few seconds he let me take his lips, and for those few seconds that he let me taste him he stood their frozen not returning the kiss but not pulling away either. I became bolder and pushed him against the jail bars probably hitting one of the Yevonites noses in doing so, curious little ones... and slowly I pulled away still dazed and intoxicated by him. His breath was heavy against my face, as was mine, and all we could do was look into eachothers eyes longingly because we both knew this was wrong.He breathed heavier against my face almost looking angry thatI had pulled away because if I kissed him then he couldn't get the blame forit, butI felt him reluctantly wrap his arms around me and moaned softly. He gave me one of those unsure looks before he leant down again to kiss my lips gently I stood up on my toes and returned his kiss gratefully and it was only for a few moments, but in those few moments he told me with his actions just how much the opposite of hate he felt towards me.

He pulled away looking at me with sadness. "I love you Yuna, but it's over, I won't ever forgive you, good bye." Tidus let me go and headed for the jail doors, this time I let him go, not wanting to play with his emotions any more, maybe it was better for him this way, and I only wanted him to be happy in the end. I watched him walk away without another glance in my direction and felt like I was about to break down … the other two guards were completely mesmerized at what they had just seen, tand hey somehow reminded me of old gossiping ladies.

I smiled gratefully in their direction and returned to my bed, not finding the will to go on, not finding the will to talk anymore, it really was over. I ran my fingers over my lips smiling weakly. Licking his taste off them and shivering; the longing for him was then followed by troubled sleep…


"Wake up slut!"

I was pushed against the wall harshly, and my covers were stripped off exposing my chest again, I opened my eyes and quickly covered myself as I saw the two guards were not the ones that had watched over me so lovingly last night, so my luck had changed. The Yevonite chucked me short dress almost whipping me in the process and laughed. All I could do was stare at him in confusion as I looked at the beautiful dress in my hands.

"Slept in pretty late didn't you beautiful? Your hanging is in an hour so hurry up and clean yourself up and put on that ceremonial dress. It is what you are to be sent to the farplane in since there are no summoners left to preform the sending.

I stood up weakly clutching the dress in my hands, my eyes still adjusting to the light. So today was the day I would be granted my salvation, the day I could let all my worries slowly slip away.

I was lead to the shower by the Yevonites trying to ignore the man who was constantly grabbing my arse when the other looked away,because there was nothing I could do about it unless I wanted to turn around and punch him, I let it go, owell I guess I was going to die anyway… but I didn't see the point in giving him that satisfaction, to tell the truth I didn't care about anything anymore, and the only thing I was clinging to was my feeling for Tidus.

I stepped into the shower casting the guards a warning glance, did they expect me to wash myself while they stood there enjoying the show? "M-mis mis we have to stand guard, see it would be easy for you to escape." The more sincere one out of the twostuttered. I pulled down my mini skirt standing before them in just the bottom part of my bathers.

"Do you really think I would run away when I turned myself in?" I asked in an annoyed tone feeling suspicious of the other Yevonite who looked incredibly hungry like he was about to pounce on me any second.

"Sorry Miss orders are orders, we will look away." The man said turning his back and forcing the other to do so.

I stood there in silent defeat, realising there was really nothing I could do about it. I silently undressed washing myself thoroughly, the sand stuck in the weirdest parts of my body probably from rolling around in the sand with Tidus, at the memory of him I began to weep silently why couldn't he be the one who was here? I wanted him to enjoy me, I used to love feeling like I pleased him, but instead two other men were standing here watching me from the corner of their eyes.

I felt a slimy hand touch my shoulder and gasped turning around to see the sexually thirsty guard that had been grabbing my rear a few minutes ago standing in front of me with a look of want on his face. I backed away about to cry again but over a different matter, it seemed wherever I went without Tidus I was a victim to the cruel torture men brought.

"Stop that Kaitaru." The other guard said turning around and rolling his eyes. "Have some respect; number one she is Lady Yuna! That should say enough, and number two clearly she belongs to Tidus, would you go against the man who feeds you, and the man you pledged to work for and do right for? He would have your head if he found out you know that right? He acts like he doesn't care about her, but he cares about her more than anything in Spira, we all know that, now back away before word seeps out about your disloyalty to The Praetor." The other man who had just stood up for me also took the time to check me out, but that didn't seem to bother me at all since he was at least decent enough to keep his hands to himself, a man couldn't help but look.

"Definitely caught a good fish." The man said raising his eyebrows at me as his eyes ran over my body. I covered myself with shock shaking my head.

"No it is I that caught a good fish." I corrected.

The man touching my shoulder let go and sighed. "He would be devastated if Itouched his little Praetess wouldn't he?" The fat molester sighed. "But it just seems like such a waste, what is he thinking hanging you? The man looked at me longingly turning away again with a sigh.

"Yuna, why did you come back, we were all rooting for you and Tidus you know? Well most of us… secretly." He turned around and I got back to washing myself, not deeming it fitting to reply to him. I felt tainted, almost everywhere I turned I was longing for Tidus, and situations like this where I was showering in a dirty shower with two men peeking over their shoulders at me, only made me wish he would break through the wall like my knight in shining armour and rescue me, since when had I become so dependant?

The hour quickly passed as I dressed myself and was prettied up by some woman. "Can't have you going to the farplane looking like that!" The women said cheerfully, obviously trying to cheer my up.

I was then lead through the prison walls by a different set of guards who were both refusing to talk to me. The dress did quite a good job at covering my body despite my first impressions of it being so short. The maids had braided my hair and given me a bouquet of black roses telling me I was to walk out and drop them as the noose was tightened around my neck, stupid bloody Yevon traditions couldn't we just get this over and done with? I walked out into the sunlight, a crowd of what looked like millions had gathered to see me die, not such a great thought when I thought about it, but the number of crying faces was un-mistakable, actually they were all crying, I felt my heart go out to all of them, and suddenly all I wanted to do was put a smile on the faces of all the people in Spira, wanting to comfort them. I reached my destination and put my foot out leisurely over the edge which resulted in a gasp from the whole crowd. I stepped back aiming my arm right back to get ready to throw the flowers, when I had gathered all the strength I could I hurled my flowers over the crowed landing it right in Tidus' lap. He looked up at me with sadness and I gave him a satisfied smile.

The woman looked shocked. "You did that to early and you're supposed to drop them!" They gasped.

"I never gave a damn about your Yevon bullshit traditions and I especially don't now." I said sticking up my nose. "Besides I plan to make a confession and place the noose around my own neck!" I said reaching for the rope independently. Tidus looked at me longingly, his father keeping a close eye on both of our reactions; this must be a show to the people that knew what had gone on between us. I tightened the rope around my neck. Only hoping my death would be quick and painless. A small smile formed on my lips as I looked at Tidus with love and passion in my eyes. My smile widened peacefully as I got ready to say my last words and the only words I could process saying to Tidus ran through my head… Forgive me…


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